Working

Alhamdulilah.
rezeki Allah ada di mana2. luckily when i was told to resigned as i was promised to secure a place at 'the' company, 'the' company rejected me and said that he didn't promised me anyting. what a f*cker. memang i takkan maafkan dia dan keturunan dia sampai bila2 sampai dia mintak maaf kat i and mengaku salah dia. and alhamdulilah. tak sampai sebulan i tak bekerja, i secured another job. well, being a person that is responsible to deliver knowledge, i get it again.

alhamdulilah. alhamdulilah. alhamdulilah. i dah bernazar if i get this job at this salary, i nak belanja makan both my families.

so, what's new with my working place? it is an international institution, with more than half of the workers are foreigners, i think not more than 10 are malaysians, some are chinese, indian and malay. so it is not only one malaysia, but it is one world. hahaha... the best thing is, i work until 2.05pm but my salary is more than what i earn at 'the previous' company.

so again. alhamdulilah. i just cant wait for my first salary!

English Class

yer baiklah.

bos kita bagi kita English Class untuk i ajar.

yup.

memang mampu.

graduated dalam bidang sains analisis.

alih-alih ajar English.

memang i hebat sangat nak ajar English.

ajar International Student lagi.

welcome to the real world, bebeh!

*nangis meraung-raung.

MOU dengan boyfriend

hari ni best. sebab ada meeting kat luar. in a progression of doing MOU dengan one of an estabalish university.sebelum ni buat documentation je, buat paperwork jer. sekali hari ni kena go for a meeting. untuk orang baru macam saya mesti la nervous. skill nak bragging and talking nonsense pun dah karat. hahaha...ni pun dapat this chance sebab big boss cuti, wife dia bersalin. hahaha...so dapat la pergi. the best part is, if the meeting end up early, boleh la balik awal. wehuuu...

***

sekarang macam dalam proses bercinta dengan encik husband. apart of sekarang text message boleh letak sedikit kata-kata nakal dan gurauan melampau, tapi tanpa ada dosa. eh?kan? nakal-nakal dengan husband sendiri tak dosa kan?hahaha...

haritu husband BBM dia cakap, "kita ni macam bercinta kan b?message nak sweet-sweet je, comel-comel je..manje-manje jer...". pastu i kat rumah masa tu dah blushing. i kan, kalau texting husband aka boyfriend tu kan, selalu la carried away dengan messages dia tu. kang senyum sendiri. gelak-gelak sendiri. dah macam orang gila dah nie. hahaha....falling in love dengan husband sendiri, over and over again. unexplainable feelings...:)

okay la. nak prepare papers nak bawak gi meeting. boring tapi nervous. rindu encik husband like totally!

Class on Track

Being a lecturer is not that always fun. You know the fun part, failing the students. Hahaha..but haihh, I'm lucky enough to have such intelligent students. Bagi la soalan apa pun, out of 5marks, they easily can get 4. The 1 mark, biasa la, ayat tak tersusun especially involving steps and processes.

Tadi second week class, dah masuk chapter 2. Tak payah nak terkejut sangat la laju sangat ke ape. Kitorang in a fast phase. Requested by students jugak. Amik kau 6hours/week. Lecturer pun pengsan jugak la.bahaha..

Chapter 2 today were about enzyme and DNA replication. Enzyme was okay tapi DNA especially codon and anticodon tu kena banyak sikit yer. Lemau sangat dah topic tu.

Students were okay. Biasa la. Lecturer dia arini PMS, jadi semuanya facts with little jokes (intelligent jokes you know are boring). 2 kali pergi toilet. Such a waste of time. And at the end of class bagi quiz macam biasa. Open book quiz lagi.

Bukan apa, tadi masa bagi handouts dna replication, it was in an essay form, bercelaru plak tu sebab in between ada definition la bagai. So I asked them to write in a point form, senang nak faham. (And senang nak mark..kikiki)

Sekarang tengah tunggu train. Today weather dia agak hujan yer area KL ni so sangat la sejuk nak mati. Naseb ada kelas. Takla terasa sangat kan. Jalan kehulur kehilir.

Ha okay la. Train dah sampai ni. Nak titon dalam train sebab travelling is about 30minutes. Daaaa...zzzzz

Ps: xnak mention pasal en bf sebab dia kedekut pasal gambar. Menyampah! Eh, termention plak.. -_-

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NYR : on going process

oh, hari tu i came across a blog/article/message (i am so not sure) talking about the ultimate 2012 new year resolution (NYR) . it's been almost one month from the 1st January 2012 which i know some of you, or maybe most of you dah lupe what is your new year resolution hari tu kan? for me, my new year resolution is in this entry.so far, dua je on going process, which is number 2 and number 4, tapi mak aihh, benda yang kita nak je, mesti susah nak dapat, sangat the-apakah. but anyway, harapannya semoga semua orang pun tengah sebok-sebok nak capai azam masing-masing. wishing you all the best!

so semalam has been sooooo not productive for me. sangat blurr (maybe sebab still in CNY holiday mood), and preparing/updating exam question lepas di check by our internal moderator. hadoi hadoi...buat question dah la azabnya susah, lepas tu kena ikot formatting exam unit lagiiiiiiiiiii la susah. buttttt....i love standardizing things. easy to mark, easy to look at. macam orthodoks pun yer jugak. but but..i loved it!

makan tangerine punyala banyak semalam. memang vitamin C la konon kulit makan berlambak. anyway, makan vitamin C banyak sangat pun tak bagus sebab your body will repel(?) the excessive vitamin C yang your body doesn't need (muka serius macam deliver ilmu kat student). so buang duit daannnn tenaga nak makan. tapi because i love tangerine, and it was free given by the company and also siap mintak akak cleaner kalau ada lebih, so i ended up makan banyak dan tangan melekit. but the office did smells good. tihii...

talking about my number 4 2012 resolution, so semalam pergi la gym. only 'body step' kelas je ada (at the time of arrival). body step kena ikot dari begineer/introduction class okay. jangan nak memandai pergi intermediate or advance class, memang mati kutu la kat situ. orang ke kanan, kita ke kiri. ingat nak masuk tapi sebab kelas ni ada 360-turning kang ada yang mabuk muntah-muntah kat situ..hahaha..

running on the machine for 30minutes (next target is to run 45mins non-stop plus 2-mins warm up and 2mins cooling down), weight lifting, and crunching. semalam ingat gym-buddy datang. tak datang. so i was all alone and bosan sudah semestinya. mp3 tidak membantu tapi cash-cab kat AXN banyak menyumbang kepada 30mins larian. khayal okay, khayal. yang kita sebok-sebok lari pun semangat nak menyumbang jawapan. bila betul kita jawab tu betul, macam "ohsemmnyaa kiteeee...takla sebodoh sangat kitee nie yeerrr" ...lepas tu lari-lari pun dah ke kiri ke kanan, pastu mamat sebelah pelik buat muka "whaddefish?". tak kiweeee....nak jawab jugak!;p

balik rumah sangat-sangat lah lapar nya. of course lepas you worked out, your body needs to restore the energy lost, or replace it by consuming food. tapi kalau kau makan pukul 12 malam, makan spaghetti carbonara plak, bukan store energy jer, dengan the fat semua dia store lepas tu padan la muka kau kena double workout kan, lepas tu baju pengantin pun tak muat kau mula nak salahkan the food atau abang yang jual spaghetti carbonara tu. sungguh whaddefish..tapi lumrah manusia kan suka salahkan orang lain padahal dia yang buat silap. lumrah manusia- tapi kita boleh ubah lumrah ni supaya tak jadi lumrah untuk kita, sebab tak baiklah tuduh orang lain atas salah sendiri. itu namanya _ _ _ _ _ _ _. tihii..

hari ni apa tugas saya:
1. send email pasal exam questions
2. baca syllabus mathematics untuk engineering students (matii!!)
3. call beauty centre untuk reservation
4. prepare slide untuk maths
5. prepare notes untuk maths
6. prepare tutorial untuk maths
7. mentally preparing for home-tuition (i like!)

ok now, can we start doing our work?? *claps*

ps: 97days. *gulp*

Meeting All The Time

Seminggu ni penuh meeting. hari ni meeting, esok meeting. kalau meeting tu pasal briefing ke, pasal bonus ke macam meeting hari jumaat tu, semangat la sikit.

hari tu my academic manager datang our lecturer room, dia cakap, "ok girls, we have meeting at 5.00pm today. don't be late okay?" sambil main-main dia punye samsung galaxy note yang bini dia bagi masa birthday dia hari tu. pastu i yang tengah buat kerja ke ape, membebel, "alaa...meeting lagi, semalam kan dah meeting.." (selamba badak menjawab dengan bos). pastu dia cakap, "if you want to hear something good you better come..". tang-tang tu jugak i save all the files and everything. rupanya akan ada bonus and increment. kembang kuncup hati i.ehehe..

(pergi meeting taknak, bonus nak, ha bijak sangat la tu.)

february ni start la class i, tapi harapnye takdelah sampai 18hours per week, boleh mati terbelahak okay. ni slide semua takde lagi, 3 set question paper pun tak buat lagi. mati la mati la. pastu lepas tu nak cuti lama lagi. adehh..

semalam meeting i dipilih, kena jadi EMCEE untuk college's open day. masuk ni dah dua kali dah ni. adoii..macam mana la diorang boleh pilih i. nak cakap pandai cakap English jauh sekali. i rasa nak tukar position dengan my collegue la biar i handle goodies bags jer..lagi senang keje. sorry i tak suka langsung interframe, i suka kerja belakang tabir jer, and i suka jawatan tinggi contoh macam project manager so that kita bagi arahan jer. la la la..

dalam meeting dapat buah limau mandarin yang memang kesukaan i yang i makan cam makan keropok je, kupas-kupas sambil tengok movie dengan aircond fullblast. memang la terbaik. ;)

jumaat ni meeting. dah memang tak larat meeting ni. dah muntah hijau asik meeting jer.

How to Be Employee of The Month

Workhard. There is/are no easy way.

Me?i have been work hard (as if) for a year. sampai orang pijak kepala and take advantage of my capabilities sedangkan gaji dia lebih banyak. banyak sangat plak tu. Then it comes to WORK SMART.

and now i am implement it in my daily life. there were once, i had enough of my workplace sebab dah tak tahan sangat dengan manusia yang suka take advantage nie. but en fiance banyak bagi kata semangat and up until now, i am still working at this place. frankly speaking, i memang suka sangat kerja sini, because i get attached to it. blame me please. but i know someday i have to move out from this place unless they are willing to pay me RM1K more than i earn now. like seriously.

banyak sebab kenapa i nak move out (nanti):

1. Salary
2. Carrier growith
3. Marriage
4. Home
5. Studies

Kalau current place offers me like RM5K, takde carrier growth pun takpe, and duk jauh kat P sane pun tak kisah. but again, salary kecik, jauh, no carrier growth etc. merungut pulak. but that's the fact. so planning of moving next year, by applying a working place at P. dekat. kalau tak dapat maybe continue my studies.

ok. kenapa tiba-tiba cerita pasal tempat kerja ni?

FYI, education line is not the same as management line. there is/are difference. so my boss (act like a boss but he is not like "boss") asked me to attend a workshop at Putrajaya for 4 days (not sure if hotel is provided but that's not the point) under Kementerian. but it is not MY LINE, it is more towards management doing profiling.

eh hello, kenapa i bahagian education kena pergi line management ni? sebab dah takde orang kan? kenapa tak hire? 1 point there. kalau i pergi, confirm i la kena buat profiling kan?siapa i?management people or education people? point number 2 there. ok fine, you nak suruh i buat profiling, but will you PAY me more? point number 3. nampak macam jahat kan sikit-sikit nak payment. let me ask you (the boss), would you go there and do the profiling without getting paid?

so here goes my conversation dengan the boss.

Boss : " Ms. F, we want you to go to this workshop (referring to Kementerian letter). Kursus buat profiling lecturer, students, courses bla bla bla....."

Me : *diam + blurr* "Hmm....Sir, kenapa i yang kena pergi?"

Boss : *senyum* "Because you were assigned to..."

Me: *geram* " Kenapa i yang kena pergi?because this is for management, so better management yang pergi.Kenape Ms. R (management staff) tak pegi?"

Boss: *diam* " oh, Ms R banyak nak handle bla bla..."

Me: *double geram* " Sir, i memang rasa im not suitable for this job. this is management line. as you know i kan bahagian education. kalau untuk *** i boleh pergi because it is part of my job, tapi not this one. i suggest you assign bahagian management yang pergi. how should i update untuk profiling, management have all the files and info,right?"

Boss: *diam + muka bengang * "hrm. ok. nanti i tanye management people.."

*discussion went on about other matters*

See? sebelum ni dah ada orang management yang pergi, tapi dia tak boleh handle profiling tu. dah berhenti kerja pun sebab disciplinary problem. now senang-senang dia nak hantar orang lain buat kerja tu. mentang-mentang dia tahu kita boleh buat kerja. profiling tu senang tapi LECEH nauzubillah.

Sebelum ni, i never decline and task, project yang bosses bagi. because im in a learning process and trying to gain experience. tapi kalau dah banyak kali kita jer yang kena buat, sampai kena stay kat ofis balik pukul 3 pagi, with that much of salary, hati panas jugak sebab kita buat kerja orang, orang tu gaji sampai puluh ribu.kan?

so this is my first time ever declining a task. i nak mereka tahu yang i (malay) bukan senang-senang nak diperkotak-katikkan. i dah bagi banyak muka tapi this time, it is not appropriate. so itu lah.

Sometimes we have to stand for our ground. bagi task kat orang yang suitable. bukan main campak-campak orang jer.i have to prepare for *** lagi nak suruh pergi kursus, nanti *** i jugak yang kena stay sampai pagi esok kan? tapi takpe, haritu buat *** i dapat OT 56jam sampai RM1K. itu takpe, sangat puas hati. setimpal.

ps: kempis2 perut jugak la nak menjawab kat boss. ni kalau second time dia suh lagi, i bagi je surat resign. ahahaha...

Etika Bekerja: Rasanya semua tahu kot!

yada yada. yes i have few problems with the way of people behaving while working, atau kita panggil secara profesionalnya ialah- working ethics.

i find it amusing yet irritating while working with people who has these kind of behaviours as i spent almost 10hours in my office and 10hours working with extra flavours dengan orang yang macam ni, i think within 5 years time, either i berhenti kerja atau mati cepat.

this is as a reminder for you good guys, and also myself, because i dont want to irritate people, and neither i dont want you people to irritate me too.

1. datang lambat balik cepat. i mean satu, dahlah tak amanah dengan perjanjian (kontrak) yang korang buat. dua, dosa makan duit tak amanah.
2. pukul 8am punch in, pukul 8 tu la kau nak makan nasi lemak sotong kau, amik masa setengah jam pulak tu. satu, tak amanah lagi. dua, tak rasa bersalah pulak tu makan time kerja. setakat kerepek ke ape boleh la jugak terima.
3. pasang lagu kuat-kuat kat laptop/handphone/audio devices. annoying tau tak?satu, bukan lagu kau hebat sangat. dua, kerja kita ni buat research, reading, maka respect la sikit privacy orang yang sukakan keamanan dan bukan lagu siti nurhaliza kau.tiga, apa tujuan orang invented earphone??
4. memang orang cakap mulut tempayan tak boleh tutup. tapi mulut manusia boleh tutup melainkan kau nak jadi tempayan. buat kerja pakai tangan, bukan mulut. kalau pasal excel pun kau nak describe tak payah kot.
5. bersyukur dengan apa yang kau dah ada. jangan nak complaint je 24jam. hidup aku selama ni pun bukan untuk tujuan dengar kau mengomel. jangan nak fikir negative sangat. kalau nak pun fikir negative, keep your thoughts to yourself. cukup dah negativity aku kat bf aku.
6. jangan jaga tepi kain orang. lantaklah kalau dia belum kahwin tapi lovebite penuh kat leher bila angin selak tudung dia. dosa dia tu dengan Tuhan. dosa kita mengumpat dia sape nak tanggung?
7. jangan cerita pasal kau tido dengan perempuan mana, dan semalam suami kau adalah terbaik diranjang, dan sebagainya. cukuplah dengan video porno yang tersebar luas. kami tak perlukan audio porno, harap maklum.
8. kalau bos panggil suh jaga exam, jangan bagi alasan nak breakfast dulu. satu, itu waktu bekerja bukan breakfast. BREAKFAST ADALAH SEBELUM WAKTU PUNCH IN.
9. amanah dan ikhlas buat kerja. kalau tak ikhlas pun, fikirlah duit gaji itu untuk anak bini makan maka NIAT harus betul. macam kerja kerajaan tapi dok kutuk kerajaan yang mentadbir.maka keikhlasan tu dah takde.

semua ini adalah reminder untuk diri sendiri. sebab i know, kalau benda ni irritates me, maka high chances yang kalau i buat macam ni kat orang pun dia akan irritated jugak.

alright?

ps: a great day. tomorrow's monday. selamat bekerja dengan amanah dan ikhlas. kalau tak ikhlas, tukar la kerja lain ye bang?

Belum tiba masanya

I am not sopposed to have my holiday today because i need the annual leave for something more important such as honeymoon this year. but since im applying for the teaching permit and it needs (urgently) my medical check up cert, then i have to go. thanks to the HR for not asking for my medical check up on the day i signed my offer letter hence the doing-medical-check-up today.

X-ray, Urine, BP, weight & height, eye-check,etc etc = RM60.00. cheaper than the one i did for university entre.

i went to the damai service hospital. the nurses were all OK and super NICE. the one you can see when you go for private hospital. i can't review the government nurses since i never went (admitted) to the government hospital, but i think everyone would not face any problem if you don't have any major attitude problem, isn't it? but i heard putrajaya's nurses baik-baik. mungkin sebab ramai pegawai kat situ kot jadi baik-baik. politik sungguh.

than pergi dating dengan ayah. went here and there , and we bought something. it cost him RM3k. thank you ayah (and mama). will work things out.

sayang, if you read this, this weekend please come to my house and see what have we bought. you will laugh your-sexy-ass-out but dont under estimate us okay?hikhik.

rasa best sangat tak kerja hari nie. entah kenape. tapi dapat email dari pegawai, cakap after meeting dia tak dapat any actions/materials from us. memang tak boleh la nak update kalau kerja lainnya pending. tapi i think the list of lecturers semua dah ade la kot. but yeah.

lately encik boyfriend sibuk jer. kesian jugak kat dia, penat kot, kadang2 weekend pun datang kerja (dan korbankan masa dating kitorang, WTF) padahal tak dibayar pun. but you know, as long as you like what you are doing, and kita buat kerja seikhlas hati, insyaAllah ada ganjarannya. kalau bukan di dunia, akhirat ada juga. untuk diri sendiri, sejak sebulan lalu kerja tak berapa nak ikhlas, tapi after 'that' incident, hati mula bersih dan tiada lagi amarah. tapi encik boyfriend selalu je kena marah pun tak berapa nak pasti la kenapa.heh.

bulan ni insyaAllah dapat gaji baru *cough* dan duit claim yang separuh dari gaji. bayar duit kereta, balance masuk ASB, bagi ayah and mama sikit, yang lain, arr..simpan jugak.tapi kan, encik boyfriend kata jam dia masuk air. kesian plak dia. jam waterproof tapi masuk air..macam mane?

yang ni cantik kan?

all black. teringat masa mula-mula jatuh cinta dengan dia dulu pun, because dia pakai jam hitam. he looked hot with the black watch on his wrist.

yang ni macam biasa jer. tapi sebab dia modern-looked with a sleek touch, should be okay.tapi i dont like the white thread. fossil so far tak la mahal sangat2 macam Guess and all that. tapi tu la,

tapi yang ni paling cantik. G-shock dah kuar sangat lama. tapi masih in-trend. range price dalam RM250 to RM1000. nak tak nak tak? tapi you nak ke, pergi ofis pakai jam macam nie? i okay jer, you looked smokin hot kot. tapi tak formal sangat la kan. but i loved it.untuk pompuan pun ade...*wink* klau nak, i buy la for you as birthday present. kalau taknak tunggu hantaran je la nanti. hahaha...

casio still my first choice. sebab casio dah lame in market, and dia memang master in analog and digital instruments. cash register, calculator.semua la.hrmm...

the best thing in life is when you can share your joy and happiness with someone you love. and yes, i enjoyed every minute im with him. tak kira la tengah bergaduh ke, tengah bercinta ke, having the thought of him back in my mind, is the greatest feeling ever. love you,and love you still.

Promoted..Alhamdulilah!

student boleh tahan memeningkan kepala. ada yang panggil teacher, ada yang panggil miss, ada jugak yang panggil Mem'. tapi paling tak boleh tahan diorang panggil Kak. but i don't care, as long as diorang tak panggil hoi ke, kau ke, i still can tolerate with that. but i prefer Mem, although im not married yet.

susah jugak bila class ada foreigners. i need to be extra careful, takut nanti semangat explain dalam BM, diorang tak faham. but so far so good. aihh, jadi tenaga pengajar ni kena yakin sikit walaupun ketiak basah-basah la jugak masa kelas 3 jam tadi. nasib keyakinan berada di tahap tertinggi.

tapi paling seronok bila dapat cuci mata tengok the boys. ada sorang tu memang i suka usha, especially masa i jadi invigilator hari tu. sekali masuk plak kelas i, lagi la semangat. he was the first one to asked me a question. tapi takut-takut jugak masa i suruh kira partial pressure kat whiteboard.

but then, kelas petang dari pukul 2 sampai pukul 3 petang i tunggu student, sorang pun tak datang. bukan nak SMS ke ape. hangin jugak i, tapi naseb i boleh bermalas-malas kat office. tapi sebab bermalas-malas la i jadi terlebih rindu kat encik bf.

anyway, i was promoted to be the Head of Science Programme, after 2 months kerja sana. that was quite fast right?but i guess i did very well, i mean the performance. tapi i tak cakap kat my collegues pasal promotions ni, sebab diorang lebih senior dari i and i taknak diorang kecik ati since ada konflik sikit. naik pangkat naik la gaji kan?so friends, i tau you guys nak wish congratulations, tapi tak payah la kat FB, nanti kantoi plak. you get what i mean?

encik bf, thanks for the wish tapi i had to delete all your comments okay??you can wish me with a kiss this saturday. afterall i open-table for you and gorgon also. damn i miss that cute guy. bring him over jugak dah cakap kan..

so, i hope in a next 5 years, i jadi Naib Canselor Universiti pulak ke, or better, i nak jadi Menteri di Kementerian Pendidikan, jadi boss kepada my bf (or husband) that time..kita tengok sape yang bossy lepas nie..hikhik!!

ps: nak apply for another job.

Birthday Celebration of a Gorgeous Man

hari ni adalah bukan hari yang lucky. i moved out from office at around 10 walaupun class start at 10am. faham sangat student mesti datang 30minit lambat. i don't care sebab if you pay that much amount of money and you are stupid enough not to study, sukahati. sampai class yang jauh dari office, pendrive 4GB itu tertinggal.

amik kat ofis patah balik gi class. sampai class kali ke-2, charger or cabel laptop takde dalam bag. entah lecturer mana yang bijak sangat tak letak balik lepas guna. then i went back to the office amik kabel. sampai ke class kali ke-3, cabel HP tu tak boleh pakai, rosak mungkin. rasa macam nak carut je tapi i sabar lagi. patah balik ofis amik cabel baru. sampai ke kelas kali ke-4, LCD punya control takde. i dah mula susun ayat nak carut, tapi thanks to one of the student jumpa the control beneath the chair.

lepas habis class, my friend SMSed cakap get ready for lunch. we already knew that a surprise birthday party will be held untuk big boss. so these were what he had untuk lunch tadi.

20 kotak regular sizes of domino's pizza! (ini mastermind dari i, nasib tak order pizza hut)

dalam 60 pieces of hot and spicy KFC chicken. damn, ini paling sedap!!

chocolate indulgence as a great dessert from Secret Recipe..slurrppss!!

then masa tengah-tengah makan tu, i macam biasa la mulut, tangan, kaki mana pernah nak duduk diam. i jalan sana, kacau orang ni, kacau orang tu, cuit food orang, kenal dengan staff yang hensem baru.

banyak lagi food lain macam chicken wing BBQ from dominos, twister bread, donut, egg currypuff and etc. tapi memang tak larat nak makan. i ate 2 pieces of pizza, seketul chicken KFC and 2 chicken wings, tu pun dah nak termuntah dah.

lepas tu masuk office mata dah mengantuk memang sedap kalau dapat golek-golek. ingat nak ngelat kat surau, tapi rasa hina pulak pergi sana bukan nak sembahyang nak tido.

i enjoyed every moment of that since i was accompanied by a bunch of great friends and great foods too!!

ps: happy besday boss!!i dengar i dapat increament??really??yeay!!

Workload

okay. dah 3 kali ni buat different posts. apa nak jadi pun tak tau la.

anyway, encik bf adalah sangat menggembirakan hati. i love him day by day. i missed him even after we met. and i just need him in my life. i really do.

dahla nak tidor. esok nak prepare presentation plak and prepare questions.

• BKA
• CHM
• BIO
• SC

oh shoot!

Stim??oh wow..

esok boss nak belanja steamboat (kot) atas sebab kitorang sangat hardworking lately especially the other department of mine. diorang yang generate income of the company and our job is to maintain the Customer Service of our clients and future clients perhaps.

esok rasanya lebih baik kita pakai baju kurung sebab perut boleh disorok di dalam baju kurung. kalau pakai skirt kemeja ke ape, macam obvious sangat je buncit tu nanti.

actually diorang dah pergi makan banyak kali without me. diorang non-muslim so selalu pergi kedai jual khinzir, arak dan sebagainya which kita (muslim) tak boleh makan. so perhaps this time around clean and clear la tempat dia.

eee....tak sabar sangat!!

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This is The Time

actually i wanted to give 'this is it' as the title of this entry, tapi kang ada orang claim michael jackson punyer final autobio movie dia plak, so with a slight changed i bagi la tajuk lain.

so, as the clock strike 12 which i suppose dah masuk hari baru, i don't get any answer regarding one of the most influencial question in my life, so things are not going to be the same again after this. you know, i had planned my life as what i want, because i don't want to waste any time, effort, feelings, etc etc although i know Allah has already plotted them for me. it was just a simple request as i thought all this while, this is what it was supposed to be. but no, it wont happen. and im tired, tunggu for nothing. i've decided to make it on my own. and i was quite ASHAMED with myself sebab i want it so badly but in the end, takde pape.the problem is, macam mana nak bagitau my family. i dah crack kepala fikir ayat yang paling sopan and less hurting. but maybe, the simplest answer should be, "tak tahu..". tapi so annoying kan?

regarding to that, at least i know lepas ni nak buat apa. sebenarnya sama jer klau the above matters jadi pun, cuma it should be a happy leaving, tapi now neutral leaving.

anyway, gaji tak masuk lagi. ingat nak beli nombor baru plus handphone. since ayah sangat baik hati to pay in advance and pay him back secara installment without any interest, sekarang masih tercari-cari handphone yang WORTH it. paling penting mesti ada wifi. HR cakap, kalau gaji bagi awal-awal nanti staff lari. sangat siot dia berkata begitu. by the way, kenapa iphone sangat mahal?tiba-tiba terminat..T_T

i read a book regarding personality, and i began to accept myself, and i began to realized my strengths and weaknesses. and sekarang, i took my work as what i am good at (strength) and perbaiki kelemahan. kelemahan tak tau ape sebab tak habis baca..haha!

tadi kat ofis best gila. masuk 9.30, boss datang lambat so dalam pukul 10 baru on desktop. lepas tu borak-borak, catch-up news nak dekat 12, itupun bos yang ajak okay. lepas tu baru buat kerja. MQA's coming so banyak documents nak kena handle. finished sorting at 2.30pm. lepas tu boss ajak bayar saman, pergi la balai polis. sekali ramai gila que up, balik la dengan hampa. tapi tak hampa sangat la sebab boss belanje sundae McD and tak hampa sangat sebab dapat bermain mata dan bertukar senyuman dengan abang polis. sampai ofis dalam 3.30pm, i masuk pantry makan. oh, i memang selalu tapau lauk rumah, selain jimat ia jugak sedap. habis makan pukul 4pm. lepas tu bukak email chatting dengan my friend, pasal love crisis. dalam 5.30pm habis.jangan ingat i tak buat kerja, tangan i cekap bermain computer (thanks to dinner dash) so multitasking bebeh! berhenti tea time, borak-borak dengan boss sampai pukul 6. buat kerja situ sana sikit, 6.15pm off desktop, ready nak balik. turun bawah sampai depan mesin puncher, pukul 6.28pm. memang la tak boleh punch. masuk board room, tengok view cantik gila, keluar balik punched tepat 6.30pm. terus balik.

so im beginning and trying to love my job. tapi esok dah start teaching, mesti busy sangat. T_T

okay nak tido.selamat malam.

ps: i was in love and i forgot what it feels like when you were in love.

Okay, will do!

nampaknye im beginning to write again. selalunya i take about 5 to 30 minutes to finish an entry depending on my mood and the surroundings. i have almost 10 great entries that should be posted out tapi i couldn't help but keep them in the draft, sebab too sensitive to some people, maybe mengaibkan a few people and etc. i don't want to hurt anyone whether directly or indirectly.

i made a few good things today and i felt proud with myself and i felt good about it, actually. i don't have to mention it or maybe later (indirectly) but yeah, it's good when you did something nice. in that case, you know that for your entire life, that this very one day, was a day when you did something good, kalau nak compare dengan hari-hari yang mendosa je lebih. kan?

staff ramai cuti due to x-mas and office seems so bored. and exam a day before christmas?gila sangat tak respect kepada penganut agama kristian. they all pon need time to be with the family, deco the house, sama macam kita buat preparation for Aidulfitri, Deewali, Gong Xi Fa Chai. what would you feel if others do this exact thing to you? esok i keje sampai pukul 10 malam. i rasa hari-hari sebelum hari jumaat, i need to work until 10 pm everyday. which is good because by the time i get home, i wil be penat like damn and terus tido.

lapar?tak sangat but im craving for these:

kan??sedapnyer.....i never was a big fan of satay from kajang since the first time i ate them at the age of 8. the satay tak well-done, not juicy enough, the marinated satay never that great, kuah kacang not suit my taste. senang cakap, satay from that infamous place never up to my standard.

bila i pindah to my place, i found a very nice and humble kedai tepi jalan, owned by a very old malay makcik with his son (never meet her husband btw) which apparently he was my senior during school. he is so like mat rempit but the thing is, he helped her mom like everyday to jaga the stall. it change my perception you know. rempit=bad. rempit jual satay tolong mak= sweet enough. sometimes his friends pun hang around, tak tau la menolong, atau tolong menyusahkan. ehehe...eh, jauh menyimpang! oh the satay sangat sedap sangat sangat sangat sedap that i love it very much. kadang-kadang tapau, kadang-kadang makan kat kedai dia. and it was cheap too. totally worth it!

so, weekend's coming. again-movies, satay (night only), and domino's for lunch! sementara tunggu gaji masuk, kita habeskan duit yang ada dulu..=)

ps: things are not the same. we are not young and i can't no longer be the same, if you are not the same person i used to know.

Belum Cuti-Plan Dah Ada

why life should have such drama? why on earth people loves drama rather than doing your own work and behave as such you are in a professional manners. i thought working with that kind of tribe je ada masalah macam nie, tapi working in this type of tribe pon lebih kurang jer. it is exhausting and i really don't like when everytime the drama's are on air. you get what i mean? and it could be worse.

but i really enjoying myself at work. i take my everyday job as something that i LIKE to do, not something that i HAVE to do. two different meanings but with the same goal- finishing your job. i suka waktu pagi, where i am equip with full energy, charged from a very good night sleep the night before. i love waking up in the morning (if i have something to do) but i HATE waiting until the nights come. i bole bangun seawal 5pagi untuk mula kerja, but bila time tunjuk pukul 5 petang, i mula jadi macam kanak-kanak nampak aiskrim berserta happy meal, all excited to get home. nasib baik, i heard that my class usually sampai pukul 5 je since malam ACCA will start off their classes.

my place takde orang melayu. kalau ade pon, wayy to junior. so i am hoping, starting january, the management akan hire orang melayu *ehem*. selain i memerlukan seseorang untuk menyegarkan mata i, i juga memerlukan teman berbual (communication barrier due to different nationality) dan juga teman makan waktu lunch.err, bukan i tak suka keluar dengan my friends, tapi it will be merrier kalau ada someone yang macam kita. yela, boleh share tempoyak bila dia amik sambal belacan.

tadi one of the lecturer stop by and gave us a whole chocolate cake. tak tau la sebab lapar ke ape, but the cake was awesome, sedap! ada lagi separuh kat office, hopefully takde la anak-anak semut yang buat party Zouk kat situ, memang mintak spray je la kan. she was nice actually. her face is like so garang you know, so i macam biasa double standard la kan. turned out, she is super nice! muka garang tapi baik takpe. jangan muka hodoh perangai pon ikut hodoh, such a *****.

anyway, lagi beberapa hari nak new year!!mesti fun kalau dapat celebrate dengan orang yang paling kita sayang. to give me such a warm hug and says, "i am happy to go through these years with you and i can't wait to have another year with you..". and yes, i don't get it this year. but i already have my new year's resolution. sounds pretty amazing.

my married friend asked me, "how many times you wish i love you to your love one?". i said every second if i can, but usually everytime the conversation between us stop, and out of nowhere pun i boleh cakap camtu. it shouldn't have reasons or rules. when you feel like you want to express your feelings, do it!she said i am oh so romantic..

esok kerja and baju belum gosok. kalau malas, i pakai baju kurung since paling senang nak gosok. if extra rajin, i pakai la kemeja and seluar/skirt. by esok, tinggal lagi satu hari je keje but i have to work until 10pm. part time job kan.

sabtu?my family nak pergi jenjalan but i am too lazy so i decided to stay at home, mintak duit sikit kat mama, and will order dominos pizza and eat them all by myself sambil tengok HBO or any DVD's available.

sounds great for Christmas? i don't celebrate Xmas but thanked PM for giving us public holiday. i always support you PM..muah muah!

Bangun lambat tak bererti lambat

i was late to office this morning because i woke up late. usually my sweet childish sleep ended at 7.30am plus a 10mins of snooze. but tadi, at 8.13am baru bangun. i was rushing like mad and managed to arrived at the lrt putra around 8.35am. uh'huh.....with no make-up on. mana sempat nak pakai eyeliner and dapped a blusher pon. i looked like a mess.

upon arriving at the office, my stomach growled. not because i'm hungry, err..well part of it, but semalam i ate a whole pack of siput sedut or it's scientific name - Cerithidea obtusa . especially bila masak lemak cili padi memang terbaik. so anyway, any sea food dish there's always one yang busuk. i guess i've ate the bad one, so perut sangat sakit. sampai je office, okay you know what the hell i was doing, no need to elaborate on that.

the best thing was, the office has a new look. my boss and other collegues arranged our office to be a better place. more spacious. they moved the student's file's cupboard into my big boss room, they arranged the tables, so our place become spacious enough for us untuk buat kenduri pon. we even have a new stronger chairs.thanks to them!

things are not going well between us-the collegues. i don't know why. we were good and close before this, but now, ermm...things were not the same. i don't know what my mistakes,i don't know what i did to make them do this kind of thing to me. and i don't know if they treated me like this just because the boss is quite keen to me although i am the freshman compared to them. but if i did anything wrong, i am sorry. i don't mean it that way.im just want to do my job.

i went surfing through the net,to have a backup plan called "D-Plan". i am saving my money and time for February's big event, but if the event is cancelled, im gonna use my money and time for September's event. i don't wanna waste any money AND time no more.

i was shocked to see that my money susut already. In conclusion, i am suck at money handling. so no handphone, no laptop, and no camera.

i don't know how you managed to buy that oakley's sunglasses. it was damn expensive man!btw, you looked sexy in it mr.boyfriend..lalala~

Perangai Students During Exam

they always and sure will make me laugh vigorously (in heart) everytime when i in charged or become the invigilator. macam-macam betul. and it makes me wonder, adakah saya juga begitu kelihatan clumsy, honest, nerd, etc etc.

Perangai #1: Best Student.
kalau best student with good CGPA okay jugak la, ni answeer sheet pon penuh separuh tapi muka buat muka confuse atau tak pun, buat muka tekun nak jawab exam siap tulis and kira-kira kat langit, kira macam sebok sangat la sampai calculator pon tak cukup sampai nak tulis kat langit. macam nampak jer. masalahnyer everytime i looked at him,dia buat macam tu. maybe nak tunjuk sangat dia menjawab soalan lebih tekun berbanding orang lain. whatever.

Perangai #2: Loves the tree
Ini kes mintak answer sheet, macam father (lebih sopan berbanding bapak) dia punya company. i really don't mind at all about who's paying for the papers, but I DO CARE for how much the trees that's need to be cut down to make the papers. masalahnya, dia bukan tulis penuh dengan answer and kalau silap terus keronyokkan ke apa, ni lukis 'love-love' sikit, keronyok.tulis nama dengan matrix number tak cantik pon, keronyok. lagi satu masalah, exam hall besar. ke depan ke belakang i hantar answer sheet-penat. so please make it useful rather than conteng your bf's name and keronyok.

Perangai #3: Gorgeous!
untuk students yang rasa diri diorang hot. truly said, lelaki dan perempuan sama je. perempuan biasalah, sentiasa rasa hot jer. tapi kalau lelaki pon nak rasa hot jugak-susah. yes i know, i always looked (or checked) on you, sebab yela kau memang undeniable hensem, tapi janganlah kau usha aku je macam saje nak bagi aku tengok lagi betapa hensemnya kau.i have a bf for god's sake..hahaha!!so kira i yang duduk tak senang. i tak tau whether i pandang dia sebab dia hensem, atau sebab dia pakai kasut Lacoste dengan jam G-shock tu, and t-shirt putih with levis..all my favourite. tapi dia memang hot stuff. sayang cuma bukan ISlam.

Perangai #4: Tak sedar Diri
tak nak mengata, tapi kalau asal kau dari negara orang kulit hitam and tempat kau memang all the time panas matahari, and resemble safari, jangan nak mengada sangatlah nak suruh aku TUTUP air-cond sebab kau feeling cold, hanya lepas kau baru duduk 5 minit?? lelaki kot. cakap dahla bajet British accent.

Perangai #5: Paling Ternakal
masuk exam hall, bising-bising, datang paling lambat, keluar awal. nak keluar siap say goodbye to the whole people kat exam hall. rasa nak baling jer heels 3 inch ni kat dia. pastu bila dah bagi warning jangan bercakap, dia cakap lagi dengan kawan dia. pastu pandang-pandang aku konon macam aku suka sangat la perangai macam tu. sekali bagi dia muka paling garang, dia dah jeling-jeling konon menyampah la dengan tak ter-cool-nya cik invigilator ni. padan muka. so what.

cuma satu baiknya cik invigilator nie, dia suka bagi jawapan kat budak exams. maths salah kira, dia tolong hampir kesemuannya. paper english present past tense, progressive past tense semua dia tolong.even how the virus spread paper computer yang bukan dia punya pon dia tolong jugak. business statistic yang ada sikit-sikit dengan statistic dia dulu pon dia tolong jugak.

tak tau la kot bila dia jaga budak-budak forensik ni, dia yang duduk terus kat meja tu tolong jawab.

Work Day #40

nak masuk bulan kedua kerja di tempat baru, gosip-gosip liar, office's affair, backstabbing,mula kedengaran di sana sini. since i'm not working with malays, and the only malay there is me, so to potray the best's malay ever, i would never (still trying) behave as such that ramai orang cakap melayu ni suka menfitnah and batu lesung, eh i mean fire stone-batu api katenye. and me, hanya duduk di table, dengar perbualan mereka dalam bahasa asing yang hanya term2 tertentu yang my brain receptor bole react, and smile and wave. cewahh..macam queen pulak. anyhow, it is their problem, so better still biar diorang yang deal with it.

setiap kali lunch, boss suka ajak kita. boss kita yang bukan melayu tu sangat sangat suka makan makanan melayu. masa dia belajar kat UM dulu, ramai kawan melayu, so dah terbiasa sangat. makanan ibunda pandang sebelah mata je. walaupun kadang-kadang jer boss belanja lunch, tapi boss suka beli side dish. macam fruits la rojak la. paling suka kalau pukul 5 dia ajak jalan-jalan pergi beli karipap atau cheese cake. dia bayarkan, so setakat temankan apa adehal. walaupun dia berlainan bangsa, suka bebenor dia ajak kita.

ada satu penyarah nie, dia suka sangat tegur kita. masa jaga exam hari tu, siap dia cakap kat students, "if you have any problems, just ask this nice lady here (merujuk kepada saya), and she will call me." tapi dia memang baik pon. just for the records, i caught two students cheating during exam. my boyfriend said im so not cool, and to just give them a chance. sorry sikit k? i never cheat during exam, i mean final exam k. so it is just not fair to others. strict eh?

oh, my part time job started last week, and the work started yesterday. it was okay. since im having cough and flu, it was not okay then. but i managed to do it, shall i say-perfectly? bragginnngggggg!!!ha ha ha.

isnin kerja. truly said, i missed my life as a student. and yes, tipu sangat bila orang kata dah pegang duit taknak continue study. money is nothing to me compare to having free time and less pressure. err...money is nothing to me when the boyfriend pays everything...lalalala~

kasut purple

berbaju ayu purple ditambah dengan kasut purple heels 5inch berambut ikal mayang jalan dengan penuh yakin dari train station ke ofis. gaya penuh anggun klasik sambil mendengar mp3 player sony berwarna pink, gaya moden wanita golongan elit. sampai ofis seawal setengah jam dari waktu punch card, memang gaya pekerja berdedikasi. masuk lift dan terus punch card, pegi ke cafeteria untuk 'breakfast'.

sampai ofis setelah setengah jam berlalu, boss pun sampai. "good morning miss XX" dengan gaya selamba penuh rasa hormat. no wonder boss senang dengan pekerja yang satu ini.

"miss FF, can you take the question paper from the XX room, and go to building YY?we have exam at 10.00". jam pukul 9.30.

perempuan berbaju purple ayu bergaya elit terus tepuk dahi, "wth la wehhh..!!". building YY to jauhhhh kot!".

*scroll atas*

5inch kan punye ksaut??tak blist plak kau jalan laju gila macam lumba jalan siap bawak kotak macam 5kg ada question paper pastu nak kena jalan and set up exam hall in 30 minutes??are you kidding me??

memang yakin dan pasti blister la lepas tu. hangin jugak. cadang duduk office hari ini buat kerja-kerja amal edit and add marks and everything. last-last the whole day jaga exam. lunch pada pukul 5.30pm. lapar tahap rasa nak makan meja kat situ.

5.30 balik ofis, pergi cafe makan for 30 minutes. dan godek pc sini sana sikit, 6.15 ciao. heaven betul. penat tapi okayla. met new people and new students.

oh, monday and wednesday ni cuti?tapi kenapa?








it's my CONVOCATION DAY...horeyy!!