At 35 weeks of pregnancy

hari ni barang Ikea sampai! unfortunately sekarang ni Ikea's delivery man tengah hantar and assemble barang-barang tu kat rumah, and i am here, in the office, marking exam papers, and not knowing apa jadi kat rumah. nasib rumah tak bersepah, malu la orang datang (walaupun orang delivery jer), but it is people's perception about a person.

takkan la kalau rumah orang tu bersih, dia pengotor kan? sama jugak kalau rumah dia kotor, dia pembersih, kan? but the first statement orang tak kisah sangat, but statement no 2 kalau kita mention kat orang itu (rumah dia kotor), kita di panggil judgemental, right? right. dalam hidup ni, memang MANUSIA suka point out keburukan orang, instead of kebaikan orang.

tapi i try, (and im trying very hard) not to be this kind of people, this type. sangat tak baik. dalam Islam kan di ajar agar kita tak buka keaiban orang dan sentiasa berprasangka baik terhadap seseorang. biar Allah je yang balas kejahatan orang, bukan kita manusia. senang saja kalau berhadapan orang macam ni; jangan layan.

eh?jauh menyimpang ni.haha...

anyway malam ni tidur rumah mama. atok is at our house (atok is living with his wife (his wife after nenek passed away)), so mama suh kitorang balik as atok has been asking around where the hell is his cucus...hehehe...ye tok, kitorang balik ni. ni pun sebab nak main paintball esok. and esok juga i ada waxing session kat OU!wehooo...bestnyer!time to pamper myself. kalau ada duit lebih kita buat la sekali pedi and mani.

at 35weeks++, malam i hardly get a good sleep. mengah tiba-tiba datang. kalau baring, serious rasa ada tembikai susu dalam perut (kenapa nak kena tembikai susu???hahaha...). encik husband cakap tidur tak pelok. mak aihh...perot besar camni nak pelok apenye...peluk bantal terasa amat selesa sekali. like last night, i tidur dengan 3 bantal sekali harung. encik husband memang tidur jenis lying flat, bantal satu nipis, i memang jenis tidur bantal at least 2 keping. but now, i letak bantal tiga, lepas tu dirikan, so kira macam support la kat belakang.

bukan sebab i sakit pinggang ke apa, but sebab i dah tak boleh baring or mengiring. but im okay as long as baby okay.

and morning around 6am until 1pm, baby pie is really moving and kicking around. i rasa sebab space dah limited, so dia rimas. rimas la macam daddy dia, panas sikit tak boleh, orang ramai sikit tak boleh. but i wont allowed her to be cerewet like that. susah la.

anyway,there are a few items need to be add on for baby pie:
1. stroller
2. playpen / portable cot
3. baby carrier / baby wearing
4. set berpantang (eh ni bukan untuk baby pie, ni untuk mommy..hehehe...)
5. sterilizer and bottle warmer

and i've been asking and merengek kat encik husband suruh dia kumpul duit sebab i nak pergi Celebrity Fitness balik (gosh, i really missed my gym time...you know, looking at all the hot guys can boost up my confidence..err...to be like them la...hihihihhhi). so every month dia kena put aside dalam rm160. i ugut kalau dia tak kasi i pergi CF, i want to eat and ended up looking like a whale.hahaha....

orait. nak sambung buat kerja. hari ni encik husband amek kat office sebab i dapat hadiah untuk baby pie, and ada a few stuff i beli, and also hampers for tomorrow's paintball game, sponsored by me...hihihi!!

Shopping Trip to Ikea

ahad tu macam biasa la pengsan bangun dah nak dekat pukul 9. bangun pukul 6am, solat dulu, pastu golek-golek, borak-borak, pukul 9am baru berangkat dari katil. macam biasa la, sebab ada orang lapar kan. hahaha.....haihh, tak boleh nak romantik langsung, makan jer ingat. hikhik...nasiblah sayang, kalau tak sayang, i sambung jer tidur balik...hihihi...

sebenarnya kitorang penat masa tu sebab sabtu pagi tu, both of us go for a jog kat taman area rumah. balik tu, buat spring cleaning plak dengan encik husband. habis kipas, rail tingkap, tembok rumah apa semua dia lap and bersihkan. tahap pengumpulan habuk dah macam satu stick cotton candy, cuma dia warna hitam je la. -______- maybe encik husband concern sebab baby pie is coming the way, so nanti dah ada baby, susah plak nak kemas beriya2 kan. encik husband buat yang berat-berat macam vacuum and all. kita sapu and mop je la macam biasa.

then petang tu the whole day kitorang buat kerja rumah. and that night i cooked ayam masak kicap. tak ingat la tidur pukul berapa. so ahad tu, since the whole day kat rumah, petang encik husband ajak jalan-jalan. nak tengok iron man 3, but it was full house, so i cakap jom pergi Ikea. and he agreed right away. boring la tu duk rumah.

tapi i cakap kat dia, "pergi ikea mesti buy something, jangan pergi bodoh-bodoh jer. buang masa and tenaga.."

hahaha.....amik kau. RM1000 lebih habis untuk barang-barang rumah. -________-

ni adalah dua benda yang both of us paling excited dapat beli. hahahaha.... Klippan dengan bath tub baby. klippan ni kitorang dah aim sejak kahwin lagi, sejak first shopping barang-barang rumah. masa beli sofa Kivik tu kitorang nak beli Klippan ni sekali. sebab kat rumah parents i, memang dah lama guna Klippan ni, and rest assured, dia memang tahan sangat2! tapi masa kitorang beli Kivik tu, Klippan habis stok. the next week tu kitorang pergi lagi, pun takde stok. bayangkan betapa bagusnya Klippan ni.

so this time around, alhamdulilah ada jugak Klippan tu, terus kitorang amik. tak banyak stok dekat gudang dia, ada 5 6 je lagi. encik husband la suka sangat Klippan ni, i cakap kalau takde pun, tetamu boleh duduk bawah, tapi dia cakap kita kena utamakan tetamu. fine. he's the one paying, apa hak kita bersuara. wahh merajuk gitu!hahaha...

then dia pergi carik wardrobe untuk baby pie kitorang. lama gila kot dia kat sana. but i can see him. i kat 23, dia dekat 26 (kawasan gudang). i had to stayed at where i was sebab pegang dua troli, takut orang tarik troli Klippan tu limited stok kan, means orang teramik. i rasa ada la 30minit dia pergi amik wardrobe tu, Aneboda. ni pun sama, masa nak beli dengan Kivik tu, pun dah habis stok. so after 30mins tu dia datang kat i, rupanya Aneboda tu tinggal satu je! OMG sangat.....dia cakap itu pun dah ada orang sandarkan kat besi, bukan dalam susunan stok, and ada a few yang cari Aneboda tu. semua pun carik Aneboda. i have one back at my parents house, so memang sweet and cute sangat untuk letak baju-baju baby pie nanti.

memang rezeki kitorang and baby pie as semua yang kitorang planned untuk beli semua ada, eventhough with limited stok. sebab nak bayar delivery charge RM75, so takkan nak buat dua trips?lainla u all ada kereta/lori besar, so boleh hantar for free kan.=)

untuk baby pie, wardrobe Aneboda, baby bath tub, dengan laundry basket je. daddy punya Klippan set, folding chair, billy bookcase, wine rack (definitely not for wine storage...hahaha). untuk mommy?takde pun. mula-mula nak beli insulator bag, untuk letak susu baby pie nanti, tapi since next week nak jalan-jalan gi expo, so letak la balik beg tu. anytime boleh beli kan. =)

yang tak jadi beli Baby Cot je, sebab back at my parents house, we already bought wooden baby cot, from Ikea jugak, so i rasa untuk rumah kitorang, kitorang nak beli yang portable, senang kalau encik husband keluar ke apa, i boleh tengok baby pie kat living hall. so kitorang nak beli playpen. so lepas balik Ikea, singgah Ikano (IPC). dekat Mom's Care ada clearance sale, Esprit punya playpen rm299 je, tapi takde bassinet and changing station. ada kat situ Graco. tapi taknak jugak sebab mahal and design tak cantik pun. so nak amek murah ingat nak beli sweetcherry, rm249 jer. ada bassinet and changing station sekali. valued for money.

balik from Ikea, kitorang singgah Jalan 222 kat PJ. local mesti tau la. nasi lemak sedap, sup kambing sedap...haihhh....sampai rumah around 12am jugak la. so pagi ni kitorang bangun lambat dalam 7am. tapi still left the house by 7.30am. heeee...cuma tak boleh bermesra alam sebelum pergi kerja as usual. heee....

Baby Stroller

yer yer. i have been going back and forth and up and down the internet (wahh macam banyak sangat tugas dia kan..?) to do my research on finding the best, yet the ultimate baby stroller for my baby. dah nak masuk ke bulan 8 pregnancy baru la terhegeh-hegeh nak cari. excuse la sikit sebab en husband baru balik kursus, so susah i nak buat decision unless it's my money. dah duit i, ape-ape pun ok. tapi nama pun dah kahwin, kena la sefahaman, maka decision pun kena la buat sama-sama.

masa awal-awal pregnant dulu, memang i dah fokus dan yakin untuk amik stroller from MacLaren. entah kenapa. maybe sebab sturdy frame dia. banyak review cakap bagus. harga mahal and well-known brand, takkan la teruk kan? mestilah akan ada wear-and-tear nanti, but it takes awhile before that to happen. ada baca review, dia cakap dah 6tahun dia pakai elok je, cuma bahagian handle sebab made of foam, so dia pecah-pecah la. harga dalam RM700-RM2000.

then, tiba-tiba jatuh cinta sangat dengan Stokke. memang tersangat jatuh cinta dengan Stokke. hari-hari pun tengok je, sambil meleleh air liur.sebab tahu takkan mampu beli. eh mampu, mampu sangat sebenarnya, pastu kau jilat-jilat la tayar Stokke tu bagi kenyang. hahaha...harga dalam RM2500-RM5000.

then, ada plak Bugaboo, 4moms origami, quinny, britax, mothercare ,mamas and papas etc etc. selain tu, phil and teds pun penah la caught up my attention for awhile, especially yang baby jogger. ada yang macam affordable sikit macam silver cross dengan halford. pun tengok jela.

then husband cakap nak guna SCR. malaysian brand. i kalau malaysian brand ni laju je. semangat patriotik katanye. ahahaha...harga pun not bad. dalam RM200-RM900. tapi bila i pergi tengok kat JJ hari tu (sebab niat datang nak beli/add on barang baby), ringan tapi....takut tak sturdy frame dia. lagipun linen dalam dia nampak mudah koyak, takde padding. tapi ni personal view, and masa tu i tak tengok pun satu-satu model SCR ni. en husband suka sebab roda dia besar. what's with the roda besar, sayang? -_-

then haritu i pergi alamanda dengan mama, masuk satu kedai baby ni, jumpe COMBI. omaigodd ringan gila, brand from Japan. tapi model yang i tengok tu takboleh rear and forward facing. salah satu kriteria utama encik husband. tapi betul jugak. kot kang anak melorot keluar stroller kang, mane nak nampak. dulu konon nak nampak stylo and everything, tapi sekarang i go for practicality. so jangan susahkan diri dengan roda besar, nak lipat2 , pastu nak sumbat lagi dalam kereta kecik kitorang tu. dah, jangan mengada-ngada. unless daddy nak beli kereta besar, kita cari yang roda besar okay?haahhaha....

anyway, in the end (belum beli pun lagi), i decided i nak stay dengan MacLaren or COMBI sahaja.(wahh yakin...kite tgk apa en husband beli nanti). sebab utama:
1. ringan
2. tahan lama- tak pernah dengar review yang dia cepat rosak
3. boleh muat bonet kereta kitorang.
4. boleh pakai sampai anak umur 4-5tahun.-long term investment.
5. mahal tapi kumpul-kumpul sikit boleh masuk lingkungan affordable.

comparing MacLaren dengan COMBI, COMBI lagi mahal. tapi nanti nak pergi baby expo, memang nak tengok la. orang kata baby expo or maternity expo, boleh dapat 30%to 50% discount. so, may ni nak pergi terjah. =)

gambar:*google

sila cuci mata puas-puas dan buat survey untuk price range. goodluck!!

Hargai Aku (bukan tajuk lagu Armada la..ahaha)

en husband bengang.

sebab everytime we planned to do something, it won't (easily) happen. ahaha...contohnya, every saturday or sunday morning, we planned to have our morning walk/jog at the taman near our house. but yeah, we take things for granted. akhirnya, bergolek dan bergelimpangan atas katil sampai la pukul 9am. bangun pun sebab lapar. nanti ada je bunyik-bunyik cengkerik mintak makan. ahahaha..... sebab isnin sampai jumaat memang we make used of our entire body and energy. wake up at usual time 5.30am-6.00am, kemas masak, pergi kerja and hit the bed by 12am. so memang tidur 5-6 jam tu is enough, but sometimes we need that 'extra' sleep time, lagi-lagi kita tau takde komitmen on that day kan?lagi la sedap.

but i had kept reminding en husband to have our usual walk/jog together. dulu before pregnant memang every night and every week kitorang go for a run, tapi now bila i dah pregnant, en husband pun lebih kurang naik je perut dia. so nak tak nak, weekend ni (esok) mesti go for a walk. lagipun i tinggal sebulan je lagi. so lagi banyak jalan/exercise, mintak juga dipermudahkan bersalin. =)

pagi tadi, i cooked nasi goreng cina sebab semalam memang sengaja masak lebih, nak tapau bawak pergi office. so pagi-pagi dah menumbuk cili. kul 6.15am camtu en husband dah bangun. selalunya tunggu i kejut breakfast baru nak bangun. dia cakap, "i bangun awal sebab i terdengar u tumbuk2 kat dapur. i cakap teman sayangla kat depan...terharu i wife i pagi-pagi dah masak...".

hrmm...i rasa selagi dalam hati i penuh rasa cinta dan sayang i untuk en husband, and i rasa en husband have the same feelings for me, selagi tu la i mampu je nak buat segala untuk dia. sebab bila kita sayang and cinta kat orang tu, kita sanggup buat apa jer utnuk dia, sanggup bersusah-payah untuk dia. at least, that is how i feel. =) sebab i tau, kalau i masak-dia akan makan. dia akan makan sebab dia kata sedap. so kita pun rasa happy, and kita rasa dihargai and disayangi. kadang-kadang time kitorang makan tu, he give me a lot of kisses sepanjang kitorang makan tu. kadang-kadang mulut penuh food pun dia kiss jugak sambil cakap "thanks masakkan untuk kita..." and i always replied, "thank you daddy sebab belikan food untuk kitorang...".

kadang-kadang orang tak perasaan, en husband pun mungkin tak tau, the simple wishes and effort yang dia buat untuk i, macam say thanks and everything, really make my day. really helps me to improve myself more than everyday. that i always happy to do something for him. penat memang penat, sebab kita guna tenaga. but kalau in the end, kita yang happy? the tiredness doesn't even being remembered.

i selalu cakap, "bole la sayang nak manja-manja, tak sampai setahun kahwin kan...ahahaha". but i dont think it is going to go away in a few days. hikhik.....orait....have fun people!

Being Strong

Semalam lepas balik kerja, ingat nak terus shoot pergi HUKM, my sister in law yang baru 2 bulan pregnant had very severe allergic due to her pregnancy, alahan teruk la tu. memang teruk sangat sampai kena MC 2 bulan hokay. i iz jeles. but not really, i rasa bersyukur sangat yang im not like that, susah nak buat kerja. you know, i have devoted my life for encik husband, dia la satu-satunya kunci yang i ada untuk bawak i ke syurge (ecewah...) so whatever he wants in his life, i kena bagi. isteri mithali katenye. tapi kalau i lah kena alahan teruk macam SIL i, kesian and susah sangat.

my SIL tak boleh langsung dekat dengan abang i (but i dont blame her, my brother is a smoker), lagi tak boleh bau masak-masak, and she is not that strong, so tak boleh kemas-kemas, sabun basuh baju pun dia tak boleh, dah macam mana tu?where else ME, jangan kate mengemas, mengangkat groceries balik dari supermarket pun laju jer. and i rasa my walking pace still laju (mind u...im a pregnant lady with a 8-month naught baby girl inside...hikhik), cuma i senang je rasa penat. especially tang kaki. ehehehe....

i think orang yang paling happy adalah encik husband. habis dah semua siap terhidang, ape lagi yang dia nak?but he was a very good husband and companion to me. kadang-kadang i tengah rehat-rehat kejap kat bilik, i dengar dia tengah asahkan pisau i. terharu sangat. dia taknak wife dia spend a lot of time cutting fruits and vege, and need to use more energy for doing that. toilet jangan cakap la. i rasa sepanjang i kahwin dengan i, sekali je kot i basuh my own toilet, yang lain dia la yang basuh kan.

selalu i buat macam ni,

Me: "psttt....bb, sini kejap (kat dapur). ada benda i nak bisik...hikhik..."
Him: *datang dekat, hulur telinga* "apa dia sayang...."
Me: "toilet kita kotor.....heee..."
Him: *gelak2* "yela......jap lagi kita basuhkan k...."

tell me. siapa tak sejuk hati husband macam tu. at least he could understand that im pregnant, easily tired, and paling penting, tak boleh tunduk2 kan. but haritu masa i stay kat rumah mama, the toilet was quite dirty, dirty sebab toilet i fully white, so berabuk skit memang nampak, so i dengan pakai sabun basuh baju yang super licin, merangkak, basuh toilet. i masa tu cuak gila jugak, buat nyer masa i nak bangun ter-slipp ke apa, tapi i doa je dalam hati supaya dipermudahkan segala.

alhamdulilah okay.

before pergi HUKM, we stopped at sungai besi, makan kejap. i ordered nasi goreng cili padi, and he ordered nasi goreng ayam. licin makan. lapar kot. dah la masa tu dah pukul 9pm, kena hujan plak tu lepas balik kerja. balik rumah tukar baju, mandi solat sume. memang kebulur.

lepas HUKM, sampai rumah dalam pukul 11pm camtu. balik tukar baju, gosok gigi then baru tido. hit the sack early jugak sebab selalu pukul 12am++ baru nak tidur, tapi sebab penat ke ape, kitorang tidur awal. pagi tadi bangun pun ngantuk-ngantuk lagi.

bangun lambat kul 6am, selalu 5.30am dah bangun, buat breakfast hotdog bun dengan hot tea untuk en husband, tapau satu untuk i, breakfast cocoa crunch, jemur kain, mandi solat semua, by 7.30 dah on the road to office.

anyway, malam ni ingat nak masak cencaru sumbat, makan dengan nasi panas. nak masak nasi lebih, so that esok pagi boleh buat nasi goreng. =)

Maksud nama; Girang.

Apart from daily update because i love to talk and say unnecessary things (but no one to entertain me), i think (and hope) that i can read all of these entries whenever i feel i wanted to, or  when they should be a time, where i need to read it, the most.

so what's up yesterday?

both encik husband and myself went to our work routine. basically he will send me before he off to work and selalu dalam kereta we will talk (prftt...) almost about anything. he always said this,

"sayang....orang lain bangun pagi-pagi muram je, senyap jer....u pagi-pagi dah riang. girang-macam nama u...hahaha". 

haihh....encik husband kalau pagi-pagi tak kutuk i memang tak sah.

semalam dekat train station, he arrived early and waited for me. kalau dia tunggu tu, tak lain tak bukan mesti nak kenakan i. nanti dia menyorok la mana-mana and i macam orang bodoh la cari-cari dia. perangai sangat...-____________- but being the awesome me; i saw him from a far and quickly took out my hp and BBMed him,

"tak payah nak menyorok sayang....i dah nampak you..."

he replied, "demmit.."

hahahaha......ingat i senang untuk diperbodohkan? then when i came near him, dia lari. DIA LARI OK?i pergi kanan, dia pergi kiri, i pergi kiri dia pergi kanan. ni apa ni? and i laughed like mad, you know, for having him as my husband...-_________- i dont know why i married him in the first place. but luckily he bought some tuna and chocolate bread and orange twister. i memang dah haus but not that hungry. dap dap dap.... =)

and last night, arrived around 7.15pm, quickly i cooked for our dinner. simple dish; sweet sour fish and i used ikan bawal hitam, bendi and sambal belacan, and air sirap. and yes, encik husband makan bertambah, and i always love when he do that. but he has put some weight (psstt...especially around the waist..hikhik), so he asked me not to cook sedap-sedap and banyak-banyak. fine.

when he off to his daily night jog, i took the chance untuk gosok baju and seluar and everything. dapatlah 3 baju and 4 seluar. enough sampai monday next week. then bila dia balik dari jog semalam, i stopped ironing, and joined him for his 'cool down' session, under the air conditioner...-___________- sambil tu borak-borak. he massaged my foot, lama jugak sebab kitorang borak pun bukan main lama. hahaha....bila tersedar nak dekat pukul 11, dua-dua pun kelam kabut mandi, then solat jemaah.

tau-tau masa encik husband baca quran, i was asleep like a baby next to him. tak tau pukul berapa masa tu, i rasa pukul 12.00am kot. im easily got into sleep now a days, i think because of the pregnancy, cepat sikit penat dia. but i am totally having fun spending time (and energy of course) dengan encik husband.

he's my best friend, and spending time with him is just as awesome as he is.... ;)

Husband extra concerned...heee...

hi guys!

it's been awhile kan?sorry sorry because i was so busy doing stuff (as usual...prffttt!). bukan apa pun, it is just encik husband was already home, FOR GOOD!!yeay........ no more sleepless nights, no more go-check-up sendiri, no more i-want-to-eat-this-but-too-lazy-to-drive, and finally, no more no-one-to-pick-a-fight-with..hahahaha!!!even on the day he came home, which was on sunday afternoon, we had a fight. (i think when our baby has grown up and read this, she will eventually understands why daddy and mommy fights a lot..hehehe). simply because, we can't bear to be apart for such a long time.

anyway, bila encik husband balik, i'm back to my old (compulsary) routine. house chores. and oh boy, i don't have that energy anymore, the kind of energy i had in the beginning of marriage life, because i'm pregnant now -______________-. not that i'm complaining, it is just i move a bit slower, and my foot hurt so much these days. macam semalam, i fell asleep on the couch (while waiting for encik husband mandi). then he came to me and kejut me, asking to have a isya' prayer together (jemaah). i geleng2 kepala, too tired to perform prayer. but he insisted. fine.

lepas semayang i terus boom tidur!but my foot damn hurt..so i asked encik husband to urut my kaki. omg....memang sedap gila..urut dengan kasih sayang plak tu....hikhik...lama jugak dia urut sampai tertidur-tidur i. pastu tidur nyenyak the whole night.

pagi tadi, masa kat ofis, encik husband BBM i. he said,

"semalam masa i urut kaki u,i teringat u kena jalan jauh, berdiri dalam train, jalan kaki pergi ofis, pastu tukar train, panas, hujan....kita sedih...:( "

pastu i yang baca ni pun terus mencurah-curah air mata. ain't a pregnant lady is full with emotions?hikhik...sedih and terharu because he knows that, what's happening to me, and he realized that and pointed them out. kadang-kadang i pun tak fikir sangat, tapi dah dia cakap, i pun jadi sedih. tak sangka encik husband concerned sangat macam tu. and i tak rasa pun dia akan tahu benda-benda tu.

but he did.

and i love him for that. i know (and pray) that he will be a good daddy to auni, and a great husband to me.

A Point To Ponder

This is something good and worth to read.
i mean like really.
i think this article was written by some mat salleh or what, but i think it is applicable to any religion pun, especially MELAYU ISLAM yang rata-rata "you know what is happening around us" kan?
so please please read this, and remember it at that some point of your life.

if you know what i mean. =)

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ARE YOU WITH THE RIGHT PARTNER?


During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind
replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO! ♥

Just One Night

oh sorry....lama dah rasanya tak update blog. not because i dont want to (alasan). i typed those words dalam phone, lepas tu buat clearance, terdelete semua sekali. damn sangat di situ. so ended up feeling so sad and sakit hati (of course dengan diri sendiri) and there's no one to be blame especially encik husband. eh?hahaha...takde kena mengena kan.

anyway, 'just one night' entry, can you please justify yourself?

yes i can! (suara kecil). hahahaha....saiko!

encik husband telah di kidnapped oleh i (dengan rela hatinya beliau) sebab beliau dah tak tahan dengan tortures yang menimpa diri beliau dan kawan-kawan beliau. halaa, mind torturing sikit je pun dah tak tahan. macam mana nak jadi daddy ni. oh by the way, encik husband decided nak baby pie pangil dia "daddy" instead of "papa" sebab dia kata "papa" tu papa kedana. boleh nampak tak the irelevancy there?tak nampak kan? i pun tak faham. malas nak argue with him, i decided to just agreed with whatever things he said.

lagipun maksu baby pie (my youngest sister) belikan bib kat mothercare UK ada tulis "i love mummy", "i love daddy", dengan belang2 , 3pc rm30 ringgit je. wuwuwuwu...dekat mothercare sini rm48 okay. nasib i tak beli. ...hahaha *cheapskate punya mommy* lepastu i dah belikan bibs baby pie from carter's jugak 5 helai, i carter's jumper, dengan princess toys from lamaze. mama i tanye "bib banyak-banyak nak buat ape?". tak kisah la mama, janji comel!

sabtu tu encik husband suruh i kidnap dia by lunch time. of course being the skema one, i asked him to be strong both physical and mental. but he kept on BBMed me,

"sayang.....amik la i sekarang....plzzzzz"

kang selang 2 minit dia BBM lagi. apakah? -_________- baru pukul 2.30pm kot. definitely he can't escape the training programs. aktiviti still going on masa tu. kalau ikut nafsu memang i nak je culik dia time 2.30 tu, tapi fikir dengan kewarasan dan kesabaran i, i buat kuat-kuat jela.

sekali i senyap je, taknak layan kerenah dia yang mengada-ngada tu. tapi masa tu i dah siap cantik-cantik wangi-wangi nak jumpe dia by 10pm because that was what we agreed on. initially that was the plan. tiba-tiba dia BBM i cakap,

"sayang...you dah boleh datang kot sekarang...". at 7.30pm.

dia cakap, the bosses bagi perlepasan jumpa family. antara percaya dengan tak, i started my car and drove through DUKE to meet him. masa tu hujan lebat gila and dalam hati i cakap, "why la hujan??adakah tanda-tanda dia tipu i, so kitorang akan jumpa lambat, and boss dah tunggu kat luar pagar nak stop siapa-siapa yang nak skip?"

but no. he's telling me the truth (dramatic sangat la cerita ni). hahahaha.....i picked him up, hantar dia dekat hostel dia (training centre and the hostel jauh and from two different tempat), waited for him to mandi and packed those baju kotor. tak sampai 30mins dia dah turun, all fresh and bau sedap. dapnyee ciomm....heyyyppp!!hahaha....

then we went for dinner, talked and had a great date. rindu melampau. balik rumah tapau otak-otak and burger. watched football (kelantan vs sarawak) sambil peluk-peluk kat depan TV, but you know la encik husband, 5minit je letak kepala, kebabom tido. hahaha....

i biar je dia tidur sekejap. actually ibu nandong (yes it's me!) mengalami sakit pinggang yang mild so i rasa tak selesa sangat laying on the comforter depan TV. i should sleep on bed bukan lantai keras. oleh kerana sangat tak tahan, i kejut him masuk bilik. perghhhh....nak kejut satu masalah jugak ni.

he can't be kejut like, "b!bangun masuk!". kalau rasa nak tapak kaki melekat kat dahi buatlah. kena kejut kena goyang2 sikit, bisik-bisik sikit. almost 20minits kejut dia okay. kesabaran memang kena tinggi yer. tapi i senang, sejak ada baby pie nie, dia je la umpan i. "sorry sayang, mommy used you even before you were born. kata tag team dengan mommy kan?hikhik...". so i bisik kat telinga dia slow-slow manja-manja bila dia dah separuh sedar tu,

"sayang...bangun sayang GOSOK GIGI (sambil usap-usap ubun2 encik husband). tadi awak makan burger kan sayang...mesti banyak burger melekat kat gigi tecik awak..hikhik...you wouldn't want auni to go to sleep without brushing her teeth kan sayang?you're a good daddy kan sayang?bangun sayang...brush your teeth first...pastu kita masuk tido k.."

conversation kat atas darab 5 kali i ulang benda yang sama. sekarang boleh la takde baby kan?esok dah ada baby, lantak berulat gigi tu pun i buat dek jeerr. hahahaha....encik husband mendengus-dengus la, nak marah la tu. -___________- dah kejut manja-manja pun kena marah. iskkk....

lama jugak la tunggu dia berus gigi. i think dia tidur dulu dalam toilet tu baru nak gosok gigi. lantakla, janji bersih mulut. ni nak tidur-tidur dengan kita mulut ada burger, apakah? hahaha....kitorang make it as a habit before tidur gosok gigi. hopefully esok anak-anak pun ikut jugak. kebersihan harus diutamakan.

pagi tu 5.30am dah bangun siap-siap nak hantar encik husband balik training centre dia. i siap berkemban gorengkan jemput-jemput buat alas perut encik husband. dalam kereta kena la suap dia, selalu pun camtu. i kan pembantu dia. sampai makan pun nak dibantu. -_________-

walaupun sekejap je kitorang jumpa, but it mean the most to us. masa yang ada tu memang fokus kat kitorang dua jer. borak-borak, update each other (padahal BBM 24 jam), but it is not the same bila kita jumpa depan-depan kan?

and that night, i have my sleeping partner back in my arms, even if its just for one night.

thank you sayang, for being here with me when i needed u the most. i love you still.

Nikmat Hidup

Sometimes apa yang kita ada, kita always took them for granted. Bukan tak bersyukur, tapi kadang2 kita terlupa, sebab kita tau dia ada. Tak kisah la barang ke, orang ke, hidupan ke. Bila dah takde, rosak ke ape, baru nak teringat2, baru nak menyesal2.

Same goes to me. I think I am very lucky in many ways. Both families, my family and in laws sangat sayang dengan I. Dari I kecik sampai jadi wife orang pun, still family I manjakan I. Anything yang I request, mesti diorang bagi. Even abang2 I pun sama. Makan ke barang ke, mesti diorang bagi. And my in laws, every week msg I or call I, tanye I sihat ke, baby sihat ke and all.

Benda2 kecik ni buat kita rasa dihargai, and wanted as part of their life. In fact, diorang is my new life.

Apart from that, encik husband is a very kind and a great man. Banyak kerenah I, and kekurangan I, yang dia have to face and deal with. I rasa tahap kesabaran dia mesti tinggi to deal with me, lagi2 bila mood swings I datang out of nowhere, as I am a Pisces.

I can be that girl next door with happy face and lots of smiles, and the next second, I will be somebody else.

Sometimes it just a mere thought can change my emotions and thus effect my thinking process.

Sangat tak baik perangai macam ni. But I just cannot help it.I've tried to change, and I'm doing well so far. :)

Anyway, this entry hanyalah untuk melahirkan rasa bersyukur yang amat sangat pada Allah sebab Dia dah bagi yang terbaik untuk I and wajiblah untuk I bersyukur. Maybe one day Dia akan tarik balik nikmat hidup ni bila2 masa dia suka, tapi I tetap bersyukur atas rasa sayang, cinta, wanted yang Allah dah bagi pinjam ni.

Doa hari2 semoga kebahagiaan camni kekal sampai mati.

Amin.


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