Berlingkar....euwww

sebenarnya i had already typed a very long post using my blackberry and me, being the most organized person (yeah right!) , i dengan jayanya telah mendelete the post, together with other emails. tahniah weh tahniah. panjang weh panjang. hadoiiiii.

so im not sure whether this entry are going to be long or short. we just follow my typing okay. hahaha!!

nak start dari mana? oh yes. husband balik, suprisingly masa malam takbir. he purposely did that (to suprise me), and of course i bawak kereta selaju halilintar and trying hard to remember kat mana yang takde camera, kat mana yang takde AES. hahaha.... and malam tu we slept at around 2.00am, we had a long talk and cuddling session before decided to hop in bed, sebab for God's sake , esok raya kot.

and yes. tekalah pukul berapa bangun. hikhik! we woke up for subuh prayer, which i hope encik suami is not going to wake up sebab tidur lambat, but he patiently kejut i suruh bangun sembahyang, and i dalam hati sungguh rasa tak ikhlas nak bangun. i macam mendengus-dengus la (dosa yer isteri-isteri). lepas i sembahyang, i peluk dia, pastu i cakap sorry marah-marah u. and of course he did not replied, tidur dah kan.  alhamdulilah. hahaha.....

by 10.30am we arrived at nenek's house. had our usual lontong, lodeh, sambal sotong the best in town cooked by my aunty, rendang limpa+paru, ayam rendang. too sad we did not have our ayam masak merah, which we missed it quite a bit. and spent the rest of the evening kat rumah nenek sampai la around 5pm baru balik.

encik suami cakap, "b, you tau tak kita dua berlingkar atas kerusi (sofa) nenek tu?"

"eh yeke?"

"yela, i tido atas peha u. u tido atas perut i."

"yer, i tak perasan pun...hahahah!". biasalah dah nama pun tertidur, sedar sangat la tidur berlingkar ke ape.

"takpe. nenek faham. kite kan dah lame tak jumpe...". hahahaha...

eh okla. got to go. hari ni i invigilate exam. boring!

ps: ade 2 tempat i apply untuk new job. doa-doakanlah dapat. amin.

Baju

Good Morning!
Sebelum kerja marking paper students kite jalankan, baiklah kita buat sesuatu untuk boost the brain. sebab semalam rasa nak dekat 50 paper i marked, plus ada 3 sections, pastu kene mark setiap section dulu, baru pantas sikit sebab kita dah boleh tau trend jawapan. ni baru nak masuk last section, ESSAY. ni memang rasa nak terberak la baca sorang-sorang punya jawapan.

anyway, hari ni dah rabu. esok khamis. i prayed hard yang esok dapat tahu encik suami boleh balik bercuti. tapi i nak doa je, taknak harap. nanti kecewa. bila kecewa, jadi ape?yer sedih. so bila sedih, totally not good for the baby.hikhik...

nak bagitau ni, at 7weeks pregnancy, i still fit in my UK8 baju. feewit! cuma bahagian boobies a tad tight. seluar totally tak boleh fit UK8. boleh tapi sendiri senak. so jangan nak mengada sangat la. seluar i 28, tapi i rasa sekarang kena pakai 29/30 macam tu. nak kena beli seluar baru. seluar jeans F21 tu masih boleh fit in. nanti memang dah tak boleh sangat baru beli.pastu nak beli yang boleh expand untuk maternity clothes tu. kawan i cakap kat scarlet jaya jusco ade. tunggu la dah besar sikit baru beli.

baju, i beli hari tu sampai 4 helai. bila nak pakai pun tak tau. and semua pun UK8/UK10. sedari la diri bahawa boobies awak tu semakin besar. -_- fine. i simpan untuk pemangkin nak kurus nanti. ha tapikan, actually i tak kisah pun gain weight. sebab kan, this is the only time yang i excited to see my tummy grow bigger. excited angat! kalau tak pregnant, hari-hari i cakap stay down, don't grow. hahaha...

pastu hari tu encik suami cakap, dia buat 2.4. (2.4KM running). i is sedih. dulu kitorang dua je jogging sama-sama around 9.30pm kat area rumah. now cannot already. lepas dia buat 2.4, dia main bola lagi. i tau, dia semangat nak kurus. masalahnya dia memang kurus, perut je tak kurus. i suka badan dia sekarang, perut je i suruh rendahkan ketinggian.hahaha....tapi ape-ape la. as long as dia suka, i pun suka.

setiap orang kan ada figure badan yang kita fantasize. nak besar ni la, nak kecik ni la, nak berketul ni la. kan?

hari ni lunch, bawak nasi ayam, mama masak semalam. siap bawak timun dengan salad. hahaha....apple merah 2 biji. and pagi tadi lunch susu and cereal. letak honey. sedap okay. sekarang nak kena minum susu, makan ubat. semua untuk baby. our baby. ;)

ha okay lah. i nak sambung mark paper. sebab esok kelas. at least boleh discuss jawapan dalam kelas dengan student. sebab dah takde idea nak ajar ape. ikut chapter memang ada, tapi we make the class a bit more interesting. you know, do discussion but it can be related to other chapters and all.

ps: dah dua malam tidur peluk baju encik suami. rasa macam sawan sekejap.

When memory strikes back

Sometimes when the memory strikes back, man..even I can't bear with the pain. It hurts a lot. And I wish and I pray so hard that I won't even remember any of it. But I can't.

Sometimes when I accidentally come across it, my heart just can't stop pumping. I hate that, and I hate 'that' for forever.

I just break down into tears, why people were so mean. Why they hate to see others happiness, why they even have the intentions to do so at the first place.

I know that things have changed so dramatically and I can't cope with it, but I try. I am happy with the way I am now.

But when the memory strikes back, I just can't bear the pain. I just can't. It would be the first and the last.

I will do anything for myself. Anything to make myself from getting hurt again.


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Raja banyak hari

Khamis ni dengar husband boleh balik. Balik ke tak kurang pasti. Sebab nanti mengharap sangat pastu kecewa sendiri. I bet everyone pernah rasa kecewa. Tapi kecewa I ni, setiap masa. Macam terlepas show ' Keeping Up with the Kardhashian' pun kecewa. Haha..tapi I bersyukur we decided not to have astro kat rumah. Nanti kerja rumah tak jalan sebab dah bayar kan rugi la tak tengok. *logic*

Yang ada unifi. Tu lagi bagus. Internet wajib ada, walaupun fb pun through hp je. Sebab kalau fb through laptop, lagi lame. So baik takyah. Lagipun channel unifi kadang-kadang dia bagi free paid-channel. So lucky la.

Sebab kalau amik astro, boleh kira la berapa kali tengok tv. Selalu pagi time breakfast tengok TV 1, itu pun kalau husband bukak. And if not, malam nak tido. Tapi selalu memang tv tgk kitorang. Weekend, sure dating or balik rumah parents. So memang tak tengok TV.

Anyway, tadi borak-borak dengan encik suami, kalau dia balik our weekend will be full with activities. Sekali husband replied , "bila nya I nak manja-manja dengan u ni sayangg..".

Hahaha..ok. Tak terfikir la plak kan. Sebenarnya dulu husband tak macam ni pun. Dulu masa zaman bercinta, selalu je I cakap dia tak sayang I la, I je sayang dia sepenuh hati la, bla bla bla. Even up until now.

Tapi sekarang kuranglah. Orang kata apa kita cakap tu doa. *gulp* so I better stop saying those stupid words. And plus, husband jadi macam tu la. Hari-hari pun dia dengan I, or at least try to be with me. Malam call, siang hari bbm, kalau tak busy.

Kadang-kadang tercetus gak peluru berpandu,kalau rindu sangat, pastu dia tak bagi attention kan..hahaha...biasa la girls. Lagi2 la I. Attention seeker. Ala, korang pun macam tu kan? Kan? Tak eh? Hikhik..I attention seeker dengan husband je.

Sebab kan, husband I ni. Entah la. Dia macam takde perasaan sikit. Wahh..selamba badak kutuk suami sendiri..haha!tapi macam tu la. Tapi bila dia tiba-tiba cakap macam tu, nak bermanja-manja tu, I jadi macam paralyzed la kejap.

Tak sangka sangat suami ada perasaan macam tu. *blushing*

Tapi I tau nak manja-manja tu macam mana.

1. I masak pagi petang bagi perut dia kenyang.
2. Urut-urut dia.
3. Basuhkan rambut dia macam biasa.
4. Layan dia macam berborak ke tengok youtube ke.
5. Kemas barang dia.

Lelaki (suami). Tu je la kehendak dia. Nak jadi Raja.

*facepalm*

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7 weeks symptoms of pregnancy

Bertukar hari dah. eh bertukar minggu. hari tu pergi klinik, sepatutnya this week dah week ke 8. tapi since i nak ikut EDD yang government clinic tetapkan, i baru 7 week pregnant. still small and i hope the baby is doing fine, as this is my first baby ever, first time pregnant and all, sangat cuak dan nervous. lagi-lagi husband takde kat sisi, so i hope semua orang doakan kesihatan i dan baby.

kiranya, i unsure minggu ke berapa dah pregnant ni. so i guess my next check up on 12/11 nanti boleh tau la. insyaAllah. *excited*

just nak bagitau simptom i pregnant this time:

1. selalu sangat running to the toilet.
i kan, boleh kira la dulu, dalam sehari tu, i pergi toilet untuk weewee was like, 4 kali sehari. pagi, tengah hari, petang, and malam. dah itu je. tapi sekarang, kadang-kadang within 30minits pun boleh dah nak pergi toilet. macam semalam, i bangun pukul 2am sembahyang isyak (wah bagus sangat sembahyang gajah), tiba-tiba pukul 4am bangun terus berlari g toilet. eh? padahal i tak minum pun. -_-

2. takde rasa mual-mual nak muntah.
yup, i guess i am lucky enough tak rasa macam tu. tapi sebenarnya i ada je rasa mual-mual (kot?) tapi maybe i tak layan or memang i tak tau kot itu rasa nak mual nak muntah. eh i pun tak berapa nak faham, tapi lebih kurang macam tu la.

3. first time rasa pitam
first time ever in my life! i tak pernah rasa macam tu. you can read on the entry below.

4. sentiasa lapar
hahahaha....ini kurang pasti nafsu makan atau memang badan needs energy. setiap 30minit i cari makan. hahaha...nasib i ni berkira nak makan, means i dont eat junk food. memang kurma, kismis la benda yang i kunyah. or biskut yang mama buat. nasi so far i boleh control lagi, sebab i taknak too much glucose nanti, and i okay je tak makan nasi. tapi mesti makan la at least. and minum susu. dah beli susu tepung. everyday. itu je yang i boleh telan selain fresh milk. ANMUM?hell no.

5. sakit boobies
ni i guess normal. so memang la sakit!

6. berdebar-debar
berdebar-debar i rasa dalam perut i. i ni memang boleh rasa heartbeat kat perut. i guess kulit perut i nipis, so i can feel the veins. tapi rasa tu kejap-kejap je. maybe heart beat baby. im not sure. orang kate kite tak boleh rasa pun heartbeat baby.

7. kuat bergaduh dengan husband.
ini memang tak dapat dinafikan. tak tau la sebab ape but memang kuat bergaduh. ni husband dah mengalah ni, dah cukup baik dah. tapi tetap i nak marah-marah. ape punye amukan la. tapi i harap sangat dia faham. bukan i yang marah-marah tu. eh??hahahaha....sabar k syg. you know i love u so much.

8. cepat mengah
ni pun yer. tadi i baru punch je, jalan sampai lif balik nak naik ofis, boleh mengah dalam lif?apakah?haihh..

itu je la yang i boleh fikir kan. hahaha.....i nak cerita pasal boyfriend i. dia dah nak balik dah this week. not confirm yet but i pray so. rindu menggunung. semalam bergayut sampai satu jam. husband cakap , "thank u sayang, call i..." .pastu cepat-cepat i cakap , "nanti bil melambung i bagi kat u je k sayang...". kitorang dah terbiasa untuk say thanks walau ape pun yang kita or pasangan kita buat.

hari-hari jugak i cakap thanks kat husband i, sebab hantar and amik i kat station.

mane la tau, nanti dah tak sempat cakap. so kite kene make use of everything and all the time we have. kan??

Is having low blood pressure during pregnancy is normal?

it's been a very busy week. heh. takde la busy sangat tapi sejak nandong ni macam slow sikit je movement. dulu kalau tidur pun sukati i je nak mengangkang ke, meniarap ke, sekarang dah takde dah. pusing sikit je kalau boobies terpenyek dengan bantal dia punye sakit tu, masyaAllah. pastu kalau i letak bantal kat dada (nak jugak kan meniarappp...) ada macam rasa itu satu besar batu duduk dalam sana. so kiranya official la ni dah tak boleh meniarap.

last saturday, i ajak my parents to go for a walk kat Lake Garden. lame dah tak pergi situ since kahwin. tempat tu cantik dan makin ramai orang. tapi still boleh berlari sakan la. anyway, i of course did not run. bila tengok orang lain lari, tiba-tiba i terjalan laju. hahaha...dengki angat orang tu. pastu i semangat- semangat "hello uncle, good morning...". wahh, ringan mulut sangat rasa nak tampar je diri sendiri. pastu sementelah i dengan mama jenjalan tu, ada satu runner ni (jogged) dah 4 kali pass by kitorang. i rasa diorang pun macam , "diorang ni jalan ke mengesot tak gerak-gerak ni.." bayangkan lah betapa slow nye i jalan. we had our 1 hour walk. best la.peluh sikit jer.

sebelum jog tu i dah breakfast sekeping roti spread butter and jem nenas, untuk baby. now kan buat ape je untuk baby, dah takde dah untuk diri sendiri. (padahal shopping 4 helai baju untuk diri sendiri konon baju dah tak muat, tapi baju same je size takde pun berubah...). so jalan satu jam. balik tu baby (baby lagi..) mengidam nak makan kuey teow goreng Tangling. punye la ramai orang tapi i beratur je la macam biasa. sekali lepas dalam 20minit beratur tu, i nak pitam!

first time ever in my life, i encounter such feeling. first i rasa muka i berkerut-kerut. perut rasa loya nak muntah. a few seconds after that i nampak macam blur skit, pastu ada lapisan hitam kat mata i. seriously i cuba bertahan. i tak rasa macam dunia berpusing, cuma i rasa lemah sangat nak berdiri. memang o terus duduk! masa tu i fikir kalau i jatuh, memang membahayakan baby pie so takpe la kalau i skipped food pun, janji baby i sehat. i memang main duduk je kat kerusi ade one girl nie. i cakap sekejap k, i rasa nak pitam. i rasa muka i memang pucat. pastu akak indon (baik gileeer) cakap, "takpe dek, nanti akak hantarkan sekali dengan kueyteow tu...". pastu i cakap, "maaf eh kak, saya baru mengandung ni..". dia cakap, "takpe takpe.."

i rasa ni sebab orang depan i order nasi goreng kerang. euwww....tak pernah pernah i tahu nasi goreng boleh makan dengan kerang. tapi i rasa sebab i mengandung tu dia jadi loya semacam. haihh.... i though i dont have to face these kind of maniacs tapi i rasa sebab hormon kita not normal, semua jadi pelik.

oh, i cepat mengah. tiba-tiba rasa dah ter-panting. haihhh...-_-

balik i buat sendiri blood pressure level sebab i ada machine tu kat rumah. memang rendah. 76 / 56. normal tak silap i 120/80 macam tu. pastu my mom terus masak hati ayam, bayam. konon dapat meningkatkan darah. i read on the internet, that it is normal for a pregnant lady to have low blood pressure during pregnancy because pembuluh darah kita mengembang so dia agak lambat la untuk darah to reach the brain, sebab pressure rendah. so okay.

cara to avoid : move slower! tu jer.

so baby pie, mommy hopes you doing well inside. mommy really don't know your condition, but since mommy is doing fine, i guess you too! mommy can't wait for you to grow bigger by seeing that my tummy is growing bigger too!oh oh, your daddy is missing you already. everyday dia bbm mommy, all he asked was you, and not mommy. but mommy is happy that i have both of you in my life. hope to see you in around 30 weeks time!

why people walk so slow?

pagi tadi, on my way to office, naik train hurung dengan ramai orang, a bit tired semalam so pagi ni terbangun awal. eh? boleh eh? hehehehe.....tibe-tibe dapat bbm dari husband.

"morning syg...orang tengah bekpes..watpe tu?"

*hati berbunga*

"dalam train sayang... nak pergi office. hari ni train penuh tak dapat seat..."

memang macam tu la usual morning message dengan husband. rasanya dia pun dah expect that every morning whether the wife dapat seat ke tak. hahaha...maybe rapid KL should endorse more coaches instead of the current 4 coaches. dah tak boleh menampung ramai orang dah ni. hahaha...

pastu lama la husband tak reply. tetibe..

" sayang... i really don't understand why people walk so slowlyyy..."

hahahahaha.....tergelak okay dalam train. i didn't expect that from him. i mean pagi-pagi plak tu. haihhh...siapa la yang buat perangai jalan slow-slow depan dia nih. kan dah kena marah. bukan orang tu, i la. hikhik...

me and husband both are really punctual and systematic in what ever things we do. i mean not that perfect sebab kadang-kadang bangun pagi pun lambat, but we try not to spend more time doing unnecessary things. contoh, kalau that day pergi tesco just to find goods (and not for a date), memang kitorang separate to find the things. husband pergi cari sabun, i pergi cari kicap. sebab, satu, ramai orang, nak tolak troli and all memang la penuh and slow. i don't mind as some of us girls semua nak dengan husband and all which is good (and sweet of course) but not practical. buang masa.

tapi kalau kitorang pergi dating, we walk quite slow, or if we want to have a talk, and being naughty and romantic and all, we stop by a cafe to have a drink. tak la mengganggu orang lain kan. tapi if not, we just stroll around the mall.

that's how we do it. ;) ni semua husband ajar. kala ikot nafsu serakah i, memang tolak troli pun nak dua-dua pegang. menggelabah gila rasa nak tampar diri sendiri. hahahahaha....

so i replied,

"me to babyyy. like they have all the time in the world kan..."

hikhik...i miss him around the house. sebab kitorang selalu gaduh and fight over something stupid. contoh macam tak siram pokok atas meja makan.

he will asked, " sayang tak siram pokok??" sambil belek-belek pokok i.

"ala...lupe la yayanggg. tolonglahhhh..."

"lain kali kalau malas siram, jangan jaga la pokok ni..."

ok. tarik muka 40 batuuuuuuuuuu......

Bukak Buku Merah

I did my first pregnancy check up at klinik kesihatan presint 9 putrajaya. Jauh sangat dari rumah kat KL but since I'm living with husband and he encouraged me to do my check up (and delivery) here in putrajaya, maka I have to do my check up here.

So I woke up at around 7.30am eventhough the initial plan is to arrived at the clinic around 7.30am. -_- ye ye last night I sent my husband to johor. Next entry la kot.hee..

So anyway, siap-siap and heret my parents to go with me. I pancing them to have their free check up there. Asyik-asyik pergi princecourt je duit habis jugak kan. Hehehe..

Sampai je kat klinik, first pergi kaunter depan tu. Tanye, "cik nak bukak buku merah..". Nurse india. Dia cakap pergi kaunter 18. Berpusing okay cari kaunter 18 sebab nak kira dari 1 sampai 18. Tapi kaunter tu sebelah kiri je dari pintu I masuk. Sengal ubi mommy lately ni. -_-

Sekali nurse cakap tak boleh daftar sini sebab kena pergi klinik presint 3.ikot alamat and kawasan jajahan kita. Snap!Pastu memang I buat muka kesian pastu dia cakap, boleh la tapi next check up buat kat sane. Horeaahh!

Dia mintak ic jer. Buat penat tau I bawak sijil nikah bagai. Siapa buat kenyataan palsu ni? Hahaha...
Lepas tu dia tanye bila tau first pregnant? Ha? Masa ni memang blur tahap gaban. Mane tahu? Nak jwb buat test sendiri macam tak yakin. So I jawab buat kat private klinik. Dia kate okay. Pastu dia bagi buku merah tu. Yeay! Selain buku merah, dia bagi kad ade nombor untuk kita scan at every pit stop. Senang and efficient gila.

Ada 4 steps (die tulis belakang kad nombor):
1. Urine
2.Blood
3.Dental
4.Medical doctor (ultrasound scan)
5.Farmasi

So I rasa, siapa yang tak pergi private klinik and buat test kit sendiri, jawab jer buat kat private clinic. Senang. Takde dia mintak resit ke ape.

Next pergi urine test. Letak buku merah, untuk dia key in info. Dalam 2minit dia panggil balik, amek test cup tu, pergi weewee, hantar balik kat dia, dia buat pregnancy test yang kita dah buat kat rumah, pastu dia kate "okay puan dah, pergi blood test pulak."

Masa blood test memang lama tunggu. Scan dulu no mcm biasa. Tunggu rasa dalam 30minit la. Rasa sebab ramai bukan orang pregnant je, dia included sakit lain. So tunggu je la. Amek blood I bermasalah okay. Memang dari dulu. Veins lari-lari. Dia lembut sangat. Dulu masa derma darah tersembur okay darah keluar. I pun dah pucat gelabah sebab takut darah habis. -_-

Hahaha..nasib la sakit macam kena gigit semut. Fine. Nurse je macam takut-takut, takut I sakit. Don't worry nurse, I'm big girl already. Hahahaha..

Next stop, dental. I missed my number, memang kelam kabut la berlari. Haha..sebok bbm husband memang la ke laut. Oh tips. Nombor giliran kat sini lari-lari, so bawak la roti ke air ke siap-siap. Sebab tetibe je dah kene panggil.Dentist ni sangat baik. Dia bagitau tips and all. Nama dia DR Tuan Yuswana Tuan Soh. Very friendly and sangat informative. Sesuai la jadi doctor kan.suka! Good job doc!

And last sekali examine by medical dr. But before that ada screening test dengan nurse. Same jugak scan nombor and wait for awhile.buat breast check and stored height and weight. Tadi dia kate ade lump. Tapi bila examine dengan medical doc dia cakap takde pape. Heee..

Last doctor buat ultrasound. Nampak baby. Comel je kecik je. Hehehe..mommy was so happy.happu sgt2 sebab akhirnya nampak kantung and baby bulat dalam itu. Hikhik..

But pretty sad sebab daddy is not there to see u sayang.tapi takpe. Next scan kite bawak daddy okay. Malam tu mommy update all these stories kat daddy, he patiently dengar and sounds so happy. He misses us and kite pun can't wait for daddy to get home soon.
Heee...rindu!

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How to perform pregnancy test?

How to perform a pregnancy test?
that's easy! you go to the nearest pharmacy or drugstore that sells pregnancy kit. they have abundance type of pregnancy test kits that sells around RM5.00 to RM30.00. my advice is just buy the cheapest one because nowadays they give you quite an accurate results.

This was my ultimate joy! i'd blogged it anyway. soon-mommy-to-be .

First Test
So below's picture was when i performed my first pregnancy test. i bought this kit in Guardian Pharmacy. it cost about RM12.00++. This photo was taken using iphone hence the clear picture. the bright purple line on the right side was on the C-section. and the light one on the left was on the T-section.

if you are NOT PREGNANT, there is clearly NO LINES on the T-section.
and if you are PREGNANT (yeay!), it would be a line on the T-section despite whether it is light colour or deep in the colour. deep as in intense colour.

this pregnancy test kit uses a dip-in method. you just dip the point (paling hujung) in your already collected urine sample.

Second Test

So below's picture was when i performed my second pregnancy test. i bought this kit in Watson's Pharmacy. it cost about RM5.00. This photo was taken using blackberry hence the so not clear picture. As you can see, both sections gave intense purple colour so i guess i am pregnant! yeay!!

this pregnancy test kit uses a drop in method. you just drop in a few drops of your collected urine on the spot (there the yellowish thing there...the yellowish thing was my urine yang i tahan dari pukul 8am sampai 2.30pm....gosh!hahaha)

Third Test

And the last test i did was in a private clinic. the doctor used the same pregnancy test kit as what i used during my second test. doctor gave me this test, 3 papan folic acid 400mg, and a consultation. all together for RM25. well it was okay. nothing much but we were pretty confident that now i am officially pregnant.

 Husband sangat happy. hahahaha....i dah happy dulu nangis-nangis kat ofis so bila husband happy, dia sensorang je la. masa balik tu, from clinic to our home, i terus jadi princess. jalan lenggang kangkung je. husband angkat semua beg, even plastic air pun.

yela, masa tu jela dia sweet. tengok sekarang. belum sampai rumah and he is still outstation, dia dah bbmed,

"sayang, nanti sayang masak k?masak jela pape..."

-_- pembuli.

Let's Plan!

Husband kan nak balik this week, so i am happy like a monkey!!hikhik.... lagi yang buat i happy sangat-sangat husband cakap, "nanti sayang amik i, kite terus pergi klinik. balik rumah u kejap, pack-pack barang, pastu kite balik rumah kite k?"

rumah kite??okay i rasa nak melt je masa dia cakap tu. ;) i pun rindu sangat kat rumah kitorang. masa mula-mula kitorang dapat rumah tu, both of us yang datang kemas rumah, sapu and mop. habuk construction masa tu ada la dalam 3inches thick. sapu la 10 juta kali sampai sekarang pun boleh rasa lagi habuk-habuk dia especially kat pintu and tingkap. husband masa tu cuci toilet and all. memang rumah tu kitorang guna kudrat sendiri untuk bersihkan and decorate. tak panggil bibik, tak panggil pun family members.

and lepas kahwin, terus kitorang duduk situ, just weekend je kadang-kadang balik kampung. most of the time, memang kitorang kat rumah tu. so nak taknak, i somehow pun rindu dengan rumah tu. tapi since husband takde, i taknak la balik selalu. the house feel so empty and lagipun banyak sangat kenangan i dengan dia kat situ. dengan berebut nak masuk rumah, dengan menjerit-jerit dalam rumah, it makes me think about him more and more.

so bila dia balik ni, haruslah balik rumah cepat-cepat. kawan baik i dah siap sedia nak kena buli ni!!!hehehehe....

anyway, since dia balik, i nak plan something la:

1. pergi klinik buat ultrasound
2. balik rumah, lepak-lepak
3. have dinner outside, just a simple dinner
4. malam nak ajak tengok movie, TAKEN 2.
5. sembahyang jemaah, subuh ke.
6. nak dengar dia baca Al-Quran untuk me and baby pie.
7. homemade breakfast. jemput-jemput bawang ke.
8. kalau dia nak stay at home okay. if not nak ajak pergi tesco beli barang makanan orang nandong.
9. petang maybe nak kena hantar dia balik.

or maybe before dinner or after that, husband maybe nak jumpa his parents. up to him. i okay jer mane-mane pun.

uuuuuu.....can't wait. i really miss him. selama dia kursus ni, selama tu la dengan bergaduhnya dengan terlebih manjenyer...i just want to be in his arm, and when i wake up in the morning, i know that he is still beside me, i can feel the warmth of his body and his breath.

life cannot be better than this? Alhamdulilah yaAllah untuk segala-galanya.

Another Suprise!

well anyway. monday next week nak pergi klinik kesihatan kerajaan untuk bukak buku merah. merah ke pink ke tak pulak i tau but they called it buku merah. buku merah is fine. so before that ingat nak pergi buat ultrasound dulu sebab, well saje nak tau condition baby. so baby i nak masuk seven weeks i guess doctor dah boleh la kot nampak the baby dalam womb i. hahaha, kalau perut banyak lemak mungkin la kurang sikit nampaknyer...hahahaha!

so petang semalam i bbmed husband, bagitau dia i nak pergi scan. dia macam biasa la, perlu ke, tak pergi klinik kesihatan jer ke, dah boleh dah ke. so i cakap la, kalau klinik kesihatan, yang i tau throughout the 9 months/39weeks pregnancy tu, 3 kali je dia buat. so better to have second option, at least i tau baby pie is doing okay inside.

so husband tanye duit ade ke takde. of course la i cakap takde..hahaha...i bebel-bebel cakap kalau dia ada it would be nice, you know just the two of us there looking at our own baby pie that come from both genes. hikhik...i can't wait to see the face of our own blood line. heeee....

so i ingat nak buat ultrasound semalam, sebab semalam i hangout dengan my friend plus nak cari hadiah kan. so dah alang-alang keluar tu buat sekali la. nak buat hari ni friday tak boleh, sebab malam kang nak celebrate birthday one of my friend. pastu i bagitau la husband, that i want to do the ultrasound tonight (last night), and i will go to klinik kesihatan on monday.

husband tibe-tibe called and said, " tunggu la i b. u taknak scan dengan i ke?"

"ha!? b, u tu balik bile pun tak tau, berape lame i nak tunggu?sampai baby pie dah besar?"

"u buat sabtu la. sabtu ni.."

"haihh...macam la u balik...-_-"

"i balik la. i balik sabtu ni kite pegi same-same k?"

"ha!!!?? serious ke b u balik sabtu ni??!!"

"iyer sayang... :) tunggu i k..kite pegi same-same..."

and me being the all-time-drama-queen menangis la kat situ. dekat luar kelas okay. nasib student tak nampak. i rasa macam sedih gile sebab actually i takut. tak tau la takut kenape tapi takut la.tapi i taknak bawak mama pergi scan sekali sebab malu la kalau nak nangis ke ape. so i tetap rasa pergi dengan husband paling bagus.

pastu lepas dah end the call, husband bbmed, "happy ke syg??"

"happy laa...happy sangat!"

husband cakap sebenarnye dia nak buat suprise. tau-tau dia dah sampai kat umah i. tapi since i macam confident je nak buat scanning tu sekarang, dia kate dia taknak miss all those sweet and memorable moments i dengan baby pie. *melt*

i replied, "u buat macam tu terberanak i..."

husband cakap, "takpe sayang. next time i nak buat, u bangun tidur i dah ade sebelah u.."

i replied, " u buat macam tu i tumbok muka u!"

Direct

Around kul 5pm semalam rasa sayu jer.dah start nak berkolam mata. Tengok weather kat luar pun gelap sangat, memang hujan turun tak lame lepas tu. Sedih sangat. Macam-macam pikir.

Pastu akak kat opis tanya, "okay ke?macam sedih je akak tengok..". Pastu I pun cerita, kadang-kadang rasa takde orang sayang kat kite kak, husband tinggal kan kite time nandong, parents pun pergi jauh outstation, tak sayang dah ke.hehehe... Nak tergelak pun ada tengok perangai sendiri. -_-

Pastu akak tu cakap, memang masa nandong ni macam-macam perasaan ada. Dia kata banyakkan baca al-quran. Sibukkan diri dengan macam-macam. Haihh... I don't want anything else except my husband. I rasa dia je pengubat duka lara hati I. I really miss him. Although tak sampai 2 minggu but kite nak die jugak!hrmm..

Tengah borak-borak tu husband call. Eh, macam boleh rasa jer tite windu dia. Hikhik..kejap je borak tapi it gives me a lil bit of encouragement to wait for him.. *senyum*

Anyway, dia cerita kat I dia buat ape arini etc etc. Pastu I bising la, "b bagitau pun I bukan ingat..nanti bla bla bla..." I bebel.

Tiba-tiba dia jawab..." Shhhhhhhh..diam la papa nak cerita ni..". Wah marah?? Hahahaha...kiut marah tiba-tiba rasa nak lempang laju-laju je beliau. Hahaha...pandai dah marah kalau I tak dengar kata. Teehee..

Sekejap je pastu nak kena letak dah. I don't mind as long as I can hear his voice dah cukup as pemangkin semangat untuk I teruskan hidup. Wah dramatic sangat.hahaha..

I berdoa hari-hari supaya jodoh kita kekal sampai syurga, and that Allah akan kurniakan kebahagiaan untuk kita. InsyaAllah. And baby pie is coming along the way to keep us together and happy insyaAllah.. :)


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Act Stupid and Childish

Semalam balik lambat. Around 6.30pm macam tu baru nak turun punch. Jalan pun slow-slow jer, bukan slow sebab nandong, tapi sebab nak buang masa. Ayah and mama were not at home, hari ape ntah baru balik. Abang is not yet back to fetch me, nak tunggu dia sampai kat train mau pukul 9pm baru sampai, so better I take my own sweet time walking.

Tapi time-time macam ni baru teringat penat jerih husband amik kat train. Dari ofis dia, bole tahan banyak kereta. So dia kena rempuh jem baru boleh amek I. Kesian kan dia?

Ada one time tu, I mengamuk dengan dia sebab dia park jauh, and I penat gila masa tu, I tak la tinggi suara, tapi dia cakap I was. I mean, I really was sorry, tapi suara I memang lantang, kata I ni lecturer, memang I cakap kuat jugak la kengkadang.so balik tu, encik suami sudah sentap. I lagi tengok dia sentap macam tu memang berjuraian la air mata sebab walaupun I garang ke egois ke ape bak kata suami, tapi kadang2 I ni rapuh jugak. Hahaha..not so egois I guess.

Sampai sekarang I memang menyesal sangat-sangat I rasa kalau I bagi 10 juta belum tentu tuhan akan maafkan I. I pun tak pernah rasa bersalah sebegitu rupa. But I learned my mistake now.
So anyway, setiap petang I memang overly excited untuk jumpa dia. Kalau I tak penat and sangat excited, I will hug him, and kiss him, borak2, main2 tangan dia, kacau dia driving ke ape. Continue lagi main bila sampai parking, main lumba lari ke, tengok la kitorang nak main ape masa tu. Pastu kalau depan pintu rumah, memang since itu rumah dia, memang dia je la bukak grill.

Kadang dia kurung i dlm gril tu, takpun kalau I dapat kunci dia, I kunci dia kat luar. Pastu I asked him to kiss through the gril. Bahahaha...I rasa jiran depan umah nampak jer kitorang act stupid and childish..-_- tapi takpelah yer cik. Anggaplah kami perantin baru eventhough dah 5 bulan tawen. Nanti susah payah la dia nak kiss. Dia tak berapa suka main-main macam ni. Main kiss-kiss ni. Tapi I pedulik ape. I kan hati batu, taknak kiss tak yah la masuk.

I saspek husband I tunggu masa je nak buat kunci pendua so that dia tak payah harung kesusahan nak masuk rumah camni. Hahahaha...

Dalam rumah main lagi. Dah nak habis maghrib ni tapi wah bukan main galak kadang-kadang sampai menjerit2 time maghrib tu. Tu I rasa iblis dah mempengaruhi.hehehe...so cepat-cepat la insaf dan sembahyang. Tapi selalu yang suruh sembahyang mesti lah encik suami. Kalau nak harap I, ermm..terus isyak je kot.hahahaha..

Hrmm...I really can't wait for him to get home. Nak buat all those things yang kita buat bila we were together. *senyum* he's my only true friend, my lover, and daddy to our baby pie insyaAllah..

My Blog

Started this blog since 2008. i rasa lagi awal pada tu tapi dah delete sebab "obviously wrote something stupid". so continue la dengan blog ni. mula-mula tulis sebab husband (masa tu bf) suruh tulis, nampak sangat stalker nak tau i buat apa hari-hari. lama-lama seronok sebab memang jadikan blog ni tempat luahan perasaan dan perasaan gedik macam ni. kalau kat fb nak kena kutuk 7 keturunan silalah update status bukan-bukan.hahaha...

so, sampai lah sekarang blog ni masih berkumandang.

basically, cerita yang i nak sampaikan, lain dan tak bukan, my devotion of love kepada suami i, a little bit about work, ada cerita pasal family and friends, and a mixture of that. takde specific topic or genre, selalunya i tulis apa yang i ingat and rasa at that time. kalau sedih, sayu, maka cerita sedihla jadinya. kalau i happy, hapy lah entri tersebut. kadang-kadang i suka jugak buat review barang. but it all depends.

oh sekarang blog, blogger (orang yang menulis di blog) cukup sinonim dengan popularity dan they pay a lot to them, lebih-lebih lagi kalau buat advertorial. oh i kalau di beri peluang dan cash yang banyak memang la nak jugak, siapa taknak, tapi it is all come back to real reason why i write a blog.

to share my feelings. idea i. experience i.

i rasa boleh kira dengan jari siapa yang baca blog i. i rasa husband i (yang dah bertahun tak baca, i rasa dia dah lupe la address i), a few friends, and orang yang accidentaly spot my url in the search engine. maksudnya i takde la readers yang berpuluh riban. eh ke ade?wah artis!

tapi lately ade la 2 3 orang leave a comment, memang terkejut la sangat macam, "eh eh?ade orang baca la blog tite!!". excited dia macam 3000 orang yang baca! -_-...tsk..biar la kite nak eksited sorang-sorang...

anyway, thanks a lot for dropping by. sorry la kalau cerita i macam, "euww...ape nie!". hahaha...anggapla ape yang i cerita tu lahir dari perasaan jujur sanubari i. ecewahhh...

tapi i still rindu suami i. adoiiii....balik la oiii!

time stand still

hari ni tak rasa lapar dah macam hari-hari sebelumnya. kalau tak dulu, setiap saat makan, ade je kudapan masuk mulut, mentang-mentang la it is just a step away (meja food), tapi sekarang takde. i think one of the reason sebab dah mula makan hati dengan ketiadaan husband. last week was only a week husband jauh, so tak terasa sangat sebab baru kan, ni dah masuk minggu ke dua, memang amarah je. amarah nak kan perhatian. i kan manja terlebih yang kalau orang lain tengok macam, "aku hempok dengan batu bata ni kang baru tau.."

oh oh, hari tu kan, pagi la. i was in the train to go to the office. prfttt...mane lagi kan. so next to me were a couple, a young one. i rasa either baru lepas spm, atau tengah amik diploma ke ape. so they were like holding hands, usap-usap lengan. perghhh memang berbulu la i tengok. dosa...dosa..hahaha. actually i tau la waktu bercinta tu macam mana, memang la bernafsu je (nak manja-manja), i pun lebih kurang dia je, tapi bila dah kahwin ni, memang menginsafi perbuatan yang dahulu. so bila kita dah ala bertaubat ni, bila tengok budak-budak yang tak cukup akal ni, eh memang rasa nak bagi ceramah je kat situ.

"dek, kahwin je la dek. berdosa pegang tangan bukan muhrim ni.."

ewah kak, ustazah ke? takde la, bila kita dah kahwin ni kan, saya sedikit menyesali la sebab pegang-pegang tangan dulu before kahwin walaupun sikit-sikit, sebab kemanisan lepas kahwin ni MasyaAllah, rasa nyer Tuhan saje yang tahu. eh, jangan fikir bukan-bukan. maksudnya, macam hubungan kita tu kan diberkati Allah, didoakan orang ramai, so rasa dia lain. sayang dia pun lain.insyaAllah. ;)

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anyway, i rasa sebab haritu i baca yang kalau mengandung ni actually kita makan extra 300kalori je untuk baby, which i rasa sama macam segelas susu jer. tapi i ni makan, macam ada anak kembar sepuluh, which equivalent to 3000 kalori. hahahaha...taubat terus.

terus i makan macam biasa hari ni. again, when you set your mind to it, anything can happen. kita je manusia mengader sikit. haha... hari ni i just had nasi goreng half mangkuk, then for lunch i makan ayam n roti nan. but i feel so full right now. oh maybe because of the goat's milk?entah la.

hari ni mood i swing sikit. jom salahkan pertukaran hormon dalam badan. or maybe because i miss my husband so much. biar la orang nak cakap, ala orang lain suami jauh-jauh okay je nape kau nak mengader sangat. takpelah, yang rasa tu is yourself. maybe you are stronger than me, tapi i bab-bab kekasih hati ni memang lemah sikit. i admit that.

i dont feel like doing nothing. walaupun ada a few assignments student dah di mark, apart from that i rasa taknak buat ape-ape. i really feel lonely. kalau la husband i tau, yang wife dia rindu sangat kat dia, kan bagus. i hope he knows that, and dia pun rasa yang sama.rindu kat i and our baby. :(

lagi 1 jam setengah nak balik. laju sikit yer-_-

Cuti nyer bilaaaaa....

husband dah getting busy sekarang. susah jugak nak contact. kalau bbm pun lambat-lambat je dia reply. i also getting stressed out sometime tapi masih boleh bertahan. yelah, al-maklum la orang nandong, dia nak perhatian lebih kan, lagi-lagi dengan kekasih hati dia. boleh plak kekasih hati jauh nun kat selatan, so what else can i do? nothing. just wait for him.

tapi husband bila dia free memang setiap saat dia bbm. macam taknak hilang satu peluang pun to spend time with me. i lagi la happy. nanti i cerita i makan ape. buat ape. tukar-tukar gambar. just like when we were young, hangat bercinta. dah kahwin ni lagi la naughty lebih. hahaha...it was so fun having a very good friend yang understands your needs and wants.

husband seems happy dengan kehadiran orang baru dalam pewot i ni. still early, 6 weeks, but i am happy. alhamdulilah. tak tergambar rasanya. tak sabar nak ada perut besat dan bulat, dan berat, and i will be heavy and susah nak jalan. hahaha...it will be a hillarious moment for me. i pray hard that both my babies will do well. stay and grow healthy and stronger. love you both!

anyway, the baby came without a plan. we did plan but since husband nak pergi kursus, kitorang pun relaks sajer. just have our own sweet moment and spend a quality time dengan husband. and the baby came into the picture!hehehe...but betul-betul bersyukur. betul-betul buat i terbuka minda yang Allah is really MAHA PENGASIH DAN MAHA PENYAYANG. what else will a mother want rather than her child? :)

tak sabar nak tunggu husband cuti. tak diketahuilah bila dia cuti. sedih nie. i really want to spend the 3-day holiday dengan husband kat rumah. and cook home meal for him, kiss him and hug him all around the house. go for date, tengok wayang, and tidur bergelimpangan kat rumah.

government, please have some mercy to me, or at least to our baby? please?

Sabtu yang hening

hari ni 5 october 2012 kan?
hari ni genap 8 tahun and 8 bulan me and husband bercinta!!( and still counting, insyaAllah..hehe)
lama ke?? lama tapi since kitorang dah masuk new phase which is marriage, 8 tahun tu tak counted (bak kata husband) sebab dia kata, lepas kahwin ni semua dah lain. entah la ape yang lain. runsing jugak i ni?hahaha....tak tak. maksudnya maybe the way i treat him and the way i talk to him is way different masa couple dulu.

tapi dia selalu mentioned yang dulu before kahwin i takla semanja sekarang ni. heh. but listen, it can be a double meaning thing.o_O
1. manja as in a good thing. manja, sweet, kena selalu bagi perhatian etc.
2. manja as NOT a good thing. manja yang menyusahkan, manja yang dah perangai macam adik-adik yang kena bagi extra care.

so, which one am i?? suami, baik u jawab nombor satu okay. hahahaha..

anyway, tomorrow is saturday. tiba-tiba hati sayu. tadi dah berkolam mata, thingking tomorrow is my first sabtu without my husband around. ke time nandong ni emosi dia ke laut sikit? whatever it is, rasa sedih sangat.

selalu kalau jumaat malam tu kitorang tak balik kampung (prffttt...jauh la sangat. both our parent's house is in Kuala Lumpur..)kitorang akan have double fun at home!!;) jumaat malam tu usually both of us akan kemas rumah. you know, kemas as in i put all the pinggan into cabinet, husband will go vacuum all the carpets and mats plus he will bebel bebel asking, "ni memang tempat letak handbag ke?" , sambil referring to our bedroom side table. -_- kadang-kadang i am so mad at him sebab i kat dapur and he was in our room, dia boleh panggil semata nak tunjuk handbag i yang merata tu. did you know how far is my kitchen from the bedroom?? -_- i is mad okay! sebab jauh dan penat.

then, i will sweep the floor pastu mop. kalau extra rajin kitorang akan basuh toilet. since kitorang toilet asing, basuh sendiri-sendiri je. tapi selalu i tak basuh la toilet sendiri. only when husband do the spot check baru gelabah sendiri. pastu i guna la kuasa wanita, being all manja and kinky (haha!), i mintak tolong dia basuh and promise to cook the best dish in the world, and he said, "okay.". nice eh perangai macam ni? -_- tite penat la awakk...hehehe..

jumaat pagi sure bangun lambat. lepas subuh golek-golek lagi. borak-borak, main-main selubung, and end up bangun kul 10 kalau tak pergi jogging. pastu when both of us baring, sambil pandang siling rumah, akan kedengaran suara menakutkan kat sebelah, "lapar b. kalau dapat jemput-jemput bawang ke, nasi lemak ke, sedap ni..". ok siren dah bunyik. segera la bangkit yer. so depends on the barang-barang yang ada dalam fridge, i akan masak apa yang ada la, and if there any special request from husband, kita masak tu jela.

then tengok tv ke. and if not, tidur balik ke. tapi selalunya tak boleh tidur sebab i need to settle of all our baju, nak lipat, masuk dalam wardrobe, nak iron lagi, so it will take half of the day nak siapkan. petang-petang then only we go for a jog kalau pagi tu tak pergi, or pergi dating. dating is always fun. sebab dapat jalan rapat-rapat and pegang tangan all the time. my favourite!! hahahaha...

but yeah.

husband dah takde nie. what else can i do?? there's no fun when u kemas your house alone. right??esok lepas wedding my friend ingat nak balik rumah. nak amik baju husband, buat teman tidur malam-malam. lepas tu nak kemas ape yang berhabuk ke ape. i need to keep the house clean and lively, kot-kot husband balik cuti which i doubt ada pun. bila i tanya dia tak tau pun cuti bile. sobs sobs. i rasa esok mesti berjurai air mata i bila masuk rumah. ha tengok, ni tengah type pun dah berkolam mata. tskk...

i really missed him. cuti, can u please come faster?

Mary Jane Booties

In progress..

Semalam send bbm gambar ni kat encik husband, husband replied:

"Yayang...cutenyeeee!!!!! Hahahaha..." (excited)

I gelak-gelak je tengok dia reply.I tanye.." U tau ke apende tu syg??hehehe..."

"Tau la! Stokin babyyyyyy!!"

-_-

"Booties name die syg. Yang ni mary jane booties..:)"

Comel sgt panggil stokin baby..heee..

Husband said, " I x tau u pandai buat sayang, cair I..:)".

Sobs..I yang dapat msg tu lagi la sayu jerr..u know, the feelings I feel when things that I did makes my husband happy, atau dia impressed dengan keupayaan wife dia. Really I was happy.

So I said, I used to knit last time. Pastu I stop. Now continue balik since ada hidupan comel dalam pewot. Heeeee...:)

Anyway, hari ni 4 oct 2012, is our monthversary of nikah. Dah 5 bulan kahwin. Still early, and I'm enjoying every bits of it. Alhamdulilah, and I will try my best to be a good wife and mother to our little hidupan comel.. :)

Love u husband..mmuaahhh!

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#craving : 2

fuh fuh. sekarang nafsu makan mencanak naik. ini tak boleh jadi ni. ini bukan nafsu makan hidupan comel dalam womb i ni, ni nafsu ketiadaan suami so boleh makan sukahati ni. hahahaha.... i guess i have to think twice whenever i feel like eating, and learn to say NO to wood. especially the non-healthy one.

semalam lepas balik kerja, singgah rumah nenek sebab mama ayah nak bincang sesuatu dengan uncle. sesuatu la sangat. pasal hal pergi Mekah je pun. hikhik. wasiat waris ape benda ntah. anyway, nenek masak bukan main sedap. nak sabotaj la tu.

the menu for last night was nasi. -_- we had nasi, kobis tumis air, sambal belacan, ikan pari goreng bercili kering, asam pedas ikan duri, masak lemak nenas ikan bilis, sambal raden, and buah naga. yummys sangat! memang nenas i tak sentuh langsung, just for being cautious, tapi ikan pari bercili nyum nyum sedap sangat makan banyak. ni ikan pari masin tu la. and sayur memang sedap sangat. makan tu jer.

pastu ada desert keladi plak. haih...-_- pengsan la macam ni.

pagi ni, dah breakfast cornflakes, sampai ofis makan spaghetti bawak dari rumah plak. apa nak jadi pun tak tau la. hahahaha....tapi now im full. so i guess tengah hari dah tak lapar sangat. heeee....

sekarang ni tengah berangan kalau husband balik next year, perut dah besar. dah boyot and susah nak jalan. itulah gunanya husband. nanti suh dia tolong tolak badan naik tangga, bukak kan pintu nak masuk kereta, parking pun dah takleh jauh-jauh sebab mengah nak jalan.

tapi i ingat satu benda je, berulang kali husband cakap before dia left for the kursus hari tu.

"sayang tunggu i balik k. nanti kita shopping barang baby sama-sama..."

sobs sobs. rindu. rindu sangat kat dier...i dont have the fun i get like when i was with him...april2013. please come fast...sobs sobs....rinduuuu..

My Kind of King

It is very lucky of you when you end up your life with the person that you love so bad, and turned out that person is totally awesome and worth to be loved. well, not all of the person that we love is awesome (breakups), right?so bila kita jumpa someone yang worth untuk kita stay by his side, we will be happy.

bila husband tau yang i pregnant, although he is quite scaptical of me having a baby, due to the jealousy of attentions split nanti (hahaha!), he did treat me like a queen. i dont even pick up a single beg when we packed to Johor haritu, semua dia bawak. he didn't pushed me or marah-marah me to pack our things,walaupun i kan procrastinate orang nyer, he just let me do my things whenever i want.

and on our way to johor, he stopped at every R&R along the way. he asked me whether i am fine, do i feel crampy, and most importantly, do i fell hungry? i eat a lot, i mean i eat every 30 minutes but the portion is smaller. for example, i WANTED to eat kuey teow at that moment, but i only eat half of it, and half of it encik husband habiskan. we shared our meal.

then he bought me corn cup. our favourite. but since i dont feel like eating it, i just suapkan him dalam kereta. then he bought me some buah. then he bought for me ice-cream paddle pop rainbow because his country was damn hot, hahaha...and i feel like eating it. then beli air. then beli clorets. oh, that one ayah yang belikan.

then petang tu when we arrived at the hotel, he asked me to siap-siap, nak bawak makan kat Kluang Station. omg the steamed bun was heavenly delicious and precious!! i ate a lot! a set of white bread, 2 sets of steamed bun, a set of steamed wholemeal. omg sedap gila!i didnt managed to finished the coffee, as i read somewhere, caffeine is not good for the development of your baby. so okay fine.

then we went and eat ala thai food. we had ikan siakap 3 rasa, with telur bungkus, and sup daging, and sotong goreng tepung, and sayur kangkung belacan. i ate my favourite which was the ikan and telur. the rest i jeling-jeling je. tak kuasa.

and when we got back to the hotel, we were already full , feeling like a whale. me golek-golek atas katil and zzzzzzzz. woke up to the sounds of the phantom of opera singing eerie song. blerghh.. went to the toilet. then husband bangun, he pointed something to me.

"perghhh....nasib baik tak bocor bontot b!!". and there, i saw my earings, the back side pointed up. betul-betul kat tempat dia tidur.

and i innocently answered, "hmm...macam mana dia boleh pergi situ b?". sambil pegang my right side ear.mata kebil-kebil.

then i went back to sleep.

#craving : 1

last weekend was a week spent-time with husband. itu je masa-masa terakhir yang we had. jumaat malam tu tidur rumah MIL, sebab husband kan nak pergi kursus, so malam tu tidur rumah MIL and also we shared our great news with them. i said to husband, " nanti b jela yang bagitau diorang..". and the way he tells them adalah sangat poyo but so cute.

since MIL suka update kat kitorang pasal whose got pregnant, whose deliver, so husband asked, " ma, ada siapa-siapa lagi yang mengandung?". ok masa ni memang nak tergelak dah la. sarcasm level: husband. hahahaha.... MIL citer la itu la ini lah bla bla bla. then he said, " tahun depan mama and abah dapat cucu dah..". masa ni i dah malu2. MIL and FIL senyap je, maybe blur la kot. a few minutes FIL said, " ha? dapat cucu?eh yeke?". he looked at me. i senyum je la..FIL said, "tahniah la yer...". so kitorang pun salam2 macam congrats. then cerita macam mana tau semua, pergi clinic bla bla bla.

malam tu i tido awal. penat nandong ke ape nie. hahaha...

pagi sabtu tu siap-siap nak pergi wedding my friend with my family, balik tu terus shoot our house to packed his things. petang sikit macam tu kitorang pergi the mines. husband nak tunaikan craving wife dia makan sushi. yeay!memang i bolot sorang makan sushi. i ate almost 12 plates which i dont normally do when i am 'normal', ataupun i memang lapar, ataupun i just (recently) love sushi. then balik tu i beli durian pancake at sweetchat. 3 pieces for rm7.90. yummy sedap gilos!

then malam tu, kitorang spent the night on bed, talking, crying, hugging etc etc. rasa tak sangka the time actually has come.

it was like 4 months ago we got married, settling things down, pindah rumah and adapt to a new situation. you know, waking up in the morning, doing breakfast for him, iron his clothes, fight and make up, kemas rumah and all.

suddenly i have to go back to my routine at my parent's house in KL, where everything is already prepared by mama. well it sounds easy, like bestnyer semua tersiap, but when you doing something with all your heart for your loves one, especially husband, where all your hardwork are credited by God, i feel empty and loss.

hopefully the 6month-kursus will end up without being counted. pejam celik pejam celik habis dah. macam amal cakap. heh.

ps: thanks to my very good friend, she . i'll be back with my knitting for hers and mine too.