Trouble

Semalam lepas balik krja, terus dokong sophea. rindu sebab a night before tu, sophea was sleeping with her maksu, my sister. so the whole day kat office rindu kat sophea. and last night, mama and my sister puasa 6, so they were tired taking care of sophea and its my duty to amik sophea and jaga plak.

sophea was having trouble in sleeping. dia tak meragam. it was just mata dia taknak pejam, and she was like fighting between her eyes and the need to sleep. haha...she's so cute and yet naughty. masa i tengah makan pun with my left hand holding her, dalam 10minit dia diam la, abes dah lama sangat mommy makan, dia pun restless.

i tried to put her to sleep. kalau dia i dokong dia tidur la. but the minute i put her down, on the bed, kejap je dah bangun. my mother said, maybe she's missing me. sebab that weekend dia tidur dengan nenek dia, balik KL tidur dengan aunty die, tak tidur lagi dengan i. so maybe that's the reason.

tapi i was in doubt. takot kalau i manjakan sangat dia tdiur dengan i, nanti everynight pun nak tidur dengan i, and not in her cot. tapi kadang-kadang i kesian je tengok dia trying to put herself to sleep but restless. macam she need something to help her tidur.

adoii. but i love her. so so much. kalau boleh i nak dia sangkot je kat i 24jam. tapi i taknak nanti dia taknak dengan orang lain. asyik berkepit dengan i je. tak boleh la kan macam tu.

now i missed her already. semalam daddy dia balik around 10pm. daddy masuk bilik je cakap i tak tukar baju kerja lagi. how can i change my clothes when my baby was having trouble to sleep, and i taknak la susahkan family i yang dah one whole day jaga dia. i was a bit kecik hati with his statement (and almost cried) but i said to myself, dont make it any longer, dont have a fight because kita dua-dua kerja and penat.

i passed sophea to my husband and quickly mandi and served him dinner. took back sophea and teman husband on the table. and lama-lama kecik hati tu hilang sendiri. benda kalau tak dilayan ok jer kan.

passed back sophea to her daddy, and i terus naik atas iron baju kerja kitorang. pump susu sekejap for 30minutes. siap semua almost at 1am. masuk bilik sophea dah bangun and encik husband tengah bagi dia minum.

i think by 1.30am baru sophea nak tidur. itupun daddy dia tutup lampu. and i had trouble nak bagi dia pacifier. hahaha...kena raba-raba mulut dia.sampai pagi la sophea macam tu.by 7am pagi tadi baru dia nak tidur.

actually, i suka sangat bila the moment i amik dia and rapatkan kat dada, she shut her eyes. means she likes it, and my body keep her calm. i suka bila i pegang dia, dia terus tidur. i think, itu anugerah paling indah Allah bagi kat ibu-ibu.

yang the presence of the mother calms the child.

alhamdulilah. ;)