Beza mengandung anak lelaki dengan perempuan

Hi semekom. hari ni nak share beza nya masa i mengandung anak perempuan dengan anak lelaki. sebab dah merasa ada dedua boleh la share kan. hihi maybe lain ibu, lain anak, lain ragam nya. so jangan stress, jangan sibuk nak compare dengan orang lain, ingat satu benda je, kita nak anak kita sihat dan selamat dilahirkan.

1. Anak perempuan
- perut mengembang ke kiri dan ke kanan. kira dari depan tak nampak pregnant, tapi nampak gemok. sorry. hahaha...perut slightly kecik dari mengandung anak lelaki. so memang i takde keluar stretch marks.
Anak lelaki
- perut memanjang ke hadapan. . dari depan tak nampak pregnant, dari tepi, hello....perot macam nak meletop dah. hahaha... perut slightly besar. well hello stretch marks. T_T

2. Anak perempuan
- i only vomit twice or 3 times sepanjang pregnant
Anak lelaki
- i only vomit once.

3. Anak perempuan
- baby quite active dalam perut. especially dah nak dekat EDD.
Anak lelaki
- kurang active. active bila mommy lepas makan jer. haha...

4. Anak perempuan
- kaki muka tangan mommy semua bengkak seawal bulan ke 6. water retention yang sangat teruk tak boleh nak solat macam biasa. i guna kerusi untuk solat. hence, kaki naik one size bigger.
Anak lelaki
- kaki je bengkak itu pun 2 minggu sebelum EDD pastu dia dah surut. hence solat adalah seperti biasa throughout pregnancy. suka sangat.

5. Anak perempuan
- mommy suka sangat makan benda manis macam chocolate and cakes. kalau takde stok kat umah, mommy sanggup makan roti sapu butter buh gula.
Anak lelaki
- mommy suka sangat makan pedas. selagi tak pedas rasa tak puas.

6. Anak perempuan
- max weight mommy increased adalah 25kg
Anak lelaki
- max weight mommy increased adalah 15kg

7. Anak perempuan
- tanda bersalin= tumpah darah. just a tiny dot of blood in the toilet bowl. tak sakit.
Anak lelaki
- tanda bersalin = tumpah darah. blood show siap macam ada selaput darah keluar sekali. darah meleleh ke lantai. tak sakit.

8. Anak perempuan
- mommy muka bersepah, tak bermakeup, and malas nak keluar jenjalan.
Anak lelaki
- mommy cecantik, rajin, sampai a day before bersalin pun siap mop rumah bagai.

9. Anak perempuan and anak lelaki
- both pregnancy takde sakit2 ke, lemah2 ke.
- both pregnancy tak kerap kencing

10. Anak perempuan
- took like 3 hours punya contraction, 3 kali push, 3 stitches.
- contraction adalah mild.
Anak lelaki
- took like 2 hours punya contraction, 1 kali push, 1 stitches
- contraction sangatlah intense rasa macam nak mati. hahahaa....seriously.

11. Anak perempuan
- baby lahir 3.31kg / normal delivery
Anak lelaki
- baby lahir 3.34kg / normal delivery

so itu lah bezanya. macam mana nak dapat anak lelaki or anak perempuan? hahaha...i rasa i tau tapi aishh...segan la nak cakap. itu u ols google la sendiri, ada je diorang dah bagitau. hahaha..

apa-apa pun...x kisahlah anak lelaki or anak perempuan, mereka tetap amanah Allah yang kita kena jaga sepanjang hayat kita. take care mommies!

Kejap

Assalammualaikum.
Yes, i'm back!haha...sebab dah start maternity leave. i just take 1 month early from EDD because i have my master exams and also, well to equip myself (and my mind) to have a second baby of my own.

so anyway, yesterday we (me and friends) had a study group at my university. can you imagine, me-being pregnant at 36 weeks, bawak bag pack and go for a study group? lawak ok...dengan mengah2 nyer..ahaha...janji kul 11am but i managed to skip to go for my routine check up, and i waited for 3 hours ok. ni paling lama i pernah tunggu kat government hospital.phewww...nak free kan, telan je la...kalau nurse tu ngelat ke, ngulor ke, ikhlas ke tak, itu between dia dengan bos dia dengan Allah. siapa la kita nak mempertikaikan...last i sampai university pukul 2.30pm.

what did i get from the study group?a lot. repetitive question. format of answer / answer scheme. best kan? memudahkan kita nak study. husband? biasa la. skeptical. dia kata dulu dia study sorang2 je boleh dapat cgpa 4.0. kan i cakap, husband i tu alien....hahahaha...i tak tau la dia buat apa, makan nota dia kot jadik pandai camtu.

orang biasa2 macam i, haruslah kena baca nota 14 juta kali.haha...

Okay, nanti i sambung lagi k. sebab nak print notes dengan exam papers. ala korang...macam la tak pernah jadi student dulu...muuaahh!!

Hello There Baby

baru lepas bayar all the credit cards, mainly for citibank. nyesal plak apply hari tu sebab dia bagi 4 sekali credit card. lupa walapun free for life, government tax rm50 kene bayar jugakkan. so total ada 7 credit card sekarang termasuk 1 supplementary. im going to decline 4 tinggalkan 3 jer. husband kata susah nak managed nanti. sometimes he is totally right. ;)

anyway, i nak buat official announcement sebab i tau takde siapa yang akan baca blog ni melainkan a few friends yang entah bukak lagi ke tak blog i, hahaha....and readers yang kemungkinan tak kenal who am i. but i tau siapa yang kenal i, tak mungkin akan war-warkan cerita ni sebab i tak kasi *garang*. hikhik...

well anyway, i dah 5 months pregnant!! wahahaha...dalam pada taknak tu, tersangkut pulak. what more can i say melainkan ALHAMDULILAH. i dah tau i pregnant dari mula lagi, but bak kata orang2 tua, awal2 jangan dihebahkan dulu. sekarang pun taknak hebahkan jugak, that's why i just cakap kat sini. sebab this pregnancy is more interesting than masa sophea.

The Start
oh well, memang kitorang planned nak tunggu sophea dah besar, around 5 or 6 untuk ada the second baby. me and husband were already discussed upon this matter and agreed to wait until the right time to have second baby. but before this thing happened, husband pernah cakap, "is it normal to feel jealous when our friends are having their second baby?". i dah gelak-gelak masa tu (gelak campur ketiak basah, amendelah  dia merepek nie...adoiii). i cakap, "well, some people do. but i dont. kenapa?". dia tak jawab, dia senyum jer. cehh..kurang asam.

Fyi, we dont use family planning pils or etc, we do it natural way because i learned, stopping yourself from being pregnant not due to health problems is HARAM. so kitorg just lari2 dari ovulation day.

The Beginning of the Story
tapi i tau sesuatu akan terjadi bila i lambat sehari dari tarikh sepatutnya i have my period. darn....  i pergi beli pregnancy test secretly, and try at night, same macam masa sophea, 8.30 pm. and there it was, the second purple line next to the control line. oh well, hello there....hahahaha...

i punya menggigil la, and when i wait for encik husband to come home, we sat quietly on our comfort bed, and telling him i am pregnant, dia pun terkejut and tak percaya. the first question coming from him was, "macam mana boleh pregnant?". i rasa macam nak tumbuk muka dia right that moment.

"macam mana boleh pregnant? i pegi carefour tadi beli ikan, pastu balik tetiba dah pregnant". ha kan...soalan tak beragak. hahahaha.

lepas tu i menangis. sebab i looked at him. he doesnt look very happy. tapi i silap, i lupe muka husband i memang cenggitu. hahaha...muka keras jer. yela, dalam movie kan, nanti husband hug bini dia, buat bulatan, pastu nangis sesama...hahaha....silly me.

Pregnancy Symptom
none. dulu masa sophea, in record muntah dalam 3 kali jer sepanjang 9 bulan. adik beliau,in record, takde. alhamdulilah. cuma masa sophea i love sweet food, desserts especially. chocolate, cake, pavlova, aaaa semua tu i makan.

this time around i suka makan pedas and a lot of sushi. dessert pun takde

 Boy or Girl 
yet to be known. still small. tapi doc ade say something about it. im just blessed. this baby will come out insyaallah dalam bulan 6 2015. doakan saya sihat dan dipermudahkan yer.

Rezeki
betul bila Allah kata setiap anak ada rezeki masing2. kitorang risau jugak kalau tak dapat cater all the babies need kan. tapi:

1. mommy dapat increment in salary
2. daddy naik pangkat
3. daddy dapat beli rumah and we will be moving in, in 2017

just too surreal for me.

to husband, i just pray that Allah will keep our family together sayang. dalam susah dalam senang, we will always be here for each other. we had been through so much, and i dont think other people will survive that. i just rasa bersyukur bersyukur and bersyukur on what we have today, and on what we stand on now.i just love you and our babies so so much.

"there is no perfect family. but together we can make it perfect "

Ready for second baby?

nope. i'm not pregnant. hahaha.... it is just the question of "when are we going to have our second baby?" comes lingering in my mind (lately!). is was not like i-want-the-baby-now kind of thing,like really. it was just like, a thought, a question and that's all. because definitely we want more than one child of our own. right? of course, my husband did once or twice asking 'us' the same question but not in a kind of serious tone. but by listening to that coming out from his mouth, giving me butterflies in the stomach. hahaha...

a happy one yea, bukan yang cuak. haha.. means i've done a good job of being a mother that makes him goes, "my lady, she's an awesome mom! so i want another one with her.." hahahaha...

anyway, we didn't take any medicine to suppress the objective of getting pregnant, we just do it our own way. preventing the ovulation days etc etc. for us, being pregnant is an ultimate gift from Allah, so why bother stopping Him? because you can't my dear. kun fa ya kun. semua atas izin Allah. so for us, kalau Allah nak bagi, either we are ready or not, we have to do it. our responsibilities. Amanah Allah. jadi kena la jaga kan?

it's the fact that we have to wake up early, sleeping deprives, costing on milk and diapers etc etc make us wonder whether are we financially and emotionally stable for our second baby. for my side, it is more to emotional stability. penat kot.

but the thought of getting the best smell in the whole world, bau baby... bau masam susu dia, hearing the baby's cry, those tiny little fingers, the innocent look on their faces, the act of trying to 'burp' them...ahhh...those priceless experiences that actually make us mom coming back for more children. sobs.... i just reminisced the early days of me and baby sophea. how tiny she was. hihi...

so if you asked me, have i or havent i be ready for our second baby? ermm..it's a NO. hihi..i have plenty of things need to be learn as a mother of one. studying the pattern and trying to deliver the best that i can to be a good mom. while on the husband's side, he did a tremendous job of being a handsome father. he had give so much love to baby sophea since day one. i couldn't ask for more.

The Day Sophea Was Born

i haven't tell you (or a record) of a story of how baby pie a.k.a baby sophea was actually born, kan? hikhik...fret not, it wasn't much of a dramatic side. i guess i am lucky (alhamdulilah!) that i get pregnant after 3 months married, i don't have serious morning sickness that, i can count of how many times did i threw up (3 or 4 times??), and delivering baby sophea was easy as 1, 2, 3. but after the delivery, during confinement was tough. tough as in i thought i can never be a good mother to baby sophea. but again, i managed to pull myself together to be strong for her.

the DAY!
i memang selalu akan bangun at around 4.am to urinate. kate pun pregnant. when you are pregnant, toilet is your ultimate best friend. so anyway, i masuk toilet, look at my panties; ok nothing unusual there - wee-wee and when i washed it down there, the water looked kinda red (red as in blood color). it was 5 days before my due date, so i guess "this is it!!". although i dont feel any pain or whatsoever, but deep inside my heart i know she's ready to see the world!

waking up daddy
i took almost 10 minutes to wake up encik husband. im quite worried whether is he ready?? and also i taknak dia like super terkejut and ruin everything...hahaha. so i took my own sweet time brushing my teeth, combed my hair, and tukar baju. then only i kejut him. and oh yes, dia memang terkejut. hahaha!! he changed into sweater and jeans like super fast and a second before we were out of our bedroom, he said,

"sayang....sempat tak i gosok gigi??".

haha...lawak gila. of course la boleh sebab i bukan sakit pon.

driving to the hospital
the weather was calm but chilled. maybe bukan sejuk mane pon but the nervousness yang i rasa makes it like sejuk gila. apparently, encik husband pon rasa. traffic was so clear. takde sebijik kereta pun, so i guess it was a smooth driving. tak sampai 30minit kitorang dah sampai hospital.

at the hospital
ada sorang abang je tengah tunggu wife dia kot. no nurses at the counter that i had to ring the bell. after registration and all, i was admitted. the nurse put on a machine to monitor the baby's heartbeat and also to check upon my contraction. according to them, there were a mild contraction but i don't feel a thing.

the doctor had to breaks my waterbag, then only i felt the contraction. i was ready in the labour room at around 6.45am. had a 30minutes contraction, and at around 8.15am baby sophea was born. my servix had already opened by 2cm when i first came in. when i was in the labour room, the doctor said i was already opened by 6cm. then it was 9 cm, and when my doctor (my specialist) came into the labour room, i was ready for a push.

the push
it was easy, but it wasn't as hurting as what people said. tapi, setiap orang ada rasa sendiri, setiap orang ada sakit sendiri. in my opinion, labour pain wasn't that bad, and we (women) boleh je atasi sakit tu. serius rasa dia macam sembelit jer. the hardest part masa nak keluarkan kepala baby tu jer. but it wasnt that bad pun.

i dont take any epidural nor taking that laughing gas. i memang taknak sebab i nak experienced sendiri sakit bersalin tu macam mana. and i did it!! and i am so proud of myself!

my husband
husband was with me all the time. in the labour room, he recited the yasin for my easy delivery. he hold my hands with every contraction i had.he helped me with every push i've done. if it wasn't him, i'll be all alone not knowing what to do. he is my strength and i thanked god for lending him to me. i need him. and i need him alot. when baby sophea was out, he azan-ed her. it was a sweet moment looking at both of them. and i started to love both of them so much from then on.

see??

no jerit2 onee....hehehehe....anyway, confinement was tough. nanti kita cerita la the experience. but now im okay and fully recovered. i baca banyak ayat ni untuk kekuatan.

"lailahillah anta subhanaka inni kuntu minnazzolimin..."

Of Being Young Father

Rasa lega sangat weekend hari tu dah siap gosok baju encik husband. bukan ape, dah alang-alang nak dekat due date ni, takot jugak baby pie semangat nak tengok dunia ni cepat, siam plak encik husband nak gosok baju sendiri kan. ala, sebenarnye boleh je die gosok sendiri, die pun cakap die akan gosok sendiri, tapi itu la kan, i myself yang manja kan dia sangat, berlemak sikit la beliau tu. hihhihi...

hari tu encik husband offer, "sayang nak iron baju dalam bilik tak?sejuk sikit..". sejuk la sikit sebab ada aircond kan. ok jer bertungkus lumus la encik husband, bawak iron, iron board, dengan spray baju masuk dalam bilik. sambil-sambil tu dia teman kat katil, borak-borak and all. sekali agaknya dia dok menjeling i yang tengah iron his clothes, then die cakap, "sayang tu, nampak ke iron tu?".

i was like, "ha?ape yang tak nampak?". rupenye perot i dah sampai kat baju yang nak di iron tu. hahaha... kuang asam sangat! i pun mula la bukak mukadimah, "i saje je iron dalam bilik ni, so that you nampak susah payah nye wife you yang tengah sarat mengandung pun boleh lagi iron baju u. bukan satu dua...nak dekat sepuluh helai ni..."

"yela sayang.....hahahaha!!". kesian. baru romantik2 nak teman wife iron, kena sebutir. hikhik...but he knows me better. die tau i takkan buat something tu kalau i tak suke, or tak larat. tapi encik husband cakap, "nak tunggu sayang tu tak larat, sampai dah beranak pun larat je lg..."..selagi mampu kita buat la sendiri. nanti kalau asyik depend dengan orang lain je, orang pandang rendah dengan kita. =)

kalau nak ikot kan, i have like 15 days to go for my EDD. tapi selalu first baby orang cakap keluar awal, eh? ke lambat? i dont know, but i am going to take my maternity leave starting next week, which will be 2 weeks earlier. you know why? bukan i nak sangat cuti (prfttt...!!), tapi encik husband keep pestering me untuk cuti.

bayangkan lah tiap pagi kul 6.30am camtu kejut dia suh bangun, dia akan lilitkan tangan dia all over my body, pastu bagi nasihat-nasihat yang tak patut di pagi hari macam, "sayang cuti eh hari ni?boleh bangun lambat.." followed by a cheeky kiss on my cheek. or dia akan cakap, "sayang cuti la...penat dah keje kan...". sambil buat-buat sambung tidur. or kalau die bengang sebab i macam tak layan die, he will say " sayang tu setia sangat dengan company tu, ape die bagi pun...". hahahaha....

adoi la....ade je pengaruh tak baik die.but i felt so wanted by him. macam die tu susah nak lepaskan i pagi-pagi gi kerja, or knowing that actually he loves to spend the extra minute every morning on the bed doing nothing except having me sleeping next to him. ada sekali tu, that both of us dah bangun awal, tapi tu la, main peluk-peluk camtu, sudahnye bangun at 7.15am. hahahaha...padahal nak kene keluar rumah kul 7.30am. hikhik...but it was a fun moment, pastu dua2 pun gelak all the way to office.

i just hope that the feelings (of being wanted) between us will grow each and every day. he's everything i have and my life depends much on him. siapa yang dah kahwin tu tau la rasa dia. tak sama macam masa bercinta. kalau masa bercinta tu, asyik la nak berkepit, lepas kahwin ni, bukan je rasa nak berkepit, rasa taknak gi kerja pun dah ada dah. hahahaha.....which is very very bad!!jangan tanamkan perasaan macam tu dalam jiwa kita, buruk padahnye.hahaha...

cuma ada sekali tu, i rasa terharu sangat. sebab i tanya dia, "b, are you excited that we actually have our own baby, yang lagi a few days je ada dengan kita..." over dinner hari tu.

then he said, " masa mula-mula i tau you pregnant tu, i tak rasa pape. after a few months pun i biasa je. tapi now i excited sangat, and sekarang i dah nampak perut u, lagi la excited.." sambil dia kunyah-kunyah ikan goreng.

memang excited sangat. bangun tidur die akan usap perot i, then he wished "good morning [insert baby pie's name]...dah bangun ke sayang?". and on the way to the train station, sambil usap-usap perot i,die akan bagi nasihat kat baby, " [insert baby pie's name] jangan nakal-nakal tau..teman mommy pergi kerja tau...". it's kinda weird at first, but i guess a normal father would do that, isn't it?

finally, i just can't wait for baby pie to arrived, sebab i tak sabar nak bagitau baby pie that she has a great father (and awesome too!) who loves her so much and would do anything for her. he will cherish her and take a very good care of her. insyaAllah. cuma mommy agak risau, your daddy boleh ke tak bangun every 2 hour teman mommy bagi u makan. hikhik...boleh kan daddy? =)

Nak mintak maaf nie...

we had our monthly programme with the family (big family including nenek and uncles/aunties) to have our Yassin's Night. basically kalau ada family gathering (actually tiap minggu pun ada je perjumpaan macam makan-makan ke, celebration ke, kenduri-kendara ke), kitorang buat sekali sembahyang berjemaah ke, makan-makan, and celebration sekali macam birthdays and everything.

but semalam punya gathering inclusive:
1. birthday my sister in law
2. doa selamat for the arrival of my baby and sister in law punyer baby.
3. doa selamat untuk my sister and cousins kat all over the world yang sedang sibuk exam.
4. tahlil untuk ahli keluarga yang lain

so nenek buat for me pulut kuning and rendang daging paru limpa super sedap dengan bubur hitam putih (orang jawa selalu buat untuk doa selamat) untuk i menghadapi kelahiran. my uncle doakan bubur itu (jangan isu khurafat plak sebab doa kat bubur..hahaha) and i dengan sister in law makan dengan penuh doa supaya baby pie kitorang sihat dan proses kelahiran berjalan lancar.

menu for last night: KFC, nasi lemak bungkus, pulut kuning, rendang daging, roti john (we bought!), agar-agar merah, agar-agar santan laici, kek secret recipe, homemade red velvet cake, karipap, air sirap laici, sambal telur.

semua super sedap! =)

but there are things that i really touched by............ =)

encik husband,
sorry if i tak faham you balik kerja penat and all i want from you is your attention and undivided love. walaupun u penat, i kept on talking and kacau u as if a little girl wants the attention from the father. we had solat jemaah together and baca yassin sesama. it was a nice feeling wasn't it, although you kat depan and i kat belakang.=)

sorry i tak sempat nak amikkan you food and drinks and you went to the table all by yourself as my kaki hurt me the most nowadays. when i said "my foot hurts..." i really mean it and not being a cry-baby. and i don't even want you to rasa the sakit sebab it really hurts...especially time solat. i hope lepas baby pie keluar, it doesn't hurt me as much as right now. =)

sorry kalau selama i pregnant ni, i tak layan you as perfect as before. sebab kadang-kadang i nak bawak diri i pun tak larat, especially in the morning when i had to wake up to go to work. kalau ikot rasa hati, nak je i sambung tido and dengan you2 sekali i tarik tido, but i know kalau i buat macam tu, memang you takkan bangun...hehe...we don't want that negative attitude inherited by baby pie kan? 

oh, sorry kalau the house is not as clean as what you expected it to be, especially my bathroom. thank you sayang for spending the time and energy to clean up mine (and yours too!).

thank you semalam bukakkan jam i and all the wedding rings as i memang dah flat sangat2 that if you tak bukakkan pun, i would rather sleep than spending 30 seconds of my time bukak jam...thanks lapkan muka i dengan baby wipes (i bet kalau keluar jerawat lepas ni tau dah sebab ape)...i rasa semua yang you buat, tapi i can't even open my eyes.

sorry tak tunggu sayang nak tidur semalam, sebab the last thing i remembered was you entering the bathroom, and that's it! -_________-

sorry jugak tak sempat potongkan you mangga yang you nak tu, but i try to cut the mangga for you malam ni k?we spend the night watching movie kat living hall k as seminggu ni hari-hari kita keluar malam and balik rumah untuk tidur jer. sorry kalau you rasa i lack of kat mane-mane but everyday i tried so hard and berdoa yang i akan selalu menjadi isteri yang terbaik untuk u...=)

ok sayang...can't wait to meet you tonight...kite nak makan ape malam ni?=) i'll cook!

At 35 weeks of pregnancy

hari ni barang Ikea sampai! unfortunately sekarang ni Ikea's delivery man tengah hantar and assemble barang-barang tu kat rumah, and i am here, in the office, marking exam papers, and not knowing apa jadi kat rumah. nasib rumah tak bersepah, malu la orang datang (walaupun orang delivery jer), but it is people's perception about a person.

takkan la kalau rumah orang tu bersih, dia pengotor kan? sama jugak kalau rumah dia kotor, dia pembersih, kan? but the first statement orang tak kisah sangat, but statement no 2 kalau kita mention kat orang itu (rumah dia kotor), kita di panggil judgemental, right? right. dalam hidup ni, memang MANUSIA suka point out keburukan orang, instead of kebaikan orang.

tapi i try, (and im trying very hard) not to be this kind of people, this type. sangat tak baik. dalam Islam kan di ajar agar kita tak buka keaiban orang dan sentiasa berprasangka baik terhadap seseorang. biar Allah je yang balas kejahatan orang, bukan kita manusia. senang saja kalau berhadapan orang macam ni; jangan layan.

eh?jauh menyimpang ni.haha...

anyway malam ni tidur rumah mama. atok is at our house (atok is living with his wife (his wife after nenek passed away)), so mama suh kitorang balik as atok has been asking around where the hell is his cucus...hehehe...ye tok, kitorang balik ni. ni pun sebab nak main paintball esok. and esok juga i ada waxing session kat OU!wehooo...bestnyer!time to pamper myself. kalau ada duit lebih kita buat la sekali pedi and mani.

at 35weeks++, malam i hardly get a good sleep. mengah tiba-tiba datang. kalau baring, serious rasa ada tembikai susu dalam perut (kenapa nak kena tembikai susu???hahaha...). encik husband cakap tidur tak pelok. mak aihh...perot besar camni nak pelok apenye...peluk bantal terasa amat selesa sekali. like last night, i tidur dengan 3 bantal sekali harung. encik husband memang tidur jenis lying flat, bantal satu nipis, i memang jenis tidur bantal at least 2 keping. but now, i letak bantal tiga, lepas tu dirikan, so kira macam support la kat belakang.

bukan sebab i sakit pinggang ke apa, but sebab i dah tak boleh baring or mengiring. but im okay as long as baby okay.

and morning around 6am until 1pm, baby pie is really moving and kicking around. i rasa sebab space dah limited, so dia rimas. rimas la macam daddy dia, panas sikit tak boleh, orang ramai sikit tak boleh. but i wont allowed her to be cerewet like that. susah la.

anyway,there are a few items need to be add on for baby pie:
1. stroller
2. playpen / portable cot
3. baby carrier / baby wearing
4. set berpantang (eh ni bukan untuk baby pie, ni untuk mommy..hehehe...)
5. sterilizer and bottle warmer

and i've been asking and merengek kat encik husband suruh dia kumpul duit sebab i nak pergi Celebrity Fitness balik (gosh, i really missed my gym time...you know, looking at all the hot guys can boost up my confidence..err...to be like them la...hihihihhhi). so every month dia kena put aside dalam rm160. i ugut kalau dia tak kasi i pergi CF, i want to eat and ended up looking like a whale.hahaha....

orait. nak sambung buat kerja. hari ni encik husband amek kat office sebab i dapat hadiah untuk baby pie, and ada a few stuff i beli, and also hampers for tomorrow's paintball game, sponsored by me...hihihi!!

Baby Stroller

yer yer. i have been going back and forth and up and down the internet (wahh macam banyak sangat tugas dia kan..?) to do my research on finding the best, yet the ultimate baby stroller for my baby. dah nak masuk ke bulan 8 pregnancy baru la terhegeh-hegeh nak cari. excuse la sikit sebab en husband baru balik kursus, so susah i nak buat decision unless it's my money. dah duit i, ape-ape pun ok. tapi nama pun dah kahwin, kena la sefahaman, maka decision pun kena la buat sama-sama.

masa awal-awal pregnant dulu, memang i dah fokus dan yakin untuk amik stroller from MacLaren. entah kenapa. maybe sebab sturdy frame dia. banyak review cakap bagus. harga mahal and well-known brand, takkan la teruk kan? mestilah akan ada wear-and-tear nanti, but it takes awhile before that to happen. ada baca review, dia cakap dah 6tahun dia pakai elok je, cuma bahagian handle sebab made of foam, so dia pecah-pecah la. harga dalam RM700-RM2000.

then, tiba-tiba jatuh cinta sangat dengan Stokke. memang tersangat jatuh cinta dengan Stokke. hari-hari pun tengok je, sambil meleleh air liur.sebab tahu takkan mampu beli. eh mampu, mampu sangat sebenarnya, pastu kau jilat-jilat la tayar Stokke tu bagi kenyang. hahaha...harga dalam RM2500-RM5000.

then, ada plak Bugaboo, 4moms origami, quinny, britax, mothercare ,mamas and papas etc etc. selain tu, phil and teds pun penah la caught up my attention for awhile, especially yang baby jogger. ada yang macam affordable sikit macam silver cross dengan halford. pun tengok jela.

then husband cakap nak guna SCR. malaysian brand. i kalau malaysian brand ni laju je. semangat patriotik katanye. ahahaha...harga pun not bad. dalam RM200-RM900. tapi bila i pergi tengok kat JJ hari tu (sebab niat datang nak beli/add on barang baby), ringan tapi....takut tak sturdy frame dia. lagipun linen dalam dia nampak mudah koyak, takde padding. tapi ni personal view, and masa tu i tak tengok pun satu-satu model SCR ni. en husband suka sebab roda dia besar. what's with the roda besar, sayang? -_-

then haritu i pergi alamanda dengan mama, masuk satu kedai baby ni, jumpe COMBI. omaigodd ringan gila, brand from Japan. tapi model yang i tengok tu takboleh rear and forward facing. salah satu kriteria utama encik husband. tapi betul jugak. kot kang anak melorot keluar stroller kang, mane nak nampak. dulu konon nak nampak stylo and everything, tapi sekarang i go for practicality. so jangan susahkan diri dengan roda besar, nak lipat2 , pastu nak sumbat lagi dalam kereta kecik kitorang tu. dah, jangan mengada-ngada. unless daddy nak beli kereta besar, kita cari yang roda besar okay?haahhaha....

anyway, in the end (belum beli pun lagi), i decided i nak stay dengan MacLaren or COMBI sahaja.(wahh yakin...kite tgk apa en husband beli nanti). sebab utama:
1. ringan
2. tahan lama- tak pernah dengar review yang dia cepat rosak
3. boleh muat bonet kereta kitorang.
4. boleh pakai sampai anak umur 4-5tahun.-long term investment.
5. mahal tapi kumpul-kumpul sikit boleh masuk lingkungan affordable.

comparing MacLaren dengan COMBI, COMBI lagi mahal. tapi nanti nak pergi baby expo, memang nak tengok la. orang kata baby expo or maternity expo, boleh dapat 30%to 50% discount. so, may ni nak pergi terjah. =)

gambar:*google

sila cuci mata puas-puas dan buat survey untuk price range. goodluck!!

Maksud nama; Girang.

Apart from daily update because i love to talk and say unnecessary things (but no one to entertain me), i think (and hope) that i can read all of these entries whenever i feel i wanted to, or  when they should be a time, where i need to read it, the most.

so what's up yesterday?

both encik husband and myself went to our work routine. basically he will send me before he off to work and selalu dalam kereta we will talk (prftt...) almost about anything. he always said this,

"sayang....orang lain bangun pagi-pagi muram je, senyap jer....u pagi-pagi dah riang. girang-macam nama u...hahaha". 

haihh....encik husband kalau pagi-pagi tak kutuk i memang tak sah.

semalam dekat train station, he arrived early and waited for me. kalau dia tunggu tu, tak lain tak bukan mesti nak kenakan i. nanti dia menyorok la mana-mana and i macam orang bodoh la cari-cari dia. perangai sangat...-____________- but being the awesome me; i saw him from a far and quickly took out my hp and BBMed him,

"tak payah nak menyorok sayang....i dah nampak you..."

he replied, "demmit.."

hahahaha......ingat i senang untuk diperbodohkan? then when i came near him, dia lari. DIA LARI OK?i pergi kanan, dia pergi kiri, i pergi kiri dia pergi kanan. ni apa ni? and i laughed like mad, you know, for having him as my husband...-_________- i dont know why i married him in the first place. but luckily he bought some tuna and chocolate bread and orange twister. i memang dah haus but not that hungry. dap dap dap.... =)

and last night, arrived around 7.15pm, quickly i cooked for our dinner. simple dish; sweet sour fish and i used ikan bawal hitam, bendi and sambal belacan, and air sirap. and yes, encik husband makan bertambah, and i always love when he do that. but he has put some weight (psstt...especially around the waist..hikhik), so he asked me not to cook sedap-sedap and banyak-banyak. fine.

when he off to his daily night jog, i took the chance untuk gosok baju and seluar and everything. dapatlah 3 baju and 4 seluar. enough sampai monday next week. then bila dia balik dari jog semalam, i stopped ironing, and joined him for his 'cool down' session, under the air conditioner...-___________- sambil tu borak-borak. he massaged my foot, lama jugak sebab kitorang borak pun bukan main lama. hahaha....bila tersedar nak dekat pukul 11, dua-dua pun kelam kabut mandi, then solat jemaah.

tau-tau masa encik husband baca quran, i was asleep like a baby next to him. tak tau pukul berapa masa tu, i rasa pukul 12.00am kot. im easily got into sleep now a days, i think because of the pregnancy, cepat sikit penat dia. but i am totally having fun spending time (and energy of course) dengan encik husband.

he's my best friend, and spending time with him is just as awesome as he is.... ;)

Husband extra concerned...heee...

hi guys!

it's been awhile kan?sorry sorry because i was so busy doing stuff (as usual...prffttt!). bukan apa pun, it is just encik husband was already home, FOR GOOD!!yeay........ no more sleepless nights, no more go-check-up sendiri, no more i-want-to-eat-this-but-too-lazy-to-drive, and finally, no more no-one-to-pick-a-fight-with..hahahaha!!!even on the day he came home, which was on sunday afternoon, we had a fight. (i think when our baby has grown up and read this, she will eventually understands why daddy and mommy fights a lot..hehehe). simply because, we can't bear to be apart for such a long time.

anyway, bila encik husband balik, i'm back to my old (compulsary) routine. house chores. and oh boy, i don't have that energy anymore, the kind of energy i had in the beginning of marriage life, because i'm pregnant now -______________-. not that i'm complaining, it is just i move a bit slower, and my foot hurt so much these days. macam semalam, i fell asleep on the couch (while waiting for encik husband mandi). then he came to me and kejut me, asking to have a isya' prayer together (jemaah). i geleng2 kepala, too tired to perform prayer. but he insisted. fine.

lepas semayang i terus boom tidur!but my foot damn hurt..so i asked encik husband to urut my kaki. omg....memang sedap gila..urut dengan kasih sayang plak tu....hikhik...lama jugak dia urut sampai tertidur-tidur i. pastu tidur nyenyak the whole night.

pagi tadi, masa kat ofis, encik husband BBM i. he said,

"semalam masa i urut kaki u,i teringat u kena jalan jauh, berdiri dalam train, jalan kaki pergi ofis, pastu tukar train, panas, hujan....kita sedih...:( "

pastu i yang baca ni pun terus mencurah-curah air mata. ain't a pregnant lady is full with emotions?hikhik...sedih and terharu because he knows that, what's happening to me, and he realized that and pointed them out. kadang-kadang i pun tak fikir sangat, tapi dah dia cakap, i pun jadi sedih. tak sangka encik husband concerned sangat macam tu. and i tak rasa pun dia akan tahu benda-benda tu.

but he did.

and i love him for that. i know (and pray) that he will be a good daddy to auni, and a great husband to me.

Just One Night

oh sorry....lama dah rasanya tak update blog. not because i dont want to (alasan). i typed those words dalam phone, lepas tu buat clearance, terdelete semua sekali. damn sangat di situ. so ended up feeling so sad and sakit hati (of course dengan diri sendiri) and there's no one to be blame especially encik husband. eh?hahaha...takde kena mengena kan.

anyway, 'just one night' entry, can you please justify yourself?

yes i can! (suara kecil). hahahaha....saiko!

encik husband telah di kidnapped oleh i (dengan rela hatinya beliau) sebab beliau dah tak tahan dengan tortures yang menimpa diri beliau dan kawan-kawan beliau. halaa, mind torturing sikit je pun dah tak tahan. macam mana nak jadi daddy ni. oh by the way, encik husband decided nak baby pie pangil dia "daddy" instead of "papa" sebab dia kata "papa" tu papa kedana. boleh nampak tak the irelevancy there?tak nampak kan? i pun tak faham. malas nak argue with him, i decided to just agreed with whatever things he said.

lagipun maksu baby pie (my youngest sister) belikan bib kat mothercare UK ada tulis "i love mummy", "i love daddy", dengan belang2 , 3pc rm30 ringgit je. wuwuwuwu...dekat mothercare sini rm48 okay. nasib i tak beli. ...hahaha *cheapskate punya mommy* lepastu i dah belikan bibs baby pie from carter's jugak 5 helai, i carter's jumper, dengan princess toys from lamaze. mama i tanye "bib banyak-banyak nak buat ape?". tak kisah la mama, janji comel!

sabtu tu encik husband suruh i kidnap dia by lunch time. of course being the skema one, i asked him to be strong both physical and mental. but he kept on BBMed me,

"sayang.....amik la i sekarang....plzzzzz"

kang selang 2 minit dia BBM lagi. apakah? -_________- baru pukul 2.30pm kot. definitely he can't escape the training programs. aktiviti still going on masa tu. kalau ikut nafsu memang i nak je culik dia time 2.30 tu, tapi fikir dengan kewarasan dan kesabaran i, i buat kuat-kuat jela.

sekali i senyap je, taknak layan kerenah dia yang mengada-ngada tu. tapi masa tu i dah siap cantik-cantik wangi-wangi nak jumpe dia by 10pm because that was what we agreed on. initially that was the plan. tiba-tiba dia BBM i cakap,

"sayang...you dah boleh datang kot sekarang...". at 7.30pm.

dia cakap, the bosses bagi perlepasan jumpa family. antara percaya dengan tak, i started my car and drove through DUKE to meet him. masa tu hujan lebat gila and dalam hati i cakap, "why la hujan??adakah tanda-tanda dia tipu i, so kitorang akan jumpa lambat, and boss dah tunggu kat luar pagar nak stop siapa-siapa yang nak skip?"

but no. he's telling me the truth (dramatic sangat la cerita ni). hahahaha.....i picked him up, hantar dia dekat hostel dia (training centre and the hostel jauh and from two different tempat), waited for him to mandi and packed those baju kotor. tak sampai 30mins dia dah turun, all fresh and bau sedap. dapnyee ciomm....heyyyppp!!hahaha....

then we went for dinner, talked and had a great date. rindu melampau. balik rumah tapau otak-otak and burger. watched football (kelantan vs sarawak) sambil peluk-peluk kat depan TV, but you know la encik husband, 5minit je letak kepala, kebabom tido. hahaha....

i biar je dia tidur sekejap. actually ibu nandong (yes it's me!) mengalami sakit pinggang yang mild so i rasa tak selesa sangat laying on the comforter depan TV. i should sleep on bed bukan lantai keras. oleh kerana sangat tak tahan, i kejut him masuk bilik. perghhhh....nak kejut satu masalah jugak ni.

he can't be kejut like, "b!bangun masuk!". kalau rasa nak tapak kaki melekat kat dahi buatlah. kena kejut kena goyang2 sikit, bisik-bisik sikit. almost 20minits kejut dia okay. kesabaran memang kena tinggi yer. tapi i senang, sejak ada baby pie nie, dia je la umpan i. "sorry sayang, mommy used you even before you were born. kata tag team dengan mommy kan?hikhik...". so i bisik kat telinga dia slow-slow manja-manja bila dia dah separuh sedar tu,

"sayang...bangun sayang GOSOK GIGI (sambil usap-usap ubun2 encik husband). tadi awak makan burger kan sayang...mesti banyak burger melekat kat gigi tecik awak..hikhik...you wouldn't want auni to go to sleep without brushing her teeth kan sayang?you're a good daddy kan sayang?bangun sayang...brush your teeth first...pastu kita masuk tido k.."

conversation kat atas darab 5 kali i ulang benda yang sama. sekarang boleh la takde baby kan?esok dah ada baby, lantak berulat gigi tu pun i buat dek jeerr. hahahaha....encik husband mendengus-dengus la, nak marah la tu. -___________- dah kejut manja-manja pun kena marah. iskkk....

lama jugak la tunggu dia berus gigi. i think dia tidur dulu dalam toilet tu baru nak gosok gigi. lantakla, janji bersih mulut. ni nak tidur-tidur dengan kita mulut ada burger, apakah? hahaha....kitorang make it as a habit before tidur gosok gigi. hopefully esok anak-anak pun ikut jugak. kebersihan harus diutamakan.

pagi tu 5.30am dah bangun siap-siap nak hantar encik husband balik training centre dia. i siap berkemban gorengkan jemput-jemput buat alas perut encik husband. dalam kereta kena la suap dia, selalu pun camtu. i kan pembantu dia. sampai makan pun nak dibantu. -_________-

walaupun sekejap je kitorang jumpa, but it mean the most to us. masa yang ada tu memang fokus kat kitorang dua jer. borak-borak, update each other (padahal BBM 24 jam), but it is not the same bila kita jumpa depan-depan kan?

and that night, i have my sleeping partner back in my arms, even if its just for one night.

thank you sayang, for being here with me when i needed u the most. i love you still.

Suami Kasihan Kepada Isteri

amboi tajuk.

pagi ni encik husband ajak lagi pergi breakfast sama. i cakap tak payah nak membazir duit (despite i malas nak siap awal redah pagi yang hening ke ofis), i cakap kita breakfast kat rumah jela. pukul 6.00am alarm bunyik macam biasa AND yes, kitorang mandi around 7am. good job la papa dengan mama baby pie nie.

encik husband pagi ni baru nak bising-bising mintak baju hitam kolar sebab harini ada site-visit. i thought dah di siapkan baju dia sendiri, ada jugak tertinggalnya. fine. 2-5pieces baju i carikan dia, takde yang dia suka. besarlah. macam bodoh la. macam kecik lah. cerewet is him. so last-last pakai baju forensik i, baju masa i attached kat makmal forensik dulu. mula-mula complaint baju besar, last-last sendiri jatuh cinta dengan baju tu. hahaha.....cam bebudak!

sambil tunggu dia siap and solat subuh, i panaskan nasi goreng semalam, buat air teh panas, goreng telur dadar (demand gila nak telur dadar, banyak sangat la kan masa i nak pukul telur tu pagi-pagi...-___-), keluarkan cornflakes and susu untuk i pulak.

then cepat-cepat siap. rasa sangat super women kat situ.

then naik kereta sama-sama and go to work sama-sama. and then masa dalam train dengan mp3 pun sama-sama, gelak-gelak. im so happy spending every second with him. in fact that kitorang dah pun bercinta for 9 years, and marriage yang nak masuk 1 year this coming may, i still have that strong feeling for him, and whenever i see him, i just feeling nervous because of course i want to look best in front of him, and not being someone stupid and silly, and jumpa someone yang you sayang sepenuh jiwa raga you, is just another best but weird feeling.

sendiri rasa la. =)

he accompanied me sampai kat station ofis i, sebab dia cakap he doesn't have any punch card, so they can come bila-bila masa but not late than 9am, and dia sangat sweet nak hantar i sampai ofis. tengah hari ni dia busy kot, and i too, had class pagi tadi so pretty busy. he BBMed once in a while, so sekarang terasa rindu plak. can't wait petang ni nak jumpa.

***

semalam lepas dia amik i kat station, dia cakap nak bawak kereta pergi cuci, so i said i want to follow him jugak. sambil aney tu cuci kereta, we spent time talking and bercinta. haihh...depan tempat cuci kereta pun boleh. hahaha....

i showed him my arm, lebam sebab bekas/kesan jarum amik darah masa check up hari tu. dia usap-usap lebam tu lama sangat sambil tenung bekas lebam tu. lama sangat dia diam. maybe dia sedih ke terharu ke apa. i yang tengok dia pun macam nak nangis jugak, sebab eh kan ibu nandong ni sekarang sensitif lebih. pastu tak lama lepas tu, dia usap-usap perut i sambil cakap,

"baby pie, esok jangan lawan-lawan cakap mama tau. dengar mama cakap apa... kalau degil, buat mama marah, papa masukkan balik dalam perot..."

hikhik. i dah tergelak-gelak. rasa garang tapi comel plak encik husband cakap macam tu.

maybe dia kesian dengan i. semalam masa balik pun dia cakap, "jauh jugak kan b u jalan turun dari lrt station ke ofis, lepas tu lunch lagi. tukar train. petang balik masak untuk i, pergi jogging dengan i, iron baju i, kemas rumah..."

i senyap je. but i felt bersyukur at least dia notice benda-benda tu. tak ramai orang notice those small things, even i perempuan pun i tak notice kesusahan and kepayahan dia nak make sure i comfortable and happy. so at least lepas ni kalau rumah bersepah or i cant spend most of my time with him (sebab uruskan baby pie and rumah), i harap dia faham because my time is limited.

masa dan tenaga i dah dicurahkan ke tempat lain.

pagi tadi masa kitorang tengah breakfast, dia tengok je i breakfast. (i makan mulut penuh sangat kot..hahaha..). tiba-tiba he asked for a kiss on the lips,

"ciom sikit la...."

" (kissed him on the lips)"

"i love you sayang....so much..." 

katanya.

Tunggu dan terus tunggu

This pregnancy, i tell u, is not an easy one. hahaha....i mean, compared myself to some other people, yang ada morning sickness, yang ada anemia, yang ada mild osteoporosis, i admitted that i am such a lucky one. cuma i ada fatigueness yang i created myself. cuma.....i just missed my other half so much. he's not around, you know. and he will only back bila dia dapat perlepasan which falls on weekend sahaja, itu pun depends dua minggu sekali ke, sebulan sekali ke. and if you ever wondering around, he's not a police nor an army officer, although the reason i fell in love with him because he was in the army school before and he looked damn sexy in the army attire *hidung berdarah*. pastu gatal cari nama and all in the internet. oh i missed being a teenage and naughty-naughty macam tu. teeheeee.....

ok fokus. jangan melalut.

so, kadang-kadang i penat jugak balik kerja and all, and i need someone to be by my side, or at least reassure me that everything will be alright, and that person (husband) will always be there for me, no matter what. as 'be there for me' adalah ada dengan i masa i nak tidur and masa i bangun tidur. and dia boleh kejut i bangun tidur and i don't have depend much on the phone's alarm. it's annoying and irritates me tau. setiap pagi.

tengok. semua dah rasa tak best. sampai alarm pun sakitkan hati i.

i guess i really missed him.

semalam dia bbm i,

" i miss you like crazy sayang..."

luluh jantung i rasa nak nangis jer. and i just looked into the phone's screen, reminiscing all the greatest moment i dengan dia. apa yang kitorang buat when there were just the two of us. we really had fun and we do feels like the world is ours. betullah orang cakap, bila cinta itu datang, everything seems so nice and falls into places. and being with the person you love the most, memang takkan ada gantinya.

masa yang kita spend dengan orang yang paling kita cinta dalam hidup kita, setiap saat tu rasa cepat je jalan.

ada this one day, Sunday to be exact. sunday selalunya hari encik husband kena balik to the training centre. so selalu dia akan drive back around 7pm macam tu. so masa tu dah pukul 3pm. i was ironing his clothes. tiba-tiba dia cakap,

"ala sayang.....dah pukul 3pm!!cepat laa gosok baju...kita rindu awak...nak golek-golek..."

apakah? hikhik....senyum-senyum je masa i iron baju dia tu. wondering how am going to live my life without him. kejap-kejap karang dia datang jenguk i kat bilik ironing. nak suruh cepat la tu. sikit-sikit datang peluk i. you tell me bila i nak habiskan kerja i dengan cepat kalau dia keep on clinging dengan i? although masa yang i amek untuk iron tu lebih lama, but having him around me, kacau-kacau i, really make my day, and kita pun tak rasa penat sangat nak iron.=)

minggu ni dia balik. but he'll be late sebab dia nak singgah kampung. i'm fine with it cuma i missed him so much, nak la dia balik awal kan? so masa untuk bergaduh dan bercinta tu lebih lama. hikhik. oklah got to go!ada event plak kat college ni.

Drama Queen (sangat!)

you know, orang cakap the first trimester is the, what we said, the vulnerable time for both mama and baby. i mean macam untuk baby, kena jaga diri, tak boleh lasak-lasak sebab baby tak kuat lagi etc. and during that time too, mama dia akan jadi a lil bit of drama queen, sikit-sikit emosi, tak dapat makan pun emosi, dah kalau bergaduh dengan encik suami lagi la terlebih emosi.

right?

yeah riteeee.....sebab puan wife ni, dah masuk 3rd trimester baru nak gedik-gedik ada symptom pregnancy ni dah kenapa? err....i guess different people have different  kind of stories about their pregnancy, kan?

bukan apa, mula-mula i terperasan sangat yang hati i lembut bak sutera dan sehalus cotton candy when i asked my big brother untuk belikan limau ais kat kedai mamak. masa tu panas walaupun dah pukul 9pm. he went for his gym session so i watsapp him to buy me limau ais since dia tengah lepak kat situ pun. sekali dia balik tu, bukan takat limau ais takde, 100+ or everything else pun takde (selalu je dia balik tangan berisi). masa tu mata i dah berair-air menahan rasa sedih macam takde orang sayang kita, macam takde orang kisah pun ibu nandong kehausan. memang sedih sangat. terus mood i jatuh menjunam and terus ajak abang i balik rumah, masa tu kat rumah my aunty.

tu one story.

another story, i tengah baring-baring tengok movie kat astro. cerita tu tak sedih pun, in fact, it was a funny movie cuma adalah satu scene tu macam sweet-sweet. sweet tau, bukan sedih. sekali tetiba meleleh-leleh air mata i. luckily mama and ayah were not there. kalau tak malu je. and i let my tears stream down my face while bbm encik husband mintak perhatian. nasib dia ada melayan. if not memang gaduh sebulan la. and luckily he didn't notice any changes kat kita. maybe dia ada rasa pelik kenapa wife dia a bit strange that day (mintak perhatian lebih), but i guess he used to that.

then recently i had a fight dengan encik husband. well, kan i dah cakap kalau seminggu berjauhan, lama tak jumpa, sibuk and all that, memang possibility untuk gaduh tu sangat tinggi. entah kenapa pun i tak tau. but u tell me. kalau dekat (duduk serumah) pun gaduh, apatah lagi jauh pun gaduh, means kitorang ni camne ni nak handle? haa...tak faham kan? encik husband cakap apa entah, hati i sentap sangat. bergetar2 bibir i tahan nangis, tapi nangis la jua. berjurai-jurai.

ni kat opis ni pun tadi dia bbm ape ntah, berjurai-jurai air mata i. sedih gila..padahal kalau ikot logik bukan apa sangat pun. tapi entahlah, sayu sangat rasa kat hati.

encik husband insist nak baik-baik dengan i, but the things he said just hurt me so much. sebenanrnya takde la hurt so much, tapi i rasa hurt sangat (apakah?). tapi dah baik dah, sebab i tengok barang-barang baby online tadi pastu excited nak cantik-cantikan bilik baby dengan beliau, pastu okay la jadiknya. lagipun encik husband dah pujuk dari malam semalam tapi i buat dek je sebab sedih. menyampah gila kat diri sendiri.

Him : "i miss my wife..... =("
Me : " kite tengah tengok barang baby la...*hugs*"

Him : "garang. taknak la gaduh lagi..."
Me : "nanti balik kite gi shopping k??" ( dah tak ingat pasal gaduh sebab shopping mode on)
Him : "*hugs*

hahahaha...how easy it was. kalau lah encik husband tahu i hanya boleh dipujuk dengan makanan sedap dan session membeli belah, mesti dia orang paling bahagia sangat. bahagia tak bahagia la, kopak wallet kalau tiap minggu wife merajuk.

inilah masalah i sekarang. hati rapuh sangat. and i rasa this week dah dua kali i muntah. sedangkan masa first trimester tu boleh kira la berapa kali i muntah. 3 kali kot sepanjang pregnancy ni. alhamdulilah sangat kan? tapi i think i over ate. perot dah besar sebab baby dah occupied the space, perut jadi kecik, tapi makan macam perut lembu, ada 4. memang terbelahak la keluar.

so itulah cerita drama queen kita. entah lepas ni ape lagi la akan terjadi kat i and encik husband?hahaha....*evil laugh*

anyway, weekend ni dah tau nak masak apa since encik husband balik! oh yeah.... maybe sweet sour fish and some mix vege. dapnyerr....teringin sangat!=)

1st Ultimate Gift dari Nenek and Atok!

Hari sabtu lepas, my second brother buat a small gathering kat rymah dia kat Hartamas. small gathering and makan-makan. although i dont like to go there, but thinking that he's my brother and i have so much respect for him as a brother, pergi la jugak walaupun dalam keadaan terpaksa. and ayah bising-bising, biasalah ayah-ayah membebel-bebel pasal siblings , family and all that.

but i'm glad i did it. sebab dah lama tak berborak berdua macam tu (the wife is not there...fuhhh...if not, we dont get the chance pun nak borak!). kitorang memang close pun since school time due to our gap yang tak jauh beza, dalam 3 years jer. but i'm the one who got married first. =)

anyway, the menu for that day were nasi lemak and laksa, some agar-agar and teh tarik and juices. sedap la sebab caterer dia memang caterer yang family kitorang selalu amik. since i don't eat the whole day, i felt so hungry, so i melantak macam there's no tomorrow. Turn out, i lupa kan perut semakin kurang spaces sebab baby pie dah occupied ke atas.

and yes baby, i threw up! banyak gila, sampai makanan breakfast pun keluar jugak. but i felt so relieved. terus perut macam kempis perasan kurus. ha ha ha... -_____________-

then malam tu i suggested that we (me, mama and ayah) go to IKEA since i think from Hartamas - Mont Kiara - Damansara dekat jer. and yes, in 15minutes kitorang dah sampai. masa lalu sebelum u-turn dekat simpang OU tu macam tak banyak kereta, tapi lepas u-turn je terus banyak. apakah? and IKEA's parking lot tutup, boleh? sebab penuh sangat. but i asked ayah tu queue dekat pintu masuk parking lot tu, me and mama went in first.

kitorang terus pergi dekat children's section. tengok baby cot. tengok bumper pad, mattress, blanket, and etc. since semua barang ni akan berada di rumah mama, so she paid for all! alhamdulilah rezeki baby pie..hikhik!! first cucu kan, haruslah di showering dengan kasih sayang dan kemanjaan. dah alang-alang mama bayar tu, i sumbat la benda-benda kecil comel yang lain.storage case and all. tak jadi nak beli changing table sebab mama kata baby pie takkan muat.

hello!!my baby won't be that big sampai changing table pun tak muat. haihhh....*jeling perot papa dia* hahahaha!

and on sunday me, ayah and mama bertungkus lumus pasang. actually, ayah asked papa dia untuk pasangkan but papa dia balik next week, so we need to check kalau ada kayu yang cip ke, screw tak cukup ke etc etc kita boleh mintak refund/change.

dalam manual dia suruh 2 orang je dah cukup untuk pasang. padahal kena at least 3 orang pasang k. tergelak-gelak kitorang pasang. hehehe....sebab macam bodoh je, lubang tak jumpa la, ni tak jumpa la. hahaha....but it was fun! i asked them to put the baby crib outside my room, diorang kate semak la ape. -______- fine! letak la sebelah katil i.

so i pun berangan baring tepi baby's crib tu and said, "shhhhh.....senyap senyap. tidur laa...". mama and ayah laughed at me. whatever i dont care. esok baby pie bising i cakap macam tu jugak. or i just turn to my ultimate hero encik husband and give baby pie to him, "sayang....baby nangis. nahh...tolonggg...".

nak tengok baby's crib baby pie yang nenek and atuk dia belikan?

so putih suci bersih. and the nenek's bought for baby pie all white including bedsheet, blanket, pillow, and bumper pad. even the storage system pun putih. salahkan baby pie yang malu nak tunjuk gender dia. but sayang, even if you are a boy/girl, mama still want the white things for you. and mama and papa loves you no matter what. we hope you know that. =)

Baby's kicking : is it normal?

at about 25weeks, some of my friend said that my baby is quite active. even encik husband said, baby pie is just like the mother, active! i think by means was that, actively talking and moving around? prfttt...and my friend also said, "kau ada 3 more months to go, and anak kau dah active camni...kau bayangkan nanti perut kau dah besar, and anak kau dah takde space nak gerak, tapi dia active macam sekarang, camne?sakit tau!".

well well well, wasn't that a great story to be heard? -__________-

anyway, i had looked up on the internet and i found non-tips to reduce the movement for an active baby. i don't give up, i mean i'm giving up looking in the internet, but i berserah and tawakal to my Greatest God. so i'm back where i'd started, reading Al-Quran. ehehehe....

i downloaded a complete surah yasin in my phone. i switched it on and put it near my tummy, and - there it goes!! suprisingly baby pie had stopped moving!! or at least, baby pie did not move as fast and constantly like she did. hahaha...good job mama!! *thumbs up*

tak tau la apa sebabnya dia bergerak aktif macam tu. it was quite a good feeling, knowing that you are pregnant, and that she's a healthy baby, but sometimes, bila dia bergerak tu, i do feel like vomitting, and like cramp/senak on my tummy, i mean ini gerak yang non-stop ke apa.

the reasons that i can think about right now are because:
1. baby pie kepanasan. you know, living in a 36 degrees (or more) of temperature can really give you a moody kind of feeling. panas kot.

2. that baby pie is boring being alone inside. mama dia was a bit busy these few days, and her papa is not around to keep talking with mama, so baby pie tak dengar any familiar suara so she's kicking around to notify me, "hello mama...i'm here and i'm boreeeeddddd!!".

3. the limited space she have. as i said, my tummy is not that big and i don't actually look like a pregnant lady, i'm more like a fat lady...-___________- sobs! it's alright, i work it out nanti.. so, due to the limited spaces, baby pie is stretching to get more spaces.

4. she is just being a normal 5-month baby and she's kicking just to have the idea on how to use the legs and that she's ready to join in the taekwando class. well, papa will be the most happy person on earth sebab anak dia excited nak join martial art's class.

i won't let you join the class. sian anak mama nanti kena tendang-tendang. sobs sobs..... -___________-

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anyhow, the surah yasin helps alot. apart of giving calmness to the baby, i also feel great. dan semoga me and my family sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah, the Almighty.

this weekend encik husband will be at home. thinking of cooking spaghetti since i don't eat rice dah. maybe he'll like it.

 malam tadi dia balik, suprisingly. he missed me as much i do i guess. hari-hari doa semoga our love will never fade, that i will always have this strong feeling towards him, and that he will love me and our baby more than his own life.

Kicking it!

encik husband balik awal then expected. 9.30pm dia dah call i (untuk yang ke 5 kali), telling me that he's coming home and i should be ready for a dinner outside. -_________- ye sayang, i tau u nak balik and i too, as excited as you are. hikhikhik....

before dia balik tu, i sempat panaskan popia and rojak, office mate bagi sebab dia datang melawat kitorang dari branch dia kat Sunway tu. popia ayam, takla sedap sangat but edible. makan dengan abang and my SIL lepas tu, kemas-kemas bilik 'bujang' i tu, siap tukar cadar and pillowcase, kata suami nak pulang.

ayah kan sebok, sebok suka solat kat bilik i, lepas tu dia ejek i, "hujan la malam ni....hujan la malam ni...", just because i changed the bedsheet and kemas bilik..macam buang tebiat la.. ha ha ha....jahat angat tau! siap pasang candle lagi, serious bilik tu dah bau macam bilik pengantin kitorang masa mula-mula kahwin dulu. hahaha....padahal kat rumah sendiri takde pun nak pasang aromatic candle ke apa...tihii...

by 9.30pm tu encik husband dah sampai and terus pergi makan Kedai Sedap. i had a piece of roti canai and teh tarik, encik husband makan nasi goreng paprik and roti canai and teh o limau. had a good talk and laugh dari malam tadi sampai la pagi ni dia nak pergi balik training centre dia. by 6.30am dia dah on the road.

malam before tidur tu, selalu we all talk about daily activities and all. lepas tu mestilah cerita pasal baby pie. whooahhh....baby pie was rapidly moving semalam. so i asked encik husband to touched my tummy. letak je tangan dia, bergerak-gerak la baby pie tu. encik husband lepas tu memberi sepatah dua kata kepada baby pie, hahaha...tecik-tecik dah kena marah dengan papa dia. lepas tu dia tak gerak dah. lepas a few seconds dia gerak balik.

encik husband tanya kat baby pie, "hey, cakap apa tu??". so he puts down his left ear on my tummy, pastu kena tendang dengan baby pie. hahahaha.....so cute!! baby pie kecik-kecik dah tag team dengan mama dia. bila dah tutup lampu, mama and papa dia nak tidur, i felt she's moving on my side of tummy. dia tak kacau pun, but i rasa macam geli and a lil uncomfortable la. but i'm okay. at least i know she's alive and healthy.

hari ni i dont think encik husband akan balik. ahhh....sleeping with the one you love always gives the best comfort and warmth. and by being with him, and tengok muka dia every morning, and to see his smile everytime i wish him, "good morning sayang....", is just the greatest feeling. you know, i'm still smiling when i type these down.

i just love him. after 9 years, i still love him as much as i do. i pray hard that this feeling will last until forever.. =)

Fight

husband being so nice to me. well, selalu pun dia baek-baek je dengan i, tapi sejak pregnant ni lagi bertambah baik, and i jadi semakin lemak berkrim (emotionally and physically...prftttt!). sentiasa memastikan isteri tercinta ni cukup makan and cukup rehat. rehat tu subjektif la sebab bila encik husband balik, berganda kerja nak kena buat kat rumah. but i'm not complaining...=)

tapi i realized i kept on chanting, "i lapar la b..." every 30minutes after we had a meal. so bad, right? sebab tu doctor suh kurangkan makan nasi, sebab ibu nandong suka la sangat munch on unnecessary things, so sekarang i tengah puasa nasi. ha ha ha, kesian ibu nandong, dah macam orang on diet. kalau ikotkan hati nak je i belasah oats pagi petang siang malam, but how about baby pie?see, mama sacrifice for you. -______- but after two days without nasi, i don't feel strange, kenyang jugak macam biasa. tapi sikit2 nak kunyah. so i prepared kismis and dates.

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last week kan encik husband was around KL so memang setiap malam tidur i beralaskan lengan beliau. sweet sangat....pastu pagi-pagi dengar dia ngomel, "lengan i lenguh....". cis! ingat i tak boleh nak tangkap double meaning dia tu. but anyway, dia tetap hulur lengan dia untuk i setiap malam, without once dia take it off.

so ada sekali tu, i kat ofis, pagi la. so i'm a bit missing him so i gave him a call. tapi tak berjawab. i ni memang ada hantu dalam badan kalau call tak berjawab memang hangin puting beliung dalam badan ni berpusing-pusing. so puan wife dah merajuk kat situ and mula nak cari gaduh. i didn't reply, not even once his BBM, and i didn't picked up his calls.

and by petang i BBMed him, "u tak payah amik i, i balik naik bus...".

wahhhhh.....bajet laki kau teringin sangat nak amik kau la kan. noticed that he read my BBM but he didn't reply. ni pun buat i hangin jugak. tapi takpe la. kate dah in the fight kan?so kita teruskan lagi. by 6.40pm i arrived at the station, and he BBMed me, "tunggu i kat train...".

prftttt....sebok!

so dia pun sampai, i pun dengan muka tak malu naik kereta. tadi beriya-iya nak naik bus. wakakakaka.... stupid nonsense pregnant lady. hikhik....salam encik husband, and i kept on being silent. encik husband pun bawak i jalan-jalan ke jalan yang asing. wahh drama. tiba-tiba dia stop kat pasar malam. i seriously takde mood nak jalan dengan beliau. kata gado kan?

keluar je dari kereta, dia pegang tangan i. macam biasa. teehee...terus berbunga-bunga hati ini, pastu terus rasa nak peluk dia sebab rindu satu hari gado. hahahaha....rasa nak hentak kepala kat pokok pun yer jugak. so encik husband belikan macam-macam untuk i kunyah. keropok lekor, jagung bakar,murtabak, air kelapa. pastu dia beli sayur-sayur untuk i masak. dia nak makan nasi paprik malam tu. i pun pilih macam-macam dengan perasaan berbunga-bunga.

pastu jalan kat pasar malam haruslah ramai orang. yang encik husband sebok nak pegang tangan jugak macam ada orang nak curik bini dia. hahaha...i kadang-kadang kalau kat pasar malam sorang-sorang hangin jugak tengok orang jalan berpimpin2 ni. menggangu traffic. tapi kalau kita buat tak pe la plak kan?hahahah....maaflah sesiapa yang menyampah tu.

pastu dah alang-alang encik husband mengalah tu, i pun mintak maaflah jugak, sebab bergaduh the whole day. he was at his mom's house the whole day, playing PC games. patutlah tak berangkat. so memang i buat keputusan no astro and PC at home. sebab benda ni semua boleh buat gaduh.

gaduh-gaduh jugak. tapi kalau dah nama boyfriend, sayang plak tu...haruslah sekejap je dah baik. hihihihi....

^^

1 step at a time

satu hari masa dalam kereta nak hantar encik husband ke tempat training centre dia, tiba-tiba beliau bersuara,

"sayang....next month kita shopping barang baby nak tak??"

whoaahhhh.....i thought i was the one who overly excited about the baby pie, but i guess i am not alone in this world. *goyang-goyang bontot* haruslah dengan sepantas kilat i setuju (sangat) dengan cadangan dia. but actually, it is not i don't want to buy things for baby pie, tapi pantang larang orang melayu kan cakap, jangan excited sangat, and shopping barang baby dalam 7-8months of pregnancy.

tapi since next month i dah nak masuk 7 bulan, so i guess dah boleh beli la kan? first of all i nak pergi IKEA beli bookcase dengan wadrobe baby pie. lepas tu nak beli baby cot/crib, lampu tidur beliau, reading/nursing chair.

untuk newborn baby ni sebenarnya, i dah kirim kat my sister kat UK to buy me a few sets of rompers and jumpers. i memang suka sangat newborn baby pakai jumpers and rompers, and it's all white or cream colour!! so adek dah belikan 3 sets from mothercare and mark&spencer, yang dalam tu ada 7-pieces, that costs me 7 pound each. *mata berdarah*

so kalau kali 3 sets dah ada 21 baju untuk baby pie, that's why i don't (yet) buy baju baby kat sini. toiletries baby, anytime boleh beli kan? it's quite cheap, and tak perlu sangat nak mintak encik husband belikan. tapi yang wajib encik husband belikan adalah seperti yang dinyatakan di atas. yang lain-lain mama boleh handle sendiri.

dulu, i selalu browse tengok barang2 baby. sekarang ni bila dah dapat green light dari husband, macam gelabah sangat nak beli yang the best. hahaha....menyampah kat kat diri sendiri!

oklah, got to go. ada kelas plak pagi ni. petang kita update lagi, insyaAllah.