This is The Time

actually i wanted to give 'this is it' as the title of this entry, tapi kang ada orang claim michael jackson punyer final autobio movie dia plak, so with a slight changed i bagi la tajuk lain.

so, as the clock strike 12 which i suppose dah masuk hari baru, i don't get any answer regarding one of the most influencial question in my life, so things are not going to be the same again after this. you know, i had planned my life as what i want, because i don't want to waste any time, effort, feelings, etc etc although i know Allah has already plotted them for me. it was just a simple request as i thought all this while, this is what it was supposed to be. but no, it wont happen. and im tired, tunggu for nothing. i've decided to make it on my own. and i was quite ASHAMED with myself sebab i want it so badly but in the end, takde pape.the problem is, macam mana nak bagitau my family. i dah crack kepala fikir ayat yang paling sopan and less hurting. but maybe, the simplest answer should be, "tak tahu..". tapi so annoying kan?

regarding to that, at least i know lepas ni nak buat apa. sebenarnya sama jer klau the above matters jadi pun, cuma it should be a happy leaving, tapi now neutral leaving.

anyway, gaji tak masuk lagi. ingat nak beli nombor baru plus handphone. since ayah sangat baik hati to pay in advance and pay him back secara installment without any interest, sekarang masih tercari-cari handphone yang WORTH it. paling penting mesti ada wifi. HR cakap, kalau gaji bagi awal-awal nanti staff lari. sangat siot dia berkata begitu. by the way, kenapa iphone sangat mahal?tiba-tiba terminat..T_T

i read a book regarding personality, and i began to accept myself, and i began to realized my strengths and weaknesses. and sekarang, i took my work as what i am good at (strength) and perbaiki kelemahan. kelemahan tak tau ape sebab tak habis baca..haha!

tadi kat ofis best gila. masuk 9.30, boss datang lambat so dalam pukul 10 baru on desktop. lepas tu borak-borak, catch-up news nak dekat 12, itupun bos yang ajak okay. lepas tu baru buat kerja. MQA's coming so banyak documents nak kena handle. finished sorting at 2.30pm. lepas tu boss ajak bayar saman, pergi la balai polis. sekali ramai gila que up, balik la dengan hampa. tapi tak hampa sangat la sebab boss belanje sundae McD and tak hampa sangat sebab dapat bermain mata dan bertukar senyuman dengan abang polis. sampai ofis dalam 3.30pm, i masuk pantry makan. oh, i memang selalu tapau lauk rumah, selain jimat ia jugak sedap. habis makan pukul 4pm. lepas tu bukak email chatting dengan my friend, pasal love crisis. dalam 5.30pm habis.jangan ingat i tak buat kerja, tangan i cekap bermain computer (thanks to dinner dash) so multitasking bebeh! berhenti tea time, borak-borak dengan boss sampai pukul 6. buat kerja situ sana sikit, 6.15pm off desktop, ready nak balik. turun bawah sampai depan mesin puncher, pukul 6.28pm. memang la tak boleh punch. masuk board room, tengok view cantik gila, keluar balik punched tepat 6.30pm. terus balik.

so im beginning and trying to love my job. tapi esok dah start teaching, mesti busy sangat. T_T

okay nak tido.selamat malam.

ps: i was in love and i forgot what it feels like when you were in love.

Unsaid

okay everyone, HELLO!! how are you my dear audience? okayy, since everyone is here, i would like to say a few things to you guys as i thought these few things might be important to you, or better-it is important so i want you to put your ears on the maximum and listen very very carefully.

2011 is coming, and it only takes a few days for it to come.

so,
1. after so long i PLANNED and try to WORK things out, it didn't came out as what i EXPECTED. although, with your CONCERN, this should be happening. right?
2. so i don't want to HUMILIATE myself again, this time, im slowing down a bit. but you have to be CAREFULL, as i'm afraid it is going to STOP.
3. after what you have said to me dear friend, i'm moving away from you because truly said, your words and actions hurt me ALOT.
4. don't be sorry because i don't need your sympathy.
5. while you think that you are the most happiest person in the entire world, i know your secrets. so don't act and bragg as you are one.
6. im not actually liking you but it depends.
7. look around yourself, why people don't agree with you in the first place.
8. oh and look yourself in the mirror. while you are hating other people, again look in the mirror.
9. i've known you for a long time, and i know you well enough. but you never even try to understand me.
10. define friendship please.
11. girls, i love you. although we don't see each other frequently, but i know we love each other so much. this is what we call, growing. bear with it.
12. love don't wait. it comes and go. maybe it hang around quite a long time before it goes away.
13. and yes, i definitely in love with you.

thank you for the attention although semua ni takde kena mengena dengan kehidupan anda. and tomorrow is monday, i need to iron my clothes. hee..

missing!

True Love is Not a Fantasy

true love is a fantasy. itu kata patrick dempsey. but i don't think that is completely true. in my opininon, true love will exist kalau both partners love each other so much, completely honest, and very much loyal to each other.

the question is, is it hard for you to be completely honest and at the same time loyal to your partner? kenapa there are such thing as lying, hidding and etc. just because we are called homosapien, and we are not perfect, kita boleh senang-senang jadikan itu sebagai alasan untuk tidak jujur dan setia?

so, currently im watching a popular series or drama whatever you call them. and dalam cerita tu ada 5 pelakon yang ada 5 different personalities and everything. two of them are married, tinggal the rest as kawan. what makes me so keen to watch from season 1 to season 5 is simply because how sweet the couple can be.

so these are the characters yang i think helps a lot when you want to find your soulmate. or even if you are married, boleh jadi ini antara benda-benda kecil yang i think berguna dalam hidup.

1. always support your partner especially berkaitan benda yang diorang suka.let's say satu hari diorang balik kerja and tells you yang dia kena marah bos ke ape, cheer him/her up. give him your full support and says that everything is gonna be alright.cakap yang kita bole go through this thing together.
2. never put the blame on him/her. contohnyer dia tersalah beli sos. janganlah membebel yang you all tak suka sos nie la, kenapa tak dengar cakap you all la,kenapa tak write down la.
another word that i HATE so much, "tu laa..kan i dah cakap bla bla..". even if anyone cakap macam tu rasa nak smack je muka orang tu. memang kadang-kadang kita nak cakap, tapi just keep it in your mind. bukan sahaja ayat itu menjatuhkan kredibiliti seseorang, malah kita sebagai pasangan sepatutnya jaga air muka pasangan kita. itu semua pilihan. so bila pilihan tu salah, ada cara lain untuk betulkan keadaan.
3. keep them ahead. pengorbanan. in everything you do, put the one you love as the reason you do whatever things you do. contohnya kerja. kita bekerja untuk bagi anak bini makan, untuk kebahagia keluarga. bila senang semua senang. so that kita rasa semangat bila kita tau ape jua yang kita buat, akan ada seseorang yang menghargai.
4. tell them how much you love them, everyday. i know, ramai yang rasa kenapa perlu ucap cinta setiap hari.asal tahu dalam hati cukupla. i don't know about guys, tapi girls memang mengader nak hari-hari dengan 'i love u..' , 'i miss you..' sebab boys and girls are differents maka kehendak pun different. well, kalau you have a partner yang joyous enough tak kisah dengan this thing, well..good for you.
5. cinta bukan sebab harta. erm..harta memang penting, tapi jangan jadikan harta sebagai tujuan rasa cinta. cinta sebab rasa. rasa dalam hati.
6. still madly deeply in love after so many years together. bukan susah untuk nak rasa cinta. simple things like holding hands, talking on the phone for hours, emailing, simple notes left. use your creativity.

what else?malas nak fikir dah. banyak sangat. but it is a good lesson. and i love how the series came up with this whole love marriage thing. very nice.

but i know, benda yang paling memenatkan bila kita dah buat sehabis baik just to make them happy, they never appreciate it. when we wanted to make things to a whole new level, it is just not at the right time. buy honey, keep trying. you'll have somebody to love you.

*senyum*

ok sekarang nak sambung tengok season finale. gosh..i really love love, if ya' know what i mean..

How Do I know He Loves Me?

How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really really truly love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really really truly love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her or she'll be inclined to say
"How do I know he loves me?
How do I know he's mine?"

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is Grey?
He'll find a new way to show you a little bit every day
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love

You got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each little something to lead her to believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true
How do you know he loves you?
How do you know he's yours?

Well does he take you out dancing just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words meant just for you?
He'll find someway to tell you with the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love
He's your love

That's how you know he loves you
That's how you know it's true

Because he'll wear your favorite color just so he can match your eyes
Plan a private picnic by the fire's glow
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show

That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love

-That's how you know OST Enchanted-

Checklist

since im spending my time alone (which is great!), there are a few things need to be settle down.

checklist:
1. basuh pinggan - checked!
2. basuh kain - checked!
3. jemur kain - checked!
4. lipat kain - petang..
5. sweeping the floor - checked!
6. mopping - petang..
7. iron working clothes - esok..
8. slides for class - malam..
9. cooking for lunch - err...home delivery?
10. movies - now!
11. kemas bilik sendiri, bilik ayah & mama, bilik abang, guest room - checked!
12. siram pokok bunga - no way!
13. basuh kereta - malam (kot).
14. lap meja, tv semua- checked!

what else? currently i am watching videos from youtube, basically a music video. gosh sure they all have lyrics that make you go "damn....". in the blues perhaps. i love to put myself in that real situation. it keeps me on the ground. ya' know..

*senyum*

im hungry. thinking of going to that shop mall, saje buat window shopping. tapi...no cars are available. i mean , yang ada semua manual-t. malas la..ececeh..sebenarnya tak pandai bawak..lalala~

im going to have this weekend all by myself, eating, sleeping, goleking, facebooking, blogging and surfing while watching those korean dramas from KBSW. my oh my....pleasure!

Cinta Tak Direstui

Malam ini ku lihat bulan
Tak terjatuh lalu terurai
Ku nggak ngerti apa yang harus
Ku lakukan

Hari ini aku putuskan
Untuk jauh ku langkahkan kaki
Untuk pergi dari dirimu

Biarkanlah kan kubawa
Sejuta harapan yang indah
Yang pernah kita lalui
Saat bersama

Ku harap kau bisa mengerti
Cinta kita tak direstui
Malam ini harus
Rela ku pergi

Maafkanlah kekasih
Ku harus tinggalkanmu
Meski ku tahu ini menjadi
Kau sakit hati

Relakanlah kekasih
Tutup air matamu
Semua ini aku lakukan
Untuk kebaikanmu

Dengarkanlah kekasih
Ku harus tinggalkanmu
Meski ku tahu ini menjadi
Kau sakit hati

Relakanlah kekasih
Tutup air matamu
Semua ini aku lakukan
Untuk kebaikanmu

-d'massive-

when you know that the moment has arrived...

Pick Me while You Can

Alhamdulilah. satu masalah hidup selesai. sometimes we just need courage and facts to work things out. kadang-kadang ape yang kita cakap, orang tak faham. so to make things easier, narrow down your options into only two choices. (a) and (b). not 'buts', cause 'buts' is stupid, same goes to 'tak tau', the most stupid irrelevant answer to any questions. but anyway, i'd done my part and i am so happy to see the outcomes, if there's any. but probably not. but yeah, the problem dah settle, i can continue with my life.

im tired and i don't want any craps to deal with. enuff is enuff.

tadi masa pergi kerja, i was so exhausted and in very bad mood. oh, my very bad mood day doesn't affect anyone sebab usually my very-bad-mood cuma dapat dirasakan oleh saya. maybe i'll be a lil quiet but it's okay to say "hye F..". so boss dengan baik hati announced that today(friday 24th) keja halfday. gila best. and while waiting for the 1.00pm, my boss did manicure for me. turqoise. nice kan?

and bila balik rumah, everything was settled. i am happy about it. maybe once in awhile i will think about my choice but at times, kita dah tak rasa sebeban dulu. kita tak rasa menyusahkan orang and we lead our life according to what we want, although what we want is seldomly we get. right?

sekarang nak tidur dengan perasaan yang 'lite'.

oh yer, im going to change my number. maybe it's still a maxis. reason to change:
1) it cost me a load than what i can afford. 30seconds call for 39sens? bapak mahal. tak tau kenapa tukar rate dia. expensive for me.

other option-celcom xpax ke ape. digi perhaps. depend. will let friends know through FB.

Okay, will do!

nampaknye im beginning to write again. selalunya i take about 5 to 30 minutes to finish an entry depending on my mood and the surroundings. i have almost 10 great entries that should be posted out tapi i couldn't help but keep them in the draft, sebab too sensitive to some people, maybe mengaibkan a few people and etc. i don't want to hurt anyone whether directly or indirectly.

i made a few good things today and i felt proud with myself and i felt good about it, actually. i don't have to mention it or maybe later (indirectly) but yeah, it's good when you did something nice. in that case, you know that for your entire life, that this very one day, was a day when you did something good, kalau nak compare dengan hari-hari yang mendosa je lebih. kan?

staff ramai cuti due to x-mas and office seems so bored. and exam a day before christmas?gila sangat tak respect kepada penganut agama kristian. they all pon need time to be with the family, deco the house, sama macam kita buat preparation for Aidulfitri, Deewali, Gong Xi Fa Chai. what would you feel if others do this exact thing to you? esok i keje sampai pukul 10 malam. i rasa hari-hari sebelum hari jumaat, i need to work until 10 pm everyday. which is good because by the time i get home, i wil be penat like damn and terus tido.

lapar?tak sangat but im craving for these:

kan??sedapnyer.....i never was a big fan of satay from kajang since the first time i ate them at the age of 8. the satay tak well-done, not juicy enough, the marinated satay never that great, kuah kacang not suit my taste. senang cakap, satay from that infamous place never up to my standard.

bila i pindah to my place, i found a very nice and humble kedai tepi jalan, owned by a very old malay makcik with his son (never meet her husband btw) which apparently he was my senior during school. he is so like mat rempit but the thing is, he helped her mom like everyday to jaga the stall. it change my perception you know. rempit=bad. rempit jual satay tolong mak= sweet enough. sometimes his friends pun hang around, tak tau la menolong, atau tolong menyusahkan. ehehe...eh, jauh menyimpang! oh the satay sangat sedap sangat sangat sangat sedap that i love it very much. kadang-kadang tapau, kadang-kadang makan kat kedai dia. and it was cheap too. totally worth it!

so, weekend's coming. again-movies, satay (night only), and domino's for lunch! sementara tunggu gaji masuk, kita habeskan duit yang ada dulu..=)

ps: things are not the same. we are not young and i can't no longer be the same, if you are not the same person i used to know.

Belum Cuti-Plan Dah Ada

why life should have such drama? why on earth people loves drama rather than doing your own work and behave as such you are in a professional manners. i thought working with that kind of tribe je ada masalah macam nie, tapi working in this type of tribe pon lebih kurang jer. it is exhausting and i really don't like when everytime the drama's are on air. you get what i mean? and it could be worse.

but i really enjoying myself at work. i take my everyday job as something that i LIKE to do, not something that i HAVE to do. two different meanings but with the same goal- finishing your job. i suka waktu pagi, where i am equip with full energy, charged from a very good night sleep the night before. i love waking up in the morning (if i have something to do) but i HATE waiting until the nights come. i bole bangun seawal 5pagi untuk mula kerja, but bila time tunjuk pukul 5 petang, i mula jadi macam kanak-kanak nampak aiskrim berserta happy meal, all excited to get home. nasib baik, i heard that my class usually sampai pukul 5 je since malam ACCA will start off their classes.

my place takde orang melayu. kalau ade pon, wayy to junior. so i am hoping, starting january, the management akan hire orang melayu *ehem*. selain i memerlukan seseorang untuk menyegarkan mata i, i juga memerlukan teman berbual (communication barrier due to different nationality) dan juga teman makan waktu lunch.err, bukan i tak suka keluar dengan my friends, tapi it will be merrier kalau ada someone yang macam kita. yela, boleh share tempoyak bila dia amik sambal belacan.

tadi one of the lecturer stop by and gave us a whole chocolate cake. tak tau la sebab lapar ke ape, but the cake was awesome, sedap! ada lagi separuh kat office, hopefully takde la anak-anak semut yang buat party Zouk kat situ, memang mintak spray je la kan. she was nice actually. her face is like so garang you know, so i macam biasa double standard la kan. turned out, she is super nice! muka garang tapi baik takpe. jangan muka hodoh perangai pon ikut hodoh, such a *****.

anyway, lagi beberapa hari nak new year!!mesti fun kalau dapat celebrate dengan orang yang paling kita sayang. to give me such a warm hug and says, "i am happy to go through these years with you and i can't wait to have another year with you..". and yes, i don't get it this year. but i already have my new year's resolution. sounds pretty amazing.

my married friend asked me, "how many times you wish i love you to your love one?". i said every second if i can, but usually everytime the conversation between us stop, and out of nowhere pun i boleh cakap camtu. it shouldn't have reasons or rules. when you feel like you want to express your feelings, do it!she said i am oh so romantic..

esok kerja and baju belum gosok. kalau malas, i pakai baju kurung since paling senang nak gosok. if extra rajin, i pakai la kemeja and seluar/skirt. by esok, tinggal lagi satu hari je keje but i have to work until 10pm. part time job kan.

sabtu?my family nak pergi jenjalan but i am too lazy so i decided to stay at home, mintak duit sikit kat mama, and will order dominos pizza and eat them all by myself sambil tengok HBO or any DVD's available.

sounds great for Christmas? i don't celebrate Xmas but thanked PM for giving us public holiday. i always support you PM..muah muah!

Bangun lambat tak bererti lambat

i was late to office this morning because i woke up late. usually my sweet childish sleep ended at 7.30am plus a 10mins of snooze. but tadi, at 8.13am baru bangun. i was rushing like mad and managed to arrived at the lrt putra around 8.35am. uh'huh.....with no make-up on. mana sempat nak pakai eyeliner and dapped a blusher pon. i looked like a mess.

upon arriving at the office, my stomach growled. not because i'm hungry, err..well part of it, but semalam i ate a whole pack of siput sedut or it's scientific name - Cerithidea obtusa . especially bila masak lemak cili padi memang terbaik. so anyway, any sea food dish there's always one yang busuk. i guess i've ate the bad one, so perut sangat sakit. sampai je office, okay you know what the hell i was doing, no need to elaborate on that.

the best thing was, the office has a new look. my boss and other collegues arranged our office to be a better place. more spacious. they moved the student's file's cupboard into my big boss room, they arranged the tables, so our place become spacious enough for us untuk buat kenduri pon. we even have a new stronger chairs.thanks to them!

things are not going well between us-the collegues. i don't know why. we were good and close before this, but now, ermm...things were not the same. i don't know what my mistakes,i don't know what i did to make them do this kind of thing to me. and i don't know if they treated me like this just because the boss is quite keen to me although i am the freshman compared to them. but if i did anything wrong, i am sorry. i don't mean it that way.im just want to do my job.

i went surfing through the net,to have a backup plan called "D-Plan". i am saving my money and time for February's big event, but if the event is cancelled, im gonna use my money and time for September's event. i don't wanna waste any money AND time no more.

i was shocked to see that my money susut already. In conclusion, i am suck at money handling. so no handphone, no laptop, and no camera.

i don't know how you managed to buy that oakley's sunglasses. it was damn expensive man!btw, you looked sexy in it mr.boyfriend..lalala~

A Day Out Turn Sweet Sour..ahaha!

yesterday me and my boyfriend,we went out to watch some movies. and yeah being the nicest boyfriend ever, he usually bought the tickets online, because it was so damn easy for us just to went to the counter and picked it up.i was and still thinking of applying for a credit card, surely not for showing off, but it's for the convenience. but i have a goal, to have this much amount of salary, only then i would apply one.

so we went to OU (as usual) and chose Tron Legacy. i think my boyfriend was much enjoying the movie, i prefer (that day) to watch romantic comedy movie but there were none of it. and best yet, i slept for almost 15minutes in the middle of the movies, and woke up only when my boyfriend siku me, because i think he knew i was asleep. i don't think the movie was bad, but i guess i was damn tired or maybe the 3D glasses causes me to sleep.

my review: as i paid for a 3D, i was hoping that the movie wow me, and yes-they're not. and i was (for the entire movie) praying that when the program crashes during The Grid, the pixels crashes into pieces and falls on me (audience) and they managed NOT to do so. i was so freaking dissapointed. and when sam's father out of nowhere having this superpower was SO NOT COOL. you are a human in the first place and trapped in your own programme. you are not superhuman. the only things that wow me was the super sleek motorbikes (love!) and the game (the grid) itself.

and shamely to say that Harry Potter beats Tron Legacy. (for me)

after movie, we went straight to SS2 for a dinner. it was my treat because my boyfriend got some good news about his work (congrats hun!).so it was time for us to celebrate something. we were always missed out to celebrate our annivesary due to bad timing and etc.so that night was the night. sadly, SS2 only managed to put up 20tables for each night because MP told them to do so. it was not hype anymore, i mean the place.we had to wait almost 10minutes for a table as there were lots of people waiting in the line, and when we got the table, we had to shared it with other people.you know, they talked loud, fast, and laughed like mad. and i don't have the chance to have a romantic dinner with him, like usual.

since the movie was bad, the place was crowded, and the food also bad. too salty for me. he said that, it will be our last time to go there.it was pretty sad because i quite like that place. i mean their pink panther, chicken chop were nice and delicious.

another great thing was, i met my friend, she's married and it was my first time seeing her. just right after i got out from the washroom, she was passing me by. i looked right to her, and we were like, "ahhhhhhhhhhhh..........eeeeee......******..jumpe jugak!!".. it was great after so many years. she's newly bride and the wedding supposed to be somewhere around march. she's pretty, and so nice. we were like best friend although all these years we were only known through the virtual world.

hrmm..boyfriend always so nice to me. we were talking about works and how to deal with things.as i said so many times, i always like when he tell stories. i dont why. i dont know if i love the stories or i just love listen to his voice. and i love to hear his thoughts and ideas. i always respect him as friend, and as a man who always has this brilliant ideas and maturity in his thoughts.he was a good friend too.

talking about future, both of us have created our own future. Insyaallah with Allah's will, things will turn out nicely, right sayang?? yes i love him, i love him very much the same from the very first moment. he is everything to me. my very best friend.

Perangai Students During Exam

they always and sure will make me laugh vigorously (in heart) everytime when i in charged or become the invigilator. macam-macam betul. and it makes me wonder, adakah saya juga begitu kelihatan clumsy, honest, nerd, etc etc.

Perangai #1: Best Student.
kalau best student with good CGPA okay jugak la, ni answeer sheet pon penuh separuh tapi muka buat muka confuse atau tak pun, buat muka tekun nak jawab exam siap tulis and kira-kira kat langit, kira macam sebok sangat la sampai calculator pon tak cukup sampai nak tulis kat langit. macam nampak jer. masalahnyer everytime i looked at him,dia buat macam tu. maybe nak tunjuk sangat dia menjawab soalan lebih tekun berbanding orang lain. whatever.

Perangai #2: Loves the tree
Ini kes mintak answer sheet, macam father (lebih sopan berbanding bapak) dia punya company. i really don't mind at all about who's paying for the papers, but I DO CARE for how much the trees that's need to be cut down to make the papers. masalahnya, dia bukan tulis penuh dengan answer and kalau silap terus keronyokkan ke apa, ni lukis 'love-love' sikit, keronyok.tulis nama dengan matrix number tak cantik pon, keronyok. lagi satu masalah, exam hall besar. ke depan ke belakang i hantar answer sheet-penat. so please make it useful rather than conteng your bf's name and keronyok.

Perangai #3: Gorgeous!
untuk students yang rasa diri diorang hot. truly said, lelaki dan perempuan sama je. perempuan biasalah, sentiasa rasa hot jer. tapi kalau lelaki pon nak rasa hot jugak-susah. yes i know, i always looked (or checked) on you, sebab yela kau memang undeniable hensem, tapi janganlah kau usha aku je macam saje nak bagi aku tengok lagi betapa hensemnya kau.i have a bf for god's sake..hahaha!!so kira i yang duduk tak senang. i tak tau whether i pandang dia sebab dia hensem, atau sebab dia pakai kasut Lacoste dengan jam G-shock tu, and t-shirt putih with levis..all my favourite. tapi dia memang hot stuff. sayang cuma bukan ISlam.

Perangai #4: Tak sedar Diri
tak nak mengata, tapi kalau asal kau dari negara orang kulit hitam and tempat kau memang all the time panas matahari, and resemble safari, jangan nak mengada sangatlah nak suruh aku TUTUP air-cond sebab kau feeling cold, hanya lepas kau baru duduk 5 minit?? lelaki kot. cakap dahla bajet British accent.

Perangai #5: Paling Ternakal
masuk exam hall, bising-bising, datang paling lambat, keluar awal. nak keluar siap say goodbye to the whole people kat exam hall. rasa nak baling jer heels 3 inch ni kat dia. pastu bila dah bagi warning jangan bercakap, dia cakap lagi dengan kawan dia. pastu pandang-pandang aku konon macam aku suka sangat la perangai macam tu. sekali bagi dia muka paling garang, dia dah jeling-jeling konon menyampah la dengan tak ter-cool-nya cik invigilator ni. padan muka. so what.

cuma satu baiknya cik invigilator nie, dia suka bagi jawapan kat budak exams. maths salah kira, dia tolong hampir kesemuannya. paper english present past tense, progressive past tense semua dia tolong.even how the virus spread paper computer yang bukan dia punya pon dia tolong jugak. business statistic yang ada sikit-sikit dengan statistic dia dulu pon dia tolong jugak.

tak tau la kot bila dia jaga budak-budak forensik ni, dia yang duduk terus kat meja tu tolong jawab.

Work Day #40

nak masuk bulan kedua kerja di tempat baru, gosip-gosip liar, office's affair, backstabbing,mula kedengaran di sana sini. since i'm not working with malays, and the only malay there is me, so to potray the best's malay ever, i would never (still trying) behave as such that ramai orang cakap melayu ni suka menfitnah and batu lesung, eh i mean fire stone-batu api katenye. and me, hanya duduk di table, dengar perbualan mereka dalam bahasa asing yang hanya term2 tertentu yang my brain receptor bole react, and smile and wave. cewahh..macam queen pulak. anyhow, it is their problem, so better still biar diorang yang deal with it.

setiap kali lunch, boss suka ajak kita. boss kita yang bukan melayu tu sangat sangat suka makan makanan melayu. masa dia belajar kat UM dulu, ramai kawan melayu, so dah terbiasa sangat. makanan ibunda pandang sebelah mata je. walaupun kadang-kadang jer boss belanja lunch, tapi boss suka beli side dish. macam fruits la rojak la. paling suka kalau pukul 5 dia ajak jalan-jalan pergi beli karipap atau cheese cake. dia bayarkan, so setakat temankan apa adehal. walaupun dia berlainan bangsa, suka bebenor dia ajak kita.

ada satu penyarah nie, dia suka sangat tegur kita. masa jaga exam hari tu, siap dia cakap kat students, "if you have any problems, just ask this nice lady here (merujuk kepada saya), and she will call me." tapi dia memang baik pon. just for the records, i caught two students cheating during exam. my boyfriend said im so not cool, and to just give them a chance. sorry sikit k? i never cheat during exam, i mean final exam k. so it is just not fair to others. strict eh?

oh, my part time job started last week, and the work started yesterday. it was okay. since im having cough and flu, it was not okay then. but i managed to do it, shall i say-perfectly? bragginnngggggg!!!ha ha ha.

isnin kerja. truly said, i missed my life as a student. and yes, tipu sangat bila orang kata dah pegang duit taknak continue study. money is nothing to me compare to having free time and less pressure. err...money is nothing to me when the boyfriend pays everything...lalalala~

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1. kerja sangat sibuk. MQA nak datang baru nak kelam kabut. pastu yang kelam-kabut nyer adalah kita. long working hours and lunch pun tak sempat. yang baiknya boleh lose weight. tapi kalau balik mengketedarah macam 10 tahun makan pon tak guna jugak. anyway, balik selalunya terus tidur. penat penat penat.
2. i was hoping something big happen in february 2011, but i guess it is not going to happen and will never happen. sedih sangat dan berhari-hari nangis tak ingat dunia. yer, perempuan memang sinonim dengan menangis, kan?but rasanya itulah yang kita namakan Qada' dan Qadar. truly said, i never waste any time pun sebenarnya. it's a journey, and a learning process. cume kesan dia masih berbekas sebab 'it's a promise'.
3. ehem. first payment dah dapat. happy bukan main. and sebab sedih sangat i bought a new shoe. ingat nak beli dua tapi melampau pulak kan?kang tak pakai jer. azam 2011, i nak beli satu kasut setiap bulan.atau tak -alternately dengan baju, seluar, beg..etc.
4. konvo hari tu i had a blast time with friends. tapi tapi masih sedih dengan keadaan no.2. so konvo, biasalah, bunga, gifts, taking pictures, nangis-nangis.
5. next week, parents off to JB and S'pore.lama pulak tu. tak tahu nak ikot ke tak. but i guess i want to stay home, being alone is a great time to heal myself. sounds boring, but yes, im a homey girl.

tengok. nak buat full story pun malas. ha ha ha.