Not Allowed Office Wear

You know, haritu dalam kereta, on the way balik rumah kan selalu kitorang borak2,or mengutuk each other sambil2 update what had happened kat office. Tetiba masuk cerita apa ntah, oh cerita pasal dia dah tak pergi kerja dengan I, dia kan nak kena gerak awal sebab nak lalu DUKE. Then husband cakap,

"Sayang...kita dah tak dapat hantar sayang pagi-pagi. Dah tak dapat tengok sayang pakai baju apa.."

Oh my God..sweetnye suami siapa la ni! (Prfffttt!!)

Tak payah nak sweet sangat la, I tau kenapa dia cakap camtu. Konon tak dapat tengok I pakai baju apa..cehhhh..

Memangla tak dapat tengok. Sebab nanti dia tak dapatla nak bagi komen-komen cari gado pagi-pagi macam,

"Sexy la b. Tu semua nanti orang nampak.."

"Boleh ke pakai macam ni??"

"Pakai baju laen la b..tak cantik.." (Bukan tak cantek, tapi sexy)

Pagi-pagi dah lambat pegi keja, memang la cari gado buat statement macam ni kan?

Ada sekali tu, memang takde kasihan la dia terus cakap,

"No.pakai baju laen."

Itu dah paling marah. So jangan la nak melawan apetah lagi datang kat dia manja2 sambil peluk2 and kiss all over his face macam I selalu buat pastu cakap,

"Ala..bole la syg...bukan sexy sgt pun, orang lain pun pakai macam ni jugak..eh syg.."

Bukan apa. Kalau rasa taknak kena herdik or kena-tinggal-naiklah-kau-bas-pegi-kerja, cuba la buat.

Hahaha..mencik tau!

So kita sebagai isteri (mithali) kadang-kadang dengan paksa rela tukar la baju. Nanti lambat la sikit pergi kerja sebab nak gosok baju baru. Tapi usually, I pakai baju kurung jela..paling mudah and paaaaaaaaling cantik kat mata encik husband.

Dulu masa bercinta, I konon-konon bajet paling up to date, dengan dress, dengan mini skirt, dengan baju lurah dendam, and harapan dah kahwin ni pun sama la jugak. Tapi memang tinggal kenangan la, sebab dapat husband a bit conservative (haha..woi kutuk), so taknak jadi derhaka, I pun dengar jela cakap dia.

Tapi bagus jugak dapat husband macam tu.kurang sikit dosa. *peace*
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Bebe's Home

Masa ni kitorang nak pergi wedding encik husband's friend dekat shah alam. so tengah-tengah cari parking dekat belakang Plaza Masalam tu, we passed by Bebe's Home ni. kedai baby la katanya. pastu laju je mata i nampak sebab banyak sticker Sale merah tu. pastu laju-laju cakap dengan encik husband,

"sayanggg!! nanti kita singgah situ k?" sambil mata tak kelip-kelip tengok kedai tu.

"yer la....." muka pasrah tapi senyum la sebab kalau dia muka masam i debik sekali. wahh, dah pandai debik sekarang. tak patut. haha..

lepas makan semua borak-borak amik gambar kat wedding, encik husband ajak terus pergi kedai tu. since kedai tu ada laa dalam 30 tapak dari park kereta, encik husband insisted nak bawak kereta, agaknya kesian tengok ibu nandong macam hazab je nak jalan. hahaha....heyp!

so sampai-sampai tengok-tengoklah apa yang best. banyak tak best dari bestnya, or maybe sebab i dah jumpa barang-barang yang lain, so i just grabbed napkin dengan minyak yu yee. encik husband memang seronok mengejek i pasal minyak telon dengan minyak yu yee cap limau ni. dia cakap,

"Auni would be very happy. mama dia sebok sangat dengan minyak telon tu..."

tapi betul la, memang dua minyak ni penting kan untuk baby?ha tak percaya lagi. sebab hari tu i BBM dia since dia nak turun cheras, suruh dia beli dekat satu pharmacy ni memang jual murah2 products skin care and medicines. tapi dia tak jadi singgah. so balik tu dia gelak-gelakkan i pasal minyak ni. agaknya funny sangat bila i macam urgent and excited suruh beli minyak tu. -________-

i'm not sure why i marry him in the first place.prftt....

anyway, kalau tengok Bebe's Home online shop dia, tak banyak best pun, except for Paddington Bear!!me and my sister have this 'thing' with Paddington Bear. dulu rasa kitorang ada baju mama belikan from the brand, so kitorang sangat sayang baju tu sebab dia sedap, selesa, and durable. ingat i nak beli satu for baby pie, tapi mahal la plak. tunggu la duit berbukit bukau baru belikan.

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semalam mama masak asam pedas ikan pari. encik husband makan bersungguh, and mama looked happy as well sebab menantu dia memang kuat makan. i pun suka. pedas-pedas pun dia makan jugak.-______- lepas makan, he helped me to cleaned the table. selalu pun memang macam tu. kat rumah kitorang pun camtu. i mean, sama-sama pergi kerja, so i dah masak, dia la tolong kemas. selalu dia tukang makan dengan tukang angkat jela, tukang masak and basuh i la.

ada sekali tu, lepas basuh semua dah kemas-kemas dapur tu, i terus lepak depan sofa tengok TV. soalan encik husband,

"sayang dah lap meja?"

perghhhh....malu siot!hahaha...kan i dah cakap dia tu super detail and super pengemas...ala, sekejap je pun i baru landing, bukan sengaja tak lap, i terlupa kot. selalu tu task dia, tapi masa tu dia tengah nak kemas kasut dia ke ape ntah, agaknya dia lalu nampak tak berlap meja kan. hahaha....last-last dia lap.

-_____________-

kadang-kadang rimas jugak i. especially bila dia buat spot check toilet i. berbulu gak la hati. tapi thinking dia nak jaga kebersihan wife dia, i merelakan jela. lagipun bila dia berbulu tengok toilet i, dia bersihkan. in fact,  bathroom kat rumah memang dia la yang clean up. awesome gila suami i! selalu lepas tu i repay his kindness dengan bermacam-macam- contohnya masak sedap-sedap. sedap ke?sedapla kot untuk dia.

tapi nanti dia cakap,

"sayang...masak nanti kurangkan minyak k?"

hahahaha....hoi suami siapa nie!!!!! manyak cewewet maa...hikhik...but he knows that i love him . i love him so much that only he can make me fall in love with him again and again.

i dapat something....aaaa....malu laa!

Lamanya meninggalkan blog. almaklumlah, konon-konon bajet busy. actually memang busy pun, last week the whole week balik dalam lebih kurang 7pm, padahal kerja balik at 6pm, sebab this week is exam week, so preparation for exam paper haruslah awal. itupun dah lambat sebenarnya, dia atleast 2 weeks before exam yer. excuse la ibu nandong slow sikit.

any update?

yer baby saya sudah masuk week-30. tiba-tiba terasa "eh, lagi 10 weeks je?gile ahh...". berdebar siot, but at the same time i am so excited for the baby. rasa tak sabar sangat nak dokong dia, rasa tak sabar sangat nak kiss pipi dia yang macam kuih pau rm2.50 dekat R&R tu. hehehe...sebab you all tak tengok pipi mama dia lagi. pipi mama dia boleh tahan la jadi bahan picitan papa dia. kadang-kadang tangan i laju je nak menepis or menumbuk encik husband, tapi kalau i buat camtu sure jadi isu isteri kurang ajar dengan suami. oh i dun wann..... (walaupun sakit both pipi dan hati).

so, sejak masuk minggu 29/30 ni, i boleh nampak betapa clumsy nya i. masuk ni dah dua kali tangan i luka berdarah sebab pegang pengepit. boleh kak?pegang pengepit goreng tu je boleh koyak jari lalu berdarah? yer memang boleh. i baca dekat pregnancy web, by 30th week, ibu nandong akan jadi a bit clumsy sebab joint dengan deria rasa (sentuhan) dia macam kurang sikit. yer sangat setuju la begitu. i dah dua kali terjatuhkan container bawang potong dengan oranges potong (nak sejukkan masuk fridge). padahal sebelum ni laju je i masukkan container dalam fridge, apehal plak boleh jatuh, kan?rasa frust sangat sebab lepas tu kena lap lantai, kan dah banyak kerja tu. rupanya itulah sebabnya.

sekarang ibu nandong kelihatan sangat lemah. bukan kelihatan, tapi buat kerja sikit dah lemah. macam hari tu, dahlah bangun lambat (thanks encik husband!). lepas tu bangun i pun semangat buat fritters dengan air teh nak bagi encik husband, boleh dia nak lap kipas dengan grill rumah semua? habis tu haruslah i kena sapu dan mop (again?) rumah tu kan. yer, saya rajin sangat.

untuk tidak mematahkan semangat encik husband agar dia akan rajin mengemas dimasa hadapan, i pun dengan paksa rela sapu dan mop. tiba-tiba macam excited sendiri sebab rumah kilat-kilat, bersih sangat dan bau apple. hihihi....mula-mula tak suka, dah bersih kemain lagi. i pun jadi extra rajin bila lap pintu and celah pintu. cehh, itu pun nak cakap. korang mesti lagilah teramat rajin lap and sental celah-celah pintu and tingkap kan?i ni baru nak lap-lap, punyalah hitam celah pintu. tapi now bersih dah.

and i miss my home. right now.

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dah dua hari mood swing skit i. swing tu kepada tak lain tak bukan, my ultimate love la. kesian jugak dia, tapi sebab i sayang dia sangat-sangat kan, kena la nak marah2 dia. eh?? *sila tampar diri sendiri*. so semalam masa nak makan i 'berlakon' la konon baik-baik dengan dia (sangat berjaya lakonan i, tapi actually bukan lakonan pun, i dah ok jugak masa tu, tak rasa nak teruskan gado-bodo ni, rindu kot kat bf kita) sebab kitorang stay kat rumah parents i, malu kot gaduh depan orang tua right?

tapi sebab lepas tu dia sambung buat kerja apa ntah kat laptop dia kemain lama i teman dia, hangen balik la satu badan i. dah tu dia pun nak marah sama, dia kejut i sambil lewa je, takde pun nak kiss ke, tolong tarik badan i yang dah berat ni ke, sedih sangat. i pun bangun terus masuk bilik. no night kiss, cuma dia tanya "panas tak?". sebab dia nak off kipas, bukak aircond je.

ok fine. nak cari gado kannn...

malam tu menangis la i sendirian mengenang nasib. ahahaha...drama sangat, nangis-nangis ingat dia dengar, rupanya dah tidur. perghh...lagi mendidih la i. tapi entah camne, pagi-pagi bangun i dah tidur dekat lengan dia, and dia pun dah genggam tangan i. ceh, magnet sangat.

pagi ni kat ofis, masa i tengah lepak-lepak pagi dengan collegues i, sekali diorang jerit, "ada delivery gift for u!". i pun tepuk-tepuk tangan excited. i ingat diorang main-main, biasalah budak ofis i kurang matang sikit. sekali i dengar ada suara orang lelaki, "Puan F**** H******* ada?". laju-laju i pergi kat pintu Lecture Room kitorang.

sah, i dapat bunga!! OMG terkejut beruk i! lepas signed and all, i dapat kad. as below:

okay serious terharu. menjerit-jerit i kat ofis. hahaha.....lama siot from the last time i dapat bunga. i rasa last i dapat bunga last year kot, sekuntum jer, encik husband la belikan. gila apa orang lain bagi. ni dapat 8-stalks. terharu sebab banyak sebab:

1. we were arguing about the baby's name. he wanted the Sophea to be Sofia, tapi i nak Sophea. and now dia letak Sophea instead of Sofia. means dia setuju kan dengan nama i.
2. he called me by Mama Auni Sophea Zara. means he welcoming the baby, isn't he?is he actually excited waiting for the arrival of the baby?
3. he sent me flower sebab nak pujuk i hal semalam kot.
4. he knows just about the right time to make me fall in love with him (again) when i feel like he don't love me anymore (statement mintak tangan satu).

petang ni balik i nak bagi dia kiss yang paling bermakna sekali dalam hidup. kiss seorang isteri untuk suami dia yang tengah marah. hahaha....eh, dia yang marah ke i yang tengah marah sebenarnya nie? hikhik...tak kisah la. dah sehari i tak bertegur sapa dengan encik husband, haruslah kerinduan melampau. ni dapat bunga pun tak roger encik husband ni. mengada sangat perangai macam ni.

balik ni nak mintak ampun dan maaf la kat encik husband. kesian dia. kesian dia takde kawan. i pun dah marah takde lah nak borak-borak sangat dengan dia. selalu mulut i je tak stop bercakap. tapi i rasa dia aman jugak lah i diam sepanjang hari. hahaha....nanti kita tanya dia.

ok guys, nak siap-siap barang balik rumah. excited angat nak bawak bouquet naek train. -_______-

The VVIP in me...hik!

busy pulak ibu nandong recently. encik husband kan dah pindah sini, so banyak masa diperlukan untuk uruskan dia, and everything else. nak spend time dengan dia pun yer jugak...hikhik...i kan tak boleh jauh-jauh dari dia, rasa macam kurang plak drugs i kalau dia takde.

so anyway, nak dekat seminggu jugak encik husband dok hantar i sampai ke ofis, dia akan pass by office dia, and sama-sama turun dekat station i, pastu dia patah balik naik train ke ofis dia balik. he wanted to kill the time. dia masuk lambat sikit kan.

like always, petang memang excited sangat i nak jumpa dia. ehh...kata dia kan boyfriend i, excited je la memanjang. sama macam kalau pagi-pagi subuh tu. dari kul 5.30am sampai la 6.30am, takde nya kitorang bangun. duk tergolek sana sini tak bangun. hahahaha....melampau sangat!

haritu dinner i masak sardin, telur dadar, sayur. semalam bukan tak larat cuma dah tak tau nak masak apa, and bahan-bahan nak masak pun takde. last-last decide makan nasi kukus ayam dara. siapa pernah makan??actually ayam goreng berempah dengan nasi kukus je, pepandai je bagi ayam dara ke apa. biasalah kan pelaris. tapi kat kedai encik husband beli tu memang sedappppp...

lama jugak kitorang makan, berborak-borak (kitorang apa lagi, bagi 10tahun bercakap pun tak cukup cukup, padahal pagi berborak, bbm tak tinggal, petang dalam kereta borak lagi, malam nak tidur borak lagi...-_______-). nasi daripada tak habis (konon nak buat nasi goreng pagi ni) habis jugak encik husband makan. sebab memang sedap nasi dia!

then malam tu kitorang dah start pack beg hospital baby pie. sebab papa dia dah bising-bising baju tak siap-siap. hahaha....sepatutnya i yang buat, pastu i just took the checklist, check one by one, encik husband tolong lipat and masukkan dalam beg. good job papa!kalau mama yang buat memang melimpah ruah barang dalam beg, papa dia buat kemas je. so now barang-barang tu dah ada dalam kereta. anytime soon.

oh baby dah 29weeks. ada 10weeks to go. ada dalam 2 bulan 2 minggu lagi. i just can't wait.

tapi serious takut. hahaha...is it normal?? normal la kot kan. first time ni nak beranak. hahaha....

anyway pagi tadi masa nak pergi kerja, kalau you guys perasaan, dekat setiap rapil lrt train station ada tempat laluan khas. laluan khas ni untuk orang cacat, OKU, orang tua, orang bawak luggage besar gedabak ke, itulah laluan dia. so pagi tadi encik husband tanya i,

"sayang.....laluan khas ni untuk siapa??" sambil dia letak touch n' go dia kat laluan sebelah laluan khas tu.

i jawab dengan yakin,

"untuk orang-orang macam i la...." sambil letak touch n' go i plak dekat laluan khas tu, dengan muka bangga.

encik husband laughed like there's no tomorrow.

hrmmmm.....*smile* i just LOVE him to death.=)

Suami Kasihan Kepada Isteri

amboi tajuk.

pagi ni encik husband ajak lagi pergi breakfast sama. i cakap tak payah nak membazir duit (despite i malas nak siap awal redah pagi yang hening ke ofis), i cakap kita breakfast kat rumah jela. pukul 6.00am alarm bunyik macam biasa AND yes, kitorang mandi around 7am. good job la papa dengan mama baby pie nie.

encik husband pagi ni baru nak bising-bising mintak baju hitam kolar sebab harini ada site-visit. i thought dah di siapkan baju dia sendiri, ada jugak tertinggalnya. fine. 2-5pieces baju i carikan dia, takde yang dia suka. besarlah. macam bodoh la. macam kecik lah. cerewet is him. so last-last pakai baju forensik i, baju masa i attached kat makmal forensik dulu. mula-mula complaint baju besar, last-last sendiri jatuh cinta dengan baju tu. hahaha.....cam bebudak!

sambil tunggu dia siap and solat subuh, i panaskan nasi goreng semalam, buat air teh panas, goreng telur dadar (demand gila nak telur dadar, banyak sangat la kan masa i nak pukul telur tu pagi-pagi...-___-), keluarkan cornflakes and susu untuk i pulak.

then cepat-cepat siap. rasa sangat super women kat situ.

then naik kereta sama-sama and go to work sama-sama. and then masa dalam train dengan mp3 pun sama-sama, gelak-gelak. im so happy spending every second with him. in fact that kitorang dah pun bercinta for 9 years, and marriage yang nak masuk 1 year this coming may, i still have that strong feeling for him, and whenever i see him, i just feeling nervous because of course i want to look best in front of him, and not being someone stupid and silly, and jumpa someone yang you sayang sepenuh jiwa raga you, is just another best but weird feeling.

sendiri rasa la. =)

he accompanied me sampai kat station ofis i, sebab dia cakap he doesn't have any punch card, so they can come bila-bila masa but not late than 9am, and dia sangat sweet nak hantar i sampai ofis. tengah hari ni dia busy kot, and i too, had class pagi tadi so pretty busy. he BBMed once in a while, so sekarang terasa rindu plak. can't wait petang ni nak jumpa.

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semalam lepas dia amik i kat station, dia cakap nak bawak kereta pergi cuci, so i said i want to follow him jugak. sambil aney tu cuci kereta, we spent time talking and bercinta. haihh...depan tempat cuci kereta pun boleh. hahaha....

i showed him my arm, lebam sebab bekas/kesan jarum amik darah masa check up hari tu. dia usap-usap lebam tu lama sangat sambil tenung bekas lebam tu. lama sangat dia diam. maybe dia sedih ke terharu ke apa. i yang tengok dia pun macam nak nangis jugak, sebab eh kan ibu nandong ni sekarang sensitif lebih. pastu tak lama lepas tu, dia usap-usap perut i sambil cakap,

"baby pie, esok jangan lawan-lawan cakap mama tau. dengar mama cakap apa... kalau degil, buat mama marah, papa masukkan balik dalam perot..."

hikhik. i dah tergelak-gelak. rasa garang tapi comel plak encik husband cakap macam tu.

maybe dia kesian dengan i. semalam masa balik pun dia cakap, "jauh jugak kan b u jalan turun dari lrt station ke ofis, lepas tu lunch lagi. tukar train. petang balik masak untuk i, pergi jogging dengan i, iron baju i, kemas rumah..."

i senyap je. but i felt bersyukur at least dia notice benda-benda tu. tak ramai orang notice those small things, even i perempuan pun i tak notice kesusahan and kepayahan dia nak make sure i comfortable and happy. so at least lepas ni kalau rumah bersepah or i cant spend most of my time with him (sebab uruskan baby pie and rumah), i harap dia faham because my time is limited.

masa dan tenaga i dah dicurahkan ke tempat lain.

pagi tadi masa kitorang tengah breakfast, dia tengok je i breakfast. (i makan mulut penuh sangat kot..hahaha..). tiba-tiba he asked for a kiss on the lips,

"ciom sikit la...."

" (kissed him on the lips)"

"i love you sayang....so much..." 

katanya.

Lunch Date dengan Boyfriend

8 months. kedengaran agak lama. tapi it has come to and end. 8-month encik husband yang dicintai pergi kursus, and during that 8-months he was not with me everyday and every night. lepas 3 hari i dapat tau i pregnant, encik husband pergi jauh ke selatan negara untuk berkursus, tinggallah ibu nandong kesepian dan kesedihan. hehehehe....so anyway, encik husband dah nak habis kursus dia. lagi 2 bulan je. and the best yet, 2 bulan ni he will be ENTIRELY in KUALA LUMPUR!!yeeehhaaa!!

and the day he is in kuala lumpur starts today.

*senyum tutup mata tapi ada air mata menitis sikit kat hujung mata*

so malam tadi dia tidur dengan i, dekat rumah my parents, not our own home. kitorang terbangun pukul 3 pagi, entah alarm siapa entah yang bunyik. when i took the phone and he was up too, i said to him sambil mamai2, "sayang...baru pukul 3(pagi), lama lagi...ehehehe...". he was laughing in the dark too and we continued our sleep. hahahaha.....sweet je terbangun sama-sama pastu tergelak sebab tau ada lagi 3 jam sebelum the exact time untuk bangun.( nampak sangat kuat tidur).

pukul 6am alarm bunyik and yet kitorang took almost 15mins untuk bangun pergi mandi. i bangun first sebab nak iron baju, baju dia dah awal-awal i iron kan. i turun tengok dia dah dalam toilet. good. tapi nak tunggu dia mandi adalah sangat perempuan. why la why!?

lepas dah siap-siap, ayah hantar pergi train station. then we took the train and pergi kerja sama-sama. sweet gila rasa. okay jangan terasa menyampah sebab this was my FIRST TIME ever pergi kerja dengan dia. gelap-gelap dah naik train. hahaha....dalam train dua-dua ngantuk. then we stopped at his station and had breakfast sama-sama.

nasi lemak okay. tak pernah (tipu!) i makan nasi lemak for breakfast. tak la sesedap i masak (prfttt!), but it was edible. pukul 8.30am macam tu i balik naik train to my office.

pastu dah rindu-rindu. hahaha.....OVERLY ATTACHED (pregnant) WIFE....hahaha...what to do.

tengah hari i risau la mamat tu makan apa. he is not familiar with KL, i mean dekat tempat dia posting pagi tadi, so i BBM him asking kat mana dia nak makan. tiba-tiba dia call,

"sayang...jom makan sama..."

"what??sayang kat mana ni?"

"tengah nak naik train nak jumpa u...."

*hati melting berderai-derai bentuk love bertaburan atas lantai*

oi, encik husband ajak lunch date ni. OMG nervous gila...hahaha!!yela, i kan tak pernah lunch date dengan dia. gile la...dah la i ada kelas tadi kul 2.00pm. sah-sah i lambat start class (insert: student cheering!). berpeluh-peluh i tunggu dia, hahaha....tengah makan pun boleh peluh-peluh. sebab cover malu, cover cun depan encik husband.

i sampai dulu kat food court, encik husband datang kemudian. so kita yang menunggu haruslah debaran lebih kuat dari orang yang datang jumpa kita kan?sebab kita menunggu. gulp!

adelah dalam 40mins je kitorang makan sama. balik tu jalan pimpin2 tangan balik ofis i. taklah sampai ofis sebab dia nak kena naik train balik. but i was happy. tak pernah terfikir encik husband sanggup bersusah payah dan berpanas terik untuk lunch date dengan i. omg sapa yang lunch opis dengan husband mesti happy jer kan.

i sampai tak sempat-sempat nak cerita nak borak-borak. macam lah tak jumpa kat rumah. memang lah jumpa, tapi the feelings having lunch dengan encik husband time office hour, is THRILL. hahaha....excited dia kemain sangat.

happy sangat today.

sangat-sangat.

kalau lah encik husband tau betapa having him in my life really makes my world seems like heaven, and the thoughts of 'we' are going to heaven sama-sama, is just amazing. having him in my life is one of the greatest gift Allah had gave me.

and i wont take him for granted, and that i swear to love him as long as Allah allows me.

because he is the best guy one could ever have. i mean like really. he is one of a kind. and i love him to death. =)

Tunggu dan terus tunggu

This pregnancy, i tell u, is not an easy one. hahaha....i mean, compared myself to some other people, yang ada morning sickness, yang ada anemia, yang ada mild osteoporosis, i admitted that i am such a lucky one. cuma i ada fatigueness yang i created myself. cuma.....i just missed my other half so much. he's not around, you know. and he will only back bila dia dapat perlepasan which falls on weekend sahaja, itu pun depends dua minggu sekali ke, sebulan sekali ke. and if you ever wondering around, he's not a police nor an army officer, although the reason i fell in love with him because he was in the army school before and he looked damn sexy in the army attire *hidung berdarah*. pastu gatal cari nama and all in the internet. oh i missed being a teenage and naughty-naughty macam tu. teeheeee.....

ok fokus. jangan melalut.

so, kadang-kadang i penat jugak balik kerja and all, and i need someone to be by my side, or at least reassure me that everything will be alright, and that person (husband) will always be there for me, no matter what. as 'be there for me' adalah ada dengan i masa i nak tidur and masa i bangun tidur. and dia boleh kejut i bangun tidur and i don't have depend much on the phone's alarm. it's annoying and irritates me tau. setiap pagi.

tengok. semua dah rasa tak best. sampai alarm pun sakitkan hati i.

i guess i really missed him.

semalam dia bbm i,

" i miss you like crazy sayang..."

luluh jantung i rasa nak nangis jer. and i just looked into the phone's screen, reminiscing all the greatest moment i dengan dia. apa yang kitorang buat when there were just the two of us. we really had fun and we do feels like the world is ours. betullah orang cakap, bila cinta itu datang, everything seems so nice and falls into places. and being with the person you love the most, memang takkan ada gantinya.

masa yang kita spend dengan orang yang paling kita cinta dalam hidup kita, setiap saat tu rasa cepat je jalan.

ada this one day, Sunday to be exact. sunday selalunya hari encik husband kena balik to the training centre. so selalu dia akan drive back around 7pm macam tu. so masa tu dah pukul 3pm. i was ironing his clothes. tiba-tiba dia cakap,

"ala sayang.....dah pukul 3pm!!cepat laa gosok baju...kita rindu awak...nak golek-golek..."

apakah? hikhik....senyum-senyum je masa i iron baju dia tu. wondering how am going to live my life without him. kejap-kejap karang dia datang jenguk i kat bilik ironing. nak suruh cepat la tu. sikit-sikit datang peluk i. you tell me bila i nak habiskan kerja i dengan cepat kalau dia keep on clinging dengan i? although masa yang i amek untuk iron tu lebih lama, but having him around me, kacau-kacau i, really make my day, and kita pun tak rasa penat sangat nak iron.=)

minggu ni dia balik. but he'll be late sebab dia nak singgah kampung. i'm fine with it cuma i missed him so much, nak la dia balik awal kan? so masa untuk bergaduh dan bercinta tu lebih lama. hikhik. oklah got to go!ada event plak kat college ni.

Tendang bukan kurang ajar, bukan.

You know what, baby pie kan, she has this amazing but funny ways to move around (or should I say 'in'?) my tummy. Sometimes she do the stretching-like movement so I can see my own tummy skin moves from one side to another side like a wave.

Or she do the sommersault-like movement, and this time she makes me feel like I have to run for the bathroom, and yet lepas dia stop tu, I dah halfway jalan to the bathroom. -_________- nice la anak mama ni.

Or right now, the most popular moves she did was banging-like movement. It seems like she ketuk-ketuk my tummy sampai bergegar. Can you imagine that? So bila bergegar tu perut I bergegar sekejap kat atas, or bergegar sekejap kat bawah.

And sometimes I purposely gegarkan perut I, saje nak lawan dengan die. You know, sitting on the chair and shake my huge tummy vigorously. And after that, senyap plak dia. Mesti dia pening! Ha ha ha..padan muka..kacau mama lagi. I think she's feeling bored inside so she gives me a kick just to notify me. Selalu I nak alihkan perhatian dia, I bagi dia makan or minum. Nanti dia senyap la. Mesti dia omnomnomnom dengan senang hati inside.

Oh yes, subway sandwich! Thank u mommy! -____-

kadang-kadang I tergelak sendiri bila rasa dia moves tu. Especially bila dia gegar2kan perut I. She really makes me happy. Sekarang I senang feeling bored and mudah sedih. Biasalah pembawakan budak (at 3rd trimester?prffttt!). Encik husband is not around. Ada a few friends ajak keluar, makan lepak and all, I just don't have the mood to keluar. I suka stay at home or spend my precious time dengan kawan baek I, encik husband. So bila I sedih, buah hati I dalam perut ni really make my day.

I happy sebab no matter what she's always there for me. Walaupun dia tak faham I cakap apa, tapi I tau die faham apa yang I rasa. I yang carry dia all around the place. Bila dah besar I harap dia faham kenapa I want her/him to stay at home n tak keluar2 dari rumah. Ha ha ha.

Anyway, kakak opis cakap dia dah besar la tu dah pandai ketuk2. Hikhik..so funny la u baby pie. I wanted to read you some story book, tapi..macam funny jer. U want me to read you sayang?

Cuba kick sikit perot mama tanda setuju.. Ha ha ha ha...

#crazymoms
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No more nasi for me!

Yeah rite.

But as weird as it sounds, I just can't eat nasi lagi. I'm not sure about nasi goreng or nasi lemak or nasi ayam or nasi ayam penyet etc, but for now, dah dua hari I makan nasi putih berlauk dengan cara memaksa diri. Tak ikhlas sangat I makan nasi putih berlauk tu.

I just pity my baby inside takot dia lapar.a mother got to do what she has to do.

But if you ask me what I really wanted to eat, anything sweet and cheesy will always be my top choices. Cakes, sweets, biscuits, lasagna, pasta, urghhhhh yummy!! Suka sangat.

Satu yang I perasan, masa I pregnant ni I suka sangat junk food. Dulu, setakat keropok kerapak tu takde nye I beli, jeling pun harapan jer. Sekarang, those section yang I terjah dulu.Hrmmm..betul la orang cakap, apa yang kita tak makan dulu, masa pregnant mesti kita makan.

I guess 2nd round pregnant, I nak crave for semua yang cheesy, so before getting pregnant I takkan makan semua yang cheesy tu. Hahaha...brilliant kan? Prfttt!

So today, I cooked and brought my own sandwich to office. Ada telur, tomato, and hotdog in between. That's for my lunch. Or kalau I lapar nanti-nanti I go subway to eat. Tapi tu la, nak menapak tu malas.

Due to my laziness nak makan, I kena marah dengan encik husband. Bebel-bebel suruh makan. Siap bagi idea ikan masin or telur masin can meningkatkan selera. Cehh...selera dia la tu.hikhik..I guess he was right. Tapi so far I tak makan lagi benda-benda tu.

So today, kite lunch with sandwich!! :)
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Collapse during pregnancy

I think my blood counts are reducing. As we know, during pregnancy, baby pun akan consume darah kita and whatever it is in our body. So I believed that we eat for two. Or kalau nak ala-ala sedap, whatever we eat is divide by two, ha rasa la macam kurang makan sikit kan? Hahaha...

Anyway semalam tak lunch. Takde class pun semalam, tapi sebab I bad mood dengan encik husband, makan pun tak lalu. And petang tu, abang plak nak amek, wahhh cun sangat la tu. Tapi tidak yer, I have to wait for him almost 30mins. Dahla tak makan tengah hari tu, really I felt like pass out.

Symptom nak pengsan :
1. Tekak gatal and batuk.
2. Sakit perut.
3. Rasa nak muntah yang amat sangat.

Kalau abang I lambat lagi 15mins, memang I pengsan kat situ. Thus, in conclusion, a pregnant women cannot stand any longer than 15mins, she can collapse at anytime, and this can injured the baby inside.

So kalau korang nampak perempuan pregnant, be it kat shopping complex, especially dalam train, tengah que for taxi ke, que beli stuff kat food court ke, prioritize them. Selain dapat pahala, we will feel good about ourselves.

Balik tu, mengadu2 dengan encik husband konon nak rasa dimanjai, jangan harap!kena marah ada la. Kena bebel. And he knows how to make me feeling guilty with my act. Pastu tetiba I kesian kat baby pie, sebab she must be hungry. I'm sorry syg..:(

Malam tu mama masak asam pedas ikan siakap, sambal sotong, sayur and telur dadar. Yummy sgt! I makan sikit jer tapi rasa nak terbelahak tu kuat sangat. Rasa nak muntah tapi tahan je sebab membazir lauk makan tadi.

Lepas 2 jam baru I rasa lega.

Encik husband was with me sampai pukul 10pm.dengar I bebel and borak2 takde tujuan. pastu he'd got to go, ade class. Rindu betul kat budak tu.hee..

Pagi ni I had oats and milk for breakfast. Sedap gilaaaaa! I kan suka oats..dap2! :)


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Drama Queen (sangat!)

you know, orang cakap the first trimester is the, what we said, the vulnerable time for both mama and baby. i mean macam untuk baby, kena jaga diri, tak boleh lasak-lasak sebab baby tak kuat lagi etc. and during that time too, mama dia akan jadi a lil bit of drama queen, sikit-sikit emosi, tak dapat makan pun emosi, dah kalau bergaduh dengan encik suami lagi la terlebih emosi.

right?

yeah riteeee.....sebab puan wife ni, dah masuk 3rd trimester baru nak gedik-gedik ada symptom pregnancy ni dah kenapa? err....i guess different people have different  kind of stories about their pregnancy, kan?

bukan apa, mula-mula i terperasan sangat yang hati i lembut bak sutera dan sehalus cotton candy when i asked my big brother untuk belikan limau ais kat kedai mamak. masa tu panas walaupun dah pukul 9pm. he went for his gym session so i watsapp him to buy me limau ais since dia tengah lepak kat situ pun. sekali dia balik tu, bukan takat limau ais takde, 100+ or everything else pun takde (selalu je dia balik tangan berisi). masa tu mata i dah berair-air menahan rasa sedih macam takde orang sayang kita, macam takde orang kisah pun ibu nandong kehausan. memang sedih sangat. terus mood i jatuh menjunam and terus ajak abang i balik rumah, masa tu kat rumah my aunty.

tu one story.

another story, i tengah baring-baring tengok movie kat astro. cerita tu tak sedih pun, in fact, it was a funny movie cuma adalah satu scene tu macam sweet-sweet. sweet tau, bukan sedih. sekali tetiba meleleh-leleh air mata i. luckily mama and ayah were not there. kalau tak malu je. and i let my tears stream down my face while bbm encik husband mintak perhatian. nasib dia ada melayan. if not memang gaduh sebulan la. and luckily he didn't notice any changes kat kita. maybe dia ada rasa pelik kenapa wife dia a bit strange that day (mintak perhatian lebih), but i guess he used to that.

then recently i had a fight dengan encik husband. well, kan i dah cakap kalau seminggu berjauhan, lama tak jumpa, sibuk and all that, memang possibility untuk gaduh tu sangat tinggi. entah kenapa pun i tak tau. but u tell me. kalau dekat (duduk serumah) pun gaduh, apatah lagi jauh pun gaduh, means kitorang ni camne ni nak handle? haa...tak faham kan? encik husband cakap apa entah, hati i sentap sangat. bergetar2 bibir i tahan nangis, tapi nangis la jua. berjurai-jurai.

ni kat opis ni pun tadi dia bbm ape ntah, berjurai-jurai air mata i. sedih gila..padahal kalau ikot logik bukan apa sangat pun. tapi entahlah, sayu sangat rasa kat hati.

encik husband insist nak baik-baik dengan i, but the things he said just hurt me so much. sebenanrnya takde la hurt so much, tapi i rasa hurt sangat (apakah?). tapi dah baik dah, sebab i tengok barang-barang baby online tadi pastu excited nak cantik-cantikan bilik baby dengan beliau, pastu okay la jadiknya. lagipun encik husband dah pujuk dari malam semalam tapi i buat dek je sebab sedih. menyampah gila kat diri sendiri.

Him : "i miss my wife..... =("
Me : " kite tengah tengok barang baby la...*hugs*"

Him : "garang. taknak la gaduh lagi..."
Me : "nanti balik kite gi shopping k??" ( dah tak ingat pasal gaduh sebab shopping mode on)
Him : "*hugs*

hahahaha...how easy it was. kalau lah encik husband tahu i hanya boleh dipujuk dengan makanan sedap dan session membeli belah, mesti dia orang paling bahagia sangat. bahagia tak bahagia la, kopak wallet kalau tiap minggu wife merajuk.

inilah masalah i sekarang. hati rapuh sangat. and i rasa this week dah dua kali i muntah. sedangkan masa first trimester tu boleh kira la berapa kali i muntah. 3 kali kot sepanjang pregnancy ni. alhamdulilah sangat kan? tapi i think i over ate. perot dah besar sebab baby dah occupied the space, perut jadi kecik, tapi makan macam perut lembu, ada 4. memang terbelahak la keluar.

so itulah cerita drama queen kita. entah lepas ni ape lagi la akan terjadi kat i and encik husband?hahaha....*evil laugh*

anyway, weekend ni dah tau nak masak apa since encik husband balik! oh yeah.... maybe sweet sour fish and some mix vege. dapnyerr....teringin sangat!=)

1st Ultimate Gift dari Nenek and Atok!

Hari sabtu lepas, my second brother buat a small gathering kat rymah dia kat Hartamas. small gathering and makan-makan. although i dont like to go there, but thinking that he's my brother and i have so much respect for him as a brother, pergi la jugak walaupun dalam keadaan terpaksa. and ayah bising-bising, biasalah ayah-ayah membebel-bebel pasal siblings , family and all that.

but i'm glad i did it. sebab dah lama tak berborak berdua macam tu (the wife is not there...fuhhh...if not, we dont get the chance pun nak borak!). kitorang memang close pun since school time due to our gap yang tak jauh beza, dalam 3 years jer. but i'm the one who got married first. =)

anyway, the menu for that day were nasi lemak and laksa, some agar-agar and teh tarik and juices. sedap la sebab caterer dia memang caterer yang family kitorang selalu amik. since i don't eat the whole day, i felt so hungry, so i melantak macam there's no tomorrow. Turn out, i lupa kan perut semakin kurang spaces sebab baby pie dah occupied ke atas.

and yes baby, i threw up! banyak gila, sampai makanan breakfast pun keluar jugak. but i felt so relieved. terus perut macam kempis perasan kurus. ha ha ha... -_____________-

then malam tu i suggested that we (me, mama and ayah) go to IKEA since i think from Hartamas - Mont Kiara - Damansara dekat jer. and yes, in 15minutes kitorang dah sampai. masa lalu sebelum u-turn dekat simpang OU tu macam tak banyak kereta, tapi lepas u-turn je terus banyak. apakah? and IKEA's parking lot tutup, boleh? sebab penuh sangat. but i asked ayah tu queue dekat pintu masuk parking lot tu, me and mama went in first.

kitorang terus pergi dekat children's section. tengok baby cot. tengok bumper pad, mattress, blanket, and etc. since semua barang ni akan berada di rumah mama, so she paid for all! alhamdulilah rezeki baby pie..hikhik!! first cucu kan, haruslah di showering dengan kasih sayang dan kemanjaan. dah alang-alang mama bayar tu, i sumbat la benda-benda kecil comel yang lain.storage case and all. tak jadi nak beli changing table sebab mama kata baby pie takkan muat.

hello!!my baby won't be that big sampai changing table pun tak muat. haihhh....*jeling perot papa dia* hahahaha!

and on sunday me, ayah and mama bertungkus lumus pasang. actually, ayah asked papa dia untuk pasangkan but papa dia balik next week, so we need to check kalau ada kayu yang cip ke, screw tak cukup ke etc etc kita boleh mintak refund/change.

dalam manual dia suruh 2 orang je dah cukup untuk pasang. padahal kena at least 3 orang pasang k. tergelak-gelak kitorang pasang. hehehe....sebab macam bodoh je, lubang tak jumpa la, ni tak jumpa la. hahaha....but it was fun! i asked them to put the baby crib outside my room, diorang kate semak la ape. -______- fine! letak la sebelah katil i.

so i pun berangan baring tepi baby's crib tu and said, "shhhhh.....senyap senyap. tidur laa...". mama and ayah laughed at me. whatever i dont care. esok baby pie bising i cakap macam tu jugak. or i just turn to my ultimate hero encik husband and give baby pie to him, "sayang....baby nangis. nahh...tolonggg...".

nak tengok baby's crib baby pie yang nenek and atuk dia belikan?

so putih suci bersih. and the nenek's bought for baby pie all white including bedsheet, blanket, pillow, and bumper pad. even the storage system pun putih. salahkan baby pie yang malu nak tunjuk gender dia. but sayang, even if you are a boy/girl, mama still want the white things for you. and mama and papa loves you no matter what. we hope you know that. =)

Sombong Angat!

Yeay! Breast pump I dah sampai. I was so excited when I got home semalam, and lepas letak beg terus suruh ayah bukak kan kotak. And there it was, breast pump, switch kit, and also nipple shield for my baby. Mama and ayah pun excited..kikiki. Diorang kata "it has been 21years since ada baby kat rumah..".

I hope (and pray) that I will use it for 2 years and more. Nanti membazir je tak guna.

So settle dah barang feeding. Toilteries baby pun I dah beli, tapi semua in travel size, sebab nanti nak bawak dalam hospital beg. It won't take up so much space.

Weekend ni ingat pun nak cari barang baby tambah-tambah. tapi susah jugak nak carik barang putih suci ni. And plus tak tau gender baby. Haihh...what can I say. Baby pie ni penuh misteri.

Macam papa dia masa mula2 bercinta dulu. He talked less, he was not that open with me. So I had to asked him a lot of questions. Just so that I tau ape interest die, ape die suka and what not. But I found it enjoyable..hahaha...asking him a lot of questions.

Sebab tu dulu I thought he don't love me. Selalu la bergaduh, even sampai sekarang pun. Sebab dia kan suka cari gaduh dengan I. Lepas tu dia kan macam tak sayang dengan I. Hahaha...tak sayang tapi baby pun dah nak sampai dah ni.hehehe...

I know he loves me, tapi biasa la lelaki, bukan dia nak show sangat pun. Encik husband ni, kalau jalan-jalan kat mall, takde nya dia bagi I pelok pinggang dia. Entah kenapa. Kadang-kadang kecik ati jugak..tapi selalu pun I paksa je.

Pedulik apa. Kata kekurangan kasih sayang.

Hahahha....

Eh okay la. Melalut pulak cerita. Zohor pun dah berkumandang. So let's go! :)


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