Your Mr/Ms Right is not 'Right" afterall.

i was browsing through 'home' on fb, and i saw an updated status from my friend.it caught my eyes. i can't remember the exact words and i am too damn lazy untuk pergi tengok kat profile dia, but it sounds like this:

" kalau kita asyik mencari kesalahan pasangan kita, kita takkan bahagia. tapi kalau kita terima ketidaksempurnaan dia, kita terima dia seadanya, dan kita yakin dia memang satu-satunya untuk kita, hidup ini akan lebih bahagia..dia semestinya yang terbaik untuk kita sebab dia pilihan kita.."

lebih kurang macam tu la. actually it sounded more romantic when i first read it..teehee..=) somehow bila kita mengolah balik terus tak romantik. ehehe...

it is quite true. mustahil la untuk pasangan bercinta tidak membandingkan pasangan dia dengan pasangan orang lain. i was doing the same thing too. (baca: was) but it took me so LONG to finally realized it, yang benda tu semua tak bawa the relationship ke mana pon. benda tu tak merubah relationship into a better one, malah lebih menyukarkan keadaan untuk both of us.

salah faham, bergaduh, hilang sekejap perasaan hormat kat dia yang selama ni i kept for him, dek kerana bergaduh. im sure he felt the same way too for me. still, i had so much respect for him. sebab dia sangat tahan dengan my unpredictable behaviour. seriously, you wouldn't want to know. and that's the ultimate reason why i love him to death.yes i do.

some of my friends got very lucky for having someone yang faham diorang segala serbi. unlike mine (during that time). looking at them, macam setiap saatnya bahagia, macam setiap saatnya bercinta. bf dia romantik compared to mine. unlike mine (during that time). i always felt macam dia tak pernah faham, tak pernah cuba nak faham. and i started to question "why he do that kind of thing?", "kenapa dia tak faham?", "susah sangat ke nak faham?"..and the question yang selalu popped up in my mind, " betul ke he loves me?".

it took me so long (lama sangat even until now) to realized that every human being have their own strengths and weaknesses. tapi kita manusia mana boleh macam tue. tak pernah puas. kita nak semua perfect. semua macam apa yang kita nak. semua macam apa yang kita tunjuk. which are impossible!!

macam mana boleh tersedar yang he is waaayyy better than anyone i have ever known?macam mana?

first. i went out with my friend and her bf. masa tu kat kedai makan. i think before diorang datang jumpa i, they got in a fight or something. so my friend ni senyum2 paksa la which i don't mind at all kalau korang tengah gaduh sekalipun. tapi janganlah sampai tengking2 malu kot.so anyway, masa food yang dah di order tu sampai, my friend tak makan. merajuk la kot. and the bf dengan suara yang agak tinggi tonenya and told my friend suruh makan. my friend agak termalu la.sebab bf dia macam tengking2 sikit.

and at that moment, i realized that my tak-faham-bf tak pernah buat macam tu. dia tak pernah tinggikan suara, and kalau kitorang keluar and tengah bergaduh pon, he wouldn't do such thing to me. even depan my family pon, kalau kitorang gaduh, dia buat macam biasa je, macam takde pape. cuma bila dah berdua, dia lebih banyak berdiam diri.

and somehow, depan my friends tu, i was smiling. sebab teringat masa tu, yang i know, i have someone in my life who is way better than any other guy i've known.

*senyum*

it's good. sebab dia jaga air muka kita. dia takkan malukan kita. kalau bf sendiri malukan kita depan orang lain, so what's left for us? kan?

and by be friended, meeting, and knowing other guys or male friends, you know that your own bf is actually the best one you could ever had. dah banyak kali, i kenal dengan a few guys, yang lebih banyak bragging, and cakap besar (eh sama kan?) dengan kejayaan diorang which i tak pernah tahu pon ada and tak pernah nampak buktinya pon. i know you might say that, "lelaki kan nak pikat perempuan mesti nak cerita yang best-best je dari diorang..". i know. i've read it somewhere.

but, from the first time i kawan dengan my bf, tak pernah sekalipon dia bragging about his accomplishment whatsoever. not even masa dia nak kenal2 i. he was just being himself. which to tell you, he is such an extraordinary person. he's different and i tak pernah kenal someone yang boleh beat him. he's good actually.

so bila these guys bragging2 ni, i macam menyampah jugaklah. macam "apehal nak kena bagitau?". kita boleh tahu samada dia nak SHARE kejayaan dia dengan kita, or nak MENUNJUK kejayaan dia kat kita.

masa tu, i realized that kadang-kadang bila dia mencabar kesabaran kita, at certain times dia adalah saviour kita. bila orang lain acted differently dari orang yang kita kenal bertahun-tahun, it feels awkward, and menyampah jugak.

he's not perfect. in fact, he's not perfect at all. but through my eyes, he's the perfect man that i want to be with. with him i shall devoted my love and my life. he's the best man i could ever have, and sure i love him.

girls, sometimes bila kita tengok orang, semuanya macam indah, semuanya macam sempurna. but little did we know, diorang pun pandang kita macam semuanya indah, semuanya macam sempurna. have you tought about that?

*senyum*

i want to thanked my friend, sebab update status macam tu. atleast i remember the good things about him. we are not perfect. i am no perfect girl for him. but at least i have my heart to give him. i'll always love him. that's my promise.

tapi ingat, jodoh pertemuan semua di tangan Allah. kita cuma boleh berdoa dan mengharapkan yang terbaik. right?amin. semoga semuanya bagus-bagus untuk kita dua.

ps: i am a stubborn one. but he melts me...*love*