Egoisme

Betul apa ustaz masa kat kursus pra-perkahwinan tu cakap masa I attend dulu. Perempuan pilih awak (lelaki) sebab dia tau dia boleh bercakap dengan awak, dan dia pilih awak sebab awak je yang layan dia cakap.

I had an argument with encik tunang, this afternoon during lunch time. Usually kitorang akan bbm or email. Selalunya email. Argument tu over something stupid, I mean like very stupid so I don't want to say the cause of the argument.

Lepas en tunang cakap tu (benda sedih), I dah berkaca-kaca la mata tahan nangis (emo gila sikit-sikit nak nangis). Muka I rasa tebal sangat, and panas sangat. I rasa sebab vein dah expand darah laju2 jalan sebab tahan marah ke ape la macam tu.

He emailed me and both bbm me. I tak reply. No, I want to reply tapi nanti jadi meleret2 gaduh I won't feel good. So I baca je msg dia sambil berkaca-kaca mata and muka tebal,I diam je. First die bbm dulu, then dia email.

Dia cakap , " b kenapa?". Aiyokk..tu die marah sangat la tu. Atau pun dia kate.."B..!" Selalunya dia tak suka la tu ape yang kita buat time tu. Better stop or kang dia suh balik jalan kaki jer. Tihii..

I diam je.tak reply email nor bbm die. Sekali I tengah sedih2 tu, dia anta email panjang, die explain la in detail bla bla bla. I dah senyum-senyum malu tapi marah jugak sikit tapi rasa macam bunga2 sebab he took the time to explained (gedik gila siot nak tunggu orang exlain panjang2 baru nak sejuk hati..).

So I email dia balik, marah2 sikit and okay dah.tihii..bukan nya lame tak jumpe nak merajuk minta perhatian semua. Semalam kot baru jumpa turun naik kereta semua. Tapi saje kan?mengada.

I just nak share yang communication tu penting. Doesn't even matter sape yang mula cakap dulu, tapi trust me bila sorang give in, selalunya semua okay. Tapi mengada la everytime nak bf je give in. Ego tak mendatangkan kebaikan pun.

Eh eh. Ni kalau encik tunang baca nanti mesti dia cakap, nape nak kena tunggu 2 message and 3 emails baru nak reply? Eh eh..

Ha ha ha.

You know why I love him?t

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Simply because he loves me too..*tibe2*

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