At 35 weeks of pregnancy

hari ni barang Ikea sampai! unfortunately sekarang ni Ikea's delivery man tengah hantar and assemble barang-barang tu kat rumah, and i am here, in the office, marking exam papers, and not knowing apa jadi kat rumah. nasib rumah tak bersepah, malu la orang datang (walaupun orang delivery jer), but it is people's perception about a person.

takkan la kalau rumah orang tu bersih, dia pengotor kan? sama jugak kalau rumah dia kotor, dia pembersih, kan? but the first statement orang tak kisah sangat, but statement no 2 kalau kita mention kat orang itu (rumah dia kotor), kita di panggil judgemental, right? right. dalam hidup ni, memang MANUSIA suka point out keburukan orang, instead of kebaikan orang.

tapi i try, (and im trying very hard) not to be this kind of people, this type. sangat tak baik. dalam Islam kan di ajar agar kita tak buka keaiban orang dan sentiasa berprasangka baik terhadap seseorang. biar Allah je yang balas kejahatan orang, bukan kita manusia. senang saja kalau berhadapan orang macam ni; jangan layan.

eh?jauh menyimpang ni.haha...

anyway malam ni tidur rumah mama. atok is at our house (atok is living with his wife (his wife after nenek passed away)), so mama suh kitorang balik as atok has been asking around where the hell is his cucus...hehehe...ye tok, kitorang balik ni. ni pun sebab nak main paintball esok. and esok juga i ada waxing session kat OU!wehooo...bestnyer!time to pamper myself. kalau ada duit lebih kita buat la sekali pedi and mani.

at 35weeks++, malam i hardly get a good sleep. mengah tiba-tiba datang. kalau baring, serious rasa ada tembikai susu dalam perut (kenapa nak kena tembikai susu???hahaha...). encik husband cakap tidur tak pelok. mak aihh...perot besar camni nak pelok apenye...peluk bantal terasa amat selesa sekali. like last night, i tidur dengan 3 bantal sekali harung. encik husband memang tidur jenis lying flat, bantal satu nipis, i memang jenis tidur bantal at least 2 keping. but now, i letak bantal tiga, lepas tu dirikan, so kira macam support la kat belakang.

bukan sebab i sakit pinggang ke apa, but sebab i dah tak boleh baring or mengiring. but im okay as long as baby okay.

and morning around 6am until 1pm, baby pie is really moving and kicking around. i rasa sebab space dah limited, so dia rimas. rimas la macam daddy dia, panas sikit tak boleh, orang ramai sikit tak boleh. but i wont allowed her to be cerewet like that. susah la.

anyway,there are a few items need to be add on for baby pie:
1. stroller
2. playpen / portable cot
3. baby carrier / baby wearing
4. set berpantang (eh ni bukan untuk baby pie, ni untuk mommy..hehehe...)
5. sterilizer and bottle warmer

and i've been asking and merengek kat encik husband suruh dia kumpul duit sebab i nak pergi Celebrity Fitness balik (gosh, i really missed my gym time...you know, looking at all the hot guys can boost up my confidence..err...to be like them la...hihihihhhi). so every month dia kena put aside dalam rm160. i ugut kalau dia tak kasi i pergi CF, i want to eat and ended up looking like a whale.hahaha....

orait. nak sambung buat kerja. hari ni encik husband amek kat office sebab i dapat hadiah untuk baby pie, and ada a few stuff i beli, and also hampers for tomorrow's paintball game, sponsored by me...hihihi!!

Shopping Trip to Ikea

ahad tu macam biasa la pengsan bangun dah nak dekat pukul 9. bangun pukul 6am, solat dulu, pastu golek-golek, borak-borak, pukul 9am baru berangkat dari katil. macam biasa la, sebab ada orang lapar kan. hahaha.....haihh, tak boleh nak romantik langsung, makan jer ingat. hikhik...nasiblah sayang, kalau tak sayang, i sambung jer tidur balik...hihihi...

sebenarnya kitorang penat masa tu sebab sabtu pagi tu, both of us go for a jog kat taman area rumah. balik tu, buat spring cleaning plak dengan encik husband. habis kipas, rail tingkap, tembok rumah apa semua dia lap and bersihkan. tahap pengumpulan habuk dah macam satu stick cotton candy, cuma dia warna hitam je la. -______- maybe encik husband concern sebab baby pie is coming the way, so nanti dah ada baby, susah plak nak kemas beriya2 kan. encik husband buat yang berat-berat macam vacuum and all. kita sapu and mop je la macam biasa.

then petang tu the whole day kitorang buat kerja rumah. and that night i cooked ayam masak kicap. tak ingat la tidur pukul berapa. so ahad tu, since the whole day kat rumah, petang encik husband ajak jalan-jalan. nak tengok iron man 3, but it was full house, so i cakap jom pergi Ikea. and he agreed right away. boring la tu duk rumah.

tapi i cakap kat dia, "pergi ikea mesti buy something, jangan pergi bodoh-bodoh jer. buang masa and tenaga.."

hahaha.....amik kau. RM1000 lebih habis untuk barang-barang rumah. -________-

ni adalah dua benda yang both of us paling excited dapat beli. hahahaha.... Klippan dengan bath tub baby. klippan ni kitorang dah aim sejak kahwin lagi, sejak first shopping barang-barang rumah. masa beli sofa Kivik tu kitorang nak beli Klippan ni sekali. sebab kat rumah parents i, memang dah lama guna Klippan ni, and rest assured, dia memang tahan sangat2! tapi masa kitorang beli Kivik tu, Klippan habis stok. the next week tu kitorang pergi lagi, pun takde stok. bayangkan betapa bagusnya Klippan ni.

so this time around, alhamdulilah ada jugak Klippan tu, terus kitorang amik. tak banyak stok dekat gudang dia, ada 5 6 je lagi. encik husband la suka sangat Klippan ni, i cakap kalau takde pun, tetamu boleh duduk bawah, tapi dia cakap kita kena utamakan tetamu. fine. he's the one paying, apa hak kita bersuara. wahh merajuk gitu!hahaha...

then dia pergi carik wardrobe untuk baby pie kitorang. lama gila kot dia kat sana. but i can see him. i kat 23, dia dekat 26 (kawasan gudang). i had to stayed at where i was sebab pegang dua troli, takut orang tarik troli Klippan tu limited stok kan, means orang teramik. i rasa ada la 30minit dia pergi amik wardrobe tu, Aneboda. ni pun sama, masa nak beli dengan Kivik tu, pun dah habis stok. so after 30mins tu dia datang kat i, rupanya Aneboda tu tinggal satu je! OMG sangat.....dia cakap itu pun dah ada orang sandarkan kat besi, bukan dalam susunan stok, and ada a few yang cari Aneboda tu. semua pun carik Aneboda. i have one back at my parents house, so memang sweet and cute sangat untuk letak baju-baju baby pie nanti.

memang rezeki kitorang and baby pie as semua yang kitorang planned untuk beli semua ada, eventhough with limited stok. sebab nak bayar delivery charge RM75, so takkan nak buat dua trips?lainla u all ada kereta/lori besar, so boleh hantar for free kan.=)

untuk baby pie, wardrobe Aneboda, baby bath tub, dengan laundry basket je. daddy punya Klippan set, folding chair, billy bookcase, wine rack (definitely not for wine storage...hahaha). untuk mommy?takde pun. mula-mula nak beli insulator bag, untuk letak susu baby pie nanti, tapi since next week nak jalan-jalan gi expo, so letak la balik beg tu. anytime boleh beli kan. =)

yang tak jadi beli Baby Cot je, sebab back at my parents house, we already bought wooden baby cot, from Ikea jugak, so i rasa untuk rumah kitorang, kitorang nak beli yang portable, senang kalau encik husband keluar ke apa, i boleh tengok baby pie kat living hall. so kitorang nak beli playpen. so lepas balik Ikea, singgah Ikano (IPC). dekat Mom's Care ada clearance sale, Esprit punya playpen rm299 je, tapi takde bassinet and changing station. ada kat situ Graco. tapi taknak jugak sebab mahal and design tak cantik pun. so nak amek murah ingat nak beli sweetcherry, rm249 jer. ada bassinet and changing station sekali. valued for money.

balik from Ikea, kitorang singgah Jalan 222 kat PJ. local mesti tau la. nasi lemak sedap, sup kambing sedap...haihhh....sampai rumah around 12am jugak la. so pagi ni kitorang bangun lambat dalam 7am. tapi still left the house by 7.30am. heeee...cuma tak boleh bermesra alam sebelum pergi kerja as usual. heee....

Baby Stroller

yer yer. i have been going back and forth and up and down the internet (wahh macam banyak sangat tugas dia kan..?) to do my research on finding the best, yet the ultimate baby stroller for my baby. dah nak masuk ke bulan 8 pregnancy baru la terhegeh-hegeh nak cari. excuse la sikit sebab en husband baru balik kursus, so susah i nak buat decision unless it's my money. dah duit i, ape-ape pun ok. tapi nama pun dah kahwin, kena la sefahaman, maka decision pun kena la buat sama-sama.

masa awal-awal pregnant dulu, memang i dah fokus dan yakin untuk amik stroller from MacLaren. entah kenapa. maybe sebab sturdy frame dia. banyak review cakap bagus. harga mahal and well-known brand, takkan la teruk kan? mestilah akan ada wear-and-tear nanti, but it takes awhile before that to happen. ada baca review, dia cakap dah 6tahun dia pakai elok je, cuma bahagian handle sebab made of foam, so dia pecah-pecah la. harga dalam RM700-RM2000.

then, tiba-tiba jatuh cinta sangat dengan Stokke. memang tersangat jatuh cinta dengan Stokke. hari-hari pun tengok je, sambil meleleh air liur.sebab tahu takkan mampu beli. eh mampu, mampu sangat sebenarnya, pastu kau jilat-jilat la tayar Stokke tu bagi kenyang. hahaha...harga dalam RM2500-RM5000.

then, ada plak Bugaboo, 4moms origami, quinny, britax, mothercare ,mamas and papas etc etc. selain tu, phil and teds pun penah la caught up my attention for awhile, especially yang baby jogger. ada yang macam affordable sikit macam silver cross dengan halford. pun tengok jela.

then husband cakap nak guna SCR. malaysian brand. i kalau malaysian brand ni laju je. semangat patriotik katanye. ahahaha...harga pun not bad. dalam RM200-RM900. tapi bila i pergi tengok kat JJ hari tu (sebab niat datang nak beli/add on barang baby), ringan tapi....takut tak sturdy frame dia. lagipun linen dalam dia nampak mudah koyak, takde padding. tapi ni personal view, and masa tu i tak tengok pun satu-satu model SCR ni. en husband suka sebab roda dia besar. what's with the roda besar, sayang? -_-

then haritu i pergi alamanda dengan mama, masuk satu kedai baby ni, jumpe COMBI. omaigodd ringan gila, brand from Japan. tapi model yang i tengok tu takboleh rear and forward facing. salah satu kriteria utama encik husband. tapi betul jugak. kot kang anak melorot keluar stroller kang, mane nak nampak. dulu konon nak nampak stylo and everything, tapi sekarang i go for practicality. so jangan susahkan diri dengan roda besar, nak lipat2 , pastu nak sumbat lagi dalam kereta kecik kitorang tu. dah, jangan mengada-ngada. unless daddy nak beli kereta besar, kita cari yang roda besar okay?haahhaha....

anyway, in the end (belum beli pun lagi), i decided i nak stay dengan MacLaren or COMBI sahaja.(wahh yakin...kite tgk apa en husband beli nanti). sebab utama:
1. ringan
2. tahan lama- tak pernah dengar review yang dia cepat rosak
3. boleh muat bonet kereta kitorang.
4. boleh pakai sampai anak umur 4-5tahun.-long term investment.
5. mahal tapi kumpul-kumpul sikit boleh masuk lingkungan affordable.

comparing MacLaren dengan COMBI, COMBI lagi mahal. tapi nanti nak pergi baby expo, memang nak tengok la. orang kata baby expo or maternity expo, boleh dapat 30%to 50% discount. so, may ni nak pergi terjah. =)

gambar:*google

sila cuci mata puas-puas dan buat survey untuk price range. goodluck!!

Hargai Aku (bukan tajuk lagu Armada la..ahaha)

en husband bengang.

sebab everytime we planned to do something, it won't (easily) happen. ahaha...contohnya, every saturday or sunday morning, we planned to have our morning walk/jog at the taman near our house. but yeah, we take things for granted. akhirnya, bergolek dan bergelimpangan atas katil sampai la pukul 9am. bangun pun sebab lapar. nanti ada je bunyik-bunyik cengkerik mintak makan. ahahaha..... sebab isnin sampai jumaat memang we make used of our entire body and energy. wake up at usual time 5.30am-6.00am, kemas masak, pergi kerja and hit the bed by 12am. so memang tidur 5-6 jam tu is enough, but sometimes we need that 'extra' sleep time, lagi-lagi kita tau takde komitmen on that day kan?lagi la sedap.

but i had kept reminding en husband to have our usual walk/jog together. dulu before pregnant memang every night and every week kitorang go for a run, tapi now bila i dah pregnant, en husband pun lebih kurang naik je perut dia. so nak tak nak, weekend ni (esok) mesti go for a walk. lagipun i tinggal sebulan je lagi. so lagi banyak jalan/exercise, mintak juga dipermudahkan bersalin. =)

pagi tadi, i cooked nasi goreng cina sebab semalam memang sengaja masak lebih, nak tapau bawak pergi office. so pagi-pagi dah menumbuk cili. kul 6.15am camtu en husband dah bangun. selalunya tunggu i kejut breakfast baru nak bangun. dia cakap, "i bangun awal sebab i terdengar u tumbuk2 kat dapur. i cakap teman sayangla kat depan...terharu i wife i pagi-pagi dah masak...".

hrmm...i rasa selagi dalam hati i penuh rasa cinta dan sayang i untuk en husband, and i rasa en husband have the same feelings for me, selagi tu la i mampu je nak buat segala untuk dia. sebab bila kita sayang and cinta kat orang tu, kita sanggup buat apa jer utnuk dia, sanggup bersusah-payah untuk dia. at least, that is how i feel. =) sebab i tau, kalau i masak-dia akan makan. dia akan makan sebab dia kata sedap. so kita pun rasa happy, and kita rasa dihargai and disayangi. kadang-kadang time kitorang makan tu, he give me a lot of kisses sepanjang kitorang makan tu. kadang-kadang mulut penuh food pun dia kiss jugak sambil cakap "thanks masakkan untuk kita..." and i always replied, "thank you daddy sebab belikan food untuk kitorang...".

kadang-kadang orang tak perasaan, en husband pun mungkin tak tau, the simple wishes and effort yang dia buat untuk i, macam say thanks and everything, really make my day. really helps me to improve myself more than everyday. that i always happy to do something for him. penat memang penat, sebab kita guna tenaga. but kalau in the end, kita yang happy? the tiredness doesn't even being remembered.

i selalu cakap, "bole la sayang nak manja-manja, tak sampai setahun kahwin kan...ahahaha". but i dont think it is going to go away in a few days. hikhik.....orait....have fun people!

Being Strong

Semalam lepas balik kerja, ingat nak terus shoot pergi HUKM, my sister in law yang baru 2 bulan pregnant had very severe allergic due to her pregnancy, alahan teruk la tu. memang teruk sangat sampai kena MC 2 bulan hokay. i iz jeles. but not really, i rasa bersyukur sangat yang im not like that, susah nak buat kerja. you know, i have devoted my life for encik husband, dia la satu-satunya kunci yang i ada untuk bawak i ke syurge (ecewah...) so whatever he wants in his life, i kena bagi. isteri mithali katenye. tapi kalau i lah kena alahan teruk macam SIL i, kesian and susah sangat.

my SIL tak boleh langsung dekat dengan abang i (but i dont blame her, my brother is a smoker), lagi tak boleh bau masak-masak, and she is not that strong, so tak boleh kemas-kemas, sabun basuh baju pun dia tak boleh, dah macam mana tu?where else ME, jangan kate mengemas, mengangkat groceries balik dari supermarket pun laju jer. and i rasa my walking pace still laju (mind u...im a pregnant lady with a 8-month naught baby girl inside...hikhik), cuma i senang je rasa penat. especially tang kaki. ehehehe....

i think orang yang paling happy adalah encik husband. habis dah semua siap terhidang, ape lagi yang dia nak?but he was a very good husband and companion to me. kadang-kadang i tengah rehat-rehat kejap kat bilik, i dengar dia tengah asahkan pisau i. terharu sangat. dia taknak wife dia spend a lot of time cutting fruits and vege, and need to use more energy for doing that. toilet jangan cakap la. i rasa sepanjang i kahwin dengan i, sekali je kot i basuh my own toilet, yang lain dia la yang basuh kan.

selalu i buat macam ni,

Me: "psttt....bb, sini kejap (kat dapur). ada benda i nak bisik...hikhik..."
Him: *datang dekat, hulur telinga* "apa dia sayang...."
Me: "toilet kita kotor.....heee..."
Him: *gelak2* "yela......jap lagi kita basuhkan k...."

tell me. siapa tak sejuk hati husband macam tu. at least he could understand that im pregnant, easily tired, and paling penting, tak boleh tunduk2 kan. but haritu masa i stay kat rumah mama, the toilet was quite dirty, dirty sebab toilet i fully white, so berabuk skit memang nampak, so i dengan pakai sabun basuh baju yang super licin, merangkak, basuh toilet. i masa tu cuak gila jugak, buat nyer masa i nak bangun ter-slipp ke apa, tapi i doa je dalam hati supaya dipermudahkan segala.

alhamdulilah okay.

before pergi HUKM, we stopped at sungai besi, makan kejap. i ordered nasi goreng cili padi, and he ordered nasi goreng ayam. licin makan. lapar kot. dah la masa tu dah pukul 9pm, kena hujan plak tu lepas balik kerja. balik rumah tukar baju, mandi solat sume. memang kebulur.

lepas HUKM, sampai rumah dalam pukul 11pm camtu. balik tukar baju, gosok gigi then baru tido. hit the sack early jugak sebab selalu pukul 12am++ baru nak tidur, tapi sebab penat ke ape, kitorang tidur awal. pagi tadi bangun pun ngantuk-ngantuk lagi.

bangun lambat kul 6am, selalu 5.30am dah bangun, buat breakfast hotdog bun dengan hot tea untuk en husband, tapau satu untuk i, breakfast cocoa crunch, jemur kain, mandi solat semua, by 7.30 dah on the road to office.

anyway, malam ni ingat nak masak cencaru sumbat, makan dengan nasi panas. nak masak nasi lebih, so that esok pagi boleh buat nasi goreng. =)

Maksud nama; Girang.

Apart from daily update because i love to talk and say unnecessary things (but no one to entertain me), i think (and hope) that i can read all of these entries whenever i feel i wanted to, or  when they should be a time, where i need to read it, the most.

so what's up yesterday?

both encik husband and myself went to our work routine. basically he will send me before he off to work and selalu dalam kereta we will talk (prftt...) almost about anything. he always said this,

"sayang....orang lain bangun pagi-pagi muram je, senyap jer....u pagi-pagi dah riang. girang-macam nama u...hahaha". 

haihh....encik husband kalau pagi-pagi tak kutuk i memang tak sah.

semalam dekat train station, he arrived early and waited for me. kalau dia tunggu tu, tak lain tak bukan mesti nak kenakan i. nanti dia menyorok la mana-mana and i macam orang bodoh la cari-cari dia. perangai sangat...-____________- but being the awesome me; i saw him from a far and quickly took out my hp and BBMed him,

"tak payah nak menyorok sayang....i dah nampak you..."

he replied, "demmit.."

hahahaha......ingat i senang untuk diperbodohkan? then when i came near him, dia lari. DIA LARI OK?i pergi kanan, dia pergi kiri, i pergi kiri dia pergi kanan. ni apa ni? and i laughed like mad, you know, for having him as my husband...-_________- i dont know why i married him in the first place. but luckily he bought some tuna and chocolate bread and orange twister. i memang dah haus but not that hungry. dap dap dap.... =)

and last night, arrived around 7.15pm, quickly i cooked for our dinner. simple dish; sweet sour fish and i used ikan bawal hitam, bendi and sambal belacan, and air sirap. and yes, encik husband makan bertambah, and i always love when he do that. but he has put some weight (psstt...especially around the waist..hikhik), so he asked me not to cook sedap-sedap and banyak-banyak. fine.

when he off to his daily night jog, i took the chance untuk gosok baju and seluar and everything. dapatlah 3 baju and 4 seluar. enough sampai monday next week. then bila dia balik dari jog semalam, i stopped ironing, and joined him for his 'cool down' session, under the air conditioner...-___________- sambil tu borak-borak. he massaged my foot, lama jugak sebab kitorang borak pun bukan main lama. hahaha....bila tersedar nak dekat pukul 11, dua-dua pun kelam kabut mandi, then solat jemaah.

tau-tau masa encik husband baca quran, i was asleep like a baby next to him. tak tau pukul berapa masa tu, i rasa pukul 12.00am kot. im easily got into sleep now a days, i think because of the pregnancy, cepat sikit penat dia. but i am totally having fun spending time (and energy of course) dengan encik husband.

he's my best friend, and spending time with him is just as awesome as he is.... ;)

Husband extra concerned...heee...

hi guys!

it's been awhile kan?sorry sorry because i was so busy doing stuff (as usual...prffttt!). bukan apa pun, it is just encik husband was already home, FOR GOOD!!yeay........ no more sleepless nights, no more go-check-up sendiri, no more i-want-to-eat-this-but-too-lazy-to-drive, and finally, no more no-one-to-pick-a-fight-with..hahahaha!!!even on the day he came home, which was on sunday afternoon, we had a fight. (i think when our baby has grown up and read this, she will eventually understands why daddy and mommy fights a lot..hehehe). simply because, we can't bear to be apart for such a long time.

anyway, bila encik husband balik, i'm back to my old (compulsary) routine. house chores. and oh boy, i don't have that energy anymore, the kind of energy i had in the beginning of marriage life, because i'm pregnant now -______________-. not that i'm complaining, it is just i move a bit slower, and my foot hurt so much these days. macam semalam, i fell asleep on the couch (while waiting for encik husband mandi). then he came to me and kejut me, asking to have a isya' prayer together (jemaah). i geleng2 kepala, too tired to perform prayer. but he insisted. fine.

lepas semayang i terus boom tidur!but my foot damn hurt..so i asked encik husband to urut my kaki. omg....memang sedap gila..urut dengan kasih sayang plak tu....hikhik...lama jugak dia urut sampai tertidur-tidur i. pastu tidur nyenyak the whole night.

pagi tadi, masa kat ofis, encik husband BBM i. he said,

"semalam masa i urut kaki u,i teringat u kena jalan jauh, berdiri dalam train, jalan kaki pergi ofis, pastu tukar train, panas, hujan....kita sedih...:( "

pastu i yang baca ni pun terus mencurah-curah air mata. ain't a pregnant lady is full with emotions?hikhik...sedih and terharu because he knows that, what's happening to me, and he realized that and pointed them out. kadang-kadang i pun tak fikir sangat, tapi dah dia cakap, i pun jadi sedih. tak sangka encik husband concerned sangat macam tu. and i tak rasa pun dia akan tahu benda-benda tu.

but he did.

and i love him for that. i know (and pray) that he will be a good daddy to auni, and a great husband to me.

A Point To Ponder

This is something good and worth to read.
i mean like really.
i think this article was written by some mat salleh or what, but i think it is applicable to any religion pun, especially MELAYU ISLAM yang rata-rata "you know what is happening around us" kan?
so please please read this, and remember it at that some point of your life.

if you know what i mean. =)

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ARE YOU WITH THE RIGHT PARTNER?


During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind
replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO! ♥

Just One Night

oh sorry....lama dah rasanya tak update blog. not because i dont want to (alasan). i typed those words dalam phone, lepas tu buat clearance, terdelete semua sekali. damn sangat di situ. so ended up feeling so sad and sakit hati (of course dengan diri sendiri) and there's no one to be blame especially encik husband. eh?hahaha...takde kena mengena kan.

anyway, 'just one night' entry, can you please justify yourself?

yes i can! (suara kecil). hahahaha....saiko!

encik husband telah di kidnapped oleh i (dengan rela hatinya beliau) sebab beliau dah tak tahan dengan tortures yang menimpa diri beliau dan kawan-kawan beliau. halaa, mind torturing sikit je pun dah tak tahan. macam mana nak jadi daddy ni. oh by the way, encik husband decided nak baby pie pangil dia "daddy" instead of "papa" sebab dia kata "papa" tu papa kedana. boleh nampak tak the irelevancy there?tak nampak kan? i pun tak faham. malas nak argue with him, i decided to just agreed with whatever things he said.

lagipun maksu baby pie (my youngest sister) belikan bib kat mothercare UK ada tulis "i love mummy", "i love daddy", dengan belang2 , 3pc rm30 ringgit je. wuwuwuwu...dekat mothercare sini rm48 okay. nasib i tak beli. ...hahaha *cheapskate punya mommy* lepastu i dah belikan bibs baby pie from carter's jugak 5 helai, i carter's jumper, dengan princess toys from lamaze. mama i tanye "bib banyak-banyak nak buat ape?". tak kisah la mama, janji comel!

sabtu tu encik husband suruh i kidnap dia by lunch time. of course being the skema one, i asked him to be strong both physical and mental. but he kept on BBMed me,

"sayang.....amik la i sekarang....plzzzzz"

kang selang 2 minit dia BBM lagi. apakah? -_________- baru pukul 2.30pm kot. definitely he can't escape the training programs. aktiviti still going on masa tu. kalau ikut nafsu memang i nak je culik dia time 2.30 tu, tapi fikir dengan kewarasan dan kesabaran i, i buat kuat-kuat jela.

sekali i senyap je, taknak layan kerenah dia yang mengada-ngada tu. tapi masa tu i dah siap cantik-cantik wangi-wangi nak jumpe dia by 10pm because that was what we agreed on. initially that was the plan. tiba-tiba dia BBM i cakap,

"sayang...you dah boleh datang kot sekarang...". at 7.30pm.

dia cakap, the bosses bagi perlepasan jumpa family. antara percaya dengan tak, i started my car and drove through DUKE to meet him. masa tu hujan lebat gila and dalam hati i cakap, "why la hujan??adakah tanda-tanda dia tipu i, so kitorang akan jumpa lambat, and boss dah tunggu kat luar pagar nak stop siapa-siapa yang nak skip?"

but no. he's telling me the truth (dramatic sangat la cerita ni). hahahaha.....i picked him up, hantar dia dekat hostel dia (training centre and the hostel jauh and from two different tempat), waited for him to mandi and packed those baju kotor. tak sampai 30mins dia dah turun, all fresh and bau sedap. dapnyee ciomm....heyyyppp!!hahaha....

then we went for dinner, talked and had a great date. rindu melampau. balik rumah tapau otak-otak and burger. watched football (kelantan vs sarawak) sambil peluk-peluk kat depan TV, but you know la encik husband, 5minit je letak kepala, kebabom tido. hahaha....

i biar je dia tidur sekejap. actually ibu nandong (yes it's me!) mengalami sakit pinggang yang mild so i rasa tak selesa sangat laying on the comforter depan TV. i should sleep on bed bukan lantai keras. oleh kerana sangat tak tahan, i kejut him masuk bilik. perghhhh....nak kejut satu masalah jugak ni.

he can't be kejut like, "b!bangun masuk!". kalau rasa nak tapak kaki melekat kat dahi buatlah. kena kejut kena goyang2 sikit, bisik-bisik sikit. almost 20minits kejut dia okay. kesabaran memang kena tinggi yer. tapi i senang, sejak ada baby pie nie, dia je la umpan i. "sorry sayang, mommy used you even before you were born. kata tag team dengan mommy kan?hikhik...". so i bisik kat telinga dia slow-slow manja-manja bila dia dah separuh sedar tu,

"sayang...bangun sayang GOSOK GIGI (sambil usap-usap ubun2 encik husband). tadi awak makan burger kan sayang...mesti banyak burger melekat kat gigi tecik awak..hikhik...you wouldn't want auni to go to sleep without brushing her teeth kan sayang?you're a good daddy kan sayang?bangun sayang...brush your teeth first...pastu kita masuk tido k.."

conversation kat atas darab 5 kali i ulang benda yang sama. sekarang boleh la takde baby kan?esok dah ada baby, lantak berulat gigi tu pun i buat dek jeerr. hahahaha....encik husband mendengus-dengus la, nak marah la tu. -___________- dah kejut manja-manja pun kena marah. iskkk....

lama jugak la tunggu dia berus gigi. i think dia tidur dulu dalam toilet tu baru nak gosok gigi. lantakla, janji bersih mulut. ni nak tidur-tidur dengan kita mulut ada burger, apakah? hahaha....kitorang make it as a habit before tidur gosok gigi. hopefully esok anak-anak pun ikut jugak. kebersihan harus diutamakan.

pagi tu 5.30am dah bangun siap-siap nak hantar encik husband balik training centre dia. i siap berkemban gorengkan jemput-jemput buat alas perut encik husband. dalam kereta kena la suap dia, selalu pun camtu. i kan pembantu dia. sampai makan pun nak dibantu. -_________-

walaupun sekejap je kitorang jumpa, but it mean the most to us. masa yang ada tu memang fokus kat kitorang dua jer. borak-borak, update each other (padahal BBM 24 jam), but it is not the same bila kita jumpa depan-depan kan?

and that night, i have my sleeping partner back in my arms, even if its just for one night.

thank you sayang, for being here with me when i needed u the most. i love you still.

Nikmat Hidup

Sometimes apa yang kita ada, kita always took them for granted. Bukan tak bersyukur, tapi kadang2 kita terlupa, sebab kita tau dia ada. Tak kisah la barang ke, orang ke, hidupan ke. Bila dah takde, rosak ke ape, baru nak teringat2, baru nak menyesal2.

Same goes to me. I think I am very lucky in many ways. Both families, my family and in laws sangat sayang dengan I. Dari I kecik sampai jadi wife orang pun, still family I manjakan I. Anything yang I request, mesti diorang bagi. Even abang2 I pun sama. Makan ke barang ke, mesti diorang bagi. And my in laws, every week msg I or call I, tanye I sihat ke, baby sihat ke and all.

Benda2 kecik ni buat kita rasa dihargai, and wanted as part of their life. In fact, diorang is my new life.

Apart from that, encik husband is a very kind and a great man. Banyak kerenah I, and kekurangan I, yang dia have to face and deal with. I rasa tahap kesabaran dia mesti tinggi to deal with me, lagi2 bila mood swings I datang out of nowhere, as I am a Pisces.

I can be that girl next door with happy face and lots of smiles, and the next second, I will be somebody else.

Sometimes it just a mere thought can change my emotions and thus effect my thinking process.

Sangat tak baik perangai macam ni. But I just cannot help it.I've tried to change, and I'm doing well so far. :)

Anyway, this entry hanyalah untuk melahirkan rasa bersyukur yang amat sangat pada Allah sebab Dia dah bagi yang terbaik untuk I and wajiblah untuk I bersyukur. Maybe one day Dia akan tarik balik nikmat hidup ni bila2 masa dia suka, tapi I tetap bersyukur atas rasa sayang, cinta, wanted yang Allah dah bagi pinjam ni.

Doa hari2 semoga kebahagiaan camni kekal sampai mati.

Amin.


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Not Allowed Office Wear

You know, haritu dalam kereta, on the way balik rumah kan selalu kitorang borak2,or mengutuk each other sambil2 update what had happened kat office. Tetiba masuk cerita apa ntah, oh cerita pasal dia dah tak pergi kerja dengan I, dia kan nak kena gerak awal sebab nak lalu DUKE. Then husband cakap,

"Sayang...kita dah tak dapat hantar sayang pagi-pagi. Dah tak dapat tengok sayang pakai baju apa.."

Oh my God..sweetnye suami siapa la ni! (Prfffttt!!)

Tak payah nak sweet sangat la, I tau kenapa dia cakap camtu. Konon tak dapat tengok I pakai baju apa..cehhhh..

Memangla tak dapat tengok. Sebab nanti dia tak dapatla nak bagi komen-komen cari gado pagi-pagi macam,

"Sexy la b. Tu semua nanti orang nampak.."

"Boleh ke pakai macam ni??"

"Pakai baju laen la b..tak cantik.." (Bukan tak cantek, tapi sexy)

Pagi-pagi dah lambat pegi keja, memang la cari gado buat statement macam ni kan?

Ada sekali tu, memang takde kasihan la dia terus cakap,

"No.pakai baju laen."

Itu dah paling marah. So jangan la nak melawan apetah lagi datang kat dia manja2 sambil peluk2 and kiss all over his face macam I selalu buat pastu cakap,

"Ala..bole la syg...bukan sexy sgt pun, orang lain pun pakai macam ni jugak..eh syg.."

Bukan apa. Kalau rasa taknak kena herdik or kena-tinggal-naiklah-kau-bas-pegi-kerja, cuba la buat.

Hahaha..mencik tau!

So kita sebagai isteri (mithali) kadang-kadang dengan paksa rela tukar la baju. Nanti lambat la sikit pergi kerja sebab nak gosok baju baru. Tapi usually, I pakai baju kurung jela..paling mudah and paaaaaaaaling cantik kat mata encik husband.

Dulu masa bercinta, I konon-konon bajet paling up to date, dengan dress, dengan mini skirt, dengan baju lurah dendam, and harapan dah kahwin ni pun sama la jugak. Tapi memang tinggal kenangan la, sebab dapat husband a bit conservative (haha..woi kutuk), so taknak jadi derhaka, I pun dengar jela cakap dia.

Tapi bagus jugak dapat husband macam tu.kurang sikit dosa. *peace*
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Bebe's Home

Masa ni kitorang nak pergi wedding encik husband's friend dekat shah alam. so tengah-tengah cari parking dekat belakang Plaza Masalam tu, we passed by Bebe's Home ni. kedai baby la katanya. pastu laju je mata i nampak sebab banyak sticker Sale merah tu. pastu laju-laju cakap dengan encik husband,

"sayanggg!! nanti kita singgah situ k?" sambil mata tak kelip-kelip tengok kedai tu.

"yer la....." muka pasrah tapi senyum la sebab kalau dia muka masam i debik sekali. wahh, dah pandai debik sekarang. tak patut. haha..

lepas makan semua borak-borak amik gambar kat wedding, encik husband ajak terus pergi kedai tu. since kedai tu ada laa dalam 30 tapak dari park kereta, encik husband insisted nak bawak kereta, agaknya kesian tengok ibu nandong macam hazab je nak jalan. hahaha....heyp!

so sampai-sampai tengok-tengoklah apa yang best. banyak tak best dari bestnya, or maybe sebab i dah jumpa barang-barang yang lain, so i just grabbed napkin dengan minyak yu yee. encik husband memang seronok mengejek i pasal minyak telon dengan minyak yu yee cap limau ni. dia cakap,

"Auni would be very happy. mama dia sebok sangat dengan minyak telon tu..."

tapi betul la, memang dua minyak ni penting kan untuk baby?ha tak percaya lagi. sebab hari tu i BBM dia since dia nak turun cheras, suruh dia beli dekat satu pharmacy ni memang jual murah2 products skin care and medicines. tapi dia tak jadi singgah. so balik tu dia gelak-gelakkan i pasal minyak ni. agaknya funny sangat bila i macam urgent and excited suruh beli minyak tu. -________-

i'm not sure why i marry him in the first place.prftt....

anyway, kalau tengok Bebe's Home online shop dia, tak banyak best pun, except for Paddington Bear!!me and my sister have this 'thing' with Paddington Bear. dulu rasa kitorang ada baju mama belikan from the brand, so kitorang sangat sayang baju tu sebab dia sedap, selesa, and durable. ingat i nak beli satu for baby pie, tapi mahal la plak. tunggu la duit berbukit bukau baru belikan.

***

semalam mama masak asam pedas ikan pari. encik husband makan bersungguh, and mama looked happy as well sebab menantu dia memang kuat makan. i pun suka. pedas-pedas pun dia makan jugak.-______- lepas makan, he helped me to cleaned the table. selalu pun memang macam tu. kat rumah kitorang pun camtu. i mean, sama-sama pergi kerja, so i dah masak, dia la tolong kemas. selalu dia tukang makan dengan tukang angkat jela, tukang masak and basuh i la.

ada sekali tu, lepas basuh semua dah kemas-kemas dapur tu, i terus lepak depan sofa tengok TV. soalan encik husband,

"sayang dah lap meja?"

perghhhh....malu siot!hahaha...kan i dah cakap dia tu super detail and super pengemas...ala, sekejap je pun i baru landing, bukan sengaja tak lap, i terlupa kot. selalu tu task dia, tapi masa tu dia tengah nak kemas kasut dia ke ape ntah, agaknya dia lalu nampak tak berlap meja kan. hahaha....last-last dia lap.

-_____________-

kadang-kadang rimas jugak i. especially bila dia buat spot check toilet i. berbulu gak la hati. tapi thinking dia nak jaga kebersihan wife dia, i merelakan jela. lagipun bila dia berbulu tengok toilet i, dia bersihkan. in fact,  bathroom kat rumah memang dia la yang clean up. awesome gila suami i! selalu lepas tu i repay his kindness dengan bermacam-macam- contohnya masak sedap-sedap. sedap ke?sedapla kot untuk dia.

tapi nanti dia cakap,

"sayang...masak nanti kurangkan minyak k?"

hahahaha....hoi suami siapa nie!!!!! manyak cewewet maa...hikhik...but he knows that i love him . i love him so much that only he can make me fall in love with him again and again.

i dapat something....aaaa....malu laa!

Lamanya meninggalkan blog. almaklumlah, konon-konon bajet busy. actually memang busy pun, last week the whole week balik dalam lebih kurang 7pm, padahal kerja balik at 6pm, sebab this week is exam week, so preparation for exam paper haruslah awal. itupun dah lambat sebenarnya, dia atleast 2 weeks before exam yer. excuse la ibu nandong slow sikit.

any update?

yer baby saya sudah masuk week-30. tiba-tiba terasa "eh, lagi 10 weeks je?gile ahh...". berdebar siot, but at the same time i am so excited for the baby. rasa tak sabar sangat nak dokong dia, rasa tak sabar sangat nak kiss pipi dia yang macam kuih pau rm2.50 dekat R&R tu. hehehe...sebab you all tak tengok pipi mama dia lagi. pipi mama dia boleh tahan la jadi bahan picitan papa dia. kadang-kadang tangan i laju je nak menepis or menumbuk encik husband, tapi kalau i buat camtu sure jadi isu isteri kurang ajar dengan suami. oh i dun wann..... (walaupun sakit both pipi dan hati).

so, sejak masuk minggu 29/30 ni, i boleh nampak betapa clumsy nya i. masuk ni dah dua kali tangan i luka berdarah sebab pegang pengepit. boleh kak?pegang pengepit goreng tu je boleh koyak jari lalu berdarah? yer memang boleh. i baca dekat pregnancy web, by 30th week, ibu nandong akan jadi a bit clumsy sebab joint dengan deria rasa (sentuhan) dia macam kurang sikit. yer sangat setuju la begitu. i dah dua kali terjatuhkan container bawang potong dengan oranges potong (nak sejukkan masuk fridge). padahal sebelum ni laju je i masukkan container dalam fridge, apehal plak boleh jatuh, kan?rasa frust sangat sebab lepas tu kena lap lantai, kan dah banyak kerja tu. rupanya itulah sebabnya.

sekarang ibu nandong kelihatan sangat lemah. bukan kelihatan, tapi buat kerja sikit dah lemah. macam hari tu, dahlah bangun lambat (thanks encik husband!). lepas tu bangun i pun semangat buat fritters dengan air teh nak bagi encik husband, boleh dia nak lap kipas dengan grill rumah semua? habis tu haruslah i kena sapu dan mop (again?) rumah tu kan. yer, saya rajin sangat.

untuk tidak mematahkan semangat encik husband agar dia akan rajin mengemas dimasa hadapan, i pun dengan paksa rela sapu dan mop. tiba-tiba macam excited sendiri sebab rumah kilat-kilat, bersih sangat dan bau apple. hihihi....mula-mula tak suka, dah bersih kemain lagi. i pun jadi extra rajin bila lap pintu and celah pintu. cehh, itu pun nak cakap. korang mesti lagilah teramat rajin lap and sental celah-celah pintu and tingkap kan?i ni baru nak lap-lap, punyalah hitam celah pintu. tapi now bersih dah.

and i miss my home. right now.

***

dah dua hari mood swing skit i. swing tu kepada tak lain tak bukan, my ultimate love la. kesian jugak dia, tapi sebab i sayang dia sangat-sangat kan, kena la nak marah2 dia. eh?? *sila tampar diri sendiri*. so semalam masa nak makan i 'berlakon' la konon baik-baik dengan dia (sangat berjaya lakonan i, tapi actually bukan lakonan pun, i dah ok jugak masa tu, tak rasa nak teruskan gado-bodo ni, rindu kot kat bf kita) sebab kitorang stay kat rumah parents i, malu kot gaduh depan orang tua right?

tapi sebab lepas tu dia sambung buat kerja apa ntah kat laptop dia kemain lama i teman dia, hangen balik la satu badan i. dah tu dia pun nak marah sama, dia kejut i sambil lewa je, takde pun nak kiss ke, tolong tarik badan i yang dah berat ni ke, sedih sangat. i pun bangun terus masuk bilik. no night kiss, cuma dia tanya "panas tak?". sebab dia nak off kipas, bukak aircond je.

ok fine. nak cari gado kannn...

malam tu menangis la i sendirian mengenang nasib. ahahaha...drama sangat, nangis-nangis ingat dia dengar, rupanya dah tidur. perghh...lagi mendidih la i. tapi entah camne, pagi-pagi bangun i dah tidur dekat lengan dia, and dia pun dah genggam tangan i. ceh, magnet sangat.

pagi ni kat ofis, masa i tengah lepak-lepak pagi dengan collegues i, sekali diorang jerit, "ada delivery gift for u!". i pun tepuk-tepuk tangan excited. i ingat diorang main-main, biasalah budak ofis i kurang matang sikit. sekali i dengar ada suara orang lelaki, "Puan F**** H******* ada?". laju-laju i pergi kat pintu Lecture Room kitorang.

sah, i dapat bunga!! OMG terkejut beruk i! lepas signed and all, i dapat kad. as below:

okay serious terharu. menjerit-jerit i kat ofis. hahaha.....lama siot from the last time i dapat bunga. i rasa last i dapat bunga last year kot, sekuntum jer, encik husband la belikan. gila apa orang lain bagi. ni dapat 8-stalks. terharu sebab banyak sebab:

1. we were arguing about the baby's name. he wanted the Sophea to be Sofia, tapi i nak Sophea. and now dia letak Sophea instead of Sofia. means dia setuju kan dengan nama i.
2. he called me by Mama Auni Sophea Zara. means he welcoming the baby, isn't he?is he actually excited waiting for the arrival of the baby?
3. he sent me flower sebab nak pujuk i hal semalam kot.
4. he knows just about the right time to make me fall in love with him (again) when i feel like he don't love me anymore (statement mintak tangan satu).

petang ni balik i nak bagi dia kiss yang paling bermakna sekali dalam hidup. kiss seorang isteri untuk suami dia yang tengah marah. hahaha....eh, dia yang marah ke i yang tengah marah sebenarnya nie? hikhik...tak kisah la. dah sehari i tak bertegur sapa dengan encik husband, haruslah kerinduan melampau. ni dapat bunga pun tak roger encik husband ni. mengada sangat perangai macam ni.

balik ni nak mintak ampun dan maaf la kat encik husband. kesian dia. kesian dia takde kawan. i pun dah marah takde lah nak borak-borak sangat dengan dia. selalu mulut i je tak stop bercakap. tapi i rasa dia aman jugak lah i diam sepanjang hari. hahaha....nanti kita tanya dia.

ok guys, nak siap-siap barang balik rumah. excited angat nak bawak bouquet naek train. -_______-

The VVIP in me...hik!

busy pulak ibu nandong recently. encik husband kan dah pindah sini, so banyak masa diperlukan untuk uruskan dia, and everything else. nak spend time dengan dia pun yer jugak...hikhik...i kan tak boleh jauh-jauh dari dia, rasa macam kurang plak drugs i kalau dia takde.

so anyway, nak dekat seminggu jugak encik husband dok hantar i sampai ke ofis, dia akan pass by office dia, and sama-sama turun dekat station i, pastu dia patah balik naik train ke ofis dia balik. he wanted to kill the time. dia masuk lambat sikit kan.

like always, petang memang excited sangat i nak jumpa dia. ehh...kata dia kan boyfriend i, excited je la memanjang. sama macam kalau pagi-pagi subuh tu. dari kul 5.30am sampai la 6.30am, takde nya kitorang bangun. duk tergolek sana sini tak bangun. hahahaha....melampau sangat!

haritu dinner i masak sardin, telur dadar, sayur. semalam bukan tak larat cuma dah tak tau nak masak apa, and bahan-bahan nak masak pun takde. last-last decide makan nasi kukus ayam dara. siapa pernah makan??actually ayam goreng berempah dengan nasi kukus je, pepandai je bagi ayam dara ke apa. biasalah kan pelaris. tapi kat kedai encik husband beli tu memang sedappppp...

lama jugak kitorang makan, berborak-borak (kitorang apa lagi, bagi 10tahun bercakap pun tak cukup cukup, padahal pagi berborak, bbm tak tinggal, petang dalam kereta borak lagi, malam nak tidur borak lagi...-_______-). nasi daripada tak habis (konon nak buat nasi goreng pagi ni) habis jugak encik husband makan. sebab memang sedap nasi dia!

then malam tu kitorang dah start pack beg hospital baby pie. sebab papa dia dah bising-bising baju tak siap-siap. hahaha....sepatutnya i yang buat, pastu i just took the checklist, check one by one, encik husband tolong lipat and masukkan dalam beg. good job papa!kalau mama yang buat memang melimpah ruah barang dalam beg, papa dia buat kemas je. so now barang-barang tu dah ada dalam kereta. anytime soon.

oh baby dah 29weeks. ada 10weeks to go. ada dalam 2 bulan 2 minggu lagi. i just can't wait.

tapi serious takut. hahaha...is it normal?? normal la kot kan. first time ni nak beranak. hahaha....

anyway pagi tadi masa nak pergi kerja, kalau you guys perasaan, dekat setiap rapil lrt train station ada tempat laluan khas. laluan khas ni untuk orang cacat, OKU, orang tua, orang bawak luggage besar gedabak ke, itulah laluan dia. so pagi tadi encik husband tanya i,

"sayang.....laluan khas ni untuk siapa??" sambil dia letak touch n' go dia kat laluan sebelah laluan khas tu.

i jawab dengan yakin,

"untuk orang-orang macam i la...." sambil letak touch n' go i plak dekat laluan khas tu, dengan muka bangga.

encik husband laughed like there's no tomorrow.

hrmmmm.....*smile* i just LOVE him to death.=)

Suami Kasihan Kepada Isteri

amboi tajuk.

pagi ni encik husband ajak lagi pergi breakfast sama. i cakap tak payah nak membazir duit (despite i malas nak siap awal redah pagi yang hening ke ofis), i cakap kita breakfast kat rumah jela. pukul 6.00am alarm bunyik macam biasa AND yes, kitorang mandi around 7am. good job la papa dengan mama baby pie nie.

encik husband pagi ni baru nak bising-bising mintak baju hitam kolar sebab harini ada site-visit. i thought dah di siapkan baju dia sendiri, ada jugak tertinggalnya. fine. 2-5pieces baju i carikan dia, takde yang dia suka. besarlah. macam bodoh la. macam kecik lah. cerewet is him. so last-last pakai baju forensik i, baju masa i attached kat makmal forensik dulu. mula-mula complaint baju besar, last-last sendiri jatuh cinta dengan baju tu. hahaha.....cam bebudak!

sambil tunggu dia siap and solat subuh, i panaskan nasi goreng semalam, buat air teh panas, goreng telur dadar (demand gila nak telur dadar, banyak sangat la kan masa i nak pukul telur tu pagi-pagi...-___-), keluarkan cornflakes and susu untuk i pulak.

then cepat-cepat siap. rasa sangat super women kat situ.

then naik kereta sama-sama and go to work sama-sama. and then masa dalam train dengan mp3 pun sama-sama, gelak-gelak. im so happy spending every second with him. in fact that kitorang dah pun bercinta for 9 years, and marriage yang nak masuk 1 year this coming may, i still have that strong feeling for him, and whenever i see him, i just feeling nervous because of course i want to look best in front of him, and not being someone stupid and silly, and jumpa someone yang you sayang sepenuh jiwa raga you, is just another best but weird feeling.

sendiri rasa la. =)

he accompanied me sampai kat station ofis i, sebab dia cakap he doesn't have any punch card, so they can come bila-bila masa but not late than 9am, and dia sangat sweet nak hantar i sampai ofis. tengah hari ni dia busy kot, and i too, had class pagi tadi so pretty busy. he BBMed once in a while, so sekarang terasa rindu plak. can't wait petang ni nak jumpa.

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semalam lepas dia amik i kat station, dia cakap nak bawak kereta pergi cuci, so i said i want to follow him jugak. sambil aney tu cuci kereta, we spent time talking and bercinta. haihh...depan tempat cuci kereta pun boleh. hahaha....

i showed him my arm, lebam sebab bekas/kesan jarum amik darah masa check up hari tu. dia usap-usap lebam tu lama sangat sambil tenung bekas lebam tu. lama sangat dia diam. maybe dia sedih ke terharu ke apa. i yang tengok dia pun macam nak nangis jugak, sebab eh kan ibu nandong ni sekarang sensitif lebih. pastu tak lama lepas tu, dia usap-usap perut i sambil cakap,

"baby pie, esok jangan lawan-lawan cakap mama tau. dengar mama cakap apa... kalau degil, buat mama marah, papa masukkan balik dalam perot..."

hikhik. i dah tergelak-gelak. rasa garang tapi comel plak encik husband cakap macam tu.

maybe dia kesian dengan i. semalam masa balik pun dia cakap, "jauh jugak kan b u jalan turun dari lrt station ke ofis, lepas tu lunch lagi. tukar train. petang balik masak untuk i, pergi jogging dengan i, iron baju i, kemas rumah..."

i senyap je. but i felt bersyukur at least dia notice benda-benda tu. tak ramai orang notice those small things, even i perempuan pun i tak notice kesusahan and kepayahan dia nak make sure i comfortable and happy. so at least lepas ni kalau rumah bersepah or i cant spend most of my time with him (sebab uruskan baby pie and rumah), i harap dia faham because my time is limited.

masa dan tenaga i dah dicurahkan ke tempat lain.

pagi tadi masa kitorang tengah breakfast, dia tengok je i breakfast. (i makan mulut penuh sangat kot..hahaha..). tiba-tiba he asked for a kiss on the lips,

"ciom sikit la...."

" (kissed him on the lips)"

"i love you sayang....so much..." 

katanya.

Lunch Date dengan Boyfriend

8 months. kedengaran agak lama. tapi it has come to and end. 8-month encik husband yang dicintai pergi kursus, and during that 8-months he was not with me everyday and every night. lepas 3 hari i dapat tau i pregnant, encik husband pergi jauh ke selatan negara untuk berkursus, tinggallah ibu nandong kesepian dan kesedihan. hehehehe....so anyway, encik husband dah nak habis kursus dia. lagi 2 bulan je. and the best yet, 2 bulan ni he will be ENTIRELY in KUALA LUMPUR!!yeeehhaaa!!

and the day he is in kuala lumpur starts today.

*senyum tutup mata tapi ada air mata menitis sikit kat hujung mata*

so malam tadi dia tidur dengan i, dekat rumah my parents, not our own home. kitorang terbangun pukul 3 pagi, entah alarm siapa entah yang bunyik. when i took the phone and he was up too, i said to him sambil mamai2, "sayang...baru pukul 3(pagi), lama lagi...ehehehe...". he was laughing in the dark too and we continued our sleep. hahahaha.....sweet je terbangun sama-sama pastu tergelak sebab tau ada lagi 3 jam sebelum the exact time untuk bangun.( nampak sangat kuat tidur).

pukul 6am alarm bunyik and yet kitorang took almost 15mins untuk bangun pergi mandi. i bangun first sebab nak iron baju, baju dia dah awal-awal i iron kan. i turun tengok dia dah dalam toilet. good. tapi nak tunggu dia mandi adalah sangat perempuan. why la why!?

lepas dah siap-siap, ayah hantar pergi train station. then we took the train and pergi kerja sama-sama. sweet gila rasa. okay jangan terasa menyampah sebab this was my FIRST TIME ever pergi kerja dengan dia. gelap-gelap dah naik train. hahaha....dalam train dua-dua ngantuk. then we stopped at his station and had breakfast sama-sama.

nasi lemak okay. tak pernah (tipu!) i makan nasi lemak for breakfast. tak la sesedap i masak (prfttt!), but it was edible. pukul 8.30am macam tu i balik naik train to my office.

pastu dah rindu-rindu. hahaha.....OVERLY ATTACHED (pregnant) WIFE....hahaha...what to do.

tengah hari i risau la mamat tu makan apa. he is not familiar with KL, i mean dekat tempat dia posting pagi tadi, so i BBM him asking kat mana dia nak makan. tiba-tiba dia call,

"sayang...jom makan sama..."

"what??sayang kat mana ni?"

"tengah nak naik train nak jumpa u...."

*hati melting berderai-derai bentuk love bertaburan atas lantai*

oi, encik husband ajak lunch date ni. OMG nervous gila...hahaha!!yela, i kan tak pernah lunch date dengan dia. gile la...dah la i ada kelas tadi kul 2.00pm. sah-sah i lambat start class (insert: student cheering!). berpeluh-peluh i tunggu dia, hahaha....tengah makan pun boleh peluh-peluh. sebab cover malu, cover cun depan encik husband.

i sampai dulu kat food court, encik husband datang kemudian. so kita yang menunggu haruslah debaran lebih kuat dari orang yang datang jumpa kita kan?sebab kita menunggu. gulp!

adelah dalam 40mins je kitorang makan sama. balik tu jalan pimpin2 tangan balik ofis i. taklah sampai ofis sebab dia nak kena naik train balik. but i was happy. tak pernah terfikir encik husband sanggup bersusah payah dan berpanas terik untuk lunch date dengan i. omg sapa yang lunch opis dengan husband mesti happy jer kan.

i sampai tak sempat-sempat nak cerita nak borak-borak. macam lah tak jumpa kat rumah. memang lah jumpa, tapi the feelings having lunch dengan encik husband time office hour, is THRILL. hahaha....excited dia kemain sangat.

happy sangat today.

sangat-sangat.

kalau lah encik husband tau betapa having him in my life really makes my world seems like heaven, and the thoughts of 'we' are going to heaven sama-sama, is just amazing. having him in my life is one of the greatest gift Allah had gave me.

and i wont take him for granted, and that i swear to love him as long as Allah allows me.

because he is the best guy one could ever have. i mean like really. he is one of a kind. and i love him to death. =)

Tunggu dan terus tunggu

This pregnancy, i tell u, is not an easy one. hahaha....i mean, compared myself to some other people, yang ada morning sickness, yang ada anemia, yang ada mild osteoporosis, i admitted that i am such a lucky one. cuma i ada fatigueness yang i created myself. cuma.....i just missed my other half so much. he's not around, you know. and he will only back bila dia dapat perlepasan which falls on weekend sahaja, itu pun depends dua minggu sekali ke, sebulan sekali ke. and if you ever wondering around, he's not a police nor an army officer, although the reason i fell in love with him because he was in the army school before and he looked damn sexy in the army attire *hidung berdarah*. pastu gatal cari nama and all in the internet. oh i missed being a teenage and naughty-naughty macam tu. teeheeee.....

ok fokus. jangan melalut.

so, kadang-kadang i penat jugak balik kerja and all, and i need someone to be by my side, or at least reassure me that everything will be alright, and that person (husband) will always be there for me, no matter what. as 'be there for me' adalah ada dengan i masa i nak tidur and masa i bangun tidur. and dia boleh kejut i bangun tidur and i don't have depend much on the phone's alarm. it's annoying and irritates me tau. setiap pagi.

tengok. semua dah rasa tak best. sampai alarm pun sakitkan hati i.

i guess i really missed him.

semalam dia bbm i,

" i miss you like crazy sayang..."

luluh jantung i rasa nak nangis jer. and i just looked into the phone's screen, reminiscing all the greatest moment i dengan dia. apa yang kitorang buat when there were just the two of us. we really had fun and we do feels like the world is ours. betullah orang cakap, bila cinta itu datang, everything seems so nice and falls into places. and being with the person you love the most, memang takkan ada gantinya.

masa yang kita spend dengan orang yang paling kita cinta dalam hidup kita, setiap saat tu rasa cepat je jalan.

ada this one day, Sunday to be exact. sunday selalunya hari encik husband kena balik to the training centre. so selalu dia akan drive back around 7pm macam tu. so masa tu dah pukul 3pm. i was ironing his clothes. tiba-tiba dia cakap,

"ala sayang.....dah pukul 3pm!!cepat laa gosok baju...kita rindu awak...nak golek-golek..."

apakah? hikhik....senyum-senyum je masa i iron baju dia tu. wondering how am going to live my life without him. kejap-kejap karang dia datang jenguk i kat bilik ironing. nak suruh cepat la tu. sikit-sikit datang peluk i. you tell me bila i nak habiskan kerja i dengan cepat kalau dia keep on clinging dengan i? although masa yang i amek untuk iron tu lebih lama, but having him around me, kacau-kacau i, really make my day, and kita pun tak rasa penat sangat nak iron.=)

minggu ni dia balik. but he'll be late sebab dia nak singgah kampung. i'm fine with it cuma i missed him so much, nak la dia balik awal kan? so masa untuk bergaduh dan bercinta tu lebih lama. hikhik. oklah got to go!ada event plak kat college ni.

Tendang bukan kurang ajar, bukan.

You know what, baby pie kan, she has this amazing but funny ways to move around (or should I say 'in'?) my tummy. Sometimes she do the stretching-like movement so I can see my own tummy skin moves from one side to another side like a wave.

Or she do the sommersault-like movement, and this time she makes me feel like I have to run for the bathroom, and yet lepas dia stop tu, I dah halfway jalan to the bathroom. -_________- nice la anak mama ni.

Or right now, the most popular moves she did was banging-like movement. It seems like she ketuk-ketuk my tummy sampai bergegar. Can you imagine that? So bila bergegar tu perut I bergegar sekejap kat atas, or bergegar sekejap kat bawah.

And sometimes I purposely gegarkan perut I, saje nak lawan dengan die. You know, sitting on the chair and shake my huge tummy vigorously. And after that, senyap plak dia. Mesti dia pening! Ha ha ha..padan muka..kacau mama lagi. I think she's feeling bored inside so she gives me a kick just to notify me. Selalu I nak alihkan perhatian dia, I bagi dia makan or minum. Nanti dia senyap la. Mesti dia omnomnomnom dengan senang hati inside.

Oh yes, subway sandwich! Thank u mommy! -____-

kadang-kadang I tergelak sendiri bila rasa dia moves tu. Especially bila dia gegar2kan perut I. She really makes me happy. Sekarang I senang feeling bored and mudah sedih. Biasalah pembawakan budak (at 3rd trimester?prffttt!). Encik husband is not around. Ada a few friends ajak keluar, makan lepak and all, I just don't have the mood to keluar. I suka stay at home or spend my precious time dengan kawan baek I, encik husband. So bila I sedih, buah hati I dalam perut ni really make my day.

I happy sebab no matter what she's always there for me. Walaupun dia tak faham I cakap apa, tapi I tau die faham apa yang I rasa. I yang carry dia all around the place. Bila dah besar I harap dia faham kenapa I want her/him to stay at home n tak keluar2 dari rumah. Ha ha ha.

Anyway, kakak opis cakap dia dah besar la tu dah pandai ketuk2. Hikhik..so funny la u baby pie. I wanted to read you some story book, tapi..macam funny jer. U want me to read you sayang?

Cuba kick sikit perot mama tanda setuju.. Ha ha ha ha...

#crazymoms
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No more nasi for me!

Yeah rite.

But as weird as it sounds, I just can't eat nasi lagi. I'm not sure about nasi goreng or nasi lemak or nasi ayam or nasi ayam penyet etc, but for now, dah dua hari I makan nasi putih berlauk dengan cara memaksa diri. Tak ikhlas sangat I makan nasi putih berlauk tu.

I just pity my baby inside takot dia lapar.a mother got to do what she has to do.

But if you ask me what I really wanted to eat, anything sweet and cheesy will always be my top choices. Cakes, sweets, biscuits, lasagna, pasta, urghhhhh yummy!! Suka sangat.

Satu yang I perasan, masa I pregnant ni I suka sangat junk food. Dulu, setakat keropok kerapak tu takde nye I beli, jeling pun harapan jer. Sekarang, those section yang I terjah dulu.Hrmmm..betul la orang cakap, apa yang kita tak makan dulu, masa pregnant mesti kita makan.

I guess 2nd round pregnant, I nak crave for semua yang cheesy, so before getting pregnant I takkan makan semua yang cheesy tu. Hahaha...brilliant kan? Prfttt!

So today, I cooked and brought my own sandwich to office. Ada telur, tomato, and hotdog in between. That's for my lunch. Or kalau I lapar nanti-nanti I go subway to eat. Tapi tu la, nak menapak tu malas.

Due to my laziness nak makan, I kena marah dengan encik husband. Bebel-bebel suruh makan. Siap bagi idea ikan masin or telur masin can meningkatkan selera. Cehh...selera dia la tu.hikhik..I guess he was right. Tapi so far I tak makan lagi benda-benda tu.

So today, kite lunch with sandwich!! :)
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Collapse during pregnancy

I think my blood counts are reducing. As we know, during pregnancy, baby pun akan consume darah kita and whatever it is in our body. So I believed that we eat for two. Or kalau nak ala-ala sedap, whatever we eat is divide by two, ha rasa la macam kurang makan sikit kan? Hahaha...

Anyway semalam tak lunch. Takde class pun semalam, tapi sebab I bad mood dengan encik husband, makan pun tak lalu. And petang tu, abang plak nak amek, wahhh cun sangat la tu. Tapi tidak yer, I have to wait for him almost 30mins. Dahla tak makan tengah hari tu, really I felt like pass out.

Symptom nak pengsan :
1. Tekak gatal and batuk.
2. Sakit perut.
3. Rasa nak muntah yang amat sangat.

Kalau abang I lambat lagi 15mins, memang I pengsan kat situ. Thus, in conclusion, a pregnant women cannot stand any longer than 15mins, she can collapse at anytime, and this can injured the baby inside.

So kalau korang nampak perempuan pregnant, be it kat shopping complex, especially dalam train, tengah que for taxi ke, que beli stuff kat food court ke, prioritize them. Selain dapat pahala, we will feel good about ourselves.

Balik tu, mengadu2 dengan encik husband konon nak rasa dimanjai, jangan harap!kena marah ada la. Kena bebel. And he knows how to make me feeling guilty with my act. Pastu tetiba I kesian kat baby pie, sebab she must be hungry. I'm sorry syg..:(

Malam tu mama masak asam pedas ikan siakap, sambal sotong, sayur and telur dadar. Yummy sgt! I makan sikit jer tapi rasa nak terbelahak tu kuat sangat. Rasa nak muntah tapi tahan je sebab membazir lauk makan tadi.

Lepas 2 jam baru I rasa lega.

Encik husband was with me sampai pukul 10pm.dengar I bebel and borak2 takde tujuan. pastu he'd got to go, ade class. Rindu betul kat budak tu.hee..

Pagi ni I had oats and milk for breakfast. Sedap gilaaaaa! I kan suka oats..dap2! :)


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Drama Queen (sangat!)

you know, orang cakap the first trimester is the, what we said, the vulnerable time for both mama and baby. i mean macam untuk baby, kena jaga diri, tak boleh lasak-lasak sebab baby tak kuat lagi etc. and during that time too, mama dia akan jadi a lil bit of drama queen, sikit-sikit emosi, tak dapat makan pun emosi, dah kalau bergaduh dengan encik suami lagi la terlebih emosi.

right?

yeah riteeee.....sebab puan wife ni, dah masuk 3rd trimester baru nak gedik-gedik ada symptom pregnancy ni dah kenapa? err....i guess different people have different  kind of stories about their pregnancy, kan?

bukan apa, mula-mula i terperasan sangat yang hati i lembut bak sutera dan sehalus cotton candy when i asked my big brother untuk belikan limau ais kat kedai mamak. masa tu panas walaupun dah pukul 9pm. he went for his gym session so i watsapp him to buy me limau ais since dia tengah lepak kat situ pun. sekali dia balik tu, bukan takat limau ais takde, 100+ or everything else pun takde (selalu je dia balik tangan berisi). masa tu mata i dah berair-air menahan rasa sedih macam takde orang sayang kita, macam takde orang kisah pun ibu nandong kehausan. memang sedih sangat. terus mood i jatuh menjunam and terus ajak abang i balik rumah, masa tu kat rumah my aunty.

tu one story.

another story, i tengah baring-baring tengok movie kat astro. cerita tu tak sedih pun, in fact, it was a funny movie cuma adalah satu scene tu macam sweet-sweet. sweet tau, bukan sedih. sekali tetiba meleleh-leleh air mata i. luckily mama and ayah were not there. kalau tak malu je. and i let my tears stream down my face while bbm encik husband mintak perhatian. nasib dia ada melayan. if not memang gaduh sebulan la. and luckily he didn't notice any changes kat kita. maybe dia ada rasa pelik kenapa wife dia a bit strange that day (mintak perhatian lebih), but i guess he used to that.

then recently i had a fight dengan encik husband. well, kan i dah cakap kalau seminggu berjauhan, lama tak jumpa, sibuk and all that, memang possibility untuk gaduh tu sangat tinggi. entah kenapa pun i tak tau. but u tell me. kalau dekat (duduk serumah) pun gaduh, apatah lagi jauh pun gaduh, means kitorang ni camne ni nak handle? haa...tak faham kan? encik husband cakap apa entah, hati i sentap sangat. bergetar2 bibir i tahan nangis, tapi nangis la jua. berjurai-jurai.

ni kat opis ni pun tadi dia bbm ape ntah, berjurai-jurai air mata i. sedih gila..padahal kalau ikot logik bukan apa sangat pun. tapi entahlah, sayu sangat rasa kat hati.

encik husband insist nak baik-baik dengan i, but the things he said just hurt me so much. sebenanrnya takde la hurt so much, tapi i rasa hurt sangat (apakah?). tapi dah baik dah, sebab i tengok barang-barang baby online tadi pastu excited nak cantik-cantikan bilik baby dengan beliau, pastu okay la jadiknya. lagipun encik husband dah pujuk dari malam semalam tapi i buat dek je sebab sedih. menyampah gila kat diri sendiri.

Him : "i miss my wife..... =("
Me : " kite tengah tengok barang baby la...*hugs*"

Him : "garang. taknak la gaduh lagi..."
Me : "nanti balik kite gi shopping k??" ( dah tak ingat pasal gaduh sebab shopping mode on)
Him : "*hugs*

hahahaha...how easy it was. kalau lah encik husband tahu i hanya boleh dipujuk dengan makanan sedap dan session membeli belah, mesti dia orang paling bahagia sangat. bahagia tak bahagia la, kopak wallet kalau tiap minggu wife merajuk.

inilah masalah i sekarang. hati rapuh sangat. and i rasa this week dah dua kali i muntah. sedangkan masa first trimester tu boleh kira la berapa kali i muntah. 3 kali kot sepanjang pregnancy ni. alhamdulilah sangat kan? tapi i think i over ate. perot dah besar sebab baby dah occupied the space, perut jadi kecik, tapi makan macam perut lembu, ada 4. memang terbelahak la keluar.

so itulah cerita drama queen kita. entah lepas ni ape lagi la akan terjadi kat i and encik husband?hahaha....*evil laugh*

anyway, weekend ni dah tau nak masak apa since encik husband balik! oh yeah.... maybe sweet sour fish and some mix vege. dapnyerr....teringin sangat!=)

1st Ultimate Gift dari Nenek and Atok!

Hari sabtu lepas, my second brother buat a small gathering kat rymah dia kat Hartamas. small gathering and makan-makan. although i dont like to go there, but thinking that he's my brother and i have so much respect for him as a brother, pergi la jugak walaupun dalam keadaan terpaksa. and ayah bising-bising, biasalah ayah-ayah membebel-bebel pasal siblings , family and all that.

but i'm glad i did it. sebab dah lama tak berborak berdua macam tu (the wife is not there...fuhhh...if not, we dont get the chance pun nak borak!). kitorang memang close pun since school time due to our gap yang tak jauh beza, dalam 3 years jer. but i'm the one who got married first. =)

anyway, the menu for that day were nasi lemak and laksa, some agar-agar and teh tarik and juices. sedap la sebab caterer dia memang caterer yang family kitorang selalu amik. since i don't eat the whole day, i felt so hungry, so i melantak macam there's no tomorrow. Turn out, i lupa kan perut semakin kurang spaces sebab baby pie dah occupied ke atas.

and yes baby, i threw up! banyak gila, sampai makanan breakfast pun keluar jugak. but i felt so relieved. terus perut macam kempis perasan kurus. ha ha ha... -_____________-

then malam tu i suggested that we (me, mama and ayah) go to IKEA since i think from Hartamas - Mont Kiara - Damansara dekat jer. and yes, in 15minutes kitorang dah sampai. masa lalu sebelum u-turn dekat simpang OU tu macam tak banyak kereta, tapi lepas u-turn je terus banyak. apakah? and IKEA's parking lot tutup, boleh? sebab penuh sangat. but i asked ayah tu queue dekat pintu masuk parking lot tu, me and mama went in first.

kitorang terus pergi dekat children's section. tengok baby cot. tengok bumper pad, mattress, blanket, and etc. since semua barang ni akan berada di rumah mama, so she paid for all! alhamdulilah rezeki baby pie..hikhik!! first cucu kan, haruslah di showering dengan kasih sayang dan kemanjaan. dah alang-alang mama bayar tu, i sumbat la benda-benda kecil comel yang lain.storage case and all. tak jadi nak beli changing table sebab mama kata baby pie takkan muat.

hello!!my baby won't be that big sampai changing table pun tak muat. haihhh....*jeling perot papa dia* hahahaha!

and on sunday me, ayah and mama bertungkus lumus pasang. actually, ayah asked papa dia untuk pasangkan but papa dia balik next week, so we need to check kalau ada kayu yang cip ke, screw tak cukup ke etc etc kita boleh mintak refund/change.

dalam manual dia suruh 2 orang je dah cukup untuk pasang. padahal kena at least 3 orang pasang k. tergelak-gelak kitorang pasang. hehehe....sebab macam bodoh je, lubang tak jumpa la, ni tak jumpa la. hahaha....but it was fun! i asked them to put the baby crib outside my room, diorang kate semak la ape. -______- fine! letak la sebelah katil i.

so i pun berangan baring tepi baby's crib tu and said, "shhhhh.....senyap senyap. tidur laa...". mama and ayah laughed at me. whatever i dont care. esok baby pie bising i cakap macam tu jugak. or i just turn to my ultimate hero encik husband and give baby pie to him, "sayang....baby nangis. nahh...tolonggg...".

nak tengok baby's crib baby pie yang nenek and atuk dia belikan?

so putih suci bersih. and the nenek's bought for baby pie all white including bedsheet, blanket, pillow, and bumper pad. even the storage system pun putih. salahkan baby pie yang malu nak tunjuk gender dia. but sayang, even if you are a boy/girl, mama still want the white things for you. and mama and papa loves you no matter what. we hope you know that. =)

Sombong Angat!

Yeay! Breast pump I dah sampai. I was so excited when I got home semalam, and lepas letak beg terus suruh ayah bukak kan kotak. And there it was, breast pump, switch kit, and also nipple shield for my baby. Mama and ayah pun excited..kikiki. Diorang kata "it has been 21years since ada baby kat rumah..".

I hope (and pray) that I will use it for 2 years and more. Nanti membazir je tak guna.

So settle dah barang feeding. Toilteries baby pun I dah beli, tapi semua in travel size, sebab nanti nak bawak dalam hospital beg. It won't take up so much space.

Weekend ni ingat pun nak cari barang baby tambah-tambah. tapi susah jugak nak carik barang putih suci ni. And plus tak tau gender baby. Haihh...what can I say. Baby pie ni penuh misteri.

Macam papa dia masa mula2 bercinta dulu. He talked less, he was not that open with me. So I had to asked him a lot of questions. Just so that I tau ape interest die, ape die suka and what not. But I found it enjoyable..hahaha...asking him a lot of questions.

Sebab tu dulu I thought he don't love me. Selalu la bergaduh, even sampai sekarang pun. Sebab dia kan suka cari gaduh dengan I. Lepas tu dia kan macam tak sayang dengan I. Hahaha...tak sayang tapi baby pun dah nak sampai dah ni.hehehe...

I know he loves me, tapi biasa la lelaki, bukan dia nak show sangat pun. Encik husband ni, kalau jalan-jalan kat mall, takde nya dia bagi I pelok pinggang dia. Entah kenapa. Kadang-kadang kecik ati jugak..tapi selalu pun I paksa je.

Pedulik apa. Kata kekurangan kasih sayang.

Hahahha....

Eh okay la. Melalut pulak cerita. Zohor pun dah berkumandang. So let's go! :)


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Cake Punya Cerita

malam isnin lepas, me and my family celebrated my birthday. it was just a small ceremony, cuma i requested nak makan sedap. mama suggested untuk makan luar since encik husband yang kuat makan tu ada sekali sebelum dia balik downsouth, but i insisted nak makan kat rumah.

mama : "nak makan luar ke?"
me : "taknak la ma. homecook food is the best food in the world...!"
mama : "so nak makan apa?"
me : " ketam masak lemak, sambal sotong, pak choy steam..."
mama : " ok...nanti mama balik keje mama masak...."

wehuuu. i came home to found not only those delicious yummy dishes, but mama masak spaghetti jugak. nak pengsan i sebab hati gembira tidak terkata. and also, i found out ada cake atas meja. lagi la suka hati. excitedly open (nampak sangat tak menyabar) and mulut bising-bising cakap selama ni takde orang belikan cake and all....hahaha...kesian sangat.

and i was shocked masa bukak kotak cake tu, it stated,

"happy birthday *** (isi my name), love ***(isi nama encik husband)"

aik???bila masa pulak encik husband belikan cake nie?? dia dah balik ke??i was looking for him in the entire house, excitedly carik tapi takde pun. tengok dalam bilik mana tau ada barang dia ke sebab maybe kereta dia bawak keluar but barang-barang dia dah bawak masuk bilik, tapi takde jugak. i was confused, and a bit mad.

ayah cakap, "hello....entah dia buat delivery ke?? dulu masa you dapat bunga kat MidValley pun orang delivery bagi kan?? ape la you nie...". cehh, ayah mengingatkan i masa zaman-zaman sweet bercinta dulu. masa tu i konvo, supposely dia temankan i, tapi he had to go for a meeting luar negeri, so he can't be there. and he sent me a bouquet of roses, ada 12. nak mintak maaf la tu kononnya. pagi-pagi sebelum konvo ada mamat call cakap nak hantar bunga, bila tanya siapa, mamat tu kata tak tau. fine. rupanya encik boyfriend aka encik husband kita bila baca kad.

termalu-malu i mendapat bunga sebesar itu. terus rasa jatuh cinta.

back to the cake, masa tu dalam pukul 7pm. pukul 9pm encik husband sampai, baru kita makan. siap nyanyi lagu birthday. i suruh nyanyi kuat sikit, macam takde tenaga nak celebrate birthday i, dengan mama and ayah dengan abang and SIL i suh nyanyi kuat-kuat. hikhik. i had so much fun! makan meratah ketam masak lemak cili padi memang terbaik.

and yes. me and encik husband were the last one to butt off from the table. ha ha ha....-________-

so, malam tu, i asked him,

"how come there was your name on the cake?bila sayang beli cake?"

dia jawab,

"ade la....". sambil gelak-gelak. ingat i suka dia buat perangai macam tu? T_T

so he started the whole story, masa tu i dah siap baring-baring nak tidur, usually kepala i atas lengan dia, and he loves to sleep with me bila i menghimpit-himpit macam tu.

"i ingat i nak beli cake sayang, tapi i takut i lambat and you all dah start dulu. i pun call ayah tanya ayah kat mana. ayah cakap dia kat luar. ha cun sangat tu kan ayah kat luar pulak. so i tanya ayah, "ayah...boleh belikan cake untuk *** tak? nanti saya bayar balik....". ayah pun cakap okay...so cake tu untuk sayang la...."

ok melting (but ego).

"nape nak kena beli cake??tak payah cake pun takpe sayang...."

"birthday kena la ada cake sayang....tak birthday la kalau takde cake...."

......

and i was smiling the entire night, deep inside my heart, thanking God for sending him to me, to take care of me, and to love me more than i deserved. and to had a good look on his face under the blanket with a dim light was just breath taking.

and i know, i still in love with him, the same men i fell in love 9 years ago, and i know my love for him will never changed. not now. promised myself to be a great wife to him. insyaAllah.. =)

Weekenders

i missed being a wife. you know, a solehah-kind of wife. hahaha....actually, what i mean was, i missed being a wife, cooking and cleaning for encik husband, ironing his 100 pieces of clothes and pants, sweeping and mopping the house, buang sampah and all. -______- but last week, i was at home with him and we kinda enjoyed our time together. dah lama sangat tak spend time berdua macam tu..=)

on friday, the day he went back to KL, we had a meeting/family gathering at nenek's house. husband gave a surprise where by he changed the car's tyres and it was quite an expensive tyres, i mean for a local car, we did not need an expensive tyres right? it was almost rm400 for both tyres, but yeah. he is so sweet like that. at night, he brought all of my travel bags into the car (of course with a complaint why i have to bring so much bags for only over a weekend. i mean, he did not understand me at all. 1 for clothes, 1 for toiletries, and another one for MISC....prfttt...). it was late when we arrived home, but i had enjoyed cleaning the house sampai pukul 2am and i don't feel tired.

i don't feel tired when he is around me, definitely.

on saturday, we had a relatives wedding near putrajaya, and he kept telling me that i looked beautiful on that day, and he kissed me a lot, all over my face. walaupun rimas, but i kinda like it. i love it when he did that, tapi kadang-kadang mengacau dia lebih and i can't do my work properly. -________- sometimes i just wish that he off to sleeps. hikhik...

balik wedding we just stayed at home, watching movies, and munching on fruits and snack until we falled asleep and only woke up nak dekat maghrib, lepas tu kelam kabut makan and kemas barang sebab nak tidur kat rumah MIL. MIL was alone at home as abah is busy with Le Tour. encik husband balik semata nak tengok bola (we don't have astro, remember?). i accompanied him while doing my Sudoku, and cannot tahan until 1am i asked him to masuk tidur since dia pun macam terkebil-kebil tahan mata. ahahaha.....so cute!berlagak macam orang muda, tapi tak boleh pun.

ahad pagi tu, MIL dah siap-siapkan breakfast and i had roti canai and some kuih. then, we went to Ikea to survey some items for home macam bookcase and baby cot. i bought a nice cheap big glass bowl, and already used it malam tadi letak kuah bolognese. husband insisted nak ajak i pergi makan Chillis or TGIF, but i want him to splurge the money for my new handbeg, as a birthday present!! he said okay, tapi ajak makan jugak.-_________- apakah??

and i insisted to have lunch at home as i wanted to cook! (i missed being a solehah wife, remember?hahaha)

we stopped at carefour, and he bought me some mini piza, and a few snacks. he even bought me bayam for my makan. malam tu we spent most of our time talking, hugging and playing around the house. husband cut fruits for me and baby pie, tembikai and honeydew. he was so sweet, he even stored the cut fruits in tupperware for easy munching. he cleaned the dinner table before me, and even wipe the kitchen top for me. sobs sobs.....tedih la...

lepas ni almost 1 week tak jumpa dia lagi. he'll be back to his training centre downsouth. i hope he will missed me as much as i do. take care sayang...we'll see you when you come home okay.

Baby's kicking : is it normal?

at about 25weeks, some of my friend said that my baby is quite active. even encik husband said, baby pie is just like the mother, active! i think by means was that, actively talking and moving around? prfttt...and my friend also said, "kau ada 3 more months to go, and anak kau dah active camni...kau bayangkan nanti perut kau dah besar, and anak kau dah takde space nak gerak, tapi dia active macam sekarang, camne?sakit tau!".

well well well, wasn't that a great story to be heard? -__________-

anyway, i had looked up on the internet and i found non-tips to reduce the movement for an active baby. i don't give up, i mean i'm giving up looking in the internet, but i berserah and tawakal to my Greatest God. so i'm back where i'd started, reading Al-Quran. ehehehe....

i downloaded a complete surah yasin in my phone. i switched it on and put it near my tummy, and - there it goes!! suprisingly baby pie had stopped moving!! or at least, baby pie did not move as fast and constantly like she did. hahaha...good job mama!! *thumbs up*

tak tau la apa sebabnya dia bergerak aktif macam tu. it was quite a good feeling, knowing that you are pregnant, and that she's a healthy baby, but sometimes, bila dia bergerak tu, i do feel like vomitting, and like cramp/senak on my tummy, i mean ini gerak yang non-stop ke apa.

the reasons that i can think about right now are because:
1. baby pie kepanasan. you know, living in a 36 degrees (or more) of temperature can really give you a moody kind of feeling. panas kot.

2. that baby pie is boring being alone inside. mama dia was a bit busy these few days, and her papa is not around to keep talking with mama, so baby pie tak dengar any familiar suara so she's kicking around to notify me, "hello mama...i'm here and i'm boreeeeddddd!!".

3. the limited space she have. as i said, my tummy is not that big and i don't actually look like a pregnant lady, i'm more like a fat lady...-___________- sobs! it's alright, i work it out nanti.. so, due to the limited spaces, baby pie is stretching to get more spaces.

4. she is just being a normal 5-month baby and she's kicking just to have the idea on how to use the legs and that she's ready to join in the taekwando class. well, papa will be the most happy person on earth sebab anak dia excited nak join martial art's class.

i won't let you join the class. sian anak mama nanti kena tendang-tendang. sobs sobs..... -___________-

***

anyhow, the surah yasin helps alot. apart of giving calmness to the baby, i also feel great. dan semoga me and my family sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah, the Almighty.

this weekend encik husband will be at home. thinking of cooking spaghetti since i don't eat rice dah. maybe he'll like it.

 malam tadi dia balik, suprisingly. he missed me as much i do i guess. hari-hari doa semoga our love will never fade, that i will always have this strong feeling towards him, and that he will love me and our baby more than his own life.

Kicking it!

encik husband balik awal then expected. 9.30pm dia dah call i (untuk yang ke 5 kali), telling me that he's coming home and i should be ready for a dinner outside. -_________- ye sayang, i tau u nak balik and i too, as excited as you are. hikhikhik....

before dia balik tu, i sempat panaskan popia and rojak, office mate bagi sebab dia datang melawat kitorang dari branch dia kat Sunway tu. popia ayam, takla sedap sangat but edible. makan dengan abang and my SIL lepas tu, kemas-kemas bilik 'bujang' i tu, siap tukar cadar and pillowcase, kata suami nak pulang.

ayah kan sebok, sebok suka solat kat bilik i, lepas tu dia ejek i, "hujan la malam ni....hujan la malam ni...", just because i changed the bedsheet and kemas bilik..macam buang tebiat la.. ha ha ha....jahat angat tau! siap pasang candle lagi, serious bilik tu dah bau macam bilik pengantin kitorang masa mula-mula kahwin dulu. hahaha....padahal kat rumah sendiri takde pun nak pasang aromatic candle ke apa...tihii...

by 9.30pm tu encik husband dah sampai and terus pergi makan Kedai Sedap. i had a piece of roti canai and teh tarik, encik husband makan nasi goreng paprik and roti canai and teh o limau. had a good talk and laugh dari malam tadi sampai la pagi ni dia nak pergi balik training centre dia. by 6.30am dia dah on the road.

malam before tidur tu, selalu we all talk about daily activities and all. lepas tu mestilah cerita pasal baby pie. whooahhh....baby pie was rapidly moving semalam. so i asked encik husband to touched my tummy. letak je tangan dia, bergerak-gerak la baby pie tu. encik husband lepas tu memberi sepatah dua kata kepada baby pie, hahaha...tecik-tecik dah kena marah dengan papa dia. lepas tu dia tak gerak dah. lepas a few seconds dia gerak balik.

encik husband tanya kat baby pie, "hey, cakap apa tu??". so he puts down his left ear on my tummy, pastu kena tendang dengan baby pie. hahahaha.....so cute!! baby pie kecik-kecik dah tag team dengan mama dia. bila dah tutup lampu, mama and papa dia nak tidur, i felt she's moving on my side of tummy. dia tak kacau pun, but i rasa macam geli and a lil uncomfortable la. but i'm okay. at least i know she's alive and healthy.

hari ni i dont think encik husband akan balik. ahhh....sleeping with the one you love always gives the best comfort and warmth. and by being with him, and tengok muka dia every morning, and to see his smile everytime i wish him, "good morning sayang....", is just the greatest feeling. you know, i'm still smiling when i type these down.

i just love him. after 9 years, i still love him as much as i do. i pray hard that this feeling will last until forever.. =)

He's Back

4.45pm

i'm so happy at this moment. kan i cakap encik husband ada kat area KL for his training but he didn't have the chance untuk balik (tak boleh balik), waima jumpa i sekejap pun. but good news is, he's home tonight! walaupun dia akan sampai rumah around 10.30pm. -_______- prftttt!! but whatever it is, i'm so happy and baby pie is kicking happily inside!die pun tau kot papa dia nak balik..=)

thinking of cooking, nothing special only homemade cooking, but encik husband insisted on dine-in kat Kedai Sedap. we named them by Kedai Sedap sebab oh gosh, roti canai dia memang terbaik sangat!! for rm0.80 for a piece of thick roti canai, and lagi sedap sebab orang Melayu kita yang buat, Kedai Sedap definitely have both of my thumbs up, hahaha!

tapi okay jugak encik husband balik malam sikit, sebab bilik i kat rumah mama ni, boleh tahan macam bilik orang bujang. i mean katil and furniture semua dah macam hotel, tapi on my bed you can easily find my hairband, my sepit rambut, sikat, earphone, a few pieces of receipts, and others. hahahaha....so better i kemas-kemas, and siap mandi before he comes back.

mula-mula masa tau tu, encik husband just BBMed me. saja kacau-kacau dia tanya dia balik ke tak. sekali dia reply,

"kalau kita balik, awak masak tak?heeee...."

so kalau dia tanya macam tu, i dah boleh baca dah, dia memang balik punya. happy kemain la i kat office. dah fikir-fikir nak masak apa. tapi tiba-tiba rasa macam penatnya nak masak. hihihi....luckily encik husband nak makan Kedai Sedap. so okay la kan.

tak lama lepas tu dia call. call just nak bagitau dia balik lambat. prftttt......BBM je pun dah boleh kot. sengaja la tu nak dengar suara wife dia yang macam halilintar ni. eh tak percaya? dah banyak kali masa we had a conversation ke apa, in the end dia akan tutup telinga dia dengan tangan sebab i cakap kuat sangat. hahahahahahaha......maaflah. kerja saya yang membantu kelontaran suara saya ini. waahhhh.....hikhik!

hopefully tak hujan lebat sangat. semoga encik husband sampai dengan selamat sebab roti canai panas tebal berharga rm0.80 menunggu dengan sexynya atas tempat gorengan. omnomnom.....=)

Fight

husband being so nice to me. well, selalu pun dia baek-baek je dengan i, tapi sejak pregnant ni lagi bertambah baik, and i jadi semakin lemak berkrim (emotionally and physically...prftttt!). sentiasa memastikan isteri tercinta ni cukup makan and cukup rehat. rehat tu subjektif la sebab bila encik husband balik, berganda kerja nak kena buat kat rumah. but i'm not complaining...=)

tapi i realized i kept on chanting, "i lapar la b..." every 30minutes after we had a meal. so bad, right? sebab tu doctor suh kurangkan makan nasi, sebab ibu nandong suka la sangat munch on unnecessary things, so sekarang i tengah puasa nasi. ha ha ha, kesian ibu nandong, dah macam orang on diet. kalau ikotkan hati nak je i belasah oats pagi petang siang malam, but how about baby pie?see, mama sacrifice for you. -______- but after two days without nasi, i don't feel strange, kenyang jugak macam biasa. tapi sikit2 nak kunyah. so i prepared kismis and dates.

***

last week kan encik husband was around KL so memang setiap malam tidur i beralaskan lengan beliau. sweet sangat....pastu pagi-pagi dengar dia ngomel, "lengan i lenguh....". cis! ingat i tak boleh nak tangkap double meaning dia tu. but anyway, dia tetap hulur lengan dia untuk i setiap malam, without once dia take it off.

so ada sekali tu, i kat ofis, pagi la. so i'm a bit missing him so i gave him a call. tapi tak berjawab. i ni memang ada hantu dalam badan kalau call tak berjawab memang hangin puting beliung dalam badan ni berpusing-pusing. so puan wife dah merajuk kat situ and mula nak cari gaduh. i didn't reply, not even once his BBM, and i didn't picked up his calls.

and by petang i BBMed him, "u tak payah amik i, i balik naik bus...".

wahhhhh.....bajet laki kau teringin sangat nak amik kau la kan. noticed that he read my BBM but he didn't reply. ni pun buat i hangin jugak. tapi takpe la. kate dah in the fight kan?so kita teruskan lagi. by 6.40pm i arrived at the station, and he BBMed me, "tunggu i kat train...".

prftttt....sebok!

so dia pun sampai, i pun dengan muka tak malu naik kereta. tadi beriya-iya nak naik bus. wakakakaka.... stupid nonsense pregnant lady. hikhik....salam encik husband, and i kept on being silent. encik husband pun bawak i jalan-jalan ke jalan yang asing. wahh drama. tiba-tiba dia stop kat pasar malam. i seriously takde mood nak jalan dengan beliau. kata gado kan?

keluar je dari kereta, dia pegang tangan i. macam biasa. teehee...terus berbunga-bunga hati ini, pastu terus rasa nak peluk dia sebab rindu satu hari gado. hahahaha....rasa nak hentak kepala kat pokok pun yer jugak. so encik husband belikan macam-macam untuk i kunyah. keropok lekor, jagung bakar,murtabak, air kelapa. pastu dia beli sayur-sayur untuk i masak. dia nak makan nasi paprik malam tu. i pun pilih macam-macam dengan perasaan berbunga-bunga.

pastu jalan kat pasar malam haruslah ramai orang. yang encik husband sebok nak pegang tangan jugak macam ada orang nak curik bini dia. hahaha...i kadang-kadang kalau kat pasar malam sorang-sorang hangin jugak tengok orang jalan berpimpin2 ni. menggangu traffic. tapi kalau kita buat tak pe la plak kan?hahahah....maaflah sesiapa yang menyampah tu.

pastu dah alang-alang encik husband mengalah tu, i pun mintak maaflah jugak, sebab bergaduh the whole day. he was at his mom's house the whole day, playing PC games. patutlah tak berangkat. so memang i buat keputusan no astro and PC at home. sebab benda ni semua boleh buat gaduh.

gaduh-gaduh jugak. tapi kalau dah nama boyfriend, sayang plak tu...haruslah sekejap je dah baik. hihihihi....

^^