Baby's Dilemma

i was thinking that since i (now) get back from work around 2p,, i should have pick up baby sophea kan instead of leaving her with nyai for two days straight. i mean, it is nyai who takes care of her so i tak rasa pape la to be worried . it is just that i feel like i missed my baby even more now. i missed her every second of the day.

kata anak, kan?

at 10months, she's not a baby anymore. sangat suka gelak, especially bila me and her daddy sing it out loud the incy wincy spider song, and the qasidah burdah ya-hanana. she would shake her bum bum back and forward vigourously , and when she's at her back (baring) -_____________-. but we love teasing her like that. nyayi sikit shake lebih. hahaha...

so i just told my husband that i want to pick sophea everyday starting next week. he said okay. im not sure how much we should put aside for the petrol and toll, but i guess we can make it happen. kan sayang?? ahhh having that cheeky little girl everyday at home would be something.

eh dah kul 7 la. nak get ready encik husband balik.

takla rutin kite tapi im trying to make it as a routine:
1. bukak gate utk husband.
2. salam, ciom, peluk sebelum masuk rumah.
3. amikkan air.
4. sediakan makan

ha senang kan? nampak senang tapi penat jugak, sebab lepas tu nak get ready gi jog plak. hihihi....

Sophea's Update

die kan, bila nak update jer niat tu kuat betul. but by the time nak update tu memang ke laut. nasib la ade orang tu suka sangat suruh i update. tak putus2 request suh update blog. tapi i syak la dia sebenarnye perli i, i je buat2 jujur, yang dia memang nak baca blog i. kita sebagai orang islam kan tak baik buruk sangka. wahahaha....padahal memang dah takde orang nak baca kak. tutup jela blog ni.

tapi....tak kisahla. sebenanrnya, in real life pun i memang jenis talkative. mak mertua pun kadang2 dia cakap "sophea macam mommy banyak cakap...". i rasa dia perli tu,suh  bawak2 berkurang kan bercakap, tapi.... he he he...that's not me...not me at all... *flip hair*

tapi i ni kalau diam seribu bahasa, maksudnya adalah yang tak kena. adalah orang yang i tak suka berada dalam radius 10 meter dari i, atau i simply dont want to talk. ada sekali tu i balik rumah mertua, nampak newspaper. i opened it and read it through. seronok la baca paper sebab dah lama sangat tak baca. sekali encik husband datang "sayang...tutup dulu paper tu. nanti mama kata menantu sombong taknak bercakap plak..". terkedu i. terus tutup and chirp around happily. hahaha.... kuang asam punya suami.

so nak update ape kita sebenarnye. update pasal sophea jom!

sophea 31 january ni genap dia 8 bulan. setakat 8 bulan ni apa yang dia dah pandai:

1. she talks a lot! i mean like a lot for baby her age. haha....i wonder dia ikot siapa. ada sekali tu nak dekat 15 minutes dia cakap non stop. well, not literally cakap, but yeah..she talked in her own language.. but me and encik husband sekalu jer terhibur with what she's trying to say. we love it and cherished them so much!

2. she knows how to clap her hands. ni rasanya kena ucap terima kasih kat mak mertua sebab dia yang ajar sophea tepuk amai-amai. mommy biasalah bawak balik rumah terus "sophea...clap your hands!!". hahaha...tapi paham plak anak aku ni. and she will clap her hand repetitively. tapi ikut mood dia la. kalau dia rajin dia buat.

3. she knows when i asked her to kiss me. for example macam, "sophea...kiss mommy...kiss mommy sayang..". pastu dia bagi dahi dia kat i. -_______-. tapi kita macam happy la kan sebab baby kita dah pandai response. so actually, our babies ni listen but they couldn't response (yet). so keep talking and show her things, nanti dia akan buat jugak.

4. she responses to my instruction. ni i baru buat experiment sekali jer. she picked a towel, so i asked her to put it back. and yup! she put it back...awwww....i tiap kali cakap ke suruh sophea buat ke, bila dia respon tu i macam melt-melt jer. she's just adorable..... haihhh

5. she still need to be put to sleep. ehh...macam kejam jer bunyik. i mean, i need to carry her, and hug her sampai dia tidur. kalau dia dah half tidur pun i dah boleh letak dia on her bad. dulu masa kecik-kecik tak boleh. letak je nangis. now she big girl already. sobs sobs...

6. she exciteds more when she sees her daddy. entah kenapa...kalau dengan daddy senang je nak senyum gelak borak2. kalau dengan mommy dia buat sukati dia jer. i know she loves me but she loves her daddy more??bzzzzzz..... mommy yang mengandungkan awak tau sophea!

alhamdulilah, i really can't describe how happy and calm i am now. dah takde apa untuk i fikir lagi especially lepas kahwin haritu (haritu ape...dah nak masuk 2 tahun okay...hahah). sekarang my life memang fully untuk husband and anak i. i just wanted to make them happy, and that they are happy with me around. banyak plan i nak buat dengan encik husband. on how to improve life, our lifestyle, our health, making money, take care of kids and stuff. rasa semua macam tu kot?

maybe our life is not perfect for you, but seriously i couldnt ask for more. it is just too perfect that at some moment i jadi takut, kalau Allah amik balik pinjaman Dia. we all know that this is only a loan from God right? i know...

but always remember things happen for a reason... just be happy :)

Rindu Sangat

semalam pergi makan kat bumbu desa alamanda tu. tak ramai orang pun. baguslah. bukan bagus sebab apa, tapi sebab i buruk selekeh paling tak hengat punyer, so takde la nampak ke-buruk-kan i tu. berbeza dengan encik husband yang head to toe sangatlah handsome. dia dahlah pakai baju baru yang i awesome-ly iron untuk dia. i wonder dia tak rasa ke macam "selekeh gila wife aku!". dahla semalam i buruk, life plak rasa miserable sangat, dengan tak bawak handbag. tau tak ape je yang ada kat tangan i? handphone dengan powerbank. tak ke buruk rupenye? encik husband always look awesomely handsome and tough through my eyes. entahlah, sebab kita cintakan dia kot, tu yang nampak hensem semedang jer.

cuba kalau benci, bayang2 dia pun nampak hodoh. kan?hahaha....

somehow, spending the night just the two us, it helps to put my worries at ease. betul lah orang cakap, dah kahwin ni, gunakanlah suami sebaik mungkin. bukan sebagai account banker sahaja, tapi sebagai kaunselor kita jugak. walaupun..... ha walaupun actually they dont help much hahaha, but the fact kite dah luahkan everything, permasalahan kita, is good enough. that's the beauty of marriage. and that's the benefit of having someone cares for you.

we don't get worried too much sebab dia seorang saja yang nampak buruk baiknya kita. dah nama pun isteri dia.

the fact that makan dua orang jer almost rm130++, i rasa better la makan nasi padang kat kedai indon biasa-biasa. melampau sangat. sebenarnye this was his first time makan situ. i dah banyak kali before ni, tapi i makan masa i pergi bandung. makan 5 orang tak sampai Rp300,000 which equals to RM100++ kita. murah kan? sekali kat franchise malaysia ni mahal sangat.

i is not kaya you know.

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anyway malam tu kitorang tido rumah my MIL. dah 3 hari tak jumpa sophea, so this is the time la nak jumpa. sophea balik kampung jumpa buyut (moyang) dia.

when i was still in the car i cakap kat encik husband, "sayang....sampai je rumah mama i nak terus masuk tau. nanti you angkatkan beg k sayang?". hahaha.... tahap kedengkian taknak bagi anak kat encik husband dulu, terus bagi order awal-awal walaupun selama ni memang die je pun angkat beg. hahaha...siapa lagi nak harapkan melainkan suami kita yang handsome lagi gagah.

kete stop je meluru i masuk. dari depan gate i nampak sophea tengah minum susu dalam stroller dia. dia sangat manja dan dimanjakan sangat oleh nyai dia. minum susu pun nak dalam stroller. so i called by her name, "sophea.....sophea!". so dia terus stop susu and look around for the voice. i kow she knows that it's her mom's voice.

i bukak je grill tu, dia terus nampak i, and she was like excitedly screaming uuu ahhh uuuu in a very high pitch, waving her hands, dengan kaki dah kelam kabut. omgg....i masa tu nak nangis okay sebab i missed her so much, and yet dia bagi respons macam tu....luluh2 jantung i. but tak boleh challenge when daddy came in, lagi excited dia jerit-jerit. macam, "my parents is here!!!".

i dokong dia, and she was like kaki dia panjat2 i, and she hugged me tightly. mind you, she's still small and i might exaggerate a lil bit, but if you ever have the same experience macam i, you tau la yang anak you was so happy to see us, the parents.

so lama la i dokong dia, ciom2 dia before i took my shower.

by 11pm macam tu she's sleepy. dokong2 dia sambil borak dengan both MIL and FIL, tiba2 sophea's sleeping on my chest. just like she used to when she was a baby. the feelings were great. truly said, i am happy to be a mother and i am so a proud mommy.

malam tu sophea tido je. dua kali bangun for her regular time for milk, sampai pagi tadi i nak pergi kerja pun dia tak bangun lagi. rasa secure maybe having mommy and daddy tidur sekali.

fyi, i have been with sophea for almost one month, kan sebab i habiskan my leaves so lama gila i dengan dia kat umah. so bila dah start 2014 ni, and dah start jumpa dia alternate days, rindu sangat dengan budak bolat tu.

haihhh...only a mother can understand.

anyway, esok malam dah amik dia balik pun. tak sabar nak spend the weekend with my babies. the best moment so far ialah bila kita dibangunkan oleh suara anak kita yang awal-awal dah bangun dulu dari kita. and bila kita celik mata je, i nampak my husband and sophea by myside. *senyum*

the feelings is just bliss. i feel so complete. *lap air mata*

Hidup Ini Indah?

Cerita payung.

tau tak, we need some major skills masa nak bukak payung? memang. ada macam guidelines on how to open your payung. tekan benda yang macam tersembul and tadaa, terbukak la payung anda. tapi mesti takde sape tau (or tulis dalam guidelines) yang masa nak tekan benda tersembul tu, kite kena tolak payung tu ke atas sikit (upper lift) so that kulit jari kita tak tersepit? ha tak de kan? benda tu kita tau through experience kan? that's why i dulu a lil bit fobia nak bukak tutup payung sebab banyak kali jari tersepit kat situ. -_________- haihh. bodoh sangat. tapi now dah pandai dah...hihi!

***

semalam, masa nak solat isyak, husband was at front, watching berita sambil makan vanilla iceream dalam cup. he offered me the icecream, but i just took a sip and NO for the rest of the icecream. look tempting tapiiii the calorie....haihh, satu jam jog okay. hahaha...i'm a calorie freak. but whatever it's my body (sebenarnya sedih sebab tak dapat makan. husband apa kisah...he looks good all the time despite boncit ke tak. cube kalau kita perempuan boncit ; horror jawapan dia).

anyway, masa i nak solat tu, i looked at our bed, and next to our bed was baby sophea's cot. and on sophea's cot, there's a pair of little red and denim shoe from 'Next'. i bought a few months back, but only managed to pakai her once.

masa i tengah pakai telekung tu, i stared at those bed and cot, and then it crossed my mind. "how on earth did i managed to get where i am now, being married and have a child?". it was so fast that i actually someone's wife, and a mother. so fast that i couldn't remembered the process and the roads to where i am now.

i have a very loving husband, who loves me with all his heart. i know that sebab he literally never leave me alone except masa nak pergi kerja, he loves to kiss me and hold my hand (or my peha...prfttt) whenever he can. and not in a naughty way, mind u. hahahha... and then, with him i have this beautiful baby. adorable and healthy baby are what matter the most.

haihh...i don't know what i have done to be deserve these irreplaceable gifts from Allah. but deep down inside i really bersyukur. not all are lucky like me, though ramai je pun yang lebih baik dari i. but at this moment, i just thanked Allah for everything. betul orang cakap, Allah bagi banyak benda kat kita, kenapa sikit pun kita tak tunduk and ikut apa yang Allah suruh.

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i alway pray that these happiness will always follow me wherever i go. that my encik husband will always love me (and find me attractive as i grow older he he he), and that he will take care of me and our baby (or perhaps babies...next year ke mane tau...wahhh...hahaha). and that Allah will always love us and forgive us for every sins we did.

gosh, i really love both of my babies.

the feeling of wanting to be with them, and nak sentiasa peluk and ciom diorang all the time, sentiasa ada within me.

life couldn't be better. but insyaAllah getting better and better.

ps: daddy work hard sikit daddy. kitorang nak duk obersea.

2 days with her

dua hari lepas, i cuti. well, annual leave i banyak lagi rupanya (lucky me sebab when we changed management, my unused leave can be carried forward...yeay!). so monday hantar babypie cucuk 5 bulan. cried once, and then she was okay. i mean lepas cucuk, nangis sekali, and lepas tu gelak. i was like, "amboi, pura-pura sangat kan?". prftt...

i think sophea was really enjoying the mother-daughter time. i mean, she'll cry when she can't see me, contohnye i pergi dapur masak ke or pergi toilet wee wee ke. she even cried when i stand up to switch off the fan. prftt.... melampau sangat kan.

but it really melt my heart when once, i lied down next to her, and took out my phone to take our pictures together, she was really enjoying herself taking pictures with me, she smile everytime i took photo of us, she touched my face literally my cheek and mouth when taking pictures. i think she tried to play jokes on me. but she was too cute and her action just took my breath away.

and all the time she'll look at the camera, and alternately looking at me. tsk...she's just being sweet with her mommy, isn't she?

then bila dalam pukul 7pm camtu daddy balik after two days outstation. bukak je pintu, daddy said, "assalammualaikum..." (we've been practicing to wish assalammualaikum everytime she wakes up from sleep, or after a long time didn't see her). and sophea was laughing excitedly to see her daddy.

ok, memang melt away rasanye. both me and husband smile to each other to see her 'intelligent' actions. bila daddy agah2 dia pun, still she laughing excitedly. and she kept looking at her daddy. even masa both of us having our dinner together with sophea on my lap, she kept turning and tossing around to have a good look at her daddy.

my babies. owh...owhh.... *love*

lepas daddy dia balik, usually memang encik husband akan update all his work stories and we will share and update each other about the day. so baby sophea was like diligently listened to whatever things we said and talked about. i tak perasan sangat sebab encik husband yang dokong sophea and i was busy preparing to serve dinner.

but encik husband pointed this out this morning when he sent me to work. " macam semalam la, sophea dengar jer bile kite borak2 semalam...".

we were so obsessed with her, even on our way to work pun boleh scroll her pictures and videos. awww..... overly attached parents. hahaha...

esok only i can amek her at MIL's. cuti dua hari and stayed at home with her is just exciting. really you can't get enough of her. so i guess, when encik husband can give me rm2000+ per month nett, i'll stop working daddy.

promise. hahahaha!

People Change, and It's About Time

a few weeks ago i went for my friend's daughter 1st birthday party. whoahh...i passed the stage and phase of attending engagement ceremonies and weddings, and now slipped into attending baby showers and children birthday parties. hikhik..how fast time flies nowadays. motherhood. but i like it. in fact, i love it a lot! as i owned a child now, i love babies more than i can imagine. and when i see posts of babies getting abused or in bad health condition, i will be moody and sad the whole day, and even cry at the office.

sounds like a mother, much? hahaha....yeah yeah....i'm 'cengeng' like that. and i will go pestering my husband, saying "B, how can people be so mean??", "B, kenapa diorang bodoh sangat...sakit la baby tu.." , "sayang....i cried at the office sebab tengok baby kena dera...". and you know what my husband will say?

"that's why i don't watch those kind of videos....". prfffffttttt!! whatever...i don't care!

so anyway, masa kitorang tengah lepak2 makan kat birthday party tu, the abang was talking about not-meeting-his-firends-and-go-lepak thing. he said that, at his age (30), people are no longer go lepak. even the guys were already married (most of them) and they like to spend their times with their kids and families rather than go lepak with friends.heh..

 you know, i believed, that one day, everyone will eventually going through the same thing. just like him, and just like me. you know, went for school, passed high school, entered college, passed college, working world, get married, have kids, our kids getting married, got cucu, and grow old with the one you love *waive at husband*, and die. the last part is PASTI.

don't go crazy by saying, "i'm not going to get married.." or "i'm going to die aloneeee...". hahaha....no you're not! we are human. human basically doing the same thing..err....or common thing. it's either you first or me first. having you-first or me-first is not a competition by the way. but we are human. we compete.

anyway, i just wanna say how bless i am, and how thankful i am to Allah (mostly) sebab jalan yang Dia tuliskan untuk i sangat-sangat sempurna segalanya. i've been to my worst and weakest spot ever in my life that i feel there is no point of me living in this world, but alhamdulilah, Allah Maha Mendengar. and Dia tau apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

that's why i said, Allah is the Most Powerful. Dia bagi kekuatan yang i tak pernah tau i ada. bila i ingat balik that time , i know that i will be strong for whatever come by may. for once, i know Allah ada dengan i. people can't never understand, but i know. i just know it. *smile*

so, i think i'm doing great now. having sophea with me are indeed the most precious best priceless gift i could ever had. and encik husband, i know i can't get a man that as good as him. heee....macam semalam, we we just get back from penang, attending friend's wedding. penat memang penat. balik tu encik husband asked me to cooked. fine, tak kisah pun as i love cooking (pleasing him). so bahan2 pun terhad, i just cooked paprik, telur dadar, that's all. so as i was cooking, he put all his effort to unpack our luggage, sort things back to their places. even the tupperware pun dia dah siap basuh.

bila dia buat camni, kadang2 ada benda yang i nak marah pun tak jadi nak marah. i rasa kalau lelaki lain balik rumah tidur je terus. (if i were a man, a husband, i'll do that....hahahaha). yela kan, lantak lah, dah kerja wife. wife buat la. tapi takkkk....not my husband.

cuma lepas makan nasi paprik tu tambah dua kali, dia terus tidur. i masa tu dah gigil2 lapar jugak, tapi sophea was having hard time to sleep (die memang selalu camtu...nak tidur je ada masalah....hahah), takkan nak pass kat encik husband semata nak makan. tak patut sungguh. so i dodoikan sophea until she fell asleep. tapi 2 minit je lepas i letak dia kat sofa, and tengah suap nasi barang 2 suap camtu, die dah bangun. tangan i ada sambal belacan okay. hahaha....

and from now on (eceh...setiap kali pun camni), i promise to try not to pick a fight with encik husband over small things and silly things. kesian la kat die. dia dah buat macam2 kat i. punnnn nak ajak gaduh lagi. hahaha... i just love them to death. i am.

Meraunggg

sophea ni lawak la. hahahaha! eh ade ke orang yang gelakkan anak dia sendiri? i la kan?hahaha...takk. semalam kan, dia bangun around 1.30am nak minum. mommy die yang sangat baik ni pun macam biasa la bagi la susu, dengan harapan die tidur balik. sekali dah habis sebotol susu tu, die pun tidur balik. so i bedung die and put her back on her baby crib. biasalah i, tidur nak berpeluk ajer dengan encik husband padahal boleh je nak tidur sendiri. biasalah, nak ngader2 kan2. hihihi...

tengah i sedap2 peluk encik husband kan, sekali ade bunyik "ekkk ukkk...". bunyik biasa tanda2 sophea nak bangun and taknak sambung tidur. i cakap dengan encik husband biarkan je la die, nanti die tidur sendiri. oh, bukan tidur yer, tapi main galak talking and playing dengan hangin toys die. -________________- anak sape la ni.

cakap kemain kuat, pastu secara berterusan, yang paling tak tahan die boleh gelak macam kelakar sangat toys die tu. hahahahah.....dah la sophea suke buat macam geram2 meneran tu. haihhhh....nasib la budak kecik, kalau besar buat comel camni, memang i picit2 sampai kempis pipi bulat die tu.

rasa i dah tertidur kot, dalam sejam camtu dia dah start nak nangis. boring la tu main sensorang. ha ha ha kesiannn. daddy cam biasa la sedap di ulit mimpi. i pun gigih bagun nak tidurkan die, sekali........ dua2 stokin dah tercabut, and kaki sejuk gila macam ais!

i dah cuak gile kot. gile sejukkkk..... nasib i sedar!kalau i tido mati dah frost bite kaki anak i. hahahaha exaggerate tak boleh blah la mommy oiii.....rasa bersalah pun ade, i sedap2 tidur anak kesejukan. tapi i bukan sengaja.sobs sobs....

terus amek vicks and sapu kat kaki, perut, dada, belakang badan, and belakang telinga bagi hangat sikit. pakai kan stokin, bagi susu panas and bedung. lepas tu dia minum la. legaaa...

tau2 dah pukul 6. i cakap dengan encik husband i nak buat breakfast. u jagakan sophea sekejap. i pun cecepat masak nasi goreng, buat sandwich, pack bawak gi opish die. and buat teh o panas untuk husband. tapi dalam pada tu, i dengar jugak la sophea meraung. hahaha....

sebenarnye dia nak tidur tapi encik husband kan tak monitor sangat gaya2 baby sophea nak tidur. so i amek je sophea lepas masak tu, gendong sekejap terus tidur dah budak comel tu. halaaaahhh manje angat nak dengan mommy jer.....hewhewhew....

ni tengah rindu sangat dengan sophea la ni. tak sabar nak balik!

Cinta

semalam sophea macam kerap batuk. takde la macam batuk sebab sakit batuk, tapi macam batuk ngader2. haha...comel sangat dahla mulut tecik kan. i tanye la dia, "sophea, nape batuk?r u having a fever??". dia biasalah, senyum sengih2 je bila i cakap dengan dia. i tak tau la dia faham ke tak kite cakap ape, but i honestly want her to understand me. she likes to smile a lot. i mean like kau panggil je nama dia, senyum la die.

hrmm...bila dah jadi mak ni, rasa dia lain. rasa sayang kat anak tu lain. kan orang cakap darah daging sendiri, macam nyawa kite jugak. memang la i rasa sophea tu macam nyawa i. means kalau jadi pape kat dia, seriously apart of me pun lost jugak. i pray that sophea sentiasa dilindungi allah, as she is a very good baby. but she really is.

takut kalau dia sakit etc etc. sedangkan kita yang dah tua ni pun kalau sakit demam ke ape, mengader lebih nak perhatian but still kita boleh handle diri sendiri, diorang budak kecik ape la yang dia tau? especially yang hantar nursery. payah la cikgu nak layan sensorang kan.

alhamdulilah and luckily both my parents and in laws dekat je kat KL ni. so kalau salah seorang takde, sorang lagi ade. belum terfikir lagi nak anta nursery. tapi yelah kan, mak bapak dekat, boleh la. nanti bila diorang dah tanak jaga or tak larat jaga, still kene anta nursery.

or maybe kitorang akan amek bibik and letak kat rumah parents instead of hantar ke nursery. that is just a planning tapi tak tau la lagi camne.

sophea is really a good baby. dia memang tak banyak menyusahkan i. kalau susu, mandi, and changing diapers tu menyusahkan memang tak layak la kot nak jadi parents kan? sophea pun macam suka jer kalau i mandikan ke change diapers ke sebab i suka berborak dengan dia or nyanyikan favourite song dia.

semalam dia tido in between us. daddy cakap, kaki kanan dia atas kaki mommy, kaki kiri dia atas kaki daddy. boleh??tapi tak boleh salahkan dia jugak. kadang2 daddy cakap lutut mommy atas kepala sophea. hahahaha...

aihh...rindu plak kat baby girl i tu.

so anyway, i end this entry dengan entry abang ni. sweet gila but whatever he said was 100% true.

sweet gile abang ni.....click sini...

Breath in and Out

semalam adalah hari yang sangat memenatkan. terasa pendek tapi sangat memenatkan. kat ofis sekarang dah start sem baru. so pagi and petang ada kelas. free hari jumaat je. itupun management cakap lecturer tak boleh cuti jumaat? wth? penat okay. tell us bila kitorang ada time nak prepare exam questions and all that??

nasib students semua okay. they all like behaving so well. semalam oleh kerana tak larat, i buat some lab session. and to my suprise, they cant understand the lab procedure (tak baca dulu kot before conduct?). com'on la, budak bukan aliran sains pun reti guna kot. haihh...

kelas bio pagi tu went so well. belajar pasal cell division je kot. actually it was supposed to be and introductory class, tapi sebab i terlebih rajin and tajuk pun senang, i conduct class terus. at least semangat dah datang ajar jela kan. the students looked happy sebab dapat jumpa i. last semester i kan cuti bersalin. so okay je la kan.

lepas abis kerja kul 6pm i terus gerak laju-laju carik bookstore sebab esoknya nak conduct lab lagi. sekarang kena cari gel inks untuk buat chromatography plak. kacang mak enon je. sekali gulp!inks gel sangat mahal mencecah RM7.90 sebatang. at least kena 5 jenis. kat bookstore je dah amek masa setengah jam. last2 i jumpa yang harga rm2.90. paling murah. sauk 5 jenis cepat2. bayar and terus balik.

masalah.

kaki i ni tak baik-baik. maybe sebab urat tegang ke ape, tapi agak melampau la sebab tak baik lagi. jalan dah terhenjut2. mama cakap macam orang cacat. wth? sakit ok. ingat ade ke orang sengaja jalan camtu sebab nak mengaku cacat? prfttt. yang peliknye, kalau i joging okay je tak sakit. tapi kalau jalan sakit gilers. haaa....camne tu? tak pergi berurut lagi sebab sebok giler.

weekend je either balik umah sendiri or MIL.
weekdays kerja and balik je dah entertain sophea. bila dia dah tidur baru terkedek2 iron baju kerja ke, lipat kain ke etc etc.
malam sure bangun kul 1.30 am dengan 5.30 am feeding babypie.

awesome kan?

it was a good experience though. tak sume ada pengalaman jaga anak sendiri. jadi Alhamdulilah lah instead of mengeluh.

semalam lepas balik kerja naik train balik ampang. ampang line penuh gila. 3 kali tunggu train baru leh masuk. gila ramai orang. balik sampai umah nenek tu jalan kaki je. bukan taknak call suruh orang amik, tapi hp batt habis. boleh? dugaan betul. so jalan la kaki ke rumah nenek.

jauh dia macam dari klcc nak ke ampang park.

tak jauh sangat tapi basah la jugak ketiak. dengan kaki camni kan.

on the way balik tu mula la terfikir:
kalau tengah jalan ni orang culik camne?kalau dah masuk van culik tu nak buat ape?menjerit ke pukul orang tu?kalau pukul nanti dia pukul kita balik sakit la kan? kalau jerit nanti orang ingat budak ni main2 je ke? kalau kene culik nanti sophea camne? dia ingat ke kat mommy die nie? kalau kene culik suami tak jumpe kita camne? suami kahwin lain ke nanti? nanti sophea? encik husband jaga ke bagi orang lain?

tetiba sayu je hati jalan balik. dahlah maghrib. langit pun dah sayup2 je ada cahaya. memang syahdu betul.

sampai umah nenek dah takde mood. jumpa sophea, she lighted me up a bit. penat, peluh, kaki sakit. mandikan la jugak sophea sebab masa tu dah 8.00pm. baby mane boleh mandi lambat2 sangat. luckily she is a good baby. tak nangis tak ape. she ease my pain, and she gives hope and love in my heart and soul.

then makan. lauk super sedap. ada sambal sotong, asam pedas, and fresh vege nenek beli kat cameron. awesomness sangat! hehehe...

lepas tu balik and lipat kain and rehat.

semalam was not so good. tiring and heartache. tapi life has to go on. kan? bila fikir dah ade anak ni, takde siapa yang dia depend on except her parents. kadang2 rasa nak lari dari everyone, tapi bila mengenang ada baby sophea ni, she put me back to the real life.

but in a good way. ;) you know, reminding me that Allah give me a responsibility of taking care of a child. and that will be my daughter.

Daddy and Babypie

oh oh......sophea dah menunjukkan gaya tidur yang sangat bagus malam tadi. and mommy loves you so much but also sad sebab i know my baby pie has grown up. sobs sobs.

last night mommy thought daddy tak balik. and mommy pun tak kisah daddy tak balik walaupun actually rindu gila kat daddy and i feel something is not completed when he is not by myside. i rasa semua isteri macam tu kot bila suami outstation ke ape, tidur pun tak berapa nak nyenyak.

anyway, semalam sophea macam meragam sikit nak tidur. and she's become heavier and it's quite hard for me to handle and cradle her. i think i might had squeezed her too tight and so she cried. hahaha....sorry sorry! so i put her down slowly on the bed, take the blanket and wrapped her tightly.

i read somewhere, dia cakap mommy should tell their baby that it is night time and that baby have to go to sleep. so i did!

"sayang....dah malam ni. you go to sleep ok. mommy work tomorrow. sophea good girl kan??" and then i kissed her cheek and forehead. put on her pacifier (not a good move but im okay with it..).

and she turned away and look at one spot on the curtain. i tepuk-tepuk peha dia and after a few minutes she began to close her eyes!! (yes yes yes!!) and yeah.....10 minit je mata dia wide open...prfttt....

but i know she's sleepy. sebab kalau dia sleepy dia akan tutup mata dia lama, and then bukak besar-besar. and akan berulang-ulang la benda tu. i switched off the lamp and put her on my chest. tak lama lepas tu dia tidur. and when she fell asleep, i turunkan dia on the bed. and i pun tidur sama.

i dont know when encik husband arrived, all i know is that, it was already 1.30am and encik husband bangun and buatkan susu sophea. and then he put her to sleep. good job daddy!!

and when the light was off, that's when i really missed encik husband. i reached out for his hand (over sophea's body....sebab budak demok itu was in between us), and hold his fingers tight over mine. i wished that i could kiss him but i wont take a risk of sophea bangun and ajak berborak at 4.00am. hahahaha...

i just looked out for his face over the little light that passed through our window. and thanked Allah that he was there with me. with us.

and baby pie sleep soundly in between us.

i let go of his hand, and cuddle baby pie even more tightly and kissed softly on her cheek. her smell....gosh!the best smell i ever had. she moved a bit, i guess that was her way telling, "yeah mommy, i love you too. now please let go off me as i want to go to sleep...".

fine. big girl sangat dah kan? ;)

two person that i love the most in the world. sleeping with me every night. i just thanked God for everything He had given me (and will give me). too much of happiness. too much of love.

anyway, i hope and pray and that these two little monsters know, that they had taken over my life and i love them so so much.

Rindu Anak Bapak

sekarang ni asyik rindu anak je. tak dapat di bendung dah. kat office asyiklah scroll gambar2 sophea. hahaha....kes ni sama masa angau dengan daddy dia dulu. camtu lah. hari-hari duk scroll gambar daddy dari zaman daddy kurus sampai la dah mok-mok bambam ni..hahaha...

now hari-hari by lunch mesti call sophea. amazingly she will reply whatever things that i asked her, but in her own baby language la. kadang-kadang i tanya, "sophea....dah milk??did maksu give u milk??". nanti dia jawab, "ahh...ehhh...uhh...". kadang-kadang jerit bingit sangat ami pun terkejut yang opish ni sayang... -____________-

now die suke dengar twinkle twinkle little star. nanti i nyanyi dia pun siap ikot sekali.. "ahhh...ehh...uhhh..". camne tak runtun hati rindu kemain kat dia kalau perangai comel cenggitu?

semalam lepas encik husband balik rumah dalam pukul 8.30pm tu, sediakan la dinner walau bukan i yang masak. dah amik nasi lauk siap-siap. sekali encik husband cakap,

"banyaknye nasiiii!!" which he always said that. and i expect dia akan cakap, "buang lah separuh sayang....". sekali you know what he said? "banyaknye nasikkk!!!perut dah muncit ni camne...penuh dah!". hahaha.....ingatkan nak insaf ke ape...rupenye risau takde space...hahaha....

atotototot....omelnye la heyy... ni macam love hate relationship dengan nasik. hihihi...oh, my FIL said, kawan dia lost 25kgs masa bulan puasa sebab puasa and not eating rice. haaaa, hows that?? awesome giler!! tapi memang betul pun. nasik tu nanti jadi gula, and lauk2 kita pun dah cukup banyak gula dalam masakan, so by buang nasi tak kurang pun gula nye tapi atleast reduce la sikit. that's why boleh kurus.

tapi itulah. nasi kan staple food kita. how lahh?? no pain no gain. that's it!

semalam sesi meluah nasib dan masalah kat encik husband. but earlier that day encik husband pun meluah nasib keje dia. i thought orang keje gomen ni goyang kaki makan free datang lambat takde sape kisah...bahahaha...(sorrylah staff gomen. i think most of us pon perception camtu. so now, you all kena tunjuk yang you all setanding macam private workers and even better than most of us). eh terbebel plak.
 so encik husband dah pening-pening dengan kerja dia and stress out. encik husband tu hari-hari balik lambat okay. balik patut kul 5.30pm, ni 6.30pm pun belum tentu balik. kadang-kadang i kena tunggu dia balik plak and that make me stress.

mulanya i taknak la hempuk dia dengan masalah i, tapi dah dia je bff i, haruslah kena hempukkan. sepatutnya sebagai seorang isteri tak boleh kan?i mean suami balik keja kita kene biar die relax etc etc. tapi ni memang tak dapat di bendung. dengan i PMS nye, dengan masalahnye, memang dah berair2 mata cerita dengan encik husband.

encik husband ni kan, dia agak pendiam la. kalau i cerita tu dia memang senyap je. kalau orang tengok kitorang pun orang akan cakap , "ala bini dia tu je tergedik lebih...suami dia tak heran pun kat die...". gaya-gaya camtulah. tapi semalam agaknye emosi dia pun terganggu dengan cerita-cerita i. kesian i tengok dia, tapi itulah hidup suami isteri. heee....

but thank you sayang. u tau la kan wife u ni, cerita sikit, drama air mata je lebih. cakap pun nak serak-serak basah je suara. dramatik tu kena lebihkan sikit...hahaha... anyway, maybe berkat kesabaran kita, things will always find its way and make it easier for us. tak sabar nak tunggu u reply email and watsapp i sebab banyak benda nak update ni sayang.

hikhik....see u soo baby. muuahhhh!!!

Trouble

Semalam lepas balik krja, terus dokong sophea. rindu sebab a night before tu, sophea was sleeping with her maksu, my sister. so the whole day kat office rindu kat sophea. and last night, mama and my sister puasa 6, so they were tired taking care of sophea and its my duty to amik sophea and jaga plak.

sophea was having trouble in sleeping. dia tak meragam. it was just mata dia taknak pejam, and she was like fighting between her eyes and the need to sleep. haha...she's so cute and yet naughty. masa i tengah makan pun with my left hand holding her, dalam 10minit dia diam la, abes dah lama sangat mommy makan, dia pun restless.

i tried to put her to sleep. kalau dia i dokong dia tidur la. but the minute i put her down, on the bed, kejap je dah bangun. my mother said, maybe she's missing me. sebab that weekend dia tidur dengan nenek dia, balik KL tidur dengan aunty die, tak tidur lagi dengan i. so maybe that's the reason.

tapi i was in doubt. takot kalau i manjakan sangat dia tdiur dengan i, nanti everynight pun nak tidur dengan i, and not in her cot. tapi kadang-kadang i kesian je tengok dia trying to put herself to sleep but restless. macam she need something to help her tidur.

adoii. but i love her. so so much. kalau boleh i nak dia sangkot je kat i 24jam. tapi i taknak nanti dia taknak dengan orang lain. asyik berkepit dengan i je. tak boleh la kan macam tu.

now i missed her already. semalam daddy dia balik around 10pm. daddy masuk bilik je cakap i tak tukar baju kerja lagi. how can i change my clothes when my baby was having trouble to sleep, and i taknak la susahkan family i yang dah one whole day jaga dia. i was a bit kecik hati with his statement (and almost cried) but i said to myself, dont make it any longer, dont have a fight because kita dua-dua kerja and penat.

i passed sophea to my husband and quickly mandi and served him dinner. took back sophea and teman husband on the table. and lama-lama kecik hati tu hilang sendiri. benda kalau tak dilayan ok jer kan.

passed back sophea to her daddy, and i terus naik atas iron baju kerja kitorang. pump susu sekejap for 30minutes. siap semua almost at 1am. masuk bilik sophea dah bangun and encik husband tengah bagi dia minum.

i think by 1.30am baru sophea nak tidur. itupun daddy dia tutup lampu. and i had trouble nak bagi dia pacifier. hahaha...kena raba-raba mulut dia.sampai pagi la sophea macam tu.by 7am pagi tadi baru dia nak tidur.

actually, i suka sangat bila the moment i amik dia and rapatkan kat dada, she shut her eyes. means she likes it, and my body keep her calm. i suka bila i pegang dia, dia terus tidur. i think, itu anugerah paling indah Allah bagi kat ibu-ibu.

yang the presence of the mother calms the child.

alhamdulilah. ;)

Baby Sophea

you know. our days are not the same from the first day sophea came into our lives. you know, the normal life we knew was waking up as late as 10am on weekends, late night movies and sleep by 2am. having morning exercise at the nearest park, or our night routine jogs. from the first moment i knew i was pregnant, i stop immediately of doing any exercises, but waking up late was still my hobby. ehehe..

anyway, sekarang bila sophea ada, tidur lambat jugak....but it continues sampai time nak pergi kerja. and when i fall asleep, it is already 7am where i should get ready to work. hahaha....lepas tu mamai2 la siap, and baju mana sempat capai, and mana yang dah gosok tu la yang i pakai. sadis sangat perangai camni...hahaha...

macam semalam, i came home qite early dalam 6.45pm. tengok baby sophea baru lepas susu. amek dia and tidurkan dia. OMG the smell of a baby, paling sedap dalam dunia!! i repeatedly kiss her head, cheeks, mouth and nose. i think she loves it when i do that, sebab dia diam jer, muka senyum2...and tak lama lepas tu she fell asleep.

then i cooked for encik husband. just a simple dish but encik husband tambah 3 kali. dia cakap sedap sangat!habis kalau tambah 3 kali takkan tak sedap pulak kan??ehehhe...at around 10.30pm, i received a message from encik husband. he said "thank you sayang masakkan untuk i...sedap sangat...i really miss your cooking...". i read it after i do my run. sweet jer.

bila dah tidur, sophea bangun plak nak milk. bagi milk and she refused to go back to sleep. haihhh la anak mommy. she was talking, shouting, playing the whole night. i dont know how and when, bila i bangun dalam pukul 4am, encik husband tengah tukarkan baju sophea. she threw out the milk, and pee pee on her father.
hahahahah.... noty baby... ;)

Berus

i have been reaching my few last days of confinement. lebih kurang dalam 5 hari lagi. and might be leaving tapi tak boleh cakap sekarang mana tau tak jadi but i really am hoping it will come true. definitely it is a dream come true kalau jadi. ahhaha..

oh last night, my parents came to my house sebab nak bawak me and baby sophea balik KL. so later that night, encik husband dah masuk bilik dulu baring2. baby sophea was with tok mama (her nenek). so i said to encik husband, "sayang...i keluar tengok sophea dulu k, u jangan tidur...". well, even baby sophea dah ada, i still want my husband to sleep with me. ahaha....baby sophea usually sleeps in baby cot, memang kitorang nak ajar dia tidur katil dia, but lately she had been taking that spaces on our bed. well, we enjoyed jer company by the way.

so dah baring2 kat katil tu, encik husband said, "sayang...pergi gosok gigi dulu. nanti sophea ikut tak gosok gigi before sleep..". well, *rollseyes*. and im too lazy to brush, so i said to him, "sayang....gosokkan gigi i boleh??i penat la....". well, im lazy like that. hahaha...so he went to the bathroom, and me not facing the bathroom was busy merenung nasib at the other side.

suddenly he called me, "sayang....cepat la...kate nak i berus kan gigi u..". tiba2 i rasa terharu, awww so sweet husband i nak gossokkan gigi. dalam kepala dah berangan esok kalau sakit tak boleh bangun, husband sanggup gossokkan gigi i. sweet sangat...

so i cepat2 turned myself over, and to my shocked, memang sweet sangat dia nak gosokkan gigi i, he was holding that stinky dirty berus jamban!!!! amboihhhh...kuang ajaq sangat...hahahah!! sanggup tu bangun semata nak angkut berus jamban tu...well, husband i memang sweet sangat!! *telangkupmukakatbantaljeritkuat2*

he definitely suka make fun of me. according to him (which i agree to disagree), gigi i besar. gigi i besar or gigi dia yang kecik??gelabah sangat. whatever.....

so the entire night before we went into bed, we were laughing like esok bukan Monday and ada orang tu kena kerja (pastinya bukan i!). hahaha.....it was a happy night for me. i wonder what my parents think of us laughing like orang gila, during my confinement. not a naughty one, though. hehehehe...

writing here making me missing him more. oh, baby sophea tengah tidur. haritu bertukar hari, she quite meragam sikit. nangis here and there a bit, and nak orang dukung. but now, alhamdulilah she's doing great. tidur by herself and tak sempat nangis, i already know bila dia nak susu, tidur, and change diaper. i watched a lot video on why baby cry etc etc. it helps!! ;)

okla, ade masa lagi nanti i'll update. banyak nak share lagi nih....

The Day Sophea Was Born

i haven't tell you (or a record) of a story of how baby pie a.k.a baby sophea was actually born, kan? hikhik...fret not, it wasn't much of a dramatic side. i guess i am lucky (alhamdulilah!) that i get pregnant after 3 months married, i don't have serious morning sickness that, i can count of how many times did i threw up (3 or 4 times??), and delivering baby sophea was easy as 1, 2, 3. but after the delivery, during confinement was tough. tough as in i thought i can never be a good mother to baby sophea. but again, i managed to pull myself together to be strong for her.

the DAY!
i memang selalu akan bangun at around 4.am to urinate. kate pun pregnant. when you are pregnant, toilet is your ultimate best friend. so anyway, i masuk toilet, look at my panties; ok nothing unusual there - wee-wee and when i washed it down there, the water looked kinda red (red as in blood color). it was 5 days before my due date, so i guess "this is it!!". although i dont feel any pain or whatsoever, but deep inside my heart i know she's ready to see the world!

waking up daddy
i took almost 10 minutes to wake up encik husband. im quite worried whether is he ready?? and also i taknak dia like super terkejut and ruin everything...hahaha. so i took my own sweet time brushing my teeth, combed my hair, and tukar baju. then only i kejut him. and oh yes, dia memang terkejut. hahaha!! he changed into sweater and jeans like super fast and a second before we were out of our bedroom, he said,

"sayang....sempat tak i gosok gigi??".

haha...lawak gila. of course la boleh sebab i bukan sakit pon.

driving to the hospital
the weather was calm but chilled. maybe bukan sejuk mane pon but the nervousness yang i rasa makes it like sejuk gila. apparently, encik husband pon rasa. traffic was so clear. takde sebijik kereta pun, so i guess it was a smooth driving. tak sampai 30minit kitorang dah sampai hospital.

at the hospital
ada sorang abang je tengah tunggu wife dia kot. no nurses at the counter that i had to ring the bell. after registration and all, i was admitted. the nurse put on a machine to monitor the baby's heartbeat and also to check upon my contraction. according to them, there were a mild contraction but i don't feel a thing.

the doctor had to breaks my waterbag, then only i felt the contraction. i was ready in the labour room at around 6.45am. had a 30minutes contraction, and at around 8.15am baby sophea was born. my servix had already opened by 2cm when i first came in. when i was in the labour room, the doctor said i was already opened by 6cm. then it was 9 cm, and when my doctor (my specialist) came into the labour room, i was ready for a push.

the push
it was easy, but it wasn't as hurting as what people said. tapi, setiap orang ada rasa sendiri, setiap orang ada sakit sendiri. in my opinion, labour pain wasn't that bad, and we (women) boleh je atasi sakit tu. serius rasa dia macam sembelit jer. the hardest part masa nak keluarkan kepala baby tu jer. but it wasnt that bad pun.

i dont take any epidural nor taking that laughing gas. i memang taknak sebab i nak experienced sendiri sakit bersalin tu macam mana. and i did it!! and i am so proud of myself!

my husband
husband was with me all the time. in the labour room, he recited the yasin for my easy delivery. he hold my hands with every contraction i had.he helped me with every push i've done. if it wasn't him, i'll be all alone not knowing what to do. he is my strength and i thanked god for lending him to me. i need him. and i need him alot. when baby sophea was out, he azan-ed her. it was a sweet moment looking at both of them. and i started to love both of them so much from then on.

see??

no jerit2 onee....hehehehe....anyway, confinement was tough. nanti kita cerita la the experience. but now im okay and fully recovered. i baca banyak ayat ni untuk kekuatan.

"lailahillah anta subhanaka inni kuntu minnazzolimin..."

my unknown helper

hye everyone. right now im having my confinement at my MIL's house. my MIL had been taking care of sophea really good. the first night i was here, i qada' my tido dari pukul 10pm smpi pukul 7.encik husband really is a great husband sesaat pun die tak kejut i. dia cakap memang dia nak bagi i rehat secukupnya.ok terharu sangat.but i felt so tired with taking care of baby sophea sebab im not a night person, im more to a morning person. walaupun siang baby sophea tidur, still i tak boleh tidur. but anyway alhamdulilah my MIL been really helpful.

have i told you that baby sophea look exactly like her daddy. dari rupa, gaya tidur, and perangai pun exactly like her father. orang kata kalau anak rupa macam suami, masa kita pregnant tu husband sayang and cinta sangat kat kita..betul ke?if betul, i feel so blessed. *blush*

i tak tau la husband orang lain buat apa masa wife tengah confinement..well lain orang lain caranya but apa yang encik husband buat untuk i sangat2 buat i terharu. maybe husband orang lain lagi hebat cara mereka tapi my mr perfect is just perfect for me.*smile*

at 3am memang the time to change sophea's diaper. so selalu i kejut dia untuk tukar. i pun bangun jugak but untuk teman and tengok the way he do it. kan yang baby wipes tu, satu helai sekali lap. -_- rugi tau. hehehe...but tak payah la kita nak bebel2 dah la orang tu bangun pagi nak tuka diapers, kita nak bising2 cara dia bersihkan anak dia.hikhik..

then, setiap kali i nak pump susu, die mesti mengendeng2 kat i. kadang bukan ape pun, dia amek hp main game sebelah i. hahaha....but having him kat sebelah buat i rasa tenang je..rasa happy jer..and thus the production of milk pun banyak untuk sophea.hehe...masa mula2 dulu konon nak pump kiri kanan sekali but it was very hard for me to hold dua sekali so encik husband pun tolong. tapi funny sangat and we all tergelak all the way. rasa pelik and malu pun ada. hahaha...tapi pasangkan pump, amekan botol, storage sampai la ke sterile bottle semua encik husband buat.

and every night dia akan buatkan susu suam dengan kurma untuk tambah susu i. selalu dia akan tanya i nak ke susu and selalu i buat muka taknak. hahaha....muak ok. dah la tak letak gula, apakah sangat.hehehe tapi kadang2 dia buatkan jer so terpaksa la i minum. he's taking a good care of me and baby sophea.

setiap hari i tanya kat dia,

"sayang...do you love me?" sambil kiss dahi dia.

"sayang la.....sayang sangat..." . tapi tangan dengan mata laju je main game. hahaha...tak kisah la, janji die jawab. i asked him the same quEstion every day without fail. hehehe...i love him like that much.

talking about berpantang, selalu orang kata suami taknak dekat2 dengan isteri sebab bau param pilis etc. tapi suami kita nie mengendeng jer. peluk la ape la. tapi dia kate busuk jugak hahahaha....tapi sayang isteri busuk pun busuk lah kan. hehehe...ade potensi baby sophea nak dapat adik dengan kadar segera...hahaha...heypp heypp nooo...not yet.

kalau kitorang pindah randah memang encik husband jer pack kan baju...loading and unloading stuff. and i percaya untuk dia buat benda tu. die kan particular.

sepanjang confinement ni, especially bila encik husband pergi kerja after 1 week cuti dengan i, memang nangis jela i. hikhik...cengeng! entah la, i rasa terharu sangat dengan whatever things yang encik husband buat untuk i. maybe for some of you benda ni macam "eh hello, sume org buat kott ." but i just wanna say how thankful i am for having him in my life. i know i wont find someone so kind and so lovingmacam dia. his everything for me and cinta nya i kat dia more than anything else.

i pray that Allah akan murahkan rezeki dia and bagi kesihatan yang baik untuk dia. baby sophea is so lucky to have her daddy. i know he will take a good care of you baby sophea. and thank u sayang for always be there for me. u know how cengeng and soft hearted i ni sampai semua pun nak mengadu dengan u i rasa mesti u pon boring but u always there mendengar setiap kata-kata i. thanks sayang. thanks sebab sediakan everything as comfortable as u can.

a moment

having baby as in our new family member really is a new experience for us. im still adjusting my life especially my time for our new baby sophea. but luckily for me, she is one of a good baby.  other than crying for being hungry or need to change diapers, other than that she's all good. alhamdulilah dari during pregnancy with no morning sickness, during delivery pon senang, and ms confinement pon tak banyak kerenah. so i pray that she will be good sampai la besar,sampai bile2.

husband had been a very great companion for me. whenever i feel low hw always there for me, tak putus2 bagi semangat kat i. really. im not good at telling and sharing problems or secret with someone else, tapi when i did tell and share problems or secret with u, meaning i really love u thus i trust you so much.

during my one day admitted to the ward, malam tu bermula cabaran for both of us being parents. malam tu sophea nangis quite a lot. die bukan like nangis memanjang, die macam bunyik2 sikit. i guess die lapar kot. as in the first few days susu i tak banyak. dia haus kot. masa tu i sedih sangat mengenangkan anak i tak cukup makan. but i really dont have any idea what to do.

encik husband janji nak bergilir jaga but he was so tired that malam tu sophea nangis pun die tak bangun dah. being a mom is great. kita memang ada alert button yang whenever we are asleep anak bunyik sikit pun boleh terjaga. hehehe...

at first husband tak pandai sangat dukung sophea..bedung ok la sikit. all he did were kemaskan barang2 i..make sure i dalam keadaan comfortable..that i dont feel tired and not stress out. everything turned out fine. selalu jugak i nangis bila fikir what will i do kalau encik husband takde. sedih campur terharu. i doa setiap masa yang Allah akan protect dia and murahkan rezeki dia.

hrmm...sebenarnye banyak benda nak cerita. but i realy dont have time. tapi i need to write down. untuk sophea baca dan tahu ape yang mommy and daddy dah buat and berkorban untuk dia. nanti la. nila i betul2 free baru i buat entry khas. hihihi.

quickies!!

Hello hello hello!
It's been such a long time since my last update. Anyhoo, i can't make a long entry anymore. Why? Continye reading okay. I'm gonna put the updates by point forms.

1. I had been giving birth to a beautiful adorable baby girl on 31st may 2013 , at a very early morning. It was fast and easy delivery alhamdulilah. So baby pie is a baby girl and by the name Sophea. Nama pendek..nama panjang hehehe.

2. I'm having my confinement at my mother's house here in kl. Somehow i really miss my own house. Pregnancy was wayy easy than delivery.and confinement. I dont mind the restricted food..but restricted movement? Adoii.

3. Husband said im having baby blues. I guess i am.im tired and restless. But im working hard to stay positive and enjoy what Allah gave me.

4. Now husband and Sophea are my strengh. Husband has been so damn supportive throughout delivery and confinement. I cried everyday because i felt so thankful for having him in my life. He seems to be strong inside and out, and by knowing that had given me so much energy and strength.

So that is my quick update.