Soon Mommy To Be

Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah.
Me is expecting to have a baby soon!
(on my fourth month of marriage!)
Alhamdulilah. :)

How do i know that i am pregnant?
Well, the story goes like this:

kan husband nak pergi kursus hari tu for 3 days, so i stayed with my parents in KL. malam-malam macam nak pergi gym because that what i usually do bila balik KL. back to my gym routine. tapi i was worried if i am pregnant sebab actually masa hari selasa lepas dah 3 hari lambat period. i memang period cycle sangat normal. i already have the symptom for period such as bleeding spot, diorrhea, and back pain.

tapi i proceeded with the test. pukul 8.00pm macam tu i pakai towel masuk toilet bringing the pregnancy kit test i bought from guardian. yang rm12.00++ tu. and it gave positive result although the line on t-section was quite light. tunjuk mama, she cant read the result sebab dia dulu pergi jumpa doctor je. -_- so 50's.

watsapp my sister in law who had been through first trimester but she lost the baby somehow (T_T) so dia mesti ada rough idea on how to detect whether my test tu positive ke tak. so she said positive tapi cuba check lagi 2 hari.

so esok i pergi kerja, i showed the picture i took of the positive-result-preg-kit to my friend yang dah ada anak satu, but i said it was my friend's result. (malu la plus takut tak confirm). so she said, "ha confirm la tu. kalau tak pregnant, takde nyer keluar satu lagi line tu...". masa tu pukul 9.00am. i asked her to teman me to buy preg-kit sebab nak pergi gym malam nie. so okay. lunch time tu i pergi watson sebab dia kate preg-kit kat situ lagi murah. memang murah. RM5.00 je.

tengah hari tu tahan weewee (urine), sampai pukul 2.30pm. buat test dalam toilet. this time, baru i yakin that i am pregnant sebab all lines were clear. so clear okay. purple pekat masuk lecturer's room, tunjuk dengan collegues, lepas tu semua nangis. i was crying heavily sebab i didn't expect the baby so i was all excited. malu gila nangis depan kengkawan.

so itulah dia.

i didnt tell husband right away, thinking of suprising him on friday night dia balik. but oh well, perempuan. malam tu jugak bagitau. husband was so excited. boohoooo!!

so jumaat jumpa dia macam biasa as he got back from melaka. masuk kereta, arr terus malu-malu like, "hello, its your baby inside!what did you do to me!?". hahahaha....after he fetched me at the station, terus pergi clinic because husband trust the doctor more than he trust me. -_-

around 8.00 pm kitorang arrived at the clinic. well, the line was not that clear. kate dah malam and i just weeweee before boarding into train. tapi after 10minits borak-borak dengan doctor, tanya diet apa good for newly mom, the lines were getting very clear. doctor cakap, "ha, confirm ni pregnant. nampak??clear sangat dah ni..". pastu i jeling husband. hahaha.

so i dah nak masuk 5 weeks of pregnancy. i dont have (yet?) morning sickness. cuma i rasa penat, rasa nak baring all the time, and sakit pinggang. so kat ofis letak bantal je kat belakang. curik akak nandong punya. hahaha...

i am all happy and thanked Allah for giving me the opportunity to be a mother. i was so blessed with good family, great husband, and now a baby. i didnt tell anyone yet (huh?) except family, collegues (by accident ceh!). close friends tak bagitau, and just a mere hints on facebook, tapi nobody realize yet. orang kata baru lagi so we keep to ourselves.dalam blog? surely readers tak kenal i. hehehehe... siapa yang kenal i, just keep the news to yourself too yer sayang?

so congrats husband for being the strongest men and now you have captured me with your love (s) one inside me. booooo...

thank you Allah. thank you husband. thank you family. oh boy, aren't i, a one lucky women?
Alhamdulilah.

doakan me and baby sihat sentiasa. dan sentiasa dilindungi Allah Ta'ala. insyaAllah. Amin.

Si Naga

lagi 4 hari je husband ada dengan i. kesedihan mula dirasakan la sekarang ni. pagi tadi terbangun around 5.30am macam tu. bangun pagi muka memang nak sondol muka husband je. pastu tetiba sayu sebab tau dah lepas ni takleh dah nak sondol2 kacau dia pagi2. pastu tetiba nangis tersedu sedan sendiri. nasib husband bangun pujuk2. mesti dalam hati dia, "haih nangis pulak. dah la ngantuk ni...-_-". haha..pedulik ape.

semalam ada kenduri kat rumah aunty. eh bukan kenduri. just gathering between us family. so ada makan-makan and all. my aunty buat pai tee. fulamak sedap giler! tapi since im already full, i makan dua je la pai tee tu. if not berlambak dah makan.hahaha..

pastu masa duduk kat hall rumah aunty tu, husband i duduk kat tempat lain, tapi still boleh nampak dia sebab dia duduk opposite direction dengan i. pastu i pandang jela dia, sebab i memang menggedik sikit suka je nak tengok husband i like all the time. ustaz cakap kalau kita pandang suami kita dengan kasih sayang, dapat pahala. haa, boleh nampak tak berapa pahala dah i kumpul?bahahahaha... pastu dia pandang balik, well of course la mesti la dia boleh perasaan i pandang dia, tapi saje la tu jual mahal nak pandang i. -_- bila dia pandang i, i bagi la invisible flying kiss kat dia, boleh plak ayah pandang i masa tu. kakakakakaka.....abes kitorang dua gelak la. ha tu makan dia. bercinta tak kira masa, kan dah kantoi.

pastu comel je ajak i duduk sebelah dia. -_- suami i memang tak boleh jauh-jauh dari i. entah kenapa macam tu. pantang lepa sikit, nanti dia panggil. pastu dah duduk dekat-dekat, i memang la jadi mengada sikit. kacau-kacau perut dia. pastu suami cakap, "hello, public b. jangan nak manja sangat...". pastu gelak-gelak. apakah? suka kan sebenarnya?-_-

semalam dalam kereta, suami jadi naga. pegang stereng kete buat muka naga, hembus2 konon ada api keluar dari mulut. tak tau la suami siapa tu -_- i didn't signed up for this when i decided to marry him btw.

ni beliau out station. hari jumaat balik. then hari ahad hantar lagi outstation. but this time for 6 months. uwaaaa.....sedih dah nie...-_-

The day

Semalam was our yassin day. It is a day where after isya' prayer, we will take our time to recite the surah yassin. We will make sure to have it every weekend except when I have my mens. By that time, husband sorang-sorang jela baca.

So bila kita ada baca yassin, kitorang takla pegi jogging.memang mengantuk la kalau buat camtu, we had tried it once.

Anyway semalam kitorang baca kat hall depan. I was doing okay at first, reciting with my own yassin on hand, but the last 20 ayat, I closed my yassin and went spooning husband. My head was on his shoulder, and my eyes was on the yassin he held. Baca dari situ jer. (Dasar pemalas)

Lepas 'sadaqallahulazim' I think both of us terus tertido with that position. And by the time I woke up, it was already 1am. And I was in my telekung. Hahahaha...husband pun boleh tahan sengal tertido and let me be in my telekung. -_-

Anyway, husband went into our bedroom by himself (and leaving me alone outside). Fine. I went to the kitchen and munched on something comfortable. And drank a glass of hot chocolate.

Went through facebook and youtube. And by 2am masuk bilik.

At by 6 bangun buat nasi goreng untuk husband. This morning he asked me, "syg, u tido luar ke semalam?". "Ha'ah..nape b?" ."Patut la macam takde u kat sebelah..". Hehehe.... Anje angat tido pun nak berteman kan. Booooo!

Semalam tido I nanges when I hugged him. I know I won't get to feel the warmth of his body, the smell, and his touch when sleeping. I'll be sleeping alone until next year.

Nanges2 pun tido jugak heyy. Ngantuk! -_-


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Tak Lelakikah Bila..

Hari tu masa tengah nak masak dinner untuk me and husband makan, husband tengah vacum rumah and sapu. Senyap je dia buat keje. Selalu kalau dia senyap tu dia marah la tu rumah bersepah.
Yer, sebagai isteri (saya) memang utamakan suami dalam segala benda selagi tak salah disisi agama. Kalau ikot rasa hati, I nak siap semua benda tanpa husband suruh.
Makan dah hidang sebelum husband lapar.
Baju dah bergosok sebelum husband cari.
Kasut dah polish sebelum dia pakai.
Rumah dah sapu vacum bagai sebelum dia yang buat.
Toilet bersih sentiasa.
Katil berkemas sebelum dan selepas tido.
Senang kata, suami tinggal makan tido jela (and bagi duit belanja je..tihii).
Memang itu impian saya.
Jangan kata kita ni dijadikan hamba. Jauh sekali orang gaji. Besar pahala dan ganjaran kalau berbakti untuk suami. :)
Tapi...
Kita manusia, dah TIDAK sempurna. Dan kita tidak ada kudrat untuk buat ni semua. Kita (perempuan) kan lemah. I admit that. Kurang force.eh, kurang tenaga kerja.mudah penat. Dan banyak kerja yang kita tak boleh buat semua.
Dan alhamdulilah, husband I sentiasa membantu. Dahla berhabis duit nak sediakan rumah, makan, dan tempat tidur, dah cukup serba sebi especially makan. Lagi help around the house.
Husband cerita malam tu (masa tengah masak), kawan dia (perempuan) tanya, " kau tolong tak wife kau kat umah?". Husband proudly answered, " mestila. Lipat kain, sapu, vacuum, basuh pinggan. Lagi2 bila isteri aku tak larat."
And kawan dia jawab, " sah kau ni dah kena control.."
I was like, "WTF?". Oh wow, kesiannya mentality orang malaysia nie. Oh wow, kesian sangat. :)
Taknak la cakap macam mana keadaan kawan husband dengan suami dia kat rumah sebab I tak tau. I doakan suami dia okay okay saja.
And from that moment, I know that I'm so lucky to have him. Yes I admit, I selalu je buat sepah kat rumah. Or maybe he is too organized? Anyhow, husband selalu membebel pasal rumah bersepah. But although dia suka point out things, dia jugaklah yang membantu around the house. A lot.
But selalu during weekend I la buat semua (if tak penat). And masak special for him for being nice to me the whole week..tihii. So weekend selalu dia (we) jog, makan, tidur. And I do my things.
Entah. I rasa takde salahnya, dan takde kurangnya martabat lelaki kalau dia help around the house. Wife u bukan robot dan bukan orang gaji u, yang u nak being bossy and shove her with all the shits. Kan?
U tolong u lagi dapat pahala. Allah kan suka orang yang rajin, yang menyenangkan hati isteri, yang membahagiakan rumah tangganya. U kan ketua keluarga. U la bimbing kalau isteri u salah.
Tapi isteri jangan amik kesempatan. Ada perempuan macam tu. Dahla bangun lambat, breakfast pun suami buat.
Takpe. Tapi jangan sampai husband pergi ofis, perempuan lain yang bagi makan, siap kan segala. Sendiri mau ingat la yer..hehehee..:)
Dan sebagai perempuan, kita memang kena berlebihkan sikit. Bak kata akak ofis, jangan buat suami ada reason (spt isteri malas) utk dia cari orang lain. Heh.
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Sotong

Entah ape sedap sangat sambal sotong yang I masak sebab kekerapan craving encik husband to eat them is like twice or thrice per month. Hahahaha... I know that he loves sotong, especially sotong goreng tepung.

You know that we used sotong basah (the white one) untuk goreng tepung, but I don't really like that sotong compare dengan sotong rendam (the brown one).

I definitely LOVE sotong rendam. So anyway, I taught husband on how to eat the sambal sotong , the 'my way'. Hahaha.. And turned out, he LOVES it, but its getting too much.

Habes dah kalau setiap kali pergi Tesco asyik tanya jer sotong rendam tu acaner? Luckiy for him, I love it too. I think at Tesco, sotong rendam costs like rm15 per kg. Quite expensive, selalu I bought the largest sotong satu, or if it small I buy two pieces.

I'm not sure how long does the sotong tahan because dia kena rendam dalam air kan. So using my so called common sense, benda yang dalam air bertakung (water is not moving) would be spoil faster. So selalu lepas beli, basuh and I stored in the fridge in a clean tupperware. But to makesure air tukar everyday.

Tapi selalu within 2 days dah masak dah. Me myself pun cannot tahan. Haahahaha...

Nanti husband pergi kursus, I will always sedih whenever I see sambal sotong. :( sounds funny kan, tapi that's the thing about me. Apa2 yang reminds me of him will always make me miss him a lot.

That's what we called, LOVE. :)

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Johor Premium Outlet, Malaysia

So post honeymoon tak buat lagi. fine. Just a brief description. Had a wedding in Kota Tinggi, Johor, then we shoot to Johor Bahru straight. Balik singgah the famous Johor Premium Outlet.

So anyway, lets talk about Johor Premium Outlet or JPO, atleast that's what local called it. We went there around 2.30pm after had the best sup daging and mee rebus daging in the center of Johor Bahru. nama jalan tu, Jalan Petri if im not mistaken. but i dont quite like the mee rebus as the taste of udang kering is too much. but the thickness of the kuah mee rebus is awesome! for the soup, they provided unlimited access to kuah sambal kicap. although it lacks of pedas (err depends la kan. since i love love super spicy food so i rasa tak pedas sangat. tapi en husband letak setitis je muka merah-merah peluh-peluh -_- *tak macho langsung*), but since it was unlimited scoop of it, memang sedap la i tambah je non stop. and the daging also lembut. i think nama restauran dia Mee Rebus Sup Tulang ZZ , Johor Bahru.

so anyway lepas tu terus pergi JPO. sepatutnya kitorang dah cari JPO when we went out from the Senai-Desaru tol hari sabtu tu. tapi sebenarnya bukan okay. dia before Senai-Desaru tol. then we cant make a U-Turn, so bayar tol dua kali. eh tak bayar tol. kitorang pergi JB lalu Ulu Tiram. dekat gila tak sampai 30min kot. kira masa tu sedih la tak dapat JPO.

so ahad nak balik tu kitorang singgah JPO. husband tanye banyak kali, "nak pergi tak JPO syg?" i dengan banyak kali cakap, "okay jer. jom!". so pergi la kitorang. planning nak beli la wristlet kat coach ke fossil ke. sekali beratur la pulak kat coach tu. kalau beratur dua tiga orang takpe. ni sampai 30 orang, ha terima kasih je la. kat fossil pun ada, tapi tak jadi jugak. wristlet tu untuk pakai g wedding, which is wedding ada dua je for this end month. and this month jugak final month before dia pergi kursus lame.-_- bile pikir balik tak kemana-mana pun lepas ni, so tak payah la.

jalan-jalan jumpe evita peroni. dalam ni try la segala headband yang ada. sekarang ni i tgh maniac dengan head band. dah ada 4 dah. so tak penah lagi ada head band evita peroni beli la satu. best gila! terus pakai masa tu jugak. pastu cabut la takot terhilang. eh?

yang murah from the original price macam levis, nike, gap, la senza, levis, fossil, tu je la shop yang sempat masuk. tapi kitorang planning nak borong levis sorang dua keping. murah tahap gaban.

okay la. nak buat kerja. nak tambah pendapatan. pastu shopping. bye!

Terkejut

Semalam the whole day rasa loya. I rasa maybe sebab I makan nasi dagang banyak sgt kot. Pulut kan. Beli kat bawah ofis, tapi kakak tu bagi banyak gila, so I ate both in the morning and afternoon. -_- pastu tau la kan makanan kelantan ni manis berdengung. Nasib la I ni sweet tooth jugak, boleh la terima. Itupun I think it was very very sweet. Kalau husband I la, mau dia tolak tepi je nasi dagang tu.

I think that was the main reason why he likes nasi kerabu more than nasi dagang. Heh.

So anyway, I dah la rasa loya the whole day. Balik tu husband tanya , "nak pegi jogging tak?" I dengan buat muka kesian cakap tak larat nak pergi. So dia pun okay jer. Tapiiii...
Before he went for a jog, I dia belasah dulu. Die tolak I kat katil la, pukul dengan bantal, balut I dengan comforter, tarik kaki I, setakat pukul2 lengan badan tu perkara biasa. Bole tak masa tu I ingat dah habis dah game, I pun pegi dapur nak basuh baju, sekali dia datang terkejut kan I. Mak aihhhh serius main kasar la kan. Dah la washing machine kat luar rumah (veranda). dahla sehari sebelum tu kitorang cerita pasal pocong.. -_-

I pun ape lagi, dendam kesumat la kan.nampak die masuk toilet, biar sekejap, pastu I pun tunggu die depan pintu. Lama okay tunggu padahal gosok gigi jer pun. -_- tak tau suami sape yang puteri lilin tu.
Masa tunggu tu I dah nak tergelak2 dah ni tapi tahan jela kan. Kang kantoi plak kan kita diri depan pintu. Sekali dia bukak, " haaaaa!!!!". Hahahahahha....terkejut kau! I pun lari la selaju angin pergi living hall, pastu gelak guling2 atas sofa.hahahaha...

Adoiyaaiii...memang best la dia kena macam tu! Tu la main kasar lagi. Beliau muka memang tak puas hati. -_- pastu datang dekat kita slow2, nak pukul kite la tu. I pun jerit la kuat2. "Aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!taknak taknak!!". lantak la satu blok dengar, dengar kitorang jerit, dengar kitorang lari. yang malu dia. Dah la dua-dua berat boleh tahan kan. Tihiii..

Pastu dah puas main-main tu, dia siap2 nak g jog, I siap2 nak masak. Main-main je setengah jam. -_-
Kiss dua tiga kali depan pintu sambil remind "jangan lupe beli roti tau. Esok nak bawak bekal nutella kan..". tapi dia kan pergi jogging, teka la dia simpan duit kat mane. *pengsan*

So hari ni sebab ada roti, I buat la roti bakar buh scramble egg with mayo, sos, and pepper. Minum hot tea (his favourite!) and bekalkan die nutella. :)

Semalam I masak ayam msk kicap, kacang goreng cili padi, panaskan sambal udang semalam, lodeh, buat sambal belacan dengan potong timun, air oren. Tak bertambah la beliau makan nasi kan.
Malam konon pasang bourne the identity. Tak payah. Letak kepala je terus pengsan. Hahaha...tak romantic langsung!

Husband

i don't want to go out, because i have exam papers to mark, i have exam questions to prepare and etc. husband keep asking me to go, on and on and on. and thus the quarrel. -_- and me as an obedient wife (prrffttt!), i mandi and siap to go. marah marah jugak, tapi keluar pakai baju putih sama-sama jugak....heee sweet jer. inside the car, i kept quiet all the way, and be in my own world. husband bought satay and eat together with the family.

malam tu on the way back home, i still kept quiet and say nothing. until we reached home. husband switched on the movie 'forest gump'. we watched it until i fell asleep. it was so tiring yesterday and i don't know why. or maybe because i love to sleep. eh husband pun!

malam tu masa nak tidur, eh actually i dah tertidur pun, but husband kejut suruh masuk dalam bilik. he was very kind to me..i really miss him right now. ehek mengade plak...=)

anyway, before nak tidur tu, husband hugged me pretty tight and kiss me all over the face. hahaha...i asked him to go to sleep but he didn't say a thing. he just stared at me and play with my hair. it was very very comforting to me. i love when he did that. i love being in his arms. and i love when he did that.

this week we will have our second honeymoon in johor bahru. thinking of going to singapore, but i dont think we have enough time. but i pray that i will not spoil our honeymoon, mood and etc. i will be at my best behaviour. hehehe...and i know i will be so mengader that i want this and that and that and this.hhahaha...

i know right now i have the best husband in the world. who loves me, and cares for me. who compliment for everything that i have done, who will make sure that i have enough in terms of food, clothes, money, shelter etc. who will spend the extra with me rather than going out with his friends. who say thanks for every favor i did. the one who will make sure im comfortable most of the time. the person that will kiss me the entire time, who gives me suprise's hugs from the back, who plays around with me, who sing a long with me, and the most important thing is being silly with me.

alhamdulilah ya allah, for giving me a best friend and a lover, when i dont think i deserved one. i love him for he is my husband. thank you ya allah for giving me this happiness. thank you allah and i pray that You will shower us with all the love and i hope that our love will grow fonder each and every second of our lives.

ps: a few days to go. i feel sick. -_-

There is no fun in being apart

dah masuk 2nd week of the month dah. sekejap jer masa berlalu. and with that, i realized now that we have only like 15 days to be around, hanging out together, both me and husband. when he is around, it's like i forgotten that he will leave me for 6 months, for the training which is compulsory to him ( and everyone else).

susah bila bayangkan that he won't be around for quite a long time. i already get used to him being around myself, and being a jerk,haahaha...a jerk in a terms of naughty and childish and annoys me everytime. ada this one time ni, he was arguing with me of him not having enough space in a closet and i was the one who conquered the closet. well of course la, i have more things compared to him thus the space obviously. so he was like bising-bising and because of kedengkian he kept yelling at me to sort my things and not berterabur and disorganized like that. well, i love my things to be berterabur like that. when i feel like sorting my things, i will do it nicely and perfectly baby..*flip hair*

one day i saw my baju like being pull from the closet and tak berlipat balik, but actually i was the one who did that ( i kan clumsy). tapi me trying to be annoying i said "kenapa baju i terkeluar ni..u buat eh?". pastu dia maca terasa and said "bukan i la. takpe la..i nak keluar dari rumah etc etc etc...". so i was like so sad, and had my own silent moment in the kitchen. and me being girly, i was crying in the kitchen when he came at me. hahaha...i yang nak kacau dia, i pulak yang nangis. hahaha...

and ada this one moment (not just this moment tapi like everytime pun..) he keeps on throwing my food from the fridge into the dustbin and kept on membebel that i'm the one who loves to store things and ended up not eating, and the food become spoil and contaminated and stuff. so what? it's a food, and i can even eat a spoiled food when i feel like eating. just don't throw away my food.

and because of that i sulked while cooking. i diam je (which is a common thing to do when i had a fight with him..haha). he knows me very well, he knows me when i am in a bad mood, when i have a problem, when i terasa hati dengan dia, and when i need a fight with him. and usually he will come to me, and hug me and say sorry and stuff, and me? being a one happy wife at home. ehehe...

don't you think i will miss all of these?? don't you think i will miss him being around me being bossy and all?? dengan siapa i nak berborak. we always have a everyday talk when he pick me at the station, and we keep on talking until we reach our house. i think i will get so lonely when he isn't around. sedangkan everytime pergi kerja pun, kat ofis pun both of us keep on sending love message, inikan pula dah jauh macam ni.

these day, i won't let go even a second to be apart from him. hug him and kiss him whenever i can. i know i won't get this opportunity within 15 days and the next 6 months. he is my damn best friend at home. ;(

but the worst part is, i will wake up each and every morning without him next to me.. the one that i look up to see every time..every time.. ;(

Split

i'm majoring in chemistry which, it was not my choice at the first place. i'm more to a biology person, but too lazy to read and memorize things. hahaha....chemistry was tough. and will always be. hahaha...especially inorganic chemistry, because we can see them. atom? do you (actually) see atom? nope. but we know it is there.hahaha something like that la..

semalam masak jugak ayam goreng bercili. is not like ayam goreng bercili pun, die macam ayam masak sweet sour. sedap sebab i buat pedas. kesian la husband, tapi tengok dia macam okay jer.hehehehe... pastu 30mins after makan, we went for a jog. i sebenarnye semalam penat gila, sebab 6 hours class the whole day, plus husband fetched me a bit late, dia banyak kerja, so reached home by 8pm macam tu. masak and makan. haruslah kan penat.

tapi memikirkan husband nak pergi kursus ketahanan diri, layankan jugak la. tapi lepas nie tak boleh jog dah, swimming boleh. tihiii... balik usband tak sempat mandi dah terlelap dengan peluh-peluh jog. he was trying to run as fast as me, he can and he was damn tired after that. tido terus. hahahaha...

around 11.4pm macam tu kejut dia mandi, and by the time i habis mandi, dia dah tidur kat katil. hahaha...so cute!tu la, semangat sangat nak lari laju-laju macam i. hihihhih...

this friday i nak tidur rumah my mum, pastu malam tu i nak husband fetch me at the event place. terus balik our own sweet home.heee...or the other way round. okay jugak kan??

oklah dear, nak sambung buat kerja. bye!

A great jog

On sunday morning we had a long jog from our house until Sri Satria, the official house for Vice President of Malaysia, Tan Sri Muhydin Yasin (hope I spelled it right!). It was a great morning. We promised to start our jog at 7am but manageable to leave the house at 7.50am. Thanks to husband who loves to roll over the bed.. Prfttt..

It was a great morning :) , the sun shined pretty bright, the air was cool and breezy. I think it was about 2km per way, so we had almost 4km jog that morning. Not tired but a bit reluctant because we had to go up and down a mini hill. Eh susah tau..hahaha..

I ran while listening to my mp3 and husband was way behind.hahaha..he jog pretty slow but maintaning his steps while me, I jog a bit fast compared to him but get tired easily. But if I were to follow his steps, I will reach home by taxi..hahahaha...so its better to 'find' my own way home. The faster way. Hahaha..

Then we stopped by a place near our house to have our cool down session. Husband excitedly went up the stairs while I waited for him downstairs and did my own cool down session. Then I went up and seat on the stairs looking at Wisma Putra and nearby places.

It was still early at about 8.40am and the place was so quiet. I really really enjoyed that quiet moment just the two of us on the stairs, when there were only a few cars passing by, and they don't even notice us there, and we were soaked in our own sweat, but can still have our own sweet pet talk.

Husband being so nice these few days,( he is a really nice guy but after being a husband, lagi la nice..tihhii). I just in love with that guy from the past 8 years.

Balik tu I cooked nasi lemak with sambal telur, and he enjoyed his meal. I said to him that you can have nasi lemak if only you have a 1 hour jog. Hehehe...kesian dia kena buli.

Tengah hari tu both of us pengsan. What a great nap. Golek-golek berdua depan tv dengan pintu semi-open. Nice.

Malam singgah rumah MIL makan kueyteow. I had a stomachacHe so I just sit there doing nothing.before that we went to carefour to buy a few things. He treats me by buying me some prune and potato bun. Yummmy! By 11 we went home from MIL's.

And today is a working day. Oh well, I'm beginning to miss my husband, my friend, oh my very best friend, my enemy (when it comes to finding things and sorting things), and my lover. I always love him, and will always be..:)

Ps: malam ni nak masak ayam goreng bercili!
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My Raya Experience

ahhhh...back to work after almost 2 weeks of holiday. how's that make you feel?me? im doing good. im a morning person kan....(prfttt!) so i have no problem bangun pagi and all. although kalau time tak keje paling awal bangun pun pukul 8...hihihi...it is just a good feeling to lie down and have a pet talk with husband on the bed.

how's raya?? couldn't be better! as this is my first raya as a wife, there were so many things, i mean NEW things happened around. like, i have never been to kampung before, eh i never ever had my raya at kampung, so the second day of raya we went back to husband's kampung in Johor. thanked God the traffic was not that bad, banyak kereta but still mobile. maybe because it was already second day of raya, so many of his relatives already went home, so it was not that raya, atleast not to me. but, in the evening, almost 5 to 6 cars came to his datuk's house *faint*. luckily mama already cooked so i just prepared the drinks and glasses.

husband and adik were too nice of helping me around cleaning the house, picked up thrashes and all. i couldn't love them more..=)

the best thing was we bought some kerepek on the way home! me and husband bought some kerepek ubi pedas, kerepek roda (or we called them steering just like car's), what else...hurm...some bbq kerepek i don't know what la only my husband eat that and some kerepek pisang manis. ahhh heaven!

on the way back to KL was fun. mama and adik joined us for the trip as abah had to go back on the first raya. we had so much fun talking, singing, and gossiping in the car. hahaha.... i told you right my mother in law is so cool? hahahaha.....

we stopped by husband's aunty's house in negeri sembilan. it was for most, the longest journey so far. the traffic was so bad, and route were not that sleek, and the house was quite far. but the house is so damn nice. big, cosy, a lil bit warm, but airy. aunty or we called her Wak (we are javanese), cooked for us ayam masak asam pedas and it was my first exeperienced. SEDAPPPP!! but i prefer ikan kembung, or ikan duri, or ikan pari. but chicken also nice. and with some egg end salad.

mengantuk sangat and husband at last decided not to wait until maghrib (yeay!), so by 5.00pm we already make our moved. after mandi and salam-salam, and a few pictures here and there, off we go. i can't remember at what time we reached home but i really love my first experience as a wife on hari raya.

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. =)

RAYA 2012

akhirnya hari yang ditunggu berkunjung tiba. ewahh...puasa penuh ke cik kak semangat sangat nak raya ni?ha mestilah. this year first time raya ada suami. suami okay, suami, bukan boyfriend. hahaha...selama ni raya ada boyfriend jer. itupun dah raya ke berapa baru terkedek-kedek encik boyfriend nak datang raya kat rumah, yelaa...beliau kan balik kampung. i is tak pernah raya kat rumah bakal mak mertua (dulu). i kan pemalu..hahaha... hantar-hantar message manja jer pernah la kat mak mertua.. ;)

oh oh. aritu SMS mak mertua tulis, "Love u ma.". mak mertua i replied, "Love u more..". love u more okay. husband pun tak pernah reply macam tu. huehuehue...mak mertua i memang cool, sebab...dia sayang anak dia tu lebih, so secara automatically nye i pun disayangi dengan sepenuhnya.

Jom nak tengok preparation raya so far:

1. Baju Raya
semestinya baju raya paling penting. entah la kenapa CULTURE kita pantang raya jer, baju baru. baju baru je raya. eh? tapi kalau ikut common sense la, sebab hari raya jer orang akan amik KESEMPATAN INI untuk beli baju raya anak bini. bagi mereka yang mampu, memang tiap bulan jer beli baju baru. tapi ingatla, bagi mereka yang kurang mampu, time ni jela dia nak kumpul duit tu sesikit beli baju baru anak bini. atleast ada sebab untuk dia lebih berusaha kumpul duit kan? :)

raya tahun ni baju i agak meriah. bahahaha...ada 5 pasang sponsored by husband tercinta. padahal dah janji dulu dengan beliau nak pakai baju nikah (mei2012) jewww *juihbibir*, tapi apakan daya. husband yang sweet memang macam tu.. *peluk ketat-ketat*

first day raya tak jadi pakai baju nikah, pakai baju biru hijau, both of us made baju from the same kain (material and colour). mula-mula nak beli colour mustard, i okay jer, tapi kesian husband, baru kahwin tiba-tiba dah kena pakai colour pelik, sian la dia. tahun depan pakai fuschia, boleh sayang?

ha nilah colour fuschia. boleh eh sayang? tihiiiiii..... ;D

so selain baju biru, ada hitam, mustard (dapat jugak!), brown, dengan putih. semua buat baju kurung moden, kain kipas.. and its all made by my MIL. seriously i rasa grateful sangat. bukan sebab mama buatkan baju, tapi sebab mama sangat-sangat baik. and paling penting mama sayang i..alhamdulilah.

2. Cookies raya
ha untuk cookies, i only managed to baked 2 types of cookies raya. my all time favourite CHOCOLATE CHIP dengan CORNFLAKE. paling senang, paling mudah. tutup mata pun boleh buat. berlagak siot. hahaha...
husband beli tart gulung (nasib baik sedap...:)) dengan rempeyek. i beli chocolate chip cookies, biskut nestum, kerepek bawang. semua budak ofis jual. saja kita tolong-tolong kawan. paling sedap biskut nestum. tadi sahur dah korek 3 bijik. nyum nyum! pssttttt....ada orang tu dah korek kuih tart malam semalam lagi...lagi la heyyy....hahahaha...

ni macam chocolate chip i buat...

ni biskut nestum order dari kawan opis..

ni chocolate chip order dari kawan..

ni tart gulung husband order...

rempeyek husband belikan...

kerepek bawang i beli...

(gambar semua from google.com)

3. Kasut Raya
hrmm....kasut raya dapat satu je. itu pun pump shoe. oleh kerana i ni tak berapa nak rendah, husband tak kasi sangat nak bagi pakai tinggi especially wedges. tapi as a good husband lagi hensem, dia kata nak pakai wedges boleh tapi bukan dengan dia, means kalau pergi kerja BOLEH. terus pelok ciom dia kuat-kuat. hahaha.... kasut wedding hari tu ada je lagi. sebab kasut i tu boleh pakai untuk dinner ke ape. bukan mengerlip. zang toi lagi okay (nak sangat kan) yang membuat lubang pada pocket ku. hehehe...so maybe guna tu. and hari tu masa may beli heels kat pedal works, pun pakai sekali jer, so recycle la balik.

ni la wedding shoe i. sebijik macam ni, cuma depan dia bandage macam gambar kat bawah ni. santek sangat. i suka!

yang ni pulak lebih kurang la kasut i beli kat pedal works. tapi takde studded macam atas ni, tapi tali sesilang macam ni jugak la. masa beli ni perasan rockstar...hahaha...

4. Handbag
handbag hantaran hari tu tak pernah guna, ha memang wajiblah guna. husband belikan from guess by marciano. hati nak beli jugak. yang baru. bahahahaha.....

5. Accessories
macam gelang and rantai dah beli. rantai emas ke, gelang emas ke hantaran kahwin haritu dilupakan jela. hihihihi...pakai cincin and gelang kaki yang dah bertahun kat kaki tu.

so itulah preparation raya. :)

malam ni balik kampung i. kat kuala lumpur jer. second day raya balik kampung husband Johor. (first time ni...tatoootttttt). eh second time sebab haritu g wedding sedara dia, tapi tak tidur johor kan. ni nak tidur sekali. eeeeee.....tatottt....

tapi 3rd day raya balik kl dah. kitorang nak pergi dating. pergi OU (YANG PASTI KOSONG), and nak shopping like mad. bahahaha.... can't wait!

selamat hari raya korang. makan rendang semua tu beringat termasuk la diri ini. drive tu baik-baik. biar lambat sampai. ingat keluarga tersayang k. mintak maaf jika terkasar bahasa terguris hati selama kita di sini. have a ggreat raya okay!

Perempuan Biadap

orang kate, dalam dunia ni kita tak baik membenci orang. sebab nanti kita kena balik. masalahnye sekarang, tahap kebencian i kat sorang perempuan ni (serius dia tak layan dipanggil perempuan....tahap biadap dia sangat tinggi). i nak tulis pasal dia dalam blog ni pun rasa tak worth it, she is not even worth it to take part in my blog. memang sebenci-benci umat la perasaan i kat dia. walaupun dia Islam, tapi really she's not one of us. tak salah kalau i cakap, dia dengan yahudi tu lebih kurang jer. i rasa yahudi pun ada yang baik.  i seldom talk about other people in different manners dalam blog ni, selalupun i cerita pasal husband jer pun, tapi ni tahap kebencian kat perempuan ni memang membuak-buak. i hate her so much! thinking about her pun rasa nak pecah otak. otak i pun tak boleh process nama dia.

masa i tulis ni memang berdegup-degup ar jantung sebab tahap kebencian yang amat sangat. tak tau la korang pernah rasa ke tahap kebencian yang level macam ni. ni tahap dewa punya benci nie. she's not worth to be part of my life pun. adoiii...benci rasa macam nak terajang dia pun ada jugak. OMG...kalau la boleh buat.

i tak tau la nak buat apa. memang kalau boleh i taknak tengok langsung muka dia. but ada je dia datang menyibuk. macam langau. tau tak langau?kita halau dia datang lagi kat tempat sama. dahla bising. ha sama la dengan perangai perempuan ni. sebijik macam langau. ha satu lagi tak tau malu??langau tu dah kena halau pun tak gerak-gerak, tak malu kan sebab still datang kat tempat yang sama.

ha sama la dengan perempuan ni. memang langau. OMG....benci gila i. ape nak buat nie!!!

ME : i ni kalau dah benci seseorang tu, orang tu buat la ape pun memang benci paling terbenci la perasaan i, and susah sangat untuk i reverse the feelings. maybe take a long time, atau takkan berubah sama sekali. and sorry untuk i maafkan orang tu, unless dia datang mintak maaf dengan i. itupun it wont be the same lagi. the relationship.

untuk perempuan biadap itu, seriusly aku takkan doakan untuk kau walau sikit pun. lebih baik doa tu aku salurkan kat anak-anak yatim, arwah atuk aku, arwah nenek aku, kawan-kawan, guru-guru, dan umat Islam yang lain tapi bukan kau. aku tak harapkan kau bahagia dengan pilihan hati kau, sebab aku tau dia tak bahagia dengan kau pun. aku harap hidup kau miserable, sama macam mana yang kami rasa. then only you know the feelings. terima kasih kerana banyak menyusahkan hidup aku. i dont know how you can survive, maybe dengan adanya muka tembok kau dan perangai kau yang semakin biadap. kalau kau realize (and aku memang harap kau realize), i hate you so f*cking much. susah (dan maybe tak mungkin) untuk aku maafkan kau.

NEVER.

Card Reader

Jumaat lepas balik kerja terus shoot balik rumah my house. ahhh finally, my home sweet home. hikhik...although my house (eh?husband's house..) are far more best ( best la sebab boleh golek mandi berdua...hahah) still i love my own house. walaupun sekarang tak boleh nak tidur kat bilik sendiri sorang-sorang, but the feelings of coming home adalah sangat best.

ingatkan tak sempat nak reach home by buka puasa time but alhamdulilah, kitorang reached depan gate rumah sama dengan azan maghrib. alhamdulilah. dahla i bought 3 buns, hotdog, sardin, and cheese buns, and sampai ke sahur i sorang jela makan, dua lagi buang (membazir...T_T).

anyway, tujuan balik rumah saya adalah untuk buat cookies raya. i managed to bake 2 types of cookies which are chocolate chip cookies and cornflake cookies. memang itu jela biskut wajib buat tiap raya. mama dah buat a few so banyak la dia dapat. and cookies ni i buat pun sebab nak bagi MIL. so dah bagi semalam plus satu lagi ofismate jual, beli jela sian plak kan.

husband as usual, i suruh dia tidur, taknak. fine. dia kate nak pergi basuh kereta, and nak cari mouse. pastu i kirim card reader. pastu i call dia.

me: "yang, macam lama je pergi (rindu..). beli ape je awak?"

husband: "tak jumpe la mouse. card reader awak pun tak jumpe syg..."

me: "yeke?aik, kedai yang kat atas tu semua takde ke?b dah tengok ke..."

husband: "dah sayang....takde..."

me: "oh okay. takpela...balik la cepat...heeee.."

husband: "yela syg...buat ape tu??banyak ke kuih dah buat..."

me: "banyak la..halaaa...balik la teman saya...."

husband: "nape...rindu kee.... ;)"

me: "tolong la sikit heeyyy....tak rindu pun..hehehe..."

husband : "yeke???call kenape....rindu kan...hahahaha.....c*om skittt.."

me : *annoyed* " syg dah kat mane tu??"

husband : "dah nak sampai pun...."

me: *annoyed* "ok bai...love u!! hahaha..."


dah nak sampai pun sempat bergayut. rasa nak pukul beliau laju-laju. but anyway, wife mana yang tak suka perhatian sebegitu kan. ecewah... ini tak masuk cerita beliau marah sebab makan asing-asing. hikhik..close call untuk gaduh but as a wife kena la mengalah kan. hahahaha.....mane la nak tau. cuba cakap. dahla beliau cakap garang-garang. haihhh...husband garang.

sekarang dia demam. dah nak masuk seminggu. risau jugak sebab badan dia macam panas-panas hangat. tapi kalau kacau kite kat rumah boleh tahan macam orang tak demam. degil pun yer suh pergi klinik taknak. haihh... susah nye la jaga budak sorang nie.

balik ni nak kena cek lagi dia. kesiannye nak raya demam. ;(

Caught with fever

My husband had a fever yesterday, sampai la ke pagi ni. As usual, we were BBMed, until at one point he said, "b, i rasa i demam la. tekak sakit gila." . and yes, when he fetched me, i quickly looked kat tekak dia, and it was red, and macam inflame sikit. but being him, he did not want to go to the clinic. fine baby. sakit tanggung sendiri k.

i think because of the weather, it was hot kan lately, and husband LOVES to drink ice cold water. and hari tu ada promotion RM2 sebotol carbonated drinks tu and he bought them like mad (dah kata murah kan), so minum hari-hari siap dengan ice bagai, mau tak sakit tekak. luckily i dah lama gila tinggalkan tabiat minum air gas (almost 2 years) and icy water, so i takde sakit tekak ke apa.

and semalam kat ofis i went to kedai sensei (apek cina) beli barley, ikan masin sepat, dengan telur masin. because i wanted to cook bubur nasi for him. and i rebus air barli for him. lepas i sampai rumah, i asked him to take a shower since mandi malam takut sejuk plak kan. masa buka, he did ate quite a lot so i guess it was a good signed la, sebab dia still ada selera nak makan.

by 10.30pm dah masuk tidur.and suddenly i rasa badan dia panas sangat. take a towel, basahkan dengan air, and i put on his forehead. like every one or two hour i tukar towel sebab the towel itself dah rasa panas. i took care of him sampai la sahur. i think i tertido around 3.30am. by 4.30 i dah bangun untuk prepare sahur.

so this sahur we still eat bubur and air barli. i just added in some telur goreng with kicap. and he still ate it. a lot. ehem.

i think right now he wants to go to the clinic. dah pergi la kot to take some medicine.

and me? im having diarrhea since yesterday. and perut sangat-sangat-sangat sakit. sobs sobs.

Problem with my rings.

You know how I really want to lose my excess weight. Somehow or rather I managed to lose some weight prior to my wedding haritu, and I still need to lose a few pounds.

But, here's my problem:

I can't wear my wedding ring, my engagement ring, and my risik ring. It get loose on my finger and waiting for the right time to slip through.

Saya sangat stress. Because I love all my rings. They were given by my MIL and husband. And I wear them like all the time.

Tapi bila dia makin longgar, I have to put aside, lagi2 bila masak and mandi.

So now macam mana.

Sobs sobs..


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Delayed

lepas habis kelas semalam, i terus cepat-cepat punched out at 5pm. memang waktu balik pun tu. sepanjang bulan ramadhan ni, dapat balik awal 1 hour. memang puas hati la. and banyak exam je bulan puasa ni so kurang la sikit aktiviti menjaga students. penat okay.

i selalu reached home by 5.50pm, tapi semalam by 5.30 dah sampai. gila laju betul i jalan or maybe the train was moving faster than usual. tapi husband lambat amik, which dia selalu amik pukul 5.50pm tu la, tapi 6.15pm baru dia sampai. prfttt.

balik rumah dalam kereta, dia cakap taknak makan nasi pulak. i dah la semangat nak masak sambal udang, boleh plak kan taknak makan nasi. ok fine. dia nak makan burger. ha bagus. mudah je nak masak tu. sampai je rumah, ingat nak terus masak, boleh tak beliau suruh urut dia dulu. mak aihh...urut pinggang okay...tapi di sebabkan suami tercinta ku gagahi la jugak.

urut-urut sampai pukul 7pm. last-last i cakap, masak nasi dengan sardin la. pastu dia pun macam suka je. masak la sardin tu..dengan nasi, rebus telur masin and ulam kacang. semua ni siap 5minit after buka. abes pukul 7 baru nak start masak, apakah?

lepas makan semua, husband macam biasa la tolong kemas-kemas, and i washed the dishes and all. duduk tengok news TV1 sambil makan pistachio my brother in law belikan from jordan. yummy gila! konon nak gi sembahyang tarawikh, sekali hampeh jer.

malam ni la kot pergi.ok syg?? ;D

Angry Bird

You know la last time when angry bird was a hit. semua pun macam berebut nak ada the 'angry bird application' la, baju dia, toys, and everything. im NOT a big fan of angry bird, but i do play the game once in awhile. and it was not that fun pun, pressure lagi ada la. hahaha.

anyway, ada sekali tu i was brosing through my facebook, sekali ada kawan kepada my husband post gambar dia dengan softtoy angry bird tu, and i was like, "OMG cute gilaaa..." just because the plush toy tu bentuk bulat. unlike the ordinary plush toy kan. and dia cakap murah. so i saja-saja PM dia tanya dia boleh belikan ke. sekali dia cakap boleh. RM25.

and i tak tau yang she had to hand-luggage it sebab dia naik plane. serius i tak tau yang dia naik plane. husband marah sebab menyusahkan orang. really i swear tak tau pun yang dia naik plane. if i knew that dia naik plane, i takdela order benda tu.

after awhile, benda tu pun sampai. warna merah, bulat-bulat gemok, besar bola sepak la macam tu. so just for a few weeks, dia la teman tidur i, pastu sebab dia bulat and tak boleh duduk diam, dia selalu la tergolek-golek jatuh bawah katil. tihii..

sekali i nampak toy tu kat rumah my brother last week. hahaha...i amik la, banyak cantik muka dia curi.so dia pun cool jela, habis dah bukan harta dia kan.

sampai kat our house:

husband: "ni nak letak dalam kereta ke nak bawak rumah?".

me: "letak dalam kereta la, boleh main-main..".

husband: "bawak naik atas la..semak la kereta..."

me: *sentap* "k.."

husband: "err..bawak rumah la..boleh peluk-peluk depan TV nanti.." (sambil peluk kuat-kuat angry bird tu)

me: "ha yelaa..."

and you can guess now that, we didn't hug the angry bird during tengok TV, but we used that as a weapon when we played counter strike at home. memang bila-bila masa je angry bird tu jadi bullet balingan sekuat hati to our opponent.

pastu dua-dua gelak bila angry bird tu jatuh bergolek-golek kat lantai rumah.

yela, dia kan gemok and bulat. bukan boleh duduk diam.

Buka Puasa: His Squad

Semalam (Ahad), husband was having a buka puasa gathering with his squad (he was from an army boarding school), at our home. YES BABY YOU HEARD ME! at our home. and the initial plan to have only 3 people coming, plus us so total of 5 orang. but turned out to be 7 orang. *pengsan* before we get into the preparation, kita borak pasal lain dulu.

on saturday, we had a buka puasa at my SIL. menu for that day were nasi lemak sambal sotong, laksa, roti jala with kari, begedil daging, bingka, air tebu, badak berendam etc. i only managed to eat begedil and roti jala. no nasi no laksa. not sure if i'm not hungry or just full. husband as usual, makan banyak sedap-sedap. i happy gila tengok kalau dia makan. and if he is not eating, something must be wrong somewhere. he's making me happier than ever kalau dia makan, especially my cooking. mama and ayah were there. so best gile la kan!

anyway pagi sabtu tu we headed to jalan TAR, sogo. cari barang-barang untuk kursus husband. and i nak belikan handbag untuk MIL. i dapat handbag (dah bagi pun and she loves it!) and husband beli loafer. *ehem* i dont like him to wear loafer but i think it's about time la. and after all, he looks kinda sexy with the loafer. ehehehe.... i suruh dia beli obermain, tapi sure harga rm300++ so i suruh dia beli murah sikit sembonia. kalau nak beli bonia baik suruh obermain je kan. so okay. dah beli siap.

loafer was not in THE LIST. oh, we always have our list before we are going somewhere.just to make sure we don;t over buy, and don't buy unnecessary things (like the loafer..ehem). but i forgave him. hahaha...so okay.

then pergi potong rambut. i dont like to cut my hair. simple because i love my hair. tapi husband dia memang dengki tengok rambut i yang cantik tu. maka dia suruh potong. i taknak la ingkar perintah suami, maka i kata, "i will cut my hair only if you pay for that..". he quickly said, "yes." *gulp* alahaiiii....apehal plak dia nak belanje...halaaa.....my hairrr. to cut the story short, yes, rambut i dah dari paras pinggang dan jadi paras bahu. good job baby. i love you so much...*jeling*

then we headed back to our home, to packed things and stuff, terus shoot pergi rumah SIL. around 9.30pm we headed to MIL's house. mama masak sedap but since we were already full, so kitorang tak makan dah la. borak-borak kejap and off me went to sleep. husband keluar dengan the boys. balik peluk-peluk kita, eh eh?

then pagi sahur la food yang mama dah masak. sedap okay. berselera plak i sahur pagi tu. pastu sambung tido. around 10am bangun pergi sogo balik. why is that so?yer kasut husband i tu terlebih besar. hahaha....kesian beliau. beli kasut mahal-mahal besar plak. nasib boleh tukar and the chinese sales girl, Ms Sassy sangat-sangat baik. siap explain lagi pasal pembesaran kaki and all. kalau la semua salesgirl baik macam ni...:)

then we went to carefour to buy some food stuff untuk masak buka malam ni. menu simple since i yang masak kan. kalau mama yang masak hebat sikit la. so i cooked nasi putih, chicken curry, ikan keli goreng sambal, sambal belacan, then i made some homemade popia rolls, salted eggs, ulam-ulam, sayur kacang goreng, air blackcurrent.

when the boys came (ye, boys saja and they didn't bring any girlfriend for me...sobs), they brought ayam golek dua ekor, nuggets 2 packs, and fries 2 packs. they said, "gorengkan masa tengok lee chong wei nanti boleh??" hahahaha cute gila. well, i okay jer.

erm...ye i agak malu la sebab i sorang je perempuan kat rumah. but husband was so great, he makes me as one of them. dia tak jauh-jauh dari i. and always look at me. yer, look at me. jeling-jeling, pandang-pandang i. ehehehe....berdegup-degup. kikiki.

im not sure whether i cooked good food, but some of them request me to goreng (again) my popia, and my curry chicken just enough for our sahur this morning, and some of them even tapau the extra food. husband cakap, kawan dia SMSed, "kim salam bini hang, dia masak sedap...". hahahaha....he told me this morning.

ahhh....it's enough to made my day hari ni. but what really made by day is because husband keep on telling me how grateful he was for having me, and thanked me for all the care and love. and last night he put me on bed, and hug me tight the whole night.

Pre- Raya 2012

semalam masa on the way pergi dating, masa i pegang-pegang tangan husband, tiba-tina i dengar suatu suara menakutkan, "sayang...belikan i jeans...". eh? hahahaha.....siot je main suruh-suruh. pastu i tanya la balik, "kenapa i yang kena belikan?". pastu dia jawab, "yela, sebab i kena belikan you levis, nike, beg semua...". ha bijak-bijak. mentang-mentang spending dia untuk i tu banyak, nak cater sikit la tu untuk dia. miahahaha.... pastu soalan dia memang takde jawapan yang i bagi. heee...

teringat masa kitorang shopping raya last month. memang dia janji nak belikan baju raya. tapi takde la dia cakap berapa banyak dia nak belikan. sekali pergi tengok-tengok kain semua, semua dia suruh amik.

husband: "u suka nie?" 

me: *angguk-angguk* sambil senyum.

husband: "kak, potong nie...". "yang nie b? suka?okay jugak corak dia..."

me: "u suka i okay jer..." *angel*

husband: " yang ni sekali eh potong 4 meter....". "tu kat sane tu...jom..."

me: (bape banyak nak beli nie..)

husband: "yang ni kaler dia unik la. okay tak sayang?"

me: " ha'ah....mustard...suka la...tantekkkk..."

and the process went on for a few hours sebab nak cari baju raya kitorang yang sedondon plak (-_-), and carik baju untuk his mother (my MIL). so sekarang tengah tunggu my MIL siapkan semua baju raya. *excited* mama titer buat cantik okay. before ni dia dah siapkan satu baju kurung moden batik. dah la sexy ikut figure badan (my MIL is so cool ...). yang baju kurung sedondon tu i buat mini kurung moden dengan lengan 3/4, boat neck lagi. eh my MIL ni boleh tahan gak bagi idea buat baju nie.plan asal pakai baju nikah je since baju nikah pun kurung moden, cuma kain flowy sikit je tapi santek je. tapi dah husband beriya nak belikan baju, i terima je la. dah dia nak belikan, kita terima je la.

sekarang ni i cuba nak pow dia kasut dengan handbag raya. tapi on top of the list kasut raya. ala satu je...mesti dia kasi kan?kalau dia tak kasi, i nak nangis seminggu. hahahaha....

so tengoklah. kalau banyak dia spend untuk i, tak salah i spend untuk dia jugak. bukan orang lain, suami i. so nanti i nak tengok la jeans dekat Levis, Topshop, dengan Guess. ha dekat Quicksilver pun lawa-lawa jugak. tengok la masa, and budget.

kuih raya. so far i dah order satu je kat budak ofis, jual chocolate chip cookies rm22 untuk 50pieces, and rm40 untuk 100pieces. murah gila. haritu dia bagi tester, mak aih sedap gila. kihkihkih...rangup-rangup plak tu. so kuih lain, selalu i buat dengan mama. ni dah kahwin ni, maybe suh mama buat lebih je la, pastu tapau bawak balik. tihii..

langsir-langsir, sofa bagai, sorry la, i kurang minat sikit. maybe la ada a few kena beli but so far kitorang comfortable je dengan yang dah ada. takde la perangai nak mak-mak sangat.kan?hehehehe....

okay la. ngantuk sangat ni. kat opis tapi friday selalu kitorang free the whole day. kalau free sangat bagi la balik, kan boss kan? *senyum lebar-lebar*

Sleeping Beauty

yeay! semalam dapat juga berbuka puasa dengan encik suami. orang yang bersemangat sediakan juadah berbuka puasa untuk orang lain, especially suami sendiri, sangat besarlah ganjaran yang Allah janjikan, insyaAllah. kadang-kadang tak dinafikan penat jugak tugas seorang isteri ni, tapi somehow or rather i enjoy my life as a wife, a girlfriend, and a friend to my husband. and i enjoy cooking, and cleaning the house. yang paling best sekali bila suami says' "thank you sayang masakkan...thank you sayang kemas kan rumah kite.." and banyak lagi la. and yang paling puas sekali bila i masak, husband tambah nasi. *senyumlebar-lebar*

this whole wek kan husband kitew audit makanya balik lambat. macam semalam dia audit dekat sabak bernam. jauh sangat. so dia amek i kat station pun around 6.30pm. we reached home by 7pm. semalam menu simple ayam masak kicap, tambah sikit kentang, dengan sayur sawi tumis air. pastu sambal belacan dengan kacang botol (his favourite!). buat air blackcurrent dengan kurma. penuh jer meja.

semalam beliau ajak i buka luar lagi masa on the way balik, tapi i taknak. i prefer to eat home. kalau beliau nak ajak buka luar makesure Chillis, TGIF, HRC ker. barula sedap sikit nak buka luar. tihii..lagipun i selekeh sangat semalam, so malas la nak buka kat luar.

semalam i tengah masak-masak, husband sebok kacau kat dapur. dahla dah nak buka kan, dengan ayam masak kicap tu belum start lagi, jam dah pukul 7.15pm. so i kept him out of the kitchen, dia diri je kat tepi hujung2 nak masuk hall. pastu kacau, "laju jalan kak...". eh??kang membebel-bebel lapar, food tak masak lagi. T_T

lepas habis buka tu, usually kitorang lepak depan TV tengok berita ke apa, sambil i lipat kain yang dah basuh semalam kalau tak pergi tarawikh. sambil-sambil tu borak-borak la pasal kerja, pasal family, gelak-gelak, tu pun amik masa berjam-jam la sebab campur nak mengada dia sekali kann...hahaha.

semalam lepas mandi apa suma, lepak depan TV browsing facebook semua tu la, tiba-tiba husband mengendeng kat bahu. biasa la dia tu, tak boleh i jauh sikit, dengki dia kemain lagi. tau-tau a few mins after that, dia dah tido. pastu i biar jer. sekali bontot i dah pedih-pedih. one, he's heavy, miahahaha...second, i don't have that fatty ass, so sakit tulang temulang montot i..hihihihi....tapi sebab kesian dia penat gila audit i diamkan jela, tahan je la.

after awhile, facebook pun dah bosan, TV cerita cina, bila nak tukar, control jauh kat hujung sofa. halaa....i kejut dia slow-slow, nak ajak masuk bilik sekali la dah alang-alang nak bangun, dia taknak okay, taknak. mak aihhh, dia tido atas peha plak. ah lantak la situ, i mengengsot sikit, dia macam mamai-mamai je. ha kan dah tak selesa, tu la taknak bangun. i tengok sekejap jer pastu tak tahan la montot tatettt....dah letak kusyen pun masih sakit..terus i dengan serius ajak masuk bilik.

kahkhakhakh...hadoi..

so masalahnye sekarang hari ni nak masak apa. kalau la i pukul 4 dah sampai rumah, boleh jugak buat daging dendeng tu kan, tapi i sampai pun nak dekat-dekat buka, masak yang senang2 macam sambal tumis tu semua cepat je la kan....-_-

Kad Nikah Selangor

Alhamdulilah, dah dapat my own kad nikah!! semalam husband cakap, "nanti u sampai rumah, u tengok atas meja k, ada something for u..." pastu senyum-senyum. i takde la tunjuk excited sangat, kang dia kata i ni perak plak, kita kena act cool je, tapi dalam hati, semangat gila nak tau. sekali sampai je rumah, i nampak ada buku bank, (eh?nak bagi duit kat i ke?) pastu dengan kad nikah! i dah senyum-senyum sampai telinga dah.

husband cakap sorry, sebab tak bagitau nak amik awal-awal sebab plan asal is both of us pergi amik sama-sama, so kalau dia cakap dengan i nak pergi amik, mesti i marah sebab tak tunggu i. so dia pergi jela sendiri. sweet gila..... aaaaa ni sayang lebih nie... *hugs*

ok lets get back to the prosedur. prosedur kitorang mula paling awal lagi. LEPAS NIKAH punya cerita.

1. lepas nikah, the only document we had was SURAT KEBENARAN BERKAHWIN. itu je yang ada kat husband. i tak pernah keep my own SURAT KEBENARAN BERKAHWIN, sebab dah kahwin la weh malas dah nak fikir-fikir nak pegang apa semua.hehehehe..... husband memang sangat detail especially document and all so good for me..so korang kena KEEP surat kebenaran berkahwin ni yer. korang dapat right after "aku terima nikah...".

2. so, lagi cepat lagi baik kalau nak buat kad nikah nie *semangat*. so next move is to go to PEJABAT AGAMA ISLAM DAERAH (PAID). yang kitorang pergi kat PEJABAT AGAMA DAERAH GOMBAK, di Taman Keramat, Kuala Lumpur. sangat la dekat dengan my house, tapi jalan kaki memang tak dapat la. bahahaha...
pergi sini, sila beratur.korang tak payah nak susah-susah cari ofis dia kat mane, dia tingkat bawah sekali, lepas dari post-guard tu, belah kanan. ada vendor machine kot tepi tu. ni alamat full dia.

PEJABAT AGAMA ISLAM DAERAH GOMBAK
JALAN AU2A / 17, TAMAN SRI KERAMAT,
54200 KUALA LUMPUR.
NO. TEL : 03 - 42526080 / 4426
FAX : 03 – 42528418

ni amek direct dari web. masa kitorang pergi tu dah terlambat. so kitorang lunch dulu, by 2.00pm kitorang dah beratur balik depan ofis mereka. jumpa dengan Puan Pegawai dekat situ., dah la baik gila, polite sangat-sangat. memang sesuai la dia kerja situ. sejuk hati. berdosa plak skeptikal dengan pekerja-pekerja kerajaan ni.hehehe....cakap dahla lembut sangat. suami tanya, "puan, saya nak amik sijil nikah...". Puan tu tanye, berapa haribulan nikah, pastu dia suruh cek information dalam sijil tu, okay ke tak, ada perubahan ke tak, pastu dia suruh turunkan tandatangan, pastu done! pastu silalah fotostat depan belakang sebab nak get ready untuk Kad Nikah punye application plak.

3. Bahan-bahan yang mesti ada untuk permohonan kad nikah (selangor) : satu gambar suami, satu gambar isteri ( bertudung), satu salinan sijil nikah, duit rm40.

4. so bawak semua barang-barang ni, pergilah JABATAN AGAMA ISLAM SELANGOR (JAIS) di Shah Alam. landmark nak pergi JAIS ni adalah bangunan tinggi-tinggi sebelah Masjid Shah Alam yang kubah biru tu.

Bahagian Perundangan Keluarga,
Jabatan Agama Islam Selangor,
Ground Floor, Menara Utara,
Bangunan Sultan Idris Shah,
Persiaran Masjid Bukit SUK
Shah Alam.

masa kitorang pergi ni, kitorang guna ref. alamat lama. tanya dulu kat receptionist tu, dia kata dah bukan kat tingkat 4 menara selatan tu, ni kat sebelah ni jer. rasa masa ni kat menara utara, and permohonan tu kat ground floor jer. betul-betul sebelah receptionist tu. dah la baik juga, muka pun santek. tihii... pastu jumpa ada pegawai bertugas depan pintu masuk tu, dia suruh kita isi form dulu untuk permohonan kad nikah.

lepas dah isi, jumpa dia balik, dia nak cek dokumen plak. lepas tu, dia bagi nombor, dokumen (salinan sijil nikah, gambar suami isteri) kita tadi, dan form yang kita isi tadi, dan duit rm40. kita pun tunggu. yer kami tunggu selama seminit jer..-__- punya la pantas dan efisyen nya. mungkin juga tak ramai orang, tapi ramai jer jugak masa tu. masa ni suami jer pergi. i biasa la, tengok deko-deko bersama eric kat dalam ofis tu.

leather seat okay. aircond fullblast. bersih dan wangi. and muka tak menyombong. ini memang saya suka sangat..=)

5. lepas tu dalam masa 7 hari bekerja dah siap dah. kitorang nikah 4.05.2012, kitorang apply 16.07.2012, tarikh kad nikah dikeluarkan 20.07.2012, and kitorang dapat kad nikah 30.07.2012. sila tengok cepat tak cepat nya siap. benda baik kan, lebih bagus dipercepatkan.

ewahhh....banyak bunyik plak. i ni, kalau husband tak paksa buat, i cakap tunggu anak ke 10 la baru buat. tihii...dah beliau heret sama masa nak apply, terpaksa la jua. anyway, buat awal-awal ni happy sangat. pastu menggedik-gedik sesama sendiri. pastu tadi i datang opis, buat kecoh tunjuk kad nikah... -__- yer, saya seorang pensyarah. bahahahaha....

so harap boleh la jugak membantu korang yang nak apply kad nikah tu k. korang baca la 10 kali pun cara permohonan kad nikah ke, kebenaran berkahwin ke, sure takkan faham until kita sendiri yang buat. sebab i pun macam tu. tapi alhamdulilah sangat, semua urusan dipermudahkan Allah. benda baik kan. so doa la banyak-banyak.

sekarang dah boleh check in hotel dengan bangganya. bahahahaha......

ps: oh lupe nak share story. masa kitorang beratur dekat PAID nak amik sijil nikah, abang yang beratur depan kitorang dia cakap kat pegawai tu, " Puan, saya nak amik kad cerai (ke sijil cerai)..".  i dengan husband dah pandang each other. sekarang cerai pun ada kad eh? pastu terus doa laju-laju dalam hati supaya jodoh i dan suami kekal sampai ke syurga, sebab saya sayang dia sangat-sangat rasa nak tumbuk je hari-hari sebab geram dah lepas tu degil plak tu suami saya tu. kadang-kadang saya rasa macam nak buat-buat pengsan supaya dia tak kacau saya lagi. tapi sekarang saya rindu dia tahap melampau. -__- . yer apa aku merepek ni.

Alone Without Love

semalam sedih gila buka sorang-sorang. memang terasa sangat la ke-lonely-an nyer. husband as usual balik lambat and his out with the officemate buka puasa. buka puasa gathering ke ape ntah. but takdela i mention kat dia yang i sedih gila buka puasa sorang-sorang kat rumah. yerla, i dah banyak susahkan dia, abis buka puasa sorang-sorang pun nak menyusahkan hati and perasaan dia dah kenapa? nanti dia susah hati teringat kat i plak kan, so the outing would not be that fun.

i ingat i sorang jer sedih hati buka puasa makan sandwich bit by bit sambil termenung pandang TV yang tak on tu, sekali beliau pun sama. he kept on bbm me, pastu masa i dalam toilet dua kali dia misscalled, and pastu bila i dah lari-lari dengan sangat laju nak angkat hp, padam plak. pastu dia call rumah. dia cakap, "syg pegi mana?call tak angkat.bla bla bla...nanti kita buka sama kat luar k..". dah kenapa call tiba-tiba ajak buka luar??sweet! beliau nak ajak i buka luar. omnomnomnom.... makan free memang suka.

balik tu he looked so damn tired. yela, selalu pukul 10pm dah bergolek-golek kat rumah, ni pukul 10 baru nak sampai rumah, dengan baju kerja sexy tak bukak lagi semua. he told me that the outing was not that good without me by his side. *terharu* dia kate makan ingat kat i jer. ingat buka puasa sama-sama, ingat prepare buka puasa sama-sama. sobs sobs.

memang kalau kat rumah, lepas i letak lauk2 dalam mangkuk, beliau yang selalu tolong susun dish atas meja. so bila buat benda sama-sama tu, tak la terasa penat kan. and air pun selalu dia buat. letak gelas and jug. i takla paksa dia tolong, tapi the fact yang dia sendiri nak tolong i, pun dah cukup sejukkan hati i.

balik tu, still dia nak makan apa yang i masak. i tak masak pun sebab dah kata i buka sorang kan. i just prepared him some tuna sandwich that i cut into finger-size food, so senang dia nak makan. ada 12 keping, i makan satu, the rest masuk perut dia. hikhik...makan rice crackers sambil peluk-peluk depan TV adalah sangat best. ;)

after awhile, he looked okay. im glad. pastu i tertido kejap dengan laptop atas peha. beliau ajak masuk tido. tang tu tiba-tiba dah segar. i nak tengok TV tapi beliau ajak tido plak. haihhh...suami suami. masuk bilik ingat terus tido, ajak borak pulak. ok fine, mari berborak. tak lama pun ada la dalam 10minit macam tu. pastu zzzzz...

minggu ni memang i buka puasa sorang-sorang je sebab husband have some auditing to be attend to. kerja audit memang macam tu la kot. kalau audit kat opis i mau sampai pukul 2 pagi, sebab last time audit pun i la yang berjaga sampai kul 2 pagi kat opis. hehehe...

malam ni tak tau lagi macam mana. buka kat ofis ke, atau balik je rumah sendiri. balik rumah boleh jer naik bus, tapi memikirkan dalam bus tu ramai la hey orangg, pengsan. jauh la dari stesen bus sampai rumah i hujung dunia tu. so maybe kita buka puasa kat ofis je la. lebih afdal!

Fully

this weekend, i had alot of fun, kira macam berisi la hari minggu i. of course because husband was there, and my family was here. that friday night all of us went to KLIA to sent my sister, kan dia pergi UK to further studies. so her flight was around 1.30am by Emirates, so right after buka me and husband cepat-cepat siap and off to KLIA. that evening, kitorang just beli food from bazaar ramadhan, laksa for me and nasi kukus ayam berempah for him. oh and murtabak. this week je, murtabak dah berapa kali makan. sedap sangat.

then, with my yellow long dress, black cardigan, and a fitflop, bergerak la ke KLIA. in car we borak-borak while eating chilled jambu that i prepared earlier. and macam-macam lagi. kitorang kan eater, haruslah jajan bermacam-macam..muehehehe.. lepas sesi hantar adik and all, kitorang sahur at 2.00am area cheras. yusof bistro, orang cheras tahu la kot, area lakeview tu kan. dulu masa dating-dating selalu jugak makan kat situ. tihii... recommended tomyam and nasi goreng usa. that sahur fully sponsored by my aunty. alhamdulilah.

sabtu tu the whole day lepak rumah. dah ade kontraktor datang betulkan rumah. haihh...-_- tak habis-habis. encik suami pun boleh tahan la asyik nak panggil je diorang datang. layan kan jelahh. so while the kontraktor datang rumah, encik suami melarang i berjalan-jalan sekitar dalam rumah kalau takde benda penting. so the only thing that i did was to iron his shirts. bagus jugak, if not i buat kerja lain macam sort dapur and mop the floor. so i managed to iron baju dia 5 pasang, seluar 3, baju official dia 1. baju i?macam biasa, hari nak pergi kerja baru iron. sebab? baju kita perempuan mudah nak gosok. baju lelaki ( terutama baju suami sendiri), memang la susah.

then petang tu, since i nak masak nasi lemak for buka puasa, tapi santan takde. nice kan? pastu i bingit-bingit bising dengan encik suami santan takde. mesti dia rasa annoyed gila. hahaha...so petang tu kitorang turun cari santan, boleh pulak ada jualan raya kat situ. and yes, mestilah kami borong sama. borong barang berfaedah seperti dutch lady chocolate and strawberry milk 12 kotak yang 250gm untuk harga 10 ringgit. and beli twister, and 6 botol carbonated drinks for rm12. pastu tangan patah nak angkut bawak pergi kereta. dan encik suami yang sayangkan isteri dia, takut isteri dia penat (padahal dia penat jugak), pergi amik kereta kat belakang and amik i kat depan bangunan. sweet gila la heyyy. padahal boleh je pun i nak jalan kaki. and before that, we went to kedai rakyat satu malaysia. thumbs up because it helps ALOT untuk orang yang nak save money in groceries and all. murah jugak. :)

2 pot nasi save sampai sahur. ada kangkung, timun, telur, ikan bilis and kacang goreng, and ayam goreng. yer, semua masuk perut suami. perut isteri? penuh telur rebus je. i kan suka telur. muahahahahaha!

ps: ada orang merajuk tak dapat ayam goreng. omaigoddddd.... -__-

Masjid Putra, Putrajaya

Masuk ni dah kali ke 3 sembahyang tarawikh kat masjid putra ni. First time, accompanied by my parents and husband, and the rest, only the two of us.

En suami, nak dekat-dekat isya' tu, sakit kepala la, sakit perut la. Tihii..tapi selalu dia gigihkan jugak teman I pergi tarawikh. As I know, I'm not that rajin pun sembahyang, but apparently, I'm beginning to enjoy to perform prayers. At least, lepas kahwin ni, I don't know if its true, but rasa macam rajin sikit la bab2 agama. Hahaha..I mean, ade la perubahan sikit.

Okay. Masjid putra kat putrajaya ni sangat sangat sangat la cantik, dan selesa. We have another masjid called masjid besi which he has his own name (nanti google) tapi entah kenapa tak rasa nak pergi situ. So during tarawikh, belah perempuan selalu 3/4 penuh. Ramai je orang tua, and orang muda. And diorang tak sombong pun! Lepas solat isyak macam tu, selalu je diorang salam I. Bukan I taknak salam diorang, I kan pemalu..hihihi

There's a lot of kids there, it was fun! Tapi biasalah budak2 kan bising, sometimes I found it hard to focus on the recite by the imam. Tapi that's my weakness la kan, orang lain boleh je fokus.. -_-

So far, I can only made 8 rakaat, 3 witir plus sembahyang isyak 4. So altogether 15 rakaat. Fuh fuhh..itupun dah peluh-peluh merenjis didahi.

Lepas tarawikh selalu ada 'moreh'. Simple food but always nice and yummy. Aritu bubur lambok, but wajib mesti ada teh o' and the tarik. Yummy2! Tapi masjid's food memang sedap la. Tak tau la kenapa. :D

Semalam lepas balik tarawikh, singgah petronas isi minyak and beli roti. Konon pagi ni nak sahur roti with burger. Tapi last-last pagi ni makan lauk semalam, masak bening kobis dengan ikan parang masak sweet sour.

Jenuh en suami sorted tulang dengan isi. Beliau tu tak reti makan ikan banyak tulang. Hahahaha...comel okay beliau. Tapi biarkan dia. Memang sengaja nak dia belajar makan ikan macam tu.

Pastu I tambah telur goreng bawang berkicap. So atleast selera gak la ada lauk baru. (Sebenarnya memang hantu telur alasan lauk baru berselera..-_-) 

Harini buka luar, pergi bazaar for the first time ever. Bahahahaha...lagipun malam ni nak anta my sister pergi airport, she's flying to UK. Sobs sobs.

Regret

Buat pertama kali dalam hidup, I felt so guilty towards my husband. I was so sad that I'm behaving that way, and I was so sad that I can't control my emotion, my anger precisely.

Tak pernah dalam hidup I rasa macam tu, and this was my first time ever feeling guilty, yang tersangat guilty nyer.

I was crying so bad while hugging him. Crying mintak ampun and maaf. Hrmm..even when I write this entry, I still can feel the emotions..

I hugged him and told him I was so sorry for behaving like that. By listening to his words, I knew he was dissapointed with me. Even I was dissapointed with myself. But I hope that he knows how guilty I am. I am guilty. I'm sorry syg.

But him being him, he's unlike me. Lepas dia maafkan he was like okay, but I never knew what he felt inside. And me? Guilty as hell, sedih, and dissapointed with myself.

I know right from the moment, I have to control my emotion. I definitely can't compare him with anyone else, because he's the best guy I could have got. Perfect an imperfect in his own charming way.

For whatever things that come between us, I will put aside and always start a day with a new chapter. :) I just want him to know that my love won't ever fade, and I'm honored to be loved by him.

So this week I will cook special meal for him. Western food that he requested. Nyumnyum!


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Muscle

Semalam for the first time ever tak dapat nak join encik suami pergi jogging. Nasib la semalam he decided to take the stairs instead of around the area. Itu pun ngelat jogging around the block. But it was good he left me for awhile, because I took my own sweet lovely time to build my muscle (masalahnye setakat sikit macam tu ape la sangat..). I had been doing body weight strength training.

Sit-ups, push-ups, squats, and lunges. Nak tercabut okay lutut segala sendi semua. Husband went out for 30mins, and so do I. Tutup lampu semua, just switched on lampu dapur, placing my blue training matt (nak pau husband beli yang nike pink or purple baru semangat sikit) on the floor, and start by doing sit-ups.

Mula-mula nampak macam bodoh jer, yerla buat sendiri-sendiri. Tapi after 15mins dah start sweating, so sangatlah happy. I still feel like, if you work a lot, you sweat a lot. Tapi encik husband tak setuju. Whatever.hahaha..

Pastu tiba-tiba beliau balik. Balik pun die join buat. Tapi dia sekali angkat mau 10kgs ke lebih. I angkat 2kg tu pun nak pitam-pitam. Sweet je beliau tukar set 10kgs tu to 2kgs. Manje angat nak kena tukarkan bagai.

Dia jadi private trainer I, for free. Pastu masa I angkat dumbell tu, beliau senyap je. Pastu I jerit, "trainer,kirakan laa!".hahaha...pastu beliau cakap, "amboi, dah la jadi trainer tak berbayar, suh kira kan pulak..". Sambil tangan dia support siku I.Hahaha..maaflah.

Kadang-kadang I tercakap kuat. Bukan sengaja, tapi how to control impact die tu susah sikit. Jadi lecturer kan, memang la lontaran suara tu lebih. Dengan suami pun camtu. Sian dia. Hahaha..

Pastu sembahyang sama (I always love to semayang jemaah dengan dia, rajin and cepat sikit rasa) then lepak kat hall tengok tv. 2min lepas tu I tidur. Bahahaha...

Sebelum tidur tu he did something sweet for me. I tak rasa suami orang lain buat macam tu, unless kalau tak larat sangat la. (Ok kak, laki kau paling baik. Loser!) Hahahaha...

Ala, semua suami pun terbaik di mata isteri. So do mine. Sekarang kitorang tengah dilanda sedih, sebab lepas raya beliau kursus jauh. Ermm..taknak cite lah. Nanti nangis.

Malam ni jogging jom sayang!

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Tired day

Semalam we took our relationship to a whole new level. Bukan ape, kitorang tukar tempat exercise.haha..usually we had a 30 to 40 minutes of good run kat area rumah, but semalam we climbed the stairs. 18 tingkat 2 kali pusing.

Oi memang nak tercabut lutut. Sakit gila peha..lagi-lagi encik suami. He's cuter now, perangai dia macam-macam keluar. Always make my life spinning around. I can't imagine how I'm going to react bila dia pergi kursus nanti..sobs sobs..

Lepas jog terus pusing blok dua kali sambil borak2 dengan dia pasal hal ofis. Lama jugak la. And I biasa la borak taknak stop. Hahaha.. sometimes it is nice to have someone to talked to. And you know la, encik suami bukannye banyak cakap pun.

But you know, that one fine day, I masuk je kereta and he grabbed my thigh (usual move he did everytime I enter the car) and said, "b, I nak cerita nie kat u..". Punye la semangat I nak dengar. My own husband nak bercakap kan..:)

Malam td dinner I masak udang besar penumbuk masak lemak cili padi. First time masak nasib serai sume ada. Daun kunyit je xde. Kalau ada sedap tu. Hehe..

Malam tu lepas mandi, sembahyang sama-sama. Semalam kan khamis malam jumaat, so kitorang baca yasin. He's the one reciting yasin, I mula2 tumpang kepala je kat bahu dia, nak manja2 konon, last-last tertido terus. Bangun pun sebab dia usap-usap pipi..bahahaha!! Isteri mithali sangat kan.

Lepas dah baring2 tu I grabbed a book. Encik suami dah ready2 nak tidur. In fact, he slept already. And me? I read like 4 pages and snooze me went..hahaha...

Ngantok angat...I kan manjeeee... T_T


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Stepper

Semalam lepas balik kerja, macam biasa encik suami memang la amik I balik keje kan? Pastu beliau tu out of nowhere tanya, " u rindu I tak??". Tak ke luluh melting2 dah suami tanya macam tu. Dek kerana perasaan yang bercampur baur, I diam je sambil peluk beliau. I rasa dia faham la, kerana Tuhan, I cintakan dia. *blush*

Anyway semalam beliau sakit kepala. Katenye stress kat tempat kerja. Plus kaki sakit la ape. Risau sangat. Lepas dinner semalam urut kepala dia. Pastu sembahyang jemaah sesama. Selalu kat penghujung doa tu, dia baca dalam hati dia jer, maybe tak biasa dengan I ke ape. Tapi semalam dia baca doa tu kuat, jelas, dan faham. Memang meresap dalam hati I, and di amin kan dengan penuh makna. Syahdu sangat.

Hari ni I request lagi nak sembahyang sama. Kalau sembahyang sama I rajin sikit. :) teehee.. Lagipun, bila lagi nak bagi dia jadi pemimpin keluarga. Kalau nak imamkan isteri pun susah (malas), nanti keluarga macam mana?

Pagi tadi payah betul nak keluar rumah kerja. Being with him, I feel so secure, feel so in love. And turned out I lambat siap pergi kerja. Hahaha...encik suami dah jerit2 kat depan.."B!b!". Haihhh... -_- abes bergolek2 tak bangun, memang la sengaja begitu.

Dah siap2 breakfast pulak. Hot tea, dengan egg sandwich jer. Ada lebih bagi encik suami bawak pergi ofis. Comel je dia.

And he likes it when I tapaukan dia breakfast ke apa. Tak pernah merungut. And kadang2 siap basuh dah tupperware tu nak bawak bekal esok nya. Sejuk hati okay. :)

Balik ni dengar kata nak panjat stairs. Kalau kat gym nama dia stepper. Memang best la. Best sebab kaki sure sakit. But just for a try boleh la kot.

Encik suami, ready? Hahaha..


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Kerna kau isteri kU

Semalam I felt so devastated. Tak tau la kenapa. Lately I've been reading a lot. lot of articles, blog, news. And semua perasaan bercampur aduk, and I was freaking out. I prayed and I cried. Takut dengan dosa, yaAllah. I'm not that pious but I know dosa-dosa yang mampu di elakkan.

Sebagai seorang isteri, tanggungjawab I untuk jaga diri sebagai isteri, agar dosa tak ditanggung suami. My husband always asked me, "b tak sayang I ke kalau b buat macam ni (tak sembahyang) ?". Mau tak terasa sampai ke urat sendi. Terus bangun laju2. Terus semangat sembahyang bila suami pujuk macam tu... Hehe..

I taknak jadi isteri yang curang, I taknak orang cakap suami I dayus, biar isteri keluar sukahati dengan lelaki lain, I taknak orang pandang rendah kat suami I, yang paling penting dosa yang I tanggung. I takot. Azab tuhan. -_-

Kalau suami I ada kekurangan kat mana2, tanggungjawab I untuk menjaga keaiban dia, bukan pegi canang satu dunia. Lebih teruk kalau terus pergi cari lelaki lain. Contoh kalau I cari lelaki lain, tak ke lelaki lain itu akan pandang rendah kat suami I, suami yang kita pilih, bapa kepada anak2 kita.

Hanya kerana nafsu dan perasan bagus tentang diri sendiri, kite terus lupa dosa dan pahala, dan posisi kita sebagai seorang isteri. Kenapa? Kenapa? Nauzubillah.

YaAllah, kau lindungilah perkahwinan kami yaAllah. Dekatkanlah hati aku dan suami, tanamkan perasaan cinta antara kami. Jadikanlah kami di kalangan hambaMu yang solleh dan solehah..amin




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That guy

Being in love with the same guy for over 8 years is just PERFECT. And now after 8 years we are together, on 8th year of friendship, love-friendship, we get married eventually. Oh boy, I never ever thought that marriage would be this awesome. And I am happy. I do.

Despite of all the gaduh2 we had for the past 2 months kahwin, it bring us closer. Closer than I could've imagine. But sebenarnya seronok jugak gaduh ni, hahahaha... And of having a husband yang bukan kaki pujuk, camne? Hikhik..he's loving, and pampered me with these and that, tapi bab pujuk mesti dia macam fail sikit.

And right now I missed him like madddddddd. He's out of town and I'm staying at mum's house. Bukan la nak cakap mengada2, tapi kalau dah setiap malam tidur sama, memang terasa sangat bila dia takde. And I can't even sleep last night. Sikit-sikit terbangun tengok tepi. And he's not there.

By 5am I dah fully awake. Mata terkebil-kebil pandang siling. And then I remembered tiap malam encik suami bising sebab bukak lampu. Dia kata badan kita boleh sense light and they won't sleep. Selalu je dia bebel2 macam tu and don't even tired of repeating the same thing, and I'm not even tired to menyakitkan hati dia, buat pekak je. Hahaha..

By the time azan, I called him. For subuh prayer. He asked, " awal bangun sayang?". Teehee...and I said I can't sleep bla bla bla. I missed him I guess. Kalau kat rumah kitorang, bangun pukul 6 bukan terus sembahyang, borak2 dulu pagi2 pastu sambung tido, pukul 7 baru bangun.

So today dia balik. I asked him to balik awal. And we might go for a dinner. Dating la katenye. Teehee...


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My bad, guilty!

"Papa reserve kan kuah bolognese ni utk syg, nanti nak lagi k? Love u!"

Sekuel kes masak bolognese haritu. He told me all the kuah and spaghetti habis. Which is good la kan. Maksudnya apa yang I masak tu sedap. Hehehe..

Sekali esoknya, when I was preparing breakfast for him, I saw this telegram inside the fridge terselit bawah mangkuk bolognese. Sikit je la kuah die but boleh la nak rasa air tangan sendiri.

My precious pie. Harini bergaduh dengan dia, dari malam tadi. Pagi ni memang mood swing habes, hati rasa sebal ke, kepala macam berpinau2 sikit. I didn't talk to him the whole night sampai la pagi ni pergi kerja. Siapkan breakfast pun I just duduk kat sofa tunggu beliau habis makan. Sedih sangat tengok dia makan sorang..-_- what was I thinking...I'm so selfish sometimes..spoiled brat for having such a wonderful husband..

Pagi ni sampai ofis, I thought I'm the only one tak boleh nak buat kerja, sikit-sikit tengok hp. Vibrate sikit meja, ingat bbm masuk, rupanya he felt the same way too.

I rasa bersalah sangat. Have a few serious talked/ bbms...settle dah. Hahaha..but still effect die sampai sekarang. Rasa bersalah.

And I just can't wait to get home, I nak mintak maaf, nak hug and kiss him.. Gosh, I felt so guilty. Dah banyak kali I buat macam ni kat dia. Bila la nak berubah.. -_-

But the best part was, gaduh pasal benda bodoh. Benda bodoh sangat and rasa bodoh gila kalau nak bagitau pun. Hahahahhaha...

Serius tak sabar nak balik. Tadi bbm dia cakap, "bb, I don't want to go for a jog today, I nak peluk u jer xnak pegi mana2. Semalam tak peluk2 pun.."

He replied,
"No. Kita jog today."

Garang gile. *jeling*


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Little stove message

" TQ sayang masakkan dinner, sedap sangat! :) I love you so much..muaahhh!!"

I found this written on the paper, on my stove with a baby tomato on it ( so that the paper won't fly off) early yesterday morning. This was due to what I cooked semalam, which was spaghetti bolognese. The easiest meal to prepare. :)

Not only that, he cleaned our house all by himself. After I cooked and the boys came, I decided to stay in our room. Lipat kain and what not.I don't want to kacau the boy's time. And after a while I tertido.

Pagi tu I bangun, he said he had cleaned the house, washed all the dishes. So pagi tu I bangun jenguk dapur. Memang la semua dah basuh, bersih sangat2. But when I saw the tomato on the stove, I was like " comelnye die tertinggal tomato sebijik ni..".. :)

Rupanya ada message for me (as in the picture). *pengsan* I lari masuk bilik and ape lagi melompat la kat die..hahaha...

Thank u sayang!! Nanti I masak sedap2 lagi k? Heeee...



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Swing Ocean

I think because of my PMS, my mood swings. I become more sensitive. Heh. So semalam, sambil masak spaghetti sambil borak2 dengan en bf. He was kind enough to stick around the kitchen and help me around. Yes, helping me by sepahkan my kitchen.. -_-

Tuang gula dalam balang gula pun boleh tumpah the gula all over the place. *facepalm*

Anyway, sambil tangan I laju2 masak, selaju itu jugaklah mulut I bercerita this and that. Sampai at one moment I felt so sad and I almost cry. But he came to me and hug me around my waist, and whispered the most comfortable words I ever heard.

"You have me, kan?"

I terus rasa terharu sangat and rasa nak nangis. The words sounds promising, and I'm afraid that he might leave me too. As people grow and change. But for the time being, I just love having him as part of my life.

So dear husband, having the privillege to call you my husband is incomparable. I love you and I promise to love you till the end of my life. <3



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Class on Track

Being a lecturer is not that always fun. You know the fun part, failing the students. Hahaha..but haihh, I'm lucky enough to have such intelligent students. Bagi la soalan apa pun, out of 5marks, they easily can get 4. The 1 mark, biasa la, ayat tak tersusun especially involving steps and processes.

Tadi second week class, dah masuk chapter 2. Tak payah nak terkejut sangat la laju sangat ke ape. Kitorang in a fast phase. Requested by students jugak. Amik kau 6hours/week. Lecturer pun pengsan jugak la.bahaha..

Chapter 2 today were about enzyme and DNA replication. Enzyme was okay tapi DNA especially codon and anticodon tu kena banyak sikit yer. Lemau sangat dah topic tu.

Students were okay. Biasa la. Lecturer dia arini PMS, jadi semuanya facts with little jokes (intelligent jokes you know are boring). 2 kali pergi toilet. Such a waste of time. And at the end of class bagi quiz macam biasa. Open book quiz lagi.

Bukan apa, tadi masa bagi handouts dna replication, it was in an essay form, bercelaru plak tu sebab in between ada definition la bagai. So I asked them to write in a point form, senang nak faham. (And senang nak mark..kikiki)

Sekarang tengah tunggu train. Today weather dia agak hujan yer area KL ni so sangat la sejuk nak mati. Naseb ada kelas. Takla terasa sangat kan. Jalan kehulur kehilir.

Ha okay la. Train dah sampai ni. Nak titon dalam train sebab travelling is about 30minutes. Daaaa...zzzzz

Ps: xnak mention pasal en bf sebab dia kedekut pasal gambar. Menyampah! Eh, termention plak.. -_-

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The one

This coming 4th June, I have been a wife to the man that I loved the most, my husband, for 2months. Being with him, oh I must say is a very adventurous one. Hahaha..

Everyday, and every morning, I look very forward to meet him the first thing when I open my eyes. Till now, we still sleeping facing each other. Haha.. ( You know there will be this one time that you just want to sleep alone and conquering the whole bed..haha).

So anyway, waking up in the morning, and to see that sleepy face right bomm! in front of my face, making me to think twice whether to wake up, or continue my wonderful sleep. But selalunya mesti the later. Hahaha...

Usually I have 'that' moment where I will take my own sweet time to have a good look on his face right before I get ready to work. I am worried if..you know. Something-something.

I promised that I will be a good wife to him right from the moment he said " aku terima nikahnya..". I will cherish every time and every second of my life with him. I know clearly everything is happen for a reason, and that Allah can take anything that He wants.

But, as far as I concerned, sekarang ni I will try my best to have the best moment and time of my life, with my husband.

I promise to be there for you dear, everytime. And please don't worry that much in pleasing me. I'm a human, I can adapt to any kind of situation. I am intelligent. As long as you are working hard for me, our family, that's good enough for me.

There's no special occasion but I just feel in writing out what I feel right now. I miss my husband hahaha... Can't wait petang to have a good talk and playing around as usual. I love you so much encik suami.

*matabersinar-sinar*


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