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Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Effort in love

baru lepas lunch, solat, mandi, ni dah amik notes nak study for next paper. sekali rasa macam, ok ngantuk, meh update blog. anyway my daughter tengah nyenyak tidur kat sebelah. she's the one who pointed her fat short finger towards the bedroom nak tidur.

tadi daddy balik kejap bawakkan food (nasi hujan panas kemarau...haha), lepas she kiss2 her daddy, terus gi bilik.

anyway, another 3 weeks to go before my baby come out. my feeling? seriously excited, rasa macam lebih excited dari pregnant kan sophea. sebab, masa first pregnancy tu i macam, slow mo, taknak over excited (walaupun...), kan orang cakap jangan excited sangat. but this baby, aiyakk...cannot wait mehh...x sabar nak jumpa dia, susukan dia, jaga dia, tengok kerenah dia. im so ready, insyaAllah!

barang2 semua dah siap. kalau nak ikutkan memang la takkan pun siap nye. but thinking that nowadays it is very easy to get/buy things so takpela. nak pakai baru kita cari.

husband? well, he can never be better than this. haha...he has been very supportive, and selalu sangat la manja kan i. i ni Pisces-baby. so mood swing tu selalu. so he has to be awesome to encounter my moodyness. korang jangan tak caya, dah nak dekat 13 tahun kot kitorang together. dari dulu sampai sekarang perangai i memang sama je. kadang-kadang macam tak percaya plak that we actually made it into marriage, and actually make two babies together.

euuwww.....hahahaha!!

nevertheless, perasaan i, the way i looked at him, is just the same when first i met him. orang kata, perasaan suka. cinta ni tak boleh buat2, sebab when you reach a certain point, benda tu jadi bosan sebab kita force ourselves to like someone. but in my case, nope. i really do love him.

honestly speaking, setiap kali doa, memang i akan cakap, " yaAllah yaTuhanku, panjangkanlah jodoh aku dengan (nama suami) sampai ke syurga". tiap kali. tak pernah tinggal. kecuali kalau doa pendek sebab nak cepat ke ape la...hahaha...

bukan sekali dua hubungan goyah....( goyah la..lelaki hensem ramai...hikhik), tetapi still our love getting stronger for every bitterness we faced. and tiap kali itu lah, makin kuat and makin we both know that we actually need each other.

dah kalau tiap kali makan pun nak berteman, tiap kali nak tidur pun mesti at least pegang tangan (expecially masa aircond rosak harapan la nak tidur pelok2...tumbok kang!), tak nampak lagi ke betapa we need each other. itu kalau tak sedar lagi tu, sila terjun bangunan.

eh ni nasihat untuk orang lain ke or untuk diri sendiri ni? hahahaha.....

ni anak dah dua ni. kata orang perasaan dah beralih arah. tak tau la kalau beliau beralih arah. but for me, same old same old. i still madly in love with him.i will always be there for him, for forever. or for as long as he wants me to be his wife. kalau he doesn't love me anymore, well, siapa kita nak paksa. terima jelah ketentuan Allah.

mane tau lepas tu sukri yahya ke...keith foo ke datang. hahaha...

tips nak hubungan selalu 'in love' konon nye...dua-dua kena berusaha. dua-dua kene tunjuk effort yang kite sayang dia, and nak dia dalam hidup kita. walaupun dah kahwin. macam ahkak, effort nye adalah, bagi soalan cepu emas di tempat yang least expected.

contoh, masa encik husband tengah pakai kasut nak pergi kerja, i will ask, "B, u sayang i tak?". kalau time tu die rasa nak jawab die jawab la, kalau die xnak, termalu-malu la sendiri iolss...hahaha...

oklah, nanti kalau free i update lagi k. ingat, love those who love you!

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Kesetiaan. Sampai bila?

am i the right person to talk about kesetiaan? sebab being in a relaionship for almost a decade, ok tipu. hahaha..i've been with my soulmate ni dah almost 10 years, and we have been married for 2 years now. so am i the right person to talk about kesetiaan?? i guess i am. ah kalau korang tak setuju pun i don't care. kang i tak tau nak cerita apa. so let's proceed!hahaha

1. bila kena setia??
ha meh i nak cakap. setia itu bermula bukan the moment kite cakap kita couple, or masa merisik, bertunang, or masa menikah. kesetiaan itu bermula dari mula-mula kita kenal dia. sebab kalau dari mula kita dah ada rasa sangsi, dah ada pilihan lain, macam mana nak kira kesetiaan tu kan. "i suka ahmad, tapi belum tentu ahmad suka kita, so takpe kita ada ali." ha nampak? kita tak boleh buat macam tu, tu tak jujur namenye yer. go for it kalau kita rasa he's the one.doa banyak2 moga Allah bukakan hati dia dan kita.

2. dengan siapa kita nak setia?
dengan orang yang kita rasa nak buat dia jadi suami kita. dan orang itu haruslah menunjukkan komitmen yan sama untuk berumah tangga dengan kita. kalau cara dia tak meyakinkan, doa banyak2 dan tanya la kalau dia ni nak main2 je ke or what. don't be afraid with rejection. kalau nak cerita pasal rejection, i had been in my worst condition due to he rejection. whoahh patah hati tiada galang ganti. sampai sekarang masih berbekas dan kita masih cuba untuk turap bekas-bekas itu. tapi kalau kita not overthink about rejection and paling penting jangan letak too much of expectation, insyallah things will be great. lebih baik tahu sekarang, dan bukan lagi 2 jam nak akad nikah. right?

3. sampai bila nak setia?
oh, sampai masa yang allah izinkan. ingat, perasaan sayang, bf, suami ni semua pinjaman allah. sampai satu masa kita kena pulangkan, whether we like it or not. masa jadi bf, mungkin banyak alasan bf bagi kalau ajak kahwin, tak cukup duit lah, nantilah, etc etc. give him time. lelaki ni memang betul needs time untk adapt. diorang tak hebat macam kita perempuan. sebab tu kita boleh lahirkan anak. sebab kita kuat. tai kalau dia bagi banyak alasan, tapi bab pegang2 lebih2 nak, haruslah distopkan dengan kadar segera. what the heck kan? and tanya pada diri sendiri, ikhlas ke tak lelaki tu dengan kita. untuk yang dah berkahwin, tiada lagi istilah diri sendiri. anak, kaum keluarga, semua kena fikir. sekali bole tahan, telan. doa dan mintak petunjuk. but at the same time kita sendiri usaha untk perbaiki kelemahan kita.

kahwin ni bukan untuk seronok-seronok. walapun i is the rasa seronok sangat lepas dah kahwin ni, hahahaha.....tak boleh nak digambarkan. i rasa sebab kita kahwin sebab Allah, cinta sebab Allah, lain rasanya dari zaman bercinta. it was so peaceful but at he same time lovely and kadang-kadang rasa tak percaya je. and it is a bonus for me dapat husband yang sangat baik lillahita'ala. i tak tau la kenapa Alla kurniakan suami sebaik dia. mashaallah.

so anyway, kahwin ni lebih kepada tanggungjawab. i suka sebab i suka please my husband, try to prove to him that i can be what he wants. it's a challenge for myself to be a better wife. siapa cakap dah kahwin takde challenge? everyday is a challenge to be a better me...hehehe

mana nak jadi wife, mommy, a teacher, tutor, companion, a cook, a cleaner etc.

yang paling penting sabar. maybe because i know him long before i married him, so banyak perangai dia i dah tau. so add on untuk perangai dia yang baru menjelma lepas kahwin. hahaha.... so bagi yang baru kenal hari akad nikah tu, the only thing that i can say is sabar. jadi wife ni kena banyak sabar. tak salah pun. and kita bukan mengalah. don't ever think it that way. it's just that we are mature enough to handle things profesionally.

eh banyaknye type...hahahaha...

and...mesti ada CINTA!! and cinta tu mesti hadir setiap masa. like me, whenever i look at my husband, i always had this mix feeling inside, rasa annoyed, suka, excited, rasa nak peluk, kadang-kadang rasa nak slap dia pun ade.hahaha but it stays in my heart. cuma kadang-kadang i go and hug him and tells him how much i love him and that i need him so much in my life.

everyone needs that right??it is just i'm the more expressive type, and he is not. he don't even care. sobs kikikiki ~


Friday, January 10, 2014

Penggoda

i really dont know about other people who already married. did you guys play around a lot with your spouse?? i mean like really fool around the house (err...not in a kinky way of course...i wouldnt dare to know...hahaha) with your husband? coz mannn....i really did get teased around pretty much.

especially time tengah mandi. tak kira la subuh ke, malam ke, pukul 2 3 pagi ke, encik husband tersangatlah 'rajinnnnnnnye' nak jugakkk tutup lampu bathroom i bila i'm taking my shower.. i mean, guys...did you really 'enjoy' that moment huh? listening to your wife's screaming in a middle of a night?? ishh...tak paham.

pastu if i were doin my thing, seboklah jerit dari luar, "baby....buat ape tewww...??". rasa nak jawab je, "masak sayang..." tapi kang dia kata i isteri derhaka plak. hehehe....selalu i jawab "adelah....sebok jer...". pastu i senyum-senyum sebab terfikir apelah husband i ni, sebok nak tau...ke tak boleh berjauhan ke ape... hehehe...

tu okay lagi. masa awal-awal kahwin dulu, tangan i memang dah standby je nak tapek die sekali. apekan tidak, i keluar bilik, dia tengah cangkung depan bathroom. dah kenapa?? memang niat hati dia tu nak terkejutkan i la tu. sah-sah la memang kita terkejut sebab lepas mandi, would you ever once concern on what is happening outside of your bedroom?? tak la kan...mesti la kite fikir takde orang and aman damai je. sekali ada orang duk mencangkung depan bathroom u, haruslahh rasa nak tapek... nasib i tak sepak je. hahaha.... tapi kalau niat memang nak sepak ngaku la nanti ter-sepak. hahaha...puas hati.

tapiiiiiiiiii................

itu kalau kat rumah, kalau dalam kereta jangan harap la. it's my turn bebeh. yela kan, encik husband kan driving, makanya, bermewah-mewahan la i dalam kereta. cocok pinggang dia kan (please don't do this, bahaya actually), joget2 depan dia ke. nyanyi2 sekuat hati ke.

selalu encik husband buat muka sardin jer. malu agaknya dapat wife tak berapa nak matang. atau pun dia geleng-geleng kepala. tak pun dia cakap, "b...orang sebelah nampak la..". merujuk kepada kereta sebelah.

bukan tak matang, it just that, i am being me, and i love to tease him as much he likes to tease me. so same-same la kan? hehehe...

ohh i remember, masa mula-mula kahwin banyaklah adegan panas dalam kereta, hahaha....well, dah halal kan. dulu masa tak halal jauh2 je la. tapi takde la panas mana pun. saje gurau-gurau. sekali kereta sebelah tu ternampak ke skodeng kitorang ke entah la. bila stop kat traffic light, dua-dua orang kat dalam kereta tu pandang kitorang. sekali tahu encik husband buat apa. dia pandang balik kereta sebelah tu, pastu gerak kan kepala dia macam, "ha, apsal? ada hutang?" sambil senyum kat orang sebelah tu. hahaha...orang sebelah tu senyum balik pastu tak pandang dah.

hahahaha.....gila taiko. dahla kau yang buat adegan panas mengundang, pastu kau nak sound dia balik. ha ha ha bagus perangai. but we had a good laugh about it. sampai sekarang kalau teringat balik mesti nak tergelak. ha ha ha.... kitorang ni memang...perangai dah macam ape ntah.

and selalu jugak i tanya dia soalan bonus. ala....perempuan kan suka tanya, "u sayang i tak?". rasa dalam sehari paling tak pun sekali mesti tanya. agaknya kalau sophea tu boleh jawab , dia jawab camni kot, " mommy....agak-agak la. dah la daddy dengan mommy dah 9 tahun, dah dapat sophea pun boleh tanya lagi...". hahaha....tak kiwe.... sukati mommy la.

ada once tu i tanya dia, "despite what had happened, u rasa menyesal tak kahwin dengan i...".

pastu encik husband jawab sambil pandang muka i, "not even once i.......". pastu i tak dengar dah la seterusnya sebab i dah busy angkat barang2 from boot kereta. dah jadi mak-mak ni, nak romantic pun halfway jer. banyak lagi kerja nak selesaikan.

ha ha ha.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Apa Itu Cinta?

if you ever ask yourself, "what is love?", can u honestly answer it straight away, or do you have to pause a lil while to gather all of your answers? cause i do it a lot, you know, pause to gather all of my answers whenever people ask me. but oh well, people dont ask me (alot) about that, hihi...it is just me who love to ask myself , "hey, what loves mean actually".lagi2 bila bergaduh dengan encik husband....hahaha! it is good sometimes to ask ourselves, macam refresh balik perasaan kita and apa maksud cinta dalam hidup kita sendiri. 'love' cannot be answered in one sentence, because in reality,  'love' takes more than just a sentence to be define.

and remember, setiap orang ada definisi cinta yang tersendiri. it does'nt matter what, as long as it's a good one.

***

honestly, sebelum kahwin, perasaan cinta itu hanyalah nafsu semata. maksudnya macam, nak dia ada dengan kita sentiasa, nak tengok muka dia hari2, nak dengar suara dia hari2. kalau tak dapat tu semua, dapat tengok gambar pun jadi la. well, itu definisi cinta untuk remaja. oh well, i've been through that era ha ha ha so i know how the teenage girls feel.

but now lepas kahwin, cinta yang i ada untuk suami i adalah jauh lebih greater that what i felt for him masa zaman remaja dulu (tak boleh la cakap zaman bercinta sebab sekarang pun bercinta jugak....ha ha ha). betul la orang cakap kalau love tu is undefined.

sebab really susah nak cakap dan susun dengan kata-kata. afterall i'm not a good writer pun. kihkihkih..

***

husband i orang cakap, bukan lelaki romantik la, but maybe romantik in his own way. dia bukan yang kalau i post something on facebook and 'like' for that instant, even worse bila i tanya, "b, u tengok tak status i kat fb?". "tak..". tu je dia jawab. luluh kan hati? padahal status tu untuk dia. tapi i kan bodoh, dah tau nak dia baca hantar la private message, whatsapp ke ape..tapi oh well perempuan, suka la jalan jauh sikit nak bagitau isi hati. ha ha ha...sekali bukan dia perasan pun. padan muka.

kadang2 jealous jugak ada kawan lelaki upload gambar wife and anak2 and stated there "my cinta hati" "nyawa dunia akhirat " la etc etc. tapi tiba2 at one point, "OMG geli la pulak..." sebab hello, obviously la semua sayang bini tapi kadang2 jealous la jugak. ha camtu la kan perasaan perempuan. entah pape kan and unpredictable.

tapi tiba2 i bersyukur plak encik husband tak camtu...ha ha ha that what makes him different from any other man than i've known. kalau tak same la die dengan lelaki lain kan.

***

he wont tell the world how much he loves me. maybe he don't love me?err...i don't know. but i just can pray and hope yang at that moment bila dia terima akad nikah tu, he will loves me for as long as we live.

but then again, after sometimes, only then i realize, being married was not about being happy and mushy2 and all that, but it is more than that.one, marriage is when we accept 'the commitment', a promise to make our other half happy. dalam erti kata lain, kahwin adalah bertujuan untuk membahagiakan orang lain. seronok ke kalau kite je bahagia dan orang lain terseksa. no right? terutama sekali bahagiakan suami i la. lepas tu follow by anak2, mak bapak sedara mare dan sebagainya.

seeing our husbands happy, his family happy, and family kita happy  dengan kehadiran kite, is what matter most. lagi2 bila dah ade sophea ni, we can see how much we are meant for them.

secondly, marriage is about understanding and tolak ansur. marriage is when two people become one. maksudnya, apa sahaja yang berlaku dalam rumah tangga tu, husband and wife la peneraju utama dalam menyelesaikan masalah tersebut. kite jangan harapkan suami je, and suami jangan harapkan isteri je. tak boleh macam tu tau. kalau nak buat perangai macam tu, lebih baik jangan kahwin, kite settle masalah kite sendiri.

tapi obviously dah namanya suami is the king of the house, banyak kata muktamad adalah dari dia. so kita isteri ikut je la. kadang2 kite rasa macam, "eiii bodohnye die nak buat camtu...", tapi trust me, at the end of the day, sebenarnya apa yang suami kita buat tu betul. entah la Allah nak tunjuk ke ape, tapi tibe2 ade perasan macam, "eh???betul jugak kan die buat camtu..". ha ha ha....

tapi having him around the house adelah yang terpenting.

macam i cakap, dia bukan reti tunjuk kasih sayang die kat i. well, maybe ada la a few here and there, tapi tak cukup bagi perempuan pentamak macam i.

maybe dengan cara dia vacuum hall i memalam buta, and vacuum sofa2 i tu menunjukkan dia sayang i, dia taknak isteri die penat2 seret2 vacuum berat tu all around the house.

maybe dengan cara dia lap2 kepala katil kitorang and lap2 tv punye meja tu menunjukkan dia sayang i, dia taknak isteri dia terbongkok2 lap meja sebab isteri dia tak berapa kuat sangat sekarang.

maybe dengan cara dia cuci toilet kitorang tu, menunjukkan dia sayang i, dia taknak isteri dia jatuh dalam toilet ke ape. tapi i nak dia tau i enjoy cuci toilet dengan i walaupun i hanya spray2 air kat wall dengan lantai je and dia buat kerja memberus.

haihhh...

kadang2 i sedih je tengok dia buat semua tu. macam i ni tak mampu pulak nak buat kerja2 tu. memang tak mampu pun sebab penat. hahahaha..... kalau tunggu i buat seminggu sekali, takpun sebulan sekali. mesti u all tak tau kan, i selalu je kena marah kat rumah tu sebab malas. eh bukan malas, suka buat kerja bertangguh. kikiki....

and i banyak main around the house. macam kalau encik husband cakap ape, ade je yang i nak lawan. ade je nak menyampuk. pastu kena marah. duhhh....encik husband tu tak boleh relax langsung, nak serius je. tau la pegawai. kat rumah pun kena pegawai ke??? prffttt!!

ok la. i nak sambung buat entri lain. mood nak update konon. *gelaktutupmulut*


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Terlajak Habis Semuanya

so yesterday was my puasa day. saje puasa sunat dan puasa ganti. tapi orang kate tak boleh sekali kan? takpela, Tuhan tahu. back from the work, encik husband fetch me quite late. kerja macam dia tu pun nak balik lambat. bukan dapat bonus 12 bulan ponnn...hahaha... tapi tu la kite panggil keikhlasan, berkhidmat untuk negara untuk rakyat. sayang, ingat kerja kerna ikhlas. jangan banyak merungut. i baca somewhere, dia cakap Allah kata kalau rezeki yang sedikit tu pun kita merungut, rezeki yang banyak pun kita akan buat benda yang sama. so, semoga murah rezeki, and that rezeki will be showered to me and baby sophea. hehehe.... i want to go London. you know that.... hehehe...

i thought of cooking sambal telur. just simple dish, sebab kitorang berdua je pon kat rumah. prfttt....macam la kalau sophea ade kat rumah boleh makan besar, makan pon tak pandai lagi...hahaha... i siap beli telur kat KKmart area ofis i tu.hahaha.....and bought a small box of cornflakes and fresh milk, untuk sahur esok konon. then, encik husband kept teasing me all the way from my office to putrajaya, asking whether i wanted to have some arabian and iranian cuisine that night.

haihhh.....i really thought we were in this together. you know, diet program. diet program i senang. no rice, no oil, no fat, no sugary drinks. yang lain boleh masuk. ni dah encik husband tetiba ajak makan nasi arab kat cyber kenapa?? kedengkian kan disitu. but, since i was am so determined, i tak makan pun nasi last night. and so do encik husband. tetiba bangga dengan dia sebab dia boleh decline nasi. hello !*waiving* encik husband? no nasi? he must took all the effort and determination to pulled it through. hahahaha..... ended up, we had lamb kebab. one meal, shared by two. tapi air bapak gelas besar sorang satu. tapi kenyang rasa nak muntah.

yang i marah sangat, sampai rumah our next activity is to go for a jog. light jog and then lift some weight. masa tu dah kul 9.00pm. i kemas2 rumah sikit, masuk bilik nampak encik husband tengah meriah2 baring kat katil. and then he said, "sayang....cube you baring kat sini..". i jeling jela, sebab i tau kalau i dah start baring, memang tak bangun nyer dah. sekali betul. dia ajak lagi and then dua2 tertido sampai pagi. dengan kipas terbukak, pintu tak tutup, lampu tak tutup, pintu toilet tak tutup. astagfirullah...tak tau la nak jadi apa kitorang ni. hahahaha...

pastu pagi2 perli i, "semalam sayang jogging ke??". kalau korang , ade rasa nak hempuk dia tak? ade, kan?i pun!! *senyum lebar* musnah harapan i nak add on calories. pfrtttttttt...benci sangat!

anyway, i terbangun kul 2 pagi tu, tutup lampu semua, basuh kain, jemur kain, masukkan pinggan and utensils dalam kabinet, lipat kain sambil tengok "whitehouse down", encik husband dah download kan. awesome gile citer tu. ade channing tatum yang sexy, so, worth watching! in between, i pause kejap and went to check encik husband. switched on the aircond, and selimutkan die, dengan tido tak berbaju. haihh...dia tu bukan boleh. kang pagi2 selsema sejuk sangat la, sakit perut la ape la. so selimutkan lah die ketat2 macam sophea kene bedung, so i pun buat yang sama kat daddy die. kiss him goodnight and went out.

tau2 dah kul 4.30am i pun buat omellete untuk sahur i. makan gosok gigi, kul 5.30am masuk tidur to encik husband. bangun pagi ni 7.30am. hahaha....i bangun awal okay, encik husband tu sebok pelok kedap2 tak bagi bangun. haihh...ofis die dekat 5 minit je pon dari rumah. tapi i pon snuggle balik kat bawah ketiak dia. bukan selalu dapat tidur berdua camni. kalau baby sophea ade, haruslah pelok baby sophea. hahaha...

malam ni katenye nak gi pasar malam. nak borong bahan mentah. yums yums!

Monday, October 21, 2013

People Change, and It's About Time

a few weeks ago i went for my friend's daughter 1st birthday party. whoahh...i passed the stage and phase of attending engagement ceremonies and weddings, and now slipped into attending baby showers and children birthday parties. hikhik..how fast time flies nowadays. motherhood. but i like it. in fact, i love it a lot! as i owned a child now, i love babies more than i can imagine. and when i see posts of babies getting abused or in bad health condition, i will be moody and sad the whole day, and even cry at the office.

sounds like a mother, much? hahaha....yeah yeah....i'm 'cengeng' like that. and i will go pestering my husband, saying "B, how can people be so mean??", "B, kenapa diorang bodoh sangat...sakit la baby tu.." , "sayang....i cried at the office sebab tengok baby kena dera...". and you know what my husband will say?

"that's why i don't watch those kind of videos....". prfffffttttt!! whatever...i don't care!

so anyway, masa kitorang tengah lepak2 makan kat birthday party tu, the abang was talking about not-meeting-his-firends-and-go-lepak thing. he said that, at his age (30), people are no longer go lepak. even the guys were already married (most of them) and they like to spend their times with their kids and families rather than go lepak with friends.heh..

 you know, i believed, that one day, everyone will eventually going through the same thing. just like him, and just like me. you know, went for school, passed high school, entered college, passed college, working world, get married, have kids, our kids getting married, got cucu, and grow old with the one you love *waive at husband*, and die. the last part is PASTI.

don't go crazy by saying, "i'm not going to get married.." or "i'm going to die aloneeee...". hahaha....no you're not! we are human. human basically doing the same thing..err....or common thing. it's either you first or me first. having you-first or me-first is not a competition by the way. but we are human. we compete.

anyway, i just wanna say how bless i am, and how thankful i am to Allah (mostly) sebab jalan yang Dia tuliskan untuk i sangat-sangat sempurna segalanya. i've been to my worst and weakest spot ever in my life that i feel there is no point of me living in this world, but alhamdulilah, Allah Maha Mendengar. and Dia tau apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

that's why i said, Allah is the Most Powerful. Dia bagi kekuatan yang i tak pernah tau i ada. bila i ingat balik that time , i know that i will be strong for whatever come by may. for once, i know Allah ada dengan i. people can't never understand, but i know. i just know it. *smile*

so, i think i'm doing great now. having sophea with me are indeed the most precious best priceless gift i could ever had. and encik husband, i know i can't get a man that as good as him. heee....macam semalam, we we just get back from penang, attending friend's wedding. penat memang penat. balik tu encik husband asked me to cooked. fine, tak kisah pun as i love cooking (pleasing him). so bahan2 pun terhad, i just cooked paprik, telur dadar, that's all. so as i was cooking, he put all his effort to unpack our luggage, sort things back to their places. even the tupperware pun dia dah siap basuh.

bila dia buat camni, kadang2 ada benda yang i nak marah pun tak jadi nak marah. i rasa kalau lelaki lain balik rumah tidur je terus. (if i were a man, a husband, i'll do that....hahahaha). yela kan, lantak lah, dah kerja wife. wife buat la. tapi takkkk....not my husband.

cuma lepas makan nasi paprik tu tambah dua kali, dia terus tidur. i masa tu dah gigil2 lapar jugak, tapi sophea was having hard time to sleep (die memang selalu camtu...nak tidur je ada masalah....hahah), takkan nak pass kat encik husband semata nak makan. tak patut sungguh. so i dodoikan sophea until she fell asleep. tapi 2 minit je lepas i letak dia kat sofa, and tengah suap nasi barang 2 suap camtu, die dah bangun. tangan i ada sambal belacan okay. hahaha....

and from now on (eceh...setiap kali pun camni), i promise to try not to pick a fight with encik husband over small things and silly things. kesian la kat die. dia dah buat macam2 kat i. punnnn nak ajak gaduh lagi. hahaha... i just love them to death. i am.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Lelaki suka perempuan yang macam mana

ramai lagi rupenya yang the same age as I yang belum kahwin lagi. yang takde boyfriend pun ade. no, bukan salah korang. and takde kurangnye korang kalau takde boyfriend. awesome lagi ade la! but truly said, lepas i sekolah, lepas SPM, i already met encik husband and until now i am still with him. alhamdulilah but i dont know what would i do, kalau dia pergi macam tu saja. but yeah, macam mereka yang belum ada teman tu, i guess they ARE strong. apart from that, you all dah terpelihara dari dosa2 maksiat like pergi dating and all that stuff. heh...cool beans kan??

janganlah risau kalau you all dah terasa macam "hello...dah tua apehal aku takde boyfriend lagi ni?". kan Allah dah janjikan setiap yang hidup berpasangan. jadi sampai masanya ade lah. selalu orang kate save the best for last. jadi, jangan putus asa dan berserah kat Allah, kerja Tuhan manelah kite tau kan. ;)

best ke dah kahwin? frankly speaking, memang best, untuk orang yang homey macam i dengan encik husband. agaknye sebab dari kecik kitorang memang dah dibesarkan dengan persekitaran kondusif (ha nampak ayat buku kat situ...ha ha ha), so kitorang lagi rela melepak kat rumah and doing our things rather than go out and doing things that we did not like. mungkin untuk orang yang jenis keluar malam, selalu lepak luar, kahwin akan jadi perkara yang membosankan. mungkin.

tapi Allah, i really love spending time with encik husband (or family back then) kat rumah. kadang weekend tu bangun pagi gila, semata nak kemas rumah, and do some awesome cooking untuk encik husband. rasa macam masuk master chef ha ha ha. dan selalu nye i mesti pass with flying colours...prftttt. dah memang kau je yang masak, haruslah dia makan. hikhik... pastu bila dah petang dalam kul 1 camtu, semua dah bersih dah siap. rasa tenang je. so boleh la golek2 gurau2 kat umah.

no, bukan lah setiap weekend kitorang kat rumah je. sometimes keluar jugak. tapi macam perasaan 'nak keluar' tu jarang ade. and we seldom come up with a question, "keluar jom?". jarang. but i guess im lucky sebab encik husband pun jenis homey. kalau die jenis kaki lepak, mau makan hati berulam jantung...he he he.

so, kawan i ni dulu, ade boyfriend, Germanian. jatuh cinta sungguh la ni. but tetibe mamat German ni tinggalkan dia, and she thought he left her for another girl. turned out, he left her for another guy!! he? left her? for a guy? com'on...hahahahaha.....see, bukan i nak cakap ade boyfriend tu tak bagus, tapi kalau dah jadi camni, tak ke susah? kalau dah bawak kahwin? ha camner?

ni bukan kawan i sorang tau, masuk kes mamat germany ni dah 3 kes. adoi laa...ti hii...

ok, macam biasa nak share tips. tips macam mana nak lelaki suka kat kita. (ha'ah kak jemah...macam la lelaki tu suka sangat kat kau....) ha ha ha....no no, saje nak share. tapi kalau tak suka dah nak buat camne kan.

1. ade orang cakap, lelaki suka perempuan yang nampak sikap keibuan. i rasa bukanlah macam lelaki nampak kite terus,  "that's a mother to my daughter!". dah macam rapist kot. hahaha....i rasa lelaki suka perempuan yang nampak lembut, soft and kind hearted. kite pun tak suka kalau mak kite garang2 kan. so cuba jadi lembut, dari segi percakapan dan perbuatan.

2. lelaki suka orang bagi perhatian kat dia. ha, sama macam perempuan yang suka perhatian (mode:indenial), lelaki pun same jugak. cuba bagi perhatian yang tidak berbelah bagi. macam kita tak suka di madukan, atau dijadikan diantara beberapa pilihan perempuan lain, lelaki pun camtu. let's say kalau you all ade beberapa pilihan pun, tak payah lah nak mention kat semua orang. takut nanti ade orang yang suka menyampai2. dengki katenye.

3. lelaki suka perempuan yang bersih dan terurus. macam baju mestilah bergosok or takde wrinkles2 kalau keluar dating, kuku semua terjaga, bau wangi. sedangkan kite pun geli tengok orang tak terurus, nikan pula lelaki yang memang suka benda cantik jer.

4. lelaki suka perempuan bijak. bijak tu bukan lah bermaksud kena hafal semua equation physics, tau jenis2 cell and tissue dalam badan, ataupun tau the end product of process esterification camtu. means, bila kita bercakap tu, dia tau kite tak bodoh. tapi jangan pula tunjuk pandai. bersederhana saja. hik!

banyak lagi sebenarnye.

tapi yang paling penting BE YOURSELF.

apelah guna nyer berpura2 dan menjadi bukan diri kita untuk bahagiakan orang lain. berapa lama boleh tahan pun? so, be yourself, insyaAllah, ade je yang tengah tengok2 awak dari jauh. tiba masa, datanglah dia kat awak tu.

heee....

ps: seronok plak cinta2 nie....hik...

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Counting Time

encik husband will not be around for this one whole week. outstation. this time around Manilla. he asked me i nak ikot ke tak, you know, he loves bringing me all over the places it's either i want it or not. last time masa pergi Japan. sebab this time pergi Manilla, i macam malas. kalau lepas ni pergi Europe definitely i'll go! anyway adoiilaa...siapa la mangsa yang nak diajak bersembang dan bergaduh. hihi...

i always ask him, whether he actually loves me or not. hahaha...silly kan?? i knowwwwwwww....but i love teasing him that way. i know he might get boring with those silly questions (nampak plural 's' so ade banyak lagi soalan bagi kat die), but as long as i'm enjoying doing it, and i'll make sure i don't go overboard doing it, then it will be okay.heeeee......selalu i suke tanya dalam kereta. i'll be staying at the back with sophea, sebab sophea seating in the carseat, so encik husband akan jeling through the rear mirror and rolling his eyes macam menyampah sangat dengan soalan i tu. ha ha ha.....

kadang-kadang dia akan panggil i, "pstttt.....sayang....sini la kat kite....ciom sikit....". duhhh ngader gilerr. dulu masa sebelum sophea ade, we were like love birds berkepit ciom dalam kete sana sini macam takde tempat lain nak buat ha ha ha, but since sophea dah ade, memang lupekan jela hasrat nak buat camtu lagi. lagipun feeling kiss2 dari belakang ni ape la sangat. tapi sophea kan a good baby, die jarang meragam kalau duduk kat carseat tu. so selalunya kalau sophea dah okay je dalam tu, masa i bercinta la plak dalam kereta.

borak2 sambil peluk ke, or main laga2 pipi ke, but once in awhile toleh2 jugak kat sophea. kadang2 dia buat muka garang, macam bosan dengan perangai mommy and daddy dia. whateverrrr....hahahaha....tapi penat la nak pelok encik husband dari belakang. besar sangat ukuran lilitan tu kan. but any peluang yang ada, yang i nampak just to show him how much i love him, i akan buat.

i bet he knows how much i love him. ermmm....i pun tau sebenarnye yang encik husband sayang i. i boleh tau la. dah kalau everyday pun dia akan balik and drove all the way to KL sedangkan i dah bagi permission untuk dia tak balik, call sms and even email me during work just to answer my repetition questions, siapkan barang2 especially sterilizer and heater susu sophea, sediakan air panas etc etc, ape lagi yang tak cukup untuk tunjukkan yang dia sayang i?sayang kitorang?

how much is too much?

susahkan nak measure benda yang berkaitan rasa ni. hati semua. sebab dia rasa dan tak boleh ukur.

tapi i just nak die tau yang i syg sgt kat die. and that both of us, me and sophea love him so much. and just harap daddy akan sayangkan kitorang jugak all the time. sobs!

amboi, encik husband pergi tak sampai sehari lagi dah meleret2 camni......hahaha!

Friday, September 20, 2013

Senyap Sikit Mulut Tu

otak tepu wehhh...

masuk office tadi kul 10am dah start meeting. mak aih!tak beragak nak start meeting. anyway, i was so keen toward the meeting. biasalah, semalam dapat bunga plak mau tak pagi ni bersemangat waja nak buat kerja. siap bawak latop okay. senang bawak laptop masuk meeting ni. terus update and highlight mane nak kena amend.

masa tengah nak pergi meeting tu dapat watsapp. hrmm....dari siapa lagi kalau bukan encik husband. dia tulis dalam tu, "bb.....i hepi sangat pagi ni...".sweet. rasanya, kalau perempuan dapat message macam tu kat handphone camne reaksi eh?

dah, tak payah jawab. tersenyum lebar la kitewwww.....hahaha! sampai officemate i marah i. dia cakap, "oi, cepatlah meeting!". pastu i reply la, "sabar lah! nak reply message nie..." tapi senyum tu still tak lepas. hahahaha.....then officemate reply, "macam kat bilik meeting tak boleh reply....". hahahaha.....haishhh memang lah boleh, tapi sekarang ni tengah excited. haruslah reply dengan kadar segera. mihmih...

ni tak lain tak bukan sebab musabab dari semalam.

semalam masa nak tidur. dah siap gosok gigi basuh muka dedua, i dah landing dulu kat katil. pastu encik husband cakap, "bb...u tido sane lahh....nanti idung i sumbat tidur sini..". maksudnya dia taknak tidur directly bawah air cond. oh well, kate deal dengan i, haruslah sifat kedengkian tu lebih sikit.i pun meniarap kat tengah2 katil, pastu depa tangan dengan kaki besar2, saje taknak bagi ade space untuk encik husband tido. ohsem kan? pastu encik husband terkedek2 selitkan diri tepi dinding nak tidur. holohhh siannye.... pastu i duk telek2 muka dia, tak sedar camne dedua boleh tertido. bagus kan perangai?

sampai la ke pagi. tau2 MIL kejut. malu weh mak mentua kejut. tapi apakan daya kitorang kan muda remaja tapi dah ade anak pun mak kejut lagi bangun subuh. hahahaha....i mandi dulu siap2, then encik husband pun siap2.

then kitorang pergi breakfast kat mamak. dah lame kot kitorang tak breakfast same, apetah lagi pergi kerja same2. nak naik train kul 8, by 7 dah sampai kat kedai mamak. lame gile lepak. i ordered vadei dengan capati, encik husband order roti telur bawang. pastu kitorang dua berborak macam satu dunia nak dengar. hahaha....oh well, i jela cakap pun, encik husband kan tukang dengar. i rasa mesti dia tak sabar nak hantar i pergi kerja, aman sikit kot hidup dia.

then encik husband cakap masa i tengah sronok2 kunyah capati cicah dhal, " sayang....u bayangkan lah kalau u senyap bila gaduh dengan i, u rasa macam mana hidup i kalau u senyap...". cehhh....konon fefeeling sweet la cakap camtu over the table. walaupun........walaupun i rasa macam disayangi sangat....harharhar!! then i replid, "i bukan senyap la sayang semalam tu, i penat sebab tu i senyap...". valid tak alasan? hahahahaha....

encik husband tu pelik sikit. kalau kitorang gaduh, berjuta2 message dia hantar- tak kisahlah nak marah ke nak bagi statement ke, nak menangkan diri dia ke etc etc. tapi kalau we were in a stabil mood, means tak gaduh la- satu message pun susah nak dapat. nak kire camne tu?haihhh....sabar jela kan. nak marah suami sendiri. tak marah tak tau plak.tihiii...

perangai dia tu tak boleh blah sungguh. and because of that setiap hari la i memendam rindu tak sabar nak jumpe dia kat rumah. kadang2 bawak bertumbuk jugaklah kat rumah sebab geram sangat...bahahha!!i doa hari2 semoga dia sabar and bertahan dengan perangai i yang cakap kemain kuat, dan mood swings yang tak ikot masa.

kadang a word pun boleh twist the whole thing and causes haywire.

heh. kata perempuan kan.

tapi demi Allah, rasa sayang rindu dan cinta untuk encik husband so far masih utuh dan kedap. dan memang kasih dan cinta untuk encik husband (yang perangai macam2 tu) hanya kerana Allah dan dengan izin Dia. and i harap encik husband will love me as much as i do.

teeheee.....sebab kan...

kalau i atkde siapa la nak layan kerenah dia nak makan macam2 tu yang mengalahkan ibu nandong tu....hahahaha!!

Fight For Your Love

semalam lepas habis class, dalam 5.30pm left the classroom and masuk office. nampak bebudak ni tengah relax2 borak2, so i pun join sekaki. well, memang kitorang dalam 5.30 memang dah time rehat. jarang la nak buat kerja sampai kul 6 unless ade benda urgent nak kene siapkan. so anyway, tengah lepak2 sambil borak2 dengan diorang ni sekali ada officer datang depan pintu office.

"Puan F****??". i dah macam ohemgeeee, ade kerja baru nak bagi ke?? sebab pegawai ni memang jarang la sangat bercakap dengan i. so agak risau la tetiba called up my name kan.

sekali, ada seorang mamat pakai jaket masuk office sambil pegang a bouquet of red roses!!!!!!

hahahaha. ohemgeeeeee!!!! kat kad yang i dapat tu tertera "my beloved wife". budak2 office dah senyum2 kat i. kuang asam betul. well dah boleh agak siapa yang bagi. heee....suka weh!!!!! suka gila dapat bunga. terus berbunga-bunga lah hati i. dah la semalam tu khamis malam jumaat. wakakakakaka.......

ermm....we had like a small fight semalam. some misunderstanding. takde la misunderstanding sangat. it was more to attitude and how we behave with each other. benda ni skills kot. kalau kita takde skill untuk encounter this kind of problem, pergaduhan tu mesti ada. kalau tak dibendung dia boleh jadi masalah.

i think husband did the right move to send me flowers. sebab kalau dia tak bagi, i memang tak nampak tanda2 nak baik. hahahaha......bukan i k?err....yeah obviously i need time but receiving flowers memang teruskan stop panas hati i tu.

actually, i tak encouraged encik husband bagi bunga or hadiah everytime kitorang gaduh. sebab nanti lame2 takut i dah immune and giving presents dah takde effect kat kemarahan i. once in a while boleh la. or lagi worst, selagi i tak dapat hadiah selagi tu i taknak baik. contoh, selagi tak dapat handbag chanel i taknak baik dengan u. hahahaha....chanel okay, benda lain taknak.

i sebenarnye lagi suka kalau encik husband pujuk meleret2 sampai kehabisan ayat nak pujuk. bahahaha....ngader angat kitew niew...mihmihmih!! balik rumah kena ciom2 or kene peluk2 pun lagi best dapat hadiah. or.....dapat hadiah pastu dapat pujuk pelok ciom pun laaaaaaaaaaagi best! hahaha...

tapi tu la, encik husband tu dia macam....macam typical lelaki. tak suka benda2 remeh camni. ape, dia ingat bagi bunga jer terus i baik? semalam tu memang la terus baik sebab i dah laaaaaaaaaaaaaaamaa sangat tak dapat bunga so hati ada sikit macam senang juga. hahaha...kalau tak kena hari, mau bunga tu i buat salad jer...hahaha!

so camtu la cerita dia. semalam lepas balik, nampak encik husband, jeling2 senyum je. dia la jeling2 i. konon dari jelingan tu nak bagitau, "dah la gaduh dengan kita!". eh talking about that, i tak mintak maaf pun lagi kat beliau!!

hee......semalam dah peluk2 ciom consider dah mintak maaf la kan? ke cara wajib nyer kena salam ciom tangan nangis2 mintak maaf?

mohon pencerahan sikit.




Thursday, September 12, 2013

sleep baby sleep

is my daughter having trouble to sleep at night??and the answer is...........YES!

oh oh dia bukan having trouble to sleep, she's having trouble to sleep longer than it supposed to be. hahaha....macam bangun 1.30am minum susu, and tido, and bangun balik pukul 4.30am then tido balik and bangun balik kul 9am camtu. tidur tak continous kate orang ramai.

but yeah. i try tengok jugak die colic ke ape. takde pun and so far dia tak pernah colic lagi. baju basah ke pampers basah ke takde jugak. i rasa pampers tu tak berapa basah sangat pun tapi memang wajib i tukar, just nak bagi dia selesa. lagipun pampers tu daddy die yang belikan kan. kalau mommy yang belikan haruslah seminggu sekali baru tukar, siap cuci lagi. bahahaha......

malam tadi i memang dah flat out sangat pukul 4.30am tu. ni sebab i dah start my workout plan and cuts down on carbo. tapi siang kat opish memang takde la ngantuk ke ape. good sebab body i dah get used to it i guess. ni semua gara-gara suami nak konvo, isteri berlebih. mihmihmih....it's ok!i likkit dat way....

anyway, kul 4.30 am tu, i gerak-gerakkan bahu encik husband kat sebelah, "d....buatkan susu boleh tak sayang...". tu je i cakap, lepas tu i tak tau ape jadi. hahaha....tapi i nampak la dia gendong sophea entah buat ape ntah. and when he put down sophea on the bed, boleh budak tecik tu ajak berborak. i terus la bangun borak-borak dengan dia.

she was talking passionately (and of course loudly!). daddy yang dah sambung tidur pun boleh terbangun sebab dia. daddy biasalah bangun, kiss baby girl dia, pastu sambung tidur. prfttt!

agak-agak dah pukul 6am i bangun, hantar sophea kat my sister (sebab daddy and mommy nak siap kerja), iron encik husband punye baju batik and siappkan breakfast dia. dulu masa kat rumah kitorang memang boleh dikatakan setiap hari i buatkan encik husband breakfast siap tapau lagi. and he loves it. i berazam lepas ni i nak bangun extra pagi and masakkan lauk untuk dia makan, so at least lunch dia boleh balik and makan rehat kat rumah.

didnt i tell u office die dengan rumah is like 7mins driving? i is so damn jelez u know.....:(

semalam masa encik husband balik berdrama swasta la kat luar before masuk. dah masuk bilik pun boleh berdrama swasta. borak-borak sambil peluk. boleh?? hahaha....borak-borak bukan pasal cinta ke kerja rumah ke or pasal sophea ke. borak-borak pasal hal kerja sambil kutuk bos masing-masing.

hahahaha.......

entahla, semalam rasa rindu yang amat sangat. dah lama tak peluk and curik-curik bau. hahaha.....sebab bila dah ade anak ni, bau anak lah yang kita carik2......bahahahaha....

sebab kalau bau daddy dia boleh jadi lain nanti...kikikiki....

Monday, September 9, 2013

Kisah Malam Itu

Teringat lagi kisah hari raya yang lepas. Actually malam raya tu both encik husband and i, we went to jalan TAR malam raya tu. Tahun ni dah masuk tahun ke dua kitorang raya sama. But the amazing thing was, sophea is with us, so raya tu jadi lebih meaningful and excited (tak masuk mencabar lagi sebab pagi raya, tiba-tiba sophea nak susu la nak kendong la etc etc haha).

So anyway malam raya tu bergegas la kitorang ke jalan TAR. Tujuan kitorang ke jalan TAR adalah sebab bukan nak shopping pun, tapi kitorang memang suka menyibuk kat tempat ramai orang (padahal tak suka pun!). Terasa la sikit kemeriahan raya tu. Well, of course sophea tak ikot and sah-sah tak boleh ikot sebab hoi, kecik la lg dia.

Cerita pasal budak kecik, ada jugak mak bapak yang tak berapa nak pandai hurung anak pergi jalan TAR tu tau tak. Sebab tak pandai la kot diorang bawak anak gi jalan TAR. Hello kak, anak awak tu bayi lagi, kecik lagi, imunisasi pun belum tentu kuat, dah la masa tu hujan, ramai manusia dari segenap Negara. Mana yang Indon, Tibet, Myanmar. Takla plak I salahkan mereka mereka tu datang jalan TAR sebab diorang pun nak shopping. Tapi as what I know (biasalah buat research tak habis), Negara kita bagi free vaksin untuk elak blab la bla segala penyakit and they are not. so memang kita takkan terjangkit. tapi janganlah mencabar dengan mengexposekan diri kepada penyakit2 ni kan.

Budak-budak tu berpeluh-peluh and dah meragam sikit2 yela dah la panas, bising, bau macam-macam. Ape tak pikir ke mak bapak diorang ni? I yang tengok ni pun jadi sedih terkenang sophea back at home. Come on people, you must be cleverer than this. Dah hujan plak masa tu. Sayu sangat hati. I dengan suami yang dah tua Bangka ni boleh rasa kepenatan tu, apatah lagi budak yang sepatutnya, malam-malam camtu tidur sedap-sedap kat rumah ready for hari raya esoknye.

Dah, jangan bagi alas an anak takde orang jaga. Siang pun korang boleh pergi. Apsal malam jugak yang nak dibawa? Kalau suruh suami je pergi beli kalau dah terdesak sangat, mak nye duk la umah jaga anak. Ini tak, kan?? Nak fulfill sangat nafsu shopping korang tu keselamatan anak tak di prioritize kan. Haihh la…
So anyway, masa kitorang sampai tu lebih kurang 11malam. Tapi orang ramai gila babeng and it was very hard to walk normally. Semua jalan macam penguin setapak setapak. Penat gila tapi sebab nak rasa kemeriahannya sangat, ha amek kau. Hahaha but it was fun, kalau tak, taklah setiap tahun kitorang dengan sengaja datang. Hahaha….

Apa yang ada eh kat jalan TAR malam raya?

NOTHING!!hahaha sabotaj nye la statement. Ada, macam2 ada. Tapi tak boleh nak Nampak apa yang ada sebab kita sebok tengok orang berjalan and we were even in the line, so dia macam passed by je kedai2 tu. Macam biasalah, jual baju kurung, baju melayu, sampan, songkok, capal, tudung, telekung etc etc.

That night, encik husband bought his sampin. Turquoise. Cantek weh dengan harga rm20. (ye, sila hentak kepala laju-laju). Kalau nak ikutkan hati I, I nak je suruh dia pakai sampan tenunan Terengganu yang harga riban-riban tu, tapi I dah tau lepas ni beli yang rm10 ke rm20 je cukup, sebab sehari je encik husband pakai (setengah hari kalau nak ikotkan) lebih pada tu dah campak ke mana.

I sebenarnya ada “a thing” dengan lelaki yang pakai sampan and full attire baju melayu untuk occasion orang kawin, nikah ke bertunang ke, and majlis2 formal. Sexy tau. Sangat. *mata bersinar2*

First kedai yang kitorang pergi dia jual sampin yang sama dengan harga rm120. Mak aih…mahal gila! Jalanlah lagi, and jumpa a few kedai yang harga rm70. “okay, reasonable “ encik husband cakap. Jalan lah lagi kitorang. Sekalai jumpa kedai jual rm40. Eh, ni macam lagi bagus. Encik husband suh jalan lagi padahal I dah marah-marah cakap beli jela, nanti tak jumpe the same exact sampin. Takde dia kisah pun.

Jalan lagi jumpa rm30. Tapi sampin yang kitorang nak mula-mula tadi takde. Sedih dah la sebab tak ingat kedai mana yang jual sampin turquoise tu. I told encik husband to just grab sampin yang colour dia lebih kurang baju melayu dia. Sekali Nampak la satu kedai longgok2 abang ni longgokkan sampin.

RM20.

Korek-korek sikit jumpa!!! Same kaler, same pattern!!

Bahahaha…..puas hati!

Encik husband tu bukan kisah sangat sebab dia kate kalau takde sampin die pakai je sampin nikah putih yang I belikan dulu kat butik songket tu. Tapi saje macam I cakap nak rasa kemeriahan jalan TAR.
Tips: kalau korang jenis kaki jalan, survey la the whole jalan before decided to buy. If not, Tanya dua tiga kedai je cukup dah sebab malam raya selalunya tak jauh beza pricing dia.

Malam tu encik husband belanje keropok lekor dengan 100plus. Kitorang share. Tiba-tiba rasa macam sweet je macam zaman bercinta dulu. Jalan pegang tangan, gelak-gelak. Dah lama tak rasa macam tu since I pregnant haritu.

Encik husband pun agaknye rasa bibit2 cinta (wahhh gelabah gila ayat!), sebab kemain protective nye la dia dengan i. make sure I don’t slip, trip, or push around sebab ramai gila orang kot. Pastu time jalan ramai-ramai tu la rasa romantic sebab encik husband jalan rapat2 belakang I, and siap main peluk-peluk. Hahahah….mengader gila. Ala….xpela…sekali sekala. Terus rasa macam ada electric shock.

Balik penat and basah. Terus mandi and tidur. Heee….

Sunday, June 23, 2013

ibu strawberry

my father in law jusr came back from cameron highland. so he bought bantal strawberry for sophea and some greenies and fresh strawberrys for us. it was very toughtful of him to evenbuy fridge magnet for us.hihihi....cute sangat. abah memang generous sangat. last time he bought for us the Prestige frying pan. mahal ok.benda tu imported kot. and chocolate jangan cerita la. yang mahal2 ajer.

so anyway, i went to the kitchen, nak amek my milky pump kit and i saw encik husband standing by the fridge. dengar encik husband cakap, "strawberry?" . so i replied, "nak satuuu...". tapi i tak dengar die cakap pape so i guess dia tak dengar la i mintak strawberry tu.

so i pun masuk bilik.

sekali encik husband masuk bilik bawak sebijik jer strawberry tapi besar gile. hihi...so since encik husband nak suap, i pun bukak la mulut macam nak makan, boleh die pull away!!? i dah macam burung kehausan....haha jahat angat tau..

encik husband gelak besar. siap cakap...."ala shiann dierr..." sambil usap2 kepala i. hahaha...i rasa nak pukul die laju2..hahaha....bodokan isteri sendiri memang die suke...haihhh....-________________-

bukan ape buat entri camni. nanti satu hari dah tua, perasaan cinta tu dah kurang ke, bile baca balik terkenang2 masa muda2 dulu, kan sweet je ingat kisah cinta sendiri. yer sayang...kalau rasa2 awak dah lupe camne awak fell in love dengan saya, open this blog and read it all over again. i will do the same if tiba2 i suke org lain ke...(wahhh....layak kene tampar ni...hahaha) i will read this blog. unless lelaki tu ada kapal terbang sebijik ke...kene reconsider la...hehehe...

no la. i guess by this time encik husband already know how much i actually love him.

oh, i tanya encik husband, "nape u kahwin dengan i?" ( after one year and baby sophea dah ade..hahaha i am like that...). encik husband cakap,

"you have the quality to be a mother to my child..."

ok seriously bergetar jantung i masa tu. hahaha dramatic kan but true. so girls, maybe some guys out there same macam encik husband, looking for a wife and a mother to his child. :)

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

a moment

having baby as in our new family member really is a new experience for us. im still adjusting my life especially my time for our new baby sophea. but luckily for me, she is one of a good baby.  other than crying for being hungry or need to change diapers, other than that she's all good. alhamdulilah dari during pregnancy with no morning sickness, during delivery pon senang, and ms confinement pon tak banyak kerenah. so i pray that she will be good sampai la besar,sampai bile2.

husband had been a very great companion for me. whenever i feel low hw always there for me, tak putus2 bagi semangat kat i. really. im not good at telling and sharing problems or secret with someone else, tapi when i did tell and share problems or secret with u, meaning i really love u thus i trust you so much.

during my one day admitted to the ward, malam tu bermula cabaran for both of us being parents. malam tu sophea nangis quite a lot. die bukan like nangis memanjang, die macam bunyik2 sikit. i guess die lapar kot. as in the first few days susu i tak banyak. dia haus kot. masa tu i sedih sangat mengenangkan anak i tak cukup makan. but i really dont have any idea what to do.

encik husband janji nak bergilir jaga but he was so tired that malam tu sophea nangis pun die tak bangun dah. being a mom is great. kita memang ada alert button yang whenever we are asleep anak bunyik sikit pun boleh terjaga. hehehe...

at first husband tak pandai sangat dukung sophea..bedung ok la sikit. all he did were kemaskan barang2 i..make sure i dalam keadaan comfortable..that i dont feel tired and not stress out. everything turned out fine. selalu jugak i nangis bila fikir what will i do kalau encik husband takde. sedih campur terharu. i doa setiap masa yang Allah akan protect dia and murahkan rezeki dia.

hrmm...sebenarnye banyak benda nak cerita. but i realy dont have time. tapi i need to write down. untuk sophea baca dan tahu ape yang mommy and daddy dah buat and berkorban untuk dia. nanti la. nila i betul2 free baru i buat entry khas. hihihi.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Nak mintak maaf nie...

we had our monthly programme with the family (big family including nenek and uncles/aunties) to have our Yassin's Night. basically kalau ada family gathering (actually tiap minggu pun ada je perjumpaan macam makan-makan ke, celebration ke, kenduri-kendara ke), kitorang buat sekali sembahyang berjemaah ke, makan-makan, and celebration sekali macam birthdays and everything.

but semalam punya gathering inclusive:
1. birthday my sister in law
2. doa selamat for the arrival of my baby and sister in law punyer baby.
3. doa selamat untuk my sister and cousins kat all over the world yang sedang sibuk exam.
4. tahlil untuk ahli keluarga yang lain

so nenek buat for me pulut kuning and rendang daging paru limpa super sedap dengan bubur hitam putih (orang jawa selalu buat untuk doa selamat) untuk i menghadapi kelahiran. my uncle doakan bubur itu (jangan isu khurafat plak sebab doa kat bubur..hahaha) and i dengan sister in law makan dengan penuh doa supaya baby pie kitorang sihat dan proses kelahiran berjalan lancar.

menu for last night: KFC, nasi lemak bungkus, pulut kuning, rendang daging, roti john (we bought!), agar-agar merah, agar-agar santan laici, kek secret recipe, homemade red velvet cake, karipap, air sirap laici, sambal telur.

semua super sedap! =)

but there are things that i really touched by............ =)

encik husband,
sorry if i tak faham you balik kerja penat and all i want from you is your attention and undivided love. walaupun u penat, i kept on talking and kacau u as if a little girl wants the attention from the father. we had solat jemaah together and baca yassin sesama. it was a nice feeling wasn't it, although you kat depan and i kat belakang.=)

sorry i tak sempat nak amikkan you food and drinks and you went to the table all by yourself as my kaki hurt me the most nowadays. when i said "my foot hurts..." i really mean it and not being a cry-baby. and i don't even want you to rasa the sakit sebab it really hurts...especially time solat. i hope lepas baby pie keluar, it doesn't hurt me as much as right now. =)

sorry kalau selama i pregnant ni, i tak layan you as perfect as before. sebab kadang-kadang i nak bawak diri i pun tak larat, especially in the morning when i had to wake up to go to work. kalau ikot rasa hati, nak je i sambung tido and dengan you2 sekali i tarik tido, but i know kalau i buat macam tu, memang you takkan bangun...hehe...we don't want that negative attitude inherited by baby pie kan? 

oh, sorry kalau the house is not as clean as what you expected it to be, especially my bathroom. thank you sayang for spending the time and energy to clean up mine (and yours too!).

thank you semalam bukakkan jam i and all the wedding rings as i memang dah flat sangat2 that if you tak bukakkan pun, i would rather sleep than spending 30 seconds of my time bukak jam...thanks lapkan muka i dengan baby wipes (i bet kalau keluar jerawat lepas ni tau dah sebab ape)...i rasa semua yang you buat, tapi i can't even open my eyes.

sorry tak tunggu sayang nak tidur semalam, sebab the last thing i remembered was you entering the bathroom, and that's it! -_________-

sorry jugak tak sempat potongkan you mangga yang you nak tu, but i try to cut the mangga for you malam ni k?we spend the night watching movie kat living hall k as seminggu ni hari-hari kita keluar malam and balik rumah untuk tidur jer. sorry kalau you rasa i lack of kat mane-mane but everyday i tried so hard and berdoa yang i akan selalu menjadi isteri yang terbaik untuk u...=)

ok sayang...can't wait to meet you tonight...kite nak makan ape malam ni?=) i'll cook!

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Mr. Househusband...=)

pagi ni, i called encik husband twice tapi tak berangkat. nak marah je rasa sebab rindu punya pasal. hahaha....melampau angat tau wife perangai macam ni. tapi tiba-tiba nak sedapkan hati mesti kata encik husband tido sebab semalam tengok MU vs Real Madrid dah sampai pukul berapa kann. then pagi tu hantar i pergi kerja lagi. hahaha....eeeee, tak sopan langsung wife macam ni.

sekali memang betul. i rasa dalam 1 hour lepas i called tu, he called me back. sah memang tido sebab suara baru bangun tido kita tau la macam mana. so he asked me,

"sayang....ayam masak lemak tu, i masukkan dalam peti ais boleh?"

oh rupanya dia ada lunch date dengan kawan dia, so he won't be eating that. before pergi kerja tadi i dah panaskan, yela, masak lemak kan, ada santan senang basi. so i told him to simpan the ayam.

pastu senyap je encik husband berjam-jam. aikk...takkan tido balik??but i know he has some works to be finish by today sebab sabtu dah nak kena submit. so i guess he must be busy working. sekali i received these on my BBM.

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baju dah siap berlipat...


periuk dah siap bercuci...


baju dah siap bersidai...

 tong sampah dah siap bercuci...


waaaaa.......i terharu sangat, rasa nak nangis jer. i felt so guilty sebab selalu kerja-kerja ni memang tugas i. but i really don't have the time, and plus i senang to feel tired nowadays (tak tau la because of pregnancy or because getiting old...). but really i don't mind doing this. apart of having my muscles to move, dapat pahala kan?;)

so i marah dia. i cakap , "syg, i can do these bila kita balik nanti. nape b buat semua tu?i tak suruh pun..."

 

tapi i rasa sangat bersalah. -____________- but at the same time i bersyukur sebab i tau waktu i sakit or waktu i susah, i will always have him to help me around, and i pray he won't change. and i pray hard i will not take him for granted.

he has been so nice to me lately. apa i nak dia belikan. apa i nak makan dia bagi. i nak seluar, dia nak bayarkan. even payung pun dia nak belikan, takut sangat wife dia dilanda demam. semua benda nie yang dia buat, buat i takut untuk kehilangan dia. sebab he really is a good husband and a father to baby pie.

i doa suami i sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah, and akan dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan rezeki yang melimpah ruah. juga jadi suami yang soleh dan i akan jadi isteri yang solehah untuk dia. i promise not to sakitkan hati dia or do something that can hurt him in any ways. i just love him so much and i bersyukur sangat Allah temukan i dengan dia.

so i BBMed him,

"tq sayang...tq so much...i love you..."






Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Count on Family

encik husband BBMed me, that he's not feeling so well. so i pushed him to go to a clinic for a check-up, instead of buying some medicine without the prescription of a doctor. bukan i tak percaya dengan pharmacist, but living far away from home and at places that you don't familiar with, jangan amik risiko la.

so off he went. too bad that it was not his lucky night, dia entered clinic khas untuk beauty. dah la tunggu lama almost 1 hour, and he had to paid almost RM300 untuk ubat. and that's too much! after a few discussion dengan kawan, he only paid for the consultation fee which was RM25.

so end up no ubat, wasting time, and unconcern friends.

maybe boys are not like girls. your brotherhood tak sama dengan sisterhood kitorang. we are there for each other. for example, kalau pergi makan, we always discuss and everyone must agreed to eat at one place, takde sorang nak ke sana, and sorang nak ke sini. and we always care for each other.

while encik husband spent most of the time waiting, his friends went out and left him, to have dinner. well, kalau i pun, akan trying to find a place to sit or at least for a drink sebab lama sangat. but i will ask my friend whether dia nak join makan or i tapaukan je since kawan i kena tunggu lama untuk jumpa doctor. tapi kawan dia tak, and just isi perut sendiri.

-__________- that is so selfish and so sad. but i tak salahkan kawan dia pun, it is just a simple courtesy.

and how can you be so pushy kalau kawan you is trying to see the doctor? you ingat nak jumpa doctor tak kisahlah klinik kerajaan or swasta, senang-senang je macam tu ke? kena tunggu, kena queue. tapi i tak salahkan kawan dia pun, it is just a simple common sense.

anyway, i thought encik husband went there by himself, driving his own car, but i was wrong. dia tumpang kawan dia. and the best part was, they all went for an entertainment that night instead of going home, kata kawan sakit kan? well again, i tak salahkan kawan dia, it is just a simple common sense.

so i BBMed encik husband, sebab masa on the phone, he was a bit stress, cakap dengan nada tinggi dengan i, and i pun ada rasa nak marah dia dengan cara dia cakap dengan i, but thinking that he was not in his good health, i buat bodoh jela,

" sayang...are u okay there??"

"i'm okay...sayang ada...=)"

ah, mengader giler. dia a lil bit stressed out sebab salah klinik, tunggu lama, kawan pushy, no dinner for him, and instead of going home, kena layan kawan-kawan dia nak berjimba. but again itulah, bila kita minoriti following the majority, jadi macam ni la. so kena banyak bersabar je la kan.

" i wish you are here sayang...you will sooth me, you will treat me good....i miss you..."

kata dia. buat i rasa sedih sebab i tak mampu nak buat apa-apa kat dia except for calming words. so i said,

" tak semua orang sama sayang. kita je terlebih concern dengan orang. people will never care about us.."

"yes la bb. i pun terfikir macam tu. selalu pun jadi macam tu, kan?"

i faham maksud dia. contohnya, we let the car pass us through (potong queue), we let people in before we left out the door. etc etc. which we actually don't mind doing good things to other people. i said to him,

" sebab family kita ajar yang baik-baik. buat baik dengan orang walaupun orang buat jahat kat kita. i hope anak-anak kita macam kita jugak sayang, kan?"

"e'erm...we shared the same values, same thoughts, and same beliefs..."

"and that makes me love you even more syg...."

tapi itulah. akhirnya i tau, bila kita susah only orang yang sayang kita and family kita SAHAJA yang akan ada dengan kita, especially masa susah. dan isteri dan suami yang baik, akan sentiasa sama-sama menempuh dugaan. bukan i nak cakap kawan tak bagus, ada orang yang lucky enough, kawan lagi baik dari family, tapi sikit jela, tak ramai.

dari dulu sampai sekarang, memang prinsip itu yang i pegang. biar orang buatajahat dengan kita, tapi kita buat baik je dengan orang tu. Tuhan Maha Adil, biar Dia yang jalankan tugas dia,

and as a friend, tak salah kalai kita cuba memahami situasi yang berlaku. kita mungkin tak comfortable and tak suka demham situasi tu. tapi cuba letakkan diri kita kat tempat dia, maybe kita akan rasa yang sama?






Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Expectation Kepada Suami

semua perempuan yang kahwin, yang nak berkahwin, mesti berharap yang suami dia, akan jadi the best. dalam semua segi. tapi itu mustahil sebab we are human. please keep in your mind that perfect human DOES NOT exist. but you are lucky if you could find one which i doubt ada pun...hikhik.

thus, in a book that i recently read, dalam tu dia cerita, sebenarnya kita manusia ni, kena EXPECT LESS and GET MORE. faham tak? contohnya masa kita exam la. kita target A, sekali dapat B. apa perasaan kita masa tu? KECEWA kan? camne plak untuk paper susah kita target C (lulus pun syukur sangat), sekali tiba-tiba kita dapat A? mesti rasa BAHAGIA yang teramat, and rasa macam kita on top of the world. right? =)

hee...sama macam dalam marriage pun. we expect less from our husband, and insyaAllah we get more from him. tapi macam puan wife ni (ehem!!) expectation i to him sangat tinggi, and i guess sometimes he is too tired to meet my expectations. but yeah, lepas i baca buku tu, i know that i can reduce my frustration to him (and hence kurang lah gaduhnya) by not to expect too much from him.

dalam Islam, ade kriteria tertentu dalam memilih suami, kan? tapi silalah ukur baju dibadan sendiri. kalau kita tu tak berapa cantik, janganlah pilih suami nak macam Aaron Aziz je memanjang, ataupun kita ni kerja petani, nak kahwin dengan anak Sultan, dah macam mana tu? sekufu. itu yang penting. sedarjat. sebab banyak dah masalah muncul bila kita berlainan darjat. samaada ancaman luar (ewahhh..) atau pun rasa kurang yakin kita sendiri pada pasangan kita.

puan wife, sebelum kahwin (amboi) dah ada set kriteria dia:
1. beragama islam tapi keturunan apa-ape pun boleh...(verangan!)
2. mesti lebih pandai especially in education level. sebab i nak dia pandai dalam membimbing keluarga, i, dan anak-anak nanti.
3. berduit means tahu macam mana nak jaga keluarga sendiri dalam keadaan susah dan senang dan tiada hutang keliling pinggang.
4. cintakan i sepenuh hati. ini paling penting. kalau boleh i nak suami yang sayang i lebih dari i sayang dia.
5. baik.

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i was too tired due to the long walking to Sogo. balik rumah tue, i unpacked all the baju yang 3 hari tak cuci sebab gilir-gilir tidur rumah parents and in laws. lepas basuh baju i mandi. when i entered the bathroom, it was dirty. well, maybe untuk orang lain it is still clean, tapi i felt disgusted. i went and hugged encik husband at the living hall, asking him nicely,

Me: "sayang....toilet i kotor...."

*we have two toilets, and usually the bedroom toilet is mine and kat luar bilik tu is his. sebab encik husband dia kan puteri, dia mandi 15 jam, wife dia mandi 5 minit jer, hence 'toilet i'*

Him: *jeling i* "ni i baru tak balik 2 minggu. kalau sebulan i tak balik macam mana syg..."
Me: "ala...tolong la...im so tired...lagipun u basuh bersih.."

Him: "yela...tapi u tolong taburkan sabun...boleh?"
Me: *mata bersinar2* "boleh je sayang....i pakai sabun buku la buat air sabun...tq syg!!" *kiss him excitedly*

nasib baik dia nak tolong basuhkan. selalu pun dia yang basuh, sebab bila dia basuh toilet dia, dia basuh sekali toilet i. kan i cakap, compare to me, dia lebih pembersih, penyusun, perapi semuanya dia la. i ni tangkap muat je boleh.hahaha....sangat tak sesuai. so sambil dia basuh toilet tu, kita janganlah plak mengangkang sesuka hati. i sapu the whole house, sembur perfume, and kemas-kemas dapur, masukkan pinggan dalam kabinet.

bila dah siap semua, toilet i memang harum and bersih sangat. say thank you to him, he replied,

"i lapar la sayang. gorengkan tempura boleh? and buat sandwich?"

masa tu pukul 11.30pm....-____-  i was too tired, mata i dah separuh tutup, but encik husband wants to eat. i macam merengek-rengek sikit la sebab memang penat. tapi encik husband sangat lah baik, dah basuhkan toilet semua and then he said,

"i tolong you buat sandwich k?i tolong potong bawang..."

i pun laju-laju la keluarkan sardin, bawang, mayonaise, and cili untuk buat sardin spread tu. bila dia ada kat dapur sekali tu, kuranglah sikit ngantuk tu. ajar dia potong bawang nipis-nipis. hikhik...one thing about him, walaupun dia tak tahu nak buat something, tapi dia suka try, and dia rajin untuk usaha sampai boleh. that can make me go *melting*....ahahah...kata husband kita, haruslah. sambil-sambil dia potong tu, i pon gorengkanlah dia tempura tu.

Him: "b...pedihh...pedihh...mata kita pedihh..."
Me: *gelak2* "pedih ke nangis??siannye sayang tite...sape marah dia ni....hahaha!!"

siap masak and buat sandwich tu, both of us lepak depan TV, sambil i lipat kain, sambil dia makan-makan. omnomnomnom....

ended up, tempura tak habis makan and sandwich dia sorang je makan. sia-sia usaha gigih i masak. well, dah penat kan, tapi perot mengada lapar, memang la beliau suh i goreng tempura sampai 8 biji. padahal dia makan dua keping je. haihhh....-_____-

harap, suami korang tak ngade-ngade macam ni..hahahaha!!

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Pukul Kita ;(

So yeah.

Encik husband will be back to his old routine (prfttt!!) esok. and since esok Friday, and i'm working, i feel so sad sebab tak dapat spend the rest of the day with him sebab dia esok pun ada function apa ntah. only petang dia akan balik rumah. anyway, maybe dia akan balik around 7 or 8pm. so thinking of cooking something nice for him.

Maybe kari ayam, with belacan, and ulam2??

Or perhaps, ayam masak lemak and sayur campur??

At least balik tu dia dah kenyang-kenyang and didn't have to spend money to buy food along the way back to his training center, but i doubt la...hikhik.. heyy, i think he did forgot to treat me some corn , either in cup or the cob. heee..kena remind ni.

anyway, life pretty amazing when he is around. everything went smoothly and semua benda yang kita buat, bila ada dia, it feels great and meaningful. especially kalau kita buat something tu, either for him or with him. kan?? :)

macam semalam, we had a dinner family at Sari Ratu, ala kedai makanan Nasi Padang tu. my sister in law yang nak belanja makan since she got her bonus. so i thought of walking from my place to Sogo, but my collegues (diorang memang sangat2 concern dengan ibu nandong), they told me not to do so. so i took the train, stopped at Masjid Jamek Station, and had a long walked until Sogo.

and they were right. hrmmm....i was all wet because of the sweating and tired and my foot hurts. Luckily i didn't walk from my office to Sogo. i might be already half dead when i arrive at the restaurant..hihihi! ibu nandong ni suka rasa dia mampu, but in the end, choices that she (me!) make, memakan diri.

and encik husband at first, dengar cakap isteri suruh naik train je sebab nak elak jam, was kind enough to drove the car sebab dia cakap,

"mula-mula i ingat nak naik train je, tapi bila teringat nanti balik sayang nak kena berdiri tunggu train, diri dengan ramai-ramai orang...kesian laa...:( "

sobs....sobs... how thoughtful he was.

before we went back home, stopped to hantar nenek at her house, had a few sticks of ais krim Malaysia nenek buat rasa limau kasturi and sirap limau while watching orang nyanyi-nyanyi kat TV, and tiba-tiba encik husband,

"sayang...sini. duduk sini...i urut pinggang u nak??"

of course me laju-laju bangun tanpa rasa bersalah padahal encik husband himself had mild fever and flu. hahaha...tak bertanggungjawab langsung. he urut my pinggang, back, shoulder, and head. and yeah, being himself, dia bukan mengurut, lebih kepada mengada-mengada, and trying to geletek me. T__T mula-mula dalam 5 minit je, baiklah sikit urut-urut i dengan yakin dan penuh kasih sayang, but later on, he changed.. prfttttt.....T__T

that is why, and that is the main reason kenapa i tak suruh dia urut-urut. sebab he is not trying to help me to ease the pain by massaging me, tapi dia nak main-main je, nak geletek2 i, suka dan terhibur agaknya tengok i sengsara...

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encik husband dia memang suka pukul and tumbuk i. dia cakap i sengal. kejap-kejap tumbuk belakang i, kejap-kejap tumbuk lengan i. selalunya pipi i jadi mangsa. i guess, masa pregnant ni, dia kata i makin cantik, makin glowing.tihii.. i pulak kadang-kadang rasa nak tumbuk dia bila dia cakap macam tu.

kalau dulu i selekeh, lagi pregnant ni double the selekeh. but remember, kalau kita cantik di mata suami, i mean the husband loves the way we dress ke, ikat rambut macam orang dalam pantang ke, tak payah nak makeup-makeup ke, ikut jela cakap diorang. to make them happy, is our responsibility kan?? :)

so anyway, oleh kerana tahap kegeraman dia kepada i tetiba melampau naik, hari tu i duduk sebelah dia, and covered my tummy dengan bantal. accidentaly, dia tumbuk bantal tu, because he thought that it was my peha.

i memang terkejut sangat and it hurt a bit. -___-

and i almost cry because, well, it's my baby inside!! and i terkejut and also sakit sikit. i takot jadi pape kat dia. but Alhamdulilah nothing happened, but it was a scary moment for me. encik husband non-stop mintak maaf kat i, and i biasalah mestilah jeling-jeling muka ketat. jual mahal. dia pun cakap dia tak sengaja, and dia pun takot sangat2.

cehh...baru tau. tu la. asyik main2 je, suka sangat tumbuk i. Daulat okay i ni. hahaha...

so remember yer, cakap dengan suami, kawan-kawan, sedara. we are fragile when we are pregnant, sometimes dulu langgar sikit2 pun takpe, apetah lagi yang teruk-teruk, tapi bila pregnant ni, badan kita jadi lain, sakit sikit pun bole affect baby inside.

just be extra careful, and just enjoy the moment....

oh one more, remember i always said im not normal, sebab takde morning sickness, perut tak besar, takde mengidam and stuff? hari ni officiallynya i nak cakap, i BERSYUKUR sangat-sangat sebab tidak di beri peluang untuk merasa semua tu sebab i am HAPPY the way i am. ikhlas sangat ni bagi ucapan macam ni. hahaha...entah kenapa, tetiba i rasa bersyukur sangat perjalanan pregnancy i ni smooth and silky..tak susah. Allah sebenarnya lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita, dan sepatutnya kita berterima kasih dengan setiap kurniaan Allah kat kita, bukan persoalkan. not good la mommy. so sekarang im okay, and excitedly tunggu lagi 20minggu jer baby pie nak keluar!! ;)

wish me, and baby pie, and encik husband sihat sentiasa, dimurahakn rezeki, dan bahagia sampai syurga. aminnn....;)

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Rahsia that causes me sakit hati!

encik husband balik bawak 'bangkrah'. bangkrah ni mama i cakap macam barang2 yang ntah pape. and barang2 ntah pape tu jugak merujuk kepada barang2 yang kita suka buat sepah. macam a mess. tapi encik husband takdelah dia balik cuti bawak bangkrah, it is just dia bawak balik baju-baju kursus dia adelah dalam 21kg punya basuhan, maksudnya 3 kali spin washing machine rumah. -__________-


by ahad pagi, semua baju dah kering. cool gila rumah i sebab kitorang bukak 24jam ventilator dapur.  camnilah kiranya wall ventilator kitorang.

tapi tak tau la brand apa, dah kata memang ada sekali masa dapat rumah nie kan. memang bagus la, selain sebagai nak ventilate bau masakan yang kita masak siap belacan tu kan, dia juga sebagai penyejuk rumah, dan paling penting, pengering baju kat ampaian. so baju encik husband yang penuh kat ampaian dah kering dengan jayanya. encik husband pun macam tak percaya kan semua baju kering.

well, his wife is a superwomen!hahaha...

so anyway, pagi ahad tu i masak nasi lemak, encik husband 2 kali tambah. yes, dia memang macam tu.  -_____- basically apa yang dia nak makan, i akan masakkan. malam sabtu tu, we went to Tesco Kajang to buy a few things, basically food stuff. ada sunsweet la, double decker la, susu HL la, frankfurters etc etc. so beli sekali bahan-bahan nak buat masak nasi lemak.

tengah hari, dek kerana dah sedap sangat makan nasi lemak, he fell asleep. like a baby. i datang kiss-kiss dia pun, dia buat tak heran. sikit pun tak bergerak. takpun dia senyum-senyum sikit pastu tidur. dengan perasaan hampa, i pegilah iron baju dia, lipat baju-baju dia and ketepikan untuk dia bawak balik petang nanti, around 7 or 8pm macam tu dia dah nak kena balik tempat kursus. selalu barang dia packed sendiri, even if we out for a vacation.

dia tu, organized sangat, unlike me. selalu i sumbat je dalam travel bag tu. tapi encik husband tak. semua mesti teratur, mesti bersusun. rimas. oh oh, hari tu, kitorang pergi PD so he asked me to bring back baju dia,  kira dia nak tumpang beg i, yelah, dia bawak sikit je. so i just take his beg and sumbat dalam beg i. sampai rumah, boleh plak dia bukak beg i tu kan. lepas tu dia cakap, 

"yaAllah...sayang...u sumbat macam ni je beg i??susun la elok-elok sayang...keluarkan dari beg macam ni...". siap demonstrate. -________-

i gelak-gelak je. tapi dalam hati dah tahap malu. hahahaha...mane tau dia nak bukak beg i kan.yela, selalu perempuan yang organized. tapi kitorang terbalik. i guess sebab tu kitorang kahwin kot. sebab dia kena jaga i yang kelam-kabut and inorganize nie.tihiiiii....

so anyway, dalam pukul 3pm macam tu i ajak dia dating. pergi Parkson kejap, nak belikan hadiah untuk my friend. than kitorang makan crispy popiah. dah lame sangat tak dating macam tu. hikhik...we had a laugh, we talked a lot, it was just a happy moment for both of us. kata baru baik gaduh, bagi can laaa..lagipun encik husband dah nak balik jap lagi.

on the way home, i terasa nak makan magnum. beli satu share dua. memang tak habis la kalau makan sendiri. before that encik husband cakap ada rahsia. tapi dia akan bagitau lepas beli magnum. okay fine. lepas dah bukak pack magnum i tanye la rahsia yang dia nak bagitau tu. dia kata habiskan dulu magnum baru dia cakap. okay fine. main-main kan. makanlah magnum sampai kat rumah. sampai kat rumah i tanye lagi pasal rahsia tu. masa tu i tengah bersenang -lenang kat sofa rumah.

encik husband datang peluk i.

"meh sini....i nak bisik..". bengang tak??kat rumah tu kitorang dua je nak bisik apa nye laaaaa.....

husband cakap lagi,

"sini la....i nak bagitau ni rahsia dia....". i pun bagilah telinga kat dia, siap betul-betulkan rambut bawak ke kanan, senang kot-kot jap lagi i pekak tetiba ke kan. tapi kadang-kadang, encik husband ni bukan boleh caya. nanti dia memekik kat telinga i. -_____-

husband bisik,

"i sayangggg u...". damn!i tau tu bukan rahsia dia. instead of nak rasa happy, i jadi sakit hati. i kan tak menyabar. bila dia main-main macam ni, i memang rasa amarah je.

"no...no...i know it's not rahsia. itu bukan rahsia. i tau u sayang i...cepat la b...ape rahsia dia...u main-main camni dah la. i merajuk sampai bila-bila...". i membebel.

"hahaha....yela-yela....gurau sikit pun tak boleh...hihihi... okay, rahsia dia...meh sini i bisik..."

"ha...ape dia..."

husband bisik lagi,

"pxsdwtdfwupsdjkhw.......". ha!?

"apa u cakap...tak dengar......betul-betul la b....main-main la u nie...nape nak kena cakap laju2....cakap la slow-slow..". i memang dah bengang dah time nie. muka dah ketat dah berkerut-kerut.

encik husband tiba-tiba came up dengan macam-macam perjanjian. dia kata kalau nak tau rahsia tu kena janji macam-macam dengan dia. perghhh...memang sengaja la kan. encik husband cakap,

"i have the wild card. so kalau u nak tau rahsia, u kena janji dengan i. janji jangan gaduh-gaduh lagi. janji jangan tukar-tukar status bbm. jangan tukar status bbm yang buat i rasa terpinggir. janji jangan tukar gambar bbm u. janji kalau gaduh pun u message i jugak....."

eh tetiba jadi banyak plak perjanjian dia...-________-

"hahahaha.....eeiii....banyaknye yayang.....hahahah....u pun sama...janji tak gaduh-gaduh lagi dengan i...janji ni?berdosa tau kalau mungkir janji...". i plak buat perjanjian yang sama.

"yer sayang....janji. so, nak tau tak rahsia i tu?". tanya encik husband sambil peluk i tightly, and kiss me all over the face.

"yer, ape dia??janji cakap tau...cakap kuat-kuat and talk slowly...". sambil senyum-senyum i pun dekatkan telinga kat mulut dia.

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sambil bisik encik husband cakap, "sebenarnya i cuti sampai jumaat ni.....".

"whatttt!!!!!!!". jerit i.

"jumaat??jumaat bila??jumaat lepas?". okay. bila puan isteri datang rasa overly excited, rasa kebodohan dia pun nak datang sekali. ape la cuti sampai jumaat lepas. sampai jumaat ni la, cuti christmas. T__T

and i terus bebel-bebel bising-bising cakap i terkedek-kedek buatkan dia sandwich, and ironing his clothes, lipatkan kain, sapu rumah semua, knowing that dia dah nak balik and dont like the house to stay dirty kalau nak keluar rumah. kalau i tau encik husband cuti jumaat, i pun ikot sekali tidur dengan dia tengah hari tu. omgggggggg.......he's so mean!!

"hahahahaha.....takpela sayang....at least u dah siap-siap, kan. dah boleh relax-relax..."

come to my senses, dah tak mengamuk dah, i hugged him back and kiss him lightly. "serious b cuti sampai jumaat??serious ke??". tanya i sambil senyum-senyum.

"ye sayang. i saje nak suprise kan u. u happy ke??" tanya dia.

"mestilah!!!!heeeeee......i love u sayang....sorry gaduh-gaduh dengan u....".

"me too syg.....".


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really there's a pot of gold at every end of rainbow. i guess i found mine?? :)




ps: omgg....seminggu ni nak buat ape??!! hahaha sorry terexcited plak...biasa la, orang tak pernah ada boyfriend yang tinggal seminggu sebab dia dah lama tinggalkan hidup berumah tangga, dia jadi macam gelabah sikit la...heeee....

 
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