Abang Macho Tapi Sweet

Assalammualaikum.bersiaran lagi kita tapi since hari ni hari sabtu,maka ianya adalah hari cuti bagi saya.hari ni adalah hari tak bersejarah sangat sebab manusia yang cintakan rusuhan dan ketidakamanan tengah sebok tunjuk perasaan bawah panas matahari membahang di,entah.malas nak amik tahu.

Oh jadi kita bersiaran dari studio haircut.tengah potong rambut.lagipun jap lagi nak pergi wedding.kat tengah2 KL plak tu.

Citer pasal wedding,I lari sekejap beli hadiah kat jj.beli mangkuk letak candies jela.ingat nak bagi duit,tp macam tak best je plak datang tangan kosong walaupun kita bagi duit.kan?

So,sekejap je.cari foundation pun xjumpa.dah nak habes dah kot.actually dah habes pun.lepas beli tu terus la naik escalator,cr kunci keta dalam beg,tangan sebelah pegang hadiah berbalut gold,bayar parking.

Okay sabar sabar.nak citer la ni pasal abang macho tu.

Tengah nak bayar tiket tu,seringgit je pun.boleh tak takde duit kertas RM1?duit syiling dia taknak makan plak.hangen gila aku. Nak taknak buat la muka seposen mintak tukar kat orang.

Ade plak abang demok2 comel baru sampai.buat muka ayu,manja,

"Abang..ada seringgit tukar tak?dia taknak plak duit syiling.." Sambil cari2 duit syiling dua puluh sen,5 keping.

"Nah..amek jela.."

"Eh bang,ape ni..amikla ni bang..orang nak tuka jer la.."

Abang demok2 comel itu berlalu pergi. Kawan dia yang agak hensem kat belakang dia tu senyum comel2 jer,sambil dalam hati cakap, "kawan aku dengan awek laju je bagi sengget,dengan aku 50sen pun mintak balik".

I was like,terkejut gila.yela..niat kita nak tukar,tapi abang tu boleh plak blanje sengget.so thanks sgt2 abg demok2 tapi sweet. Doakan semoga rezeki abang tu dan keluarga beliau bertambah ruah hendakNya.

Sweeetttt gila abang tu. *senyum lebar2* tu buat calon suami pun enak jugak tu.ehehe..

And sekarang I'm having fever,batuk,selsema,dan sakit kepala yang melampau. Dua2 klinik boleh tutup plak kan.pergi pharmacy die bagi ubat flu ape ntah.jap lagi baru makan.

Ps: pendek plak amoi ni potong rambut aku.

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Part of My Life

Assalammualaikum and a very good morning to all.ewah, macam nak buat forum plak. Anyway, today I came across a statement in twitter.I can't put the link because I'm broadcasting using my bb. So the statement was like this,

"If someones want to be part of your life,they will make an effort to be part of it"

Saya sangat setuju dengan statement di atas.sangat-sangat setuju. Mari bincangkan ( dengan diri sendiri).

Contoh,kalau the gf you tak suka you datang lambat,janganlah the bf datang lambat.alasan jem,kete rosak adalah annoying. Takkanlah a day before dating,tak boleh check dulu?kan? And kalau tau jem,can't you put some effort utk gerak 5 jam awal dari waktu sepatutnya?kan?

When I want to go out for date (ini rahsia sebenarnya) two days before until the date,I selalu mandi guna sabun2 mahal(mahalla, 500ml dah RM18++) supaya bau tu melekat.I MAKE AN EFFORT untuk berbau wangi,to make the outmost for the date.

Itu satu. Another thing,kalau the gf tak suka the bf brkawan dengan orang yang dia tak suka atas sebab tertentu, the bf haruslah MAKE an effort untuk tidak berkawan,demi yang tersayang.

Tapi kalau sayang la.kalau tak sayang,lantaklah kan?tinggalkan je gf macam tu demi KAWAN tersayang. Takde masalah.

As for me.kalau I rasa the man is really THE ONE for me,I leave the person yang menjengkelkan dia.mungkin dia cemburu.mungkin dia sayang sangat kat kita,takut2 kita tinggalkan dia.ha,sweet kan?:)

And both parties kena bekerja keras and make an effort untuk happykan your other half.kalau dia tak happy,tak ceria,selalunya bergaduh.bila bergaduh,relationship pun tak berapa nak best. Kalau dua2 make an EFFORT untuk pleased your other half,things will be great.

Yang penting,EFFORT tu!

You boleh berubah,kalau you put some effort for it kan?kannnn??

Ps: bila berfikir,berfikir for both sides.

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BBM Kurang Bijak

Semalam I felt bit different.perasaan. Maka telah bertindak tidak berapa bijak dengan bbm en bf dan mengeluarkan statement tidak berapa bijak kepada beliau. Dan en bf pun merajuk.

Ha kan I dah cakap cik gf ni tak berapa bijak.en bf haruslah bijak,sebab tu dia tak buat statement tak berapa bijak macam ni.

Dah mintak maaf,I mean I la harus mintak maaf sebab "bijak" sangat buat macam tu, terus jadi manja-manja gedik entah pape je.

Semalam malam we had dinner at nenek's,so balik lambat sikit.so I balik dah penat gila and terus kebabom tido.without even wish nite kt en bf.ha cane nak kawen tu,u tell me rite now?hee..

So hari ni,I dengan tanpa segan silu nya hantar la bbm mushy kat en bf.lepas dah anta tu,a few seconds later,en bf bg icon love.lepas tu I rasa malu yang amat sangat sebab jiwaaaannnnggggg gila hantar bbm macam tu. Dah 7 tahun kot,yang awak gedik sangat hantar bbm jiwang tu dah kenapeeeee..

*masukkan kepala dalam beg*

Ps:BBM tak berapa bijak drpd orang bijak,tapi bukan dalam BBM.
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Wait For A Second!

Good morning.bersiaran secara langsung dari konti kerja di tengah-tengah KL. Hari yang sangat cerah,dengan sang burung berkicauan di udara nan biru.

Kadang-kadang, ada sesuatu yang macam kita asyik fikir,tapi kita tak boleh nak bagitau sape2.takut memudaratkan dari segi zahir dan batin. Takut juga mengundang perpecahan kaum,dan juga takut boleh mengancam sesiapa sahaja.

I have something lingering in my mind.I can't tell my bf,I can't tell my friends,jauh sekali family. Allah?Dia tahu,semestinya.sebelum benda ni berlaku pun Allah dah tahu. Hebatkan?

It is (slightly) causes a burden to me,somehow,someway.kadang-kadang I penat sangat fikir pasal nie. Kadang-kadang I fikir kenapa I susah-susah involve in it.why can't I just get out of it?

Atau it is only me who make it into a troublesome-matters-whatsoever?

But heyy,wait a second! Lean back and relax. Setiap masalah mesti ada jalan penyelesaian kan?you know that right Farah?takkan baru sikit dah lembik bongoks macam ni?hahaha..sometimes I think I just need someone that I didn't even know who (s)he is,pastu blurrghh out everything.puas hati kan?

I tak salahkan sesiapa,and I taknak point fingers kat siapa-siapa,and I tak perlukan sesiapa untuk letak dia atas punca semuanya.

Penat.penat.penat.

Dah cukup masa.sikit lagi sampai ke kemuncaknya.nak sabar ke ape nie?atau let it go with the flow?haa..

Tapikan,kalau nak ikutkan,I am lucky by comparing to other unfortunate people.entah kenapa manusia masih tak bersyukur.

Ps: sebok msg kawan2 ajak g karoke weekend ni.dah entah kenapa.

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Sesat dalam Mall

Friday hari tu MC,perut sakit memulas sebab makan fish&chip from san fransisco steak house kat klcc.ok bukan sebab food itu sahaja,banyak lagi yang I sumbat.so I think due to the several chemical reactions inside the stomach causes such feeling.lepak kat rumah the whole day bertemankan toilet.

Sabtu en bf beriya ajak date,dari hari khamis dia dah siap beli tiket transformer.semangat betul.sometimes he is so charming buat I rasa nak tumbuk2 jer dia sebab geram sgt.he is romantic in his own way..so anyway jalan lenggang kangkung je and both of us were so happy sebab macam amazing grace ou kosong.

Sampai je,kebabOm!!memang la kosong,tengah renovation katenye.T_T..the whole old wing is still under progression,new wing haruslah dah cantik menyinar.

Cik gf:"syg..arini I nak shopping..I want to buy shirt,shoes,makeup.."

En bf: "ok dear..u pun dah lame tak shopping..slalu saya je.."


Masuk one of the shop,after a few minutes wondering around,

Cik gf (via BBM): "syg..I'm lost.where r u?I tunggu luar k.."

After 20mins - no reply.


Cik gf (gelabah) masuk balik the shop,berusaha keras cari bf sampai jumpa.jumpa en bf kat satu sudut.

En bf (tanpa rasa bersalah): "syg..yang ni cantik tak?"

Uwaaaaaa...Dia tinggalkan gf dia semata-mata nak shopping,padahal tujuan utama gf die yang nak shopping..bukan diaaaa..T_T

ok terima kasih.

Ps: tengah2 jalan nak pegi GSC, I received a BBM, " budak nakal memang selalu hilang..". Eeeeeeeeeee...


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Vegetarian

One evening, i was having a cup of coffee at starbucks dengan one of my student. the reason i went to a drink dengan dia pun because she skipped her lunch that college has provided for her/them. NASI AYAM. i totally insanely forgot yang dia vegetarian.

i asked her, "why are you switching from being normal to a vegetarian?". no offence, i cant think of any word besides normal, and she's okay with it. slowly, she sipped the hot caramel latte that i've ordered for her and say, "mem', when you eat the animal, eventually you will become one..".

kebabOm!muka i tiba-tiba merah sebab indirectly dia nak cakap i macam binatang. tapi i teringat, kita sebagai umat islam, memakan binatang (bukan bangkai) adalah bukan kesalahan/dosa. tapi i tak menafikan apa yang dia cakap, sebab makanan yang kita makan kan jadi darah daging kita.

MAYBE one of the reason kenapa mereka yang memakan binatang berperangai seperti seekor binatang simply because, mereka tidak memakan binatang yang disembelih mengikut Islam dan syariat Islam. kadang-kadang kita makan dekat western reastaurant yang tidak ada tanda HALAL, sebab kita kata dia tak dapat status HALAL sebab jual beer, without even realize the chicken, meat and lamb is from , out of nowhere?

takpelah, i taknak sentuh tu sebab semua dah besar and boleh fikir sendiri mana satu Halal and mana satu Haram. right?cuma i just want to remind you, flexible flexible jugak, kalau benda tu dah haram, jangan la kata halal yer.

thinking about being a vegetarian. uuuhh...i love vege. semua except CARROT. no carrot juice for me and no carrot yang tebal-tebal keras for me. yang lembek and lenyek2 boleh la. being a vege is healthy. kalau you all taknak makan meat pun boleh, you can get the protein from soya and banyak lagi.

tapi kan, bila teringat kalau jadi vege tak boleh dah nak makan ikan 3 rasa denga encik bf, terus tertutup pintu hati ku ini. bayangkan kalau pegi makan, kita makan sup sayur, kueytoew sup sayur, dan encik bf makan ikan siakap 3 rasa, tomyam seafood, sotong goreng tepung, memang lah ade rasa nak terbalikkan meja makan. oh so dengki kann??

maka, saya tidak mahu menjadi vegetarian, cuma saya akan kurangkan pengambilan carbohydrate yang sememangnya takde kena mengena dengan protein mahupun vegetarian.

sekiannn.

Audit Visit-BERJAYA!

Alhamdulilah.effort,paperwork,all the burning candles are well paid off.fuhh...pihak audit dah datang,semak papers, infrastructure,and all.and we get a really2 good feedback from them.

This was my first time handling,meeting,this kind of project and pressure.hey I'm young okay.too young to handle this kind of project.my title as a 'Head' and should be able to carry such work,still I rasa I don't have the capability to do that.

Thanks to my HOS and other team members yang sama-sama menjayakan tugas ini.really appreciate all the hardwork you people had put in.without them,susah nak complete the task.

Harap dapat bonus la raya ni..lalala.

My HOS cakap,I'm a dynamic young lady.dynamic tu apa?I kan tak berapa nak pandai,encik bf je pandai so I pun google la.dynamic person is someone who:

1. Able to adapt to different mode of communication.
2.Do not fear of rejection
3. Give an interesting answer
4. .Mannerism
5. Engage to many people
6. Public are customers

I rasa I no 1 jer.from that reason I'm able to branch out to different perspective regardless their background and culture. Mungkin sikap hormat yang diterap dalam hidup I sejak azali lagi buat I bersikap dynamic?mungkin. Tak lupa jugak encik bf yang banyak mengajar cara mengawal emosi and cakap tu biar bernas.

Lepas tu, HOS I tu medical dr.lagi la best.dia bagi health consultation for free!dia kate lagi datang clinic bole bg diskaun okay.oh very the like.tadi dia bagi list of ubat untuk prescription kat pharmacy.and tiba-tiba kite jadi good friend plak.

Akak opis pun cakap, audit ni takkan berjaya kalau takde I. She said I am a well manage person and really good at as coordinator. Keje on time and always complete.yang bestnya dia siap mention my nama kat managing director. Doa-doa la dapat increment. Dua ratus cukup lah.

Bukan nak brag,tapi I'm quite suprise dengan ape yang I'm capable of doing so.bukan senang after meeting end tadi, dari boss sampai kerani congratulate I.it was a team work but still. But yeay, berjaya!

Sekarang ni boleh la mintak encik bf belanja makan,or romantic dinner kat restaurant terapung tu. Boleh eh sayang?hehe..

Ok nak buzz off sekejap.

Ps: penat.
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La Cucur

Semalam (sabtu) was really a busy day.the night before,I tengah menyeronokkan diri ke hartamas dan pulang ke rumah dalam keadaan yang sangat penat selepas habis class.pukul 2 pagi. Encik bf?jangan tanya.dia sudah memang saya amat pasti dah tertido telangkup kepenatan dek kursus yang dia baru attend. Kesian dia.

So semalam pergi hantar rombongan meminang ke meru klang.umang aihh,memang la jauh dari cheras ke meru.walaupun naik keta mahal gila,tetap aircond die macam microwave.panas.tak tahan.

Aunty I yang kaya ni dah sediakan nasi dagang n laksam untuk breakfast.lepas breakfast ade la doa sikit2. Ustaz tu ckp,lepas bertunang bukan lesen tunang untuk meraba dan diraba. *terus tertunduk malu*

makan kat meru tu,pihak pompuan sediakan lauk sedap gila.simple tapi sedap.I nak tambah,tapi bukan malu,tapi memikirkan berat badan berlebihan nanti encik bf bising2 dia kate macam mane nak kendong masa dah kahwin?*hentak2 kepale kat dinding*so forget it.

Malam tu aunty I buat lagi makan2.yang ni die order from La Cucur.sape tak tau La Cucur ape,sila berenang dalam longkang sekarang. Sedap ok la cucur.sedap sangat2.Pastu ade Pai Tee plak tu!ha,sape tak tau pai tee ape,sila berenang balik dalam longkang tadi,tapi lajukan sikit.haihhh la.semputtttttt..

Malam tu,encik bf datang.ehem.rumah dekat kan.rasa nak peluk2 je,tapi yelakan,bukan muhrim I.agagaga.leh tengok2 jeling2 jer.seronok betul la die makan.I pun seronok sebab sambil makan sambil borak2 dengan dia.encik bf kate quality time together.suweett. Dari pukul 6 sampai kul 11 dia kat situ. Kira sampai abang la cucur tu balik la.haha..

Lepas tu nak jugak la private moment.We had a very2 great time kat carefour.carefour je tau,tapi dia punye rasa tu lain macam sikit.haha..dah macam budak2 pun yer gak.nasib tak bawak troli yang besar tu.kalau tak,mau ke hulur ke hilir main. Encik bf baru dapat gaji maka dia keluarkan surat pekelilingn "b nak ape?amek jela..".tapikan,encik bf ni die macam tau2 la gf die baru makan berkilo2 td.bila kenyang gf dia memang tak boleh tengok makanan,nak muntah. So sebab taknak kecikkan hati dia,I amek 2 kotak air,yogurt,dengan ape ntah.itupun rasa macam nak kena sawan je memilih.

Encik bf having fun borak2 dengan uncle.pasal MU,memang la having fun sangat.he is really something la encik bf.banyak kali tengok dia,banyak kali jugaklah jatuh cinta.

Sebenarnya ni tengah rindu ni,tak bbm lagi dari tadi.sebok sangat je dengan OP-PP dia.heee..biarlah.

Ps: geram!geram!geram dengan encik bf!
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:Credit Card

Seminggu ni I will be late for home.kerja banyak gila, lagi-lagi audit nak visit. Tapi the best part is,haruslah boleh claim OT or elaun or ape-ape la yang you all panggil. Last visit I tolong, almost half of my salary okay dapat.memang kaya sikit la kan. Bayangkan *kalau gaji rm3000,maka bulan tu I dapat rm4500.heaven kan?

So anyway,bulan lepas I rasa I banyak shopping la,tiba-tiba tengok acc balance dah susut.ngapain?terus termati nafsu nak apply credit card.dulu-dulu masa tanya opinion encik bf (benda-benda serius kena tanye encik bf sebab beliau memang hebat dan sangat bijak dengan benda-benda serius macam ni,gf die pulak tak berapa nak bijak), maka beliau cakap, "syg jangan nak mengada-ngada.."

Apakah?kenapa beliau amat kejam sekali dengan terus tidak membenarkan cik gf dia yang baik lagi penyayang mengapply credit card!?apakah tak layak langsung cik gf dia untuk apply credit card itu?

Memang pun!!dasar perempuan tak sedar diri!kalau gaji 10k tiap bulan haruslah apply credit card!kete cabuk tu pun berhutang nak bayar,ade hati nak pakai credit card.
*cakap sambil cekak pinggang*

Maka dengan ini,saya cik gf kepada encik bf sudah sedar diri dengan keupayaan gaji sendiri,maka saya target lagi 3 tahun baru nak pakai credit card .boleh eh sayang?hish,die bukan baca pun.

Tapikan sayang, kalau you buat credit card and I supplementary holder lagi best!kira I ikot la cakap you tak pakai credit card.I nak jadi gf yang taat dan patuh.ciri-ciri isteri mithali ecewah..

Ps: syndrom-money-shortage..T_T
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Missing my Other Half

Okay.seminggu macam setahun rasanya.encik bf di kejauhan mencari nafkah,and yet cik gf mengada-ngada kerinduan.Memang la rindu sebab 2 weeks before he off to work,telah berlaku perselisihan pendapat between us,and we (I sebenarnya) did not contact each other for 2 weeks.oh,bergaduh mengeratkan kasih sayang sebenarnya..lalala..

But the night sebelum dia pergi,dia cakap la nak pergi bla bla..and balik bla bla..I bla bla..u bla bla..you know la,mushy stuff. Nasib jiwa raga I yang lemah bersopan santun haruslah terpedaya dengan kata-kata manis beliau.

Halaahh..takde la manis sangat,kata-kata perangsang sebenarnya.maka jadi lebih bersemangat.tapi hari ni baru senin,beliau balik sabtu..alahai lamanye lagi..

He sent me a picture of him siap beruniform.teringat the first time I fell in love with him.gambar beruniform jugakla I dok pandang 24jam.masa tu zaman sekolah2.encik bf hari-hari pergi kelas pakai uniform,sekolah dia mengada lebih.nasib tu sekolah lelaki jer,if not time tu jugak nak register sekolah tu jugak..hehe..

I know he's missing me sebab bilamana dia sempat,dia akan sms me (no bbm sebab I know lagi la susah) "br lps makan syg..".."Officer tu poyo b.."..hikhik..the fact dia take a minute to sms dah cukup kembang kuncup jantung dengan valve i nie.. Hee..

I hari-hari dah jot down nak buat apa every weekend or time yang dia ada nie..makan kat mana semua..buat ape..wayang ape..encik bf tidaklah cerewet,maka cik gf dia yang kelam kabut nie memang la sesuai as partner in crime.

Haa..melalut jauh nie. Oklah nak sambung mark papers student2 ni.jawab dah la merepek2.camne nak cgpa tinggi camni.


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Fruitland Jusco AU2

so after we went to my friend's wedding at putrajaya, we don't feel like going home right after the wedding. instead i asked my friend to bring me to jaya jusco AU2 keramat. we stop by here, FRUITYLAND!!

this was mine. FRUITY LOLO SOURSOP RM6.90. the taste was so masam (sour), but taste good for my liking. ada sac of the soursop itself, and to be able to munched it was great. recommended for people yang suka sourness, like me!

oh actually this was a wrong ordered dish, but the flavour and the dumplings adalah sama. DUMPLING SOUP RM8.90. soup dia sangat sangat sangat sedap. rasa macam soup tok nenek kita buat. recommended for everyone!

TAO FU FA RM3.50. not to sweet and served while hot. memang macam tao fu fa cina and makan semangkuk memang tak cukup. the tao fu fa very soft and milky to munch.i love it to bits!

ni ape eh nama dia. should be FRUITY LOLO HONEYDEW RM7.90 kalau tak silap. combination of susu and honeydew memang sangatlah terbaik. i curik 2 - 3 sips sebab sedap sangat.

boleh bawak kids here sebab tempat die yang warna pink (more to my favo color FUSCHIA), and ada playground and setting yang sangat childish. teringat masa budak-budak dulu...teehee...

so far i heard the franchise ada dekat the curve and also here jusco AU2 keramat. go la and bring your family. it is a great place to be!i definitely will go!

Kenapa Perlu Membawa Bekal

You know, since i am a homey person, i seldom eat outside unless i have to. homey person yer adik-adik bermaksud seseorang yang sayangkan rumah, sentiasa berada di rumah, lagi-lagi kat rumah semua ada macam unlimited usage of internet, air-cond, dan peti ais yang penuh dengan fancy food, dan suka makanan yang dimasak di rumah. thanks to mama yang dari dulu tak penat-penat masak untuk kitorang adik-beradik. walaupun sampai sekarang mama dah tua (57y.o) dan full time worker in one of the biggest bank in malaysia sejak 32 tahun yang lalu, balik kerja mama terus masak. agak pelik kalau ibu anda suri rumah dan tak masak.

oleh sebab itu, i always bring bekal to my office. even masa sekolah pun i bawak. tak tau la kenapa tapi memang hari-hari kalau ada lauk lebih malam tadi i bawak. okay fine. you all nak gelak ke ape ke, up to u. i lagi prefer makan makanan rumah dari i beli nasi kandar kari masin. tapi tak hari-hari la. kadang-kadang makan jugak nasi lemak and all.

and i save a lot too!kalau satu hari bajet makan rm10 tapi tak pergi makan, seminggu dah rm50. tapi duit tu bukan bertimbun pun. selang 2 minggu keluar dating mesti i shopping. kalau takde baju berkenan kat DP pun, watson / guardian wajib pegi.

so itulah. selain daripada healthy and food yang sedap, duit juga dapat jimat. tell me, apa tujuan i tulis entry pasal food pukul 1 pagi ni? yer tepat jawapan anda yer. L.A.P.A.R.

selamat malam!

Oh Crap!!takutttt..

I don't even like what I feel right now.I don't like thinking what will happen kalau benda tu jadi lagi untuk ke sekian kalinya. Takde perasaan kasihan ke wahai manusia?

Ujian dan ujian dan ujian yang Allah berikan. Mungkin petunjuk dah lama sangat tak pegi jenguk Dia. Alpa alpa alpa.

"Kul in kun tum..."

Tetapkanlah hati aku ya Allah.sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui segalanya.amin.

Ps:serius rasa takut and nak muntah.
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Fear of Nothing

Makin dekat,makin perasaan ni bercampur baur. Risau,takut.hrmm..macam-macam lagi. betul ke keputusan yang nak di buat ni?boleh ke aku ni?

Mungkin sepatutnya bila datang perasaan macam ni,kita patut sembahyang dan berdoa lebih kepada Pencipta yang of course tahu segalanya.

I fear most about my future.I really do.I mean,after watching that video,I felt like..hrmm...susahnye.I takut.I sangsi.I really don't know about my feelings anymore.

Sebab I don't know what my future will bringsI look like I'm strong.I act like I'm strong.but I am not.I don't.

Can we just,stop?


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Working Matters

I thanked my mum for always taught us about life and all.my mum had been working with the chinese for almost her entire life.she said that the working style of the chinese are different.diorang sangat rajin and proactive.it keep us to work harder and contribute more to the organization.but they will pick chinese for higher position no matter how good you are,but if you are not a chinese,they won't pick u.

My dad oppositely had been working with mostly indians and malays.he said indians are different.indians are more friendly compare to chinese and malay.and they like to share stories and experiences.but the bad thing is,they are backstabbers.especially to their own race.

Malays are more to the laid back and watch.but these lead them to bersikap malas.dalam islam memang kita diajar supaya bersyukur dengan apa yang ada,but that doesn't mean kita tak boleh work hard and contribute more.and I realized that.that malays malas.

I work with indians and they acted as what I said before.and it was so sad because benda ni terjadi bukan sebab religion or races,tapi sikap manusia itu sendiri.human behaviour.and ramai yang terkena atas sikap backstabb and fitnah orang and create stories and all.

Personally I think,kita tak boleh blame agama,race,nationality.this is more of your education,background,and how were you brought up by your family and all.I have chinese,indian,and malay friends NOT like I described above.so this is wrong.

I always hold these whenever I go:
1)Jujur dengan apa yang kita buat,cakap.
2)Berbuat baik dengan semua orang
3)Rajin
4)Always think positive
5)Jangan berprasangka buruk pada orang.
6)Ikhlas dengan perbuatan kita.

I'm not good and sometimes I don't follow my principles.but I am trying whenever I can. And I hope other people also have their own good principle.these will lead to a better place to work and live.

Ps: this is personal opinion and doesn't involve anyone.and I have 1 chinese wedding,1 malays wedding,and 2 indian weddings to attend.from kl down to south.cmne woi!!


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Ain't missing

I almost forgot that I have not been out for a date for almost 2 weeks.I see..now I know why I'm being so childish,emotionally emo,and kinda miss him.and I can see the pattern.you know,klau minggu ni pergi dating,the whole week kitorg bbm,calls and everthing.tapi kalau minggu tu tak dating,the whole week kitorg x spend time whether bbm ke,calls ke.dia ada seminar ke,I have meeting ke.

He,always be the mr-cool,bukan dia kisah pun pegi dating ke tak.janji he knows that his gf is happy,dia oklah. Unless gf die dah membebel,merajuk,bergaduh tak reply bbm die tau la dunia berpusing berapa kelajuannya.teehee..

Anyway dah lama sangat tak buat suprise kat dia.and I don't even think he reads my blog.but anyway,nak buat suprise tapi ongkos takde..tapi entahlah.

I hope this week we can go out and have fun.kate nak makan steamboat kan.:)


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Lembut macam kapas

My current cravings,eh tak boleh.sekarang I dalam proses menghabiskan all the moisturizers,toners,cleanser ke ape lah.and all the unused or halfused makeups.

Now all the moisturizers from different brands,I campak dalam handbag,bawa pergi office.dua tub I bawak.satu from nivea,and another one from crabtree&evelyn.nivea tu standard la bau nivea,and crabtree bau lavender.

Cleanser I bawak dua jugak. Satu from bioessence and another one from safi.tapi I lebih cinta dengan safi.bioessence setakat nak habiskan.

Untuk losyen kaki I bawak johnson baby je.itu lebih memudahkan proses rasa nak tidur je.

Kat rumah berlambak lah lagi macam boleh bukak pharmacy dah.ha ha ha.kena habiskan semua baru boleh beli yang satu set terus.sk11 ke.

Lagipun en bf cakap tangan I lembut.jadi semakin laju untuk habiskan semua mosturizer bagi lagi lembut macam kapas.

Okaylah,nak pegi buh lagi cream-cream ni sume.perempuan kena rajin pakai.selain buat kulit lembut,bau kita pun wangi.



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Bercinta Dengan Suami Orang

Lately ni ramai pulak kawan-kawan I yang ada affair dengan suami orang/suami orang yang ada masalah dengan isteri/suami orang yang bakal bercerai.

And it is damn scary!!

And I don't know what else to say to my friends,sebab I am not in their shoes.the only thing I know,they love their bf same macam mana pasangan lain bercinta.

Ada dua sebab kenapa diorang cari/suka suami orang. Berpengalaman-maksudnya understanding,tahu apa yang perempuan suka dan tidak suka.duit-yelah,dah kerja berpuluh tahun,mau duit tak banyak kan.

Rata-rata kawan I, ada masalah percintaan iaitu, bf sebelum ni kaki perempuan, mengongkong,and menyakitkan hati dengan kata-kata.ecewah..and another thing,duit.suami orang itu boleh belikan laptop,duit jajan.kalau yang lagi advance belikan kereta,hp dan sebagainya. Tell me siapa taknak semua itu?

Actually,I tak berapa nak salahkan lelaki sebab lelaki memang makhluk Tuhan yang gatal.tapi I salahkan perempuan sebab siapa suh tepuk tangan lelaki itu,sebab tu lelaki itu tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan. Contoh,ahmad suka lina.ahmad suami orang.hari-hari ahmad kacau lina.kalau lina tak layan ahmad,ahmad akan bosan dan cari mangsa lain.TAPI kalau lina pun sama gatal melayan ahmad,maka ber-affair la diorang. Kan?tapi ahmad pun salah jugak sebab dah ada bini still nak cari lain.tapi pompuan (lina) tetap salah.

Ok fine.memang I tak faham perasaan perempuan yang tangkap cintan dengan suami orang.tapi demi Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang, I rather die than hurting another sister of mine.

Jadi, perempuan2 yang hatinya lembut dan penuh kasih sayang,kalau anda tengah bercinta dengan suami orang,cepat2lah putuskan supaya dia kembali bahagia dengan isteri dan anak2.tidak perlu cemburu dengan isteri dia sebab Allah dah janjikan yang terbaik buat kita cuma ambil masa. Kesian kat isteri dia dan anak-anak.

Kalau bercinta dengan duda takpe.kalau suami orang itu ikhlas nak kahwin,ikut sunnah nabi,dia mesti ada ciri-ciri islam sejati.tapi kalau dia pegi dating dengan anda di kedai kopi misalnya,fikirlah sendiri.

Duit yang banyak memang menjanjikan kebahagiaan.tapi kebahagiaan anda bukan diatas kesengsaraan orang lain.

Bercinta jela dengan orang biasa dan sedarjat dengan kita dan single.senang dan tidak memusnahkan orang lain.

Kepada kawan-kawan yang bercinta dengan suami orang,I can't do anything.its ur choice.aku cuma boleh harap,bakal suami kau takkan buat benda yang sama kat korang.

Ps: in love dengan budak kampung,sebab I pun budak kampung.yeayy!!

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Too Late

"You will never know how much you hurt me,how much I suffer the whole summer, UNTIL when you realized that it was all to late for you to stop me,to behold me,to hear me say that I LOVE YOU...



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The love Mystery

"And then I met someone,
And I thought he could replace you,
We get along just fine,
But it was such a waste of time,
Because it was not you.."

Takde siapa yang segarang awak.walau awak tengah marah2 saya pun, hati saya melting sebab I know you were mad at me because you love me and that you care.

Takde siapa pun sebaik awak.walau macam mana mengader nye saya dengan perangai saya yang kadang2 awk malas nak layan,awak tetap layan saya seadanya saya.

Saya tau saya tak sepandai awak,tapi awak selalu buat saya rasa lagi pandai dari awak.you never look down on me despite how much I envy you sayang with your work and everything.

Terima kasih encik bf sebab always be with me no matter what. These few weeks I am damn happy and I don't know why..

I love you love and I hope we will have a happy ending and that time will keep us together.

Ps: I think because of my PMS makes me all mushy.apakah?



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Etika Bekerja: Rasanya semua tahu kot!

yada yada. yes i have few problems with the way of people behaving while working, atau kita panggil secara profesionalnya ialah- working ethics.

i find it amusing yet irritating while working with people who has these kind of behaviours as i spent almost 10hours in my office and 10hours working with extra flavours dengan orang yang macam ni, i think within 5 years time, either i berhenti kerja atau mati cepat.

this is as a reminder for you good guys, and also myself, because i dont want to irritate people, and neither i dont want you people to irritate me too.

1. datang lambat balik cepat. i mean satu, dahlah tak amanah dengan perjanjian (kontrak) yang korang buat. dua, dosa makan duit tak amanah.
2. pukul 8am punch in, pukul 8 tu la kau nak makan nasi lemak sotong kau, amik masa setengah jam pulak tu. satu, tak amanah lagi. dua, tak rasa bersalah pulak tu makan time kerja. setakat kerepek ke ape boleh la jugak terima.
3. pasang lagu kuat-kuat kat laptop/handphone/audio devices. annoying tau tak?satu, bukan lagu kau hebat sangat. dua, kerja kita ni buat research, reading, maka respect la sikit privacy orang yang sukakan keamanan dan bukan lagu siti nurhaliza kau.tiga, apa tujuan orang invented earphone??
4. memang orang cakap mulut tempayan tak boleh tutup. tapi mulut manusia boleh tutup melainkan kau nak jadi tempayan. buat kerja pakai tangan, bukan mulut. kalau pasal excel pun kau nak describe tak payah kot.
5. bersyukur dengan apa yang kau dah ada. jangan nak complaint je 24jam. hidup aku selama ni pun bukan untuk tujuan dengar kau mengomel. jangan nak fikir negative sangat. kalau nak pun fikir negative, keep your thoughts to yourself. cukup dah negativity aku kat bf aku.
6. jangan jaga tepi kain orang. lantaklah kalau dia belum kahwin tapi lovebite penuh kat leher bila angin selak tudung dia. dosa dia tu dengan Tuhan. dosa kita mengumpat dia sape nak tanggung?
7. jangan cerita pasal kau tido dengan perempuan mana, dan semalam suami kau adalah terbaik diranjang, dan sebagainya. cukuplah dengan video porno yang tersebar luas. kami tak perlukan audio porno, harap maklum.
8. kalau bos panggil suh jaga exam, jangan bagi alasan nak breakfast dulu. satu, itu waktu bekerja bukan breakfast. BREAKFAST ADALAH SEBELUM WAKTU PUNCH IN.
9. amanah dan ikhlas buat kerja. kalau tak ikhlas pun, fikirlah duit gaji itu untuk anak bini makan maka NIAT harus betul. macam kerja kerajaan tapi dok kutuk kerajaan yang mentadbir.maka keikhlasan tu dah takde.

semua ini adalah reminder untuk diri sendiri. sebab i know, kalau benda ni irritates me, maka high chances yang kalau i buat macam ni kat orang pun dia akan irritated jugak.

alright?

ps: a great day. tomorrow's monday. selamat bekerja dengan amanah dan ikhlas. kalau tak ikhlas, tukar la kerja lain ye bang?

Tiring Sunday

Bf stated that we should date differently by doing different things,unlike the usual date.you know.usual dates that we did were like watching movies but with premium seats,eat at fancy restaurant such as kfc,foodcourt,mcd,kenny rogers,tgif for lunch, and dine out at local restaurant with expensive foods such as ikan siakap,sotong etc.money wasting.

But he wanted something different,and we too want to cut down cost and save for our future. (But still I love watching movies and sit for hours borak2).

Thus he decided to bring me hiking at broga hills,for 2nd time!ayayaya...penat kot.bf I memang kejam. But I followed him,dalam keterpaksaan. But my family wants to follow too.ayah,mama,sis,cousins.

He,being the nicest bf ever,he waited for my mum for every steps that she took.sama macam I masa first time panjat.I?dah jauh ke depan,tak peduli.

Balik tu we all went for breakfast and I asked him to treat me nasi lemak kerang as a pay for paksa me hiking.

And petang,we went for our usual dating (haha!) at the mines .nak tengok movie penuh,so he treats me with pizza san fransisco.(Cajun chicken is wow)

I guess it was not all about cut cost,but to have a healthy lifestyle.hehehe..I couldn't love him more..yummy! And sayang, I don't regretted it.not a single of it.
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Lelaki Penipu

Kite tak tau future kita macam mana.we can only hope that we were in a right track although selalunya tidak seindah mana but we try (hard) untuk sail it as well as it should be. And berdoa yang kita sentiasa dilindungi Allah.

Mcm my friend.she had a 3-years relationship dengan the guy yang mestilah dia cinta.3tahun bukan sekejap.kan?3 tahun itu lama.

The fact yang dia pakai baju kemeja everytime pergi dating.masa kawan konvo kat pwtc and he told that he had a seminar at the next door hotel depan my friend's parents,mestilah mak ayah excited dan bangga. Tell me ada tak parents yang tak bangga kalau anak perempuan dia punya bf working as apilot?

So anyway,nak dijadikan cerita a few days before my friend nak bertunang,bf dia cancel. Sebab she found out the so-called great bf,sudah setahun tak bekerja. So selama mereka bercinta,the bf dah tipu gf die.

It is either my friend too naïve (mungkin sbab kawan I memang pompuan muslimah tak bersangka buruk pada orang),atau bf dia kaki tipu. After she called the bf's sister,kakak dia cakap adik dia ni memang HABIT menipu.boleh tak habit menipu?

*hentak kepala laju2 kat keyboard laptop*

Memang sebulan my friend suffer plus malu kat family.but now she's happily married pun.alhamdulilah kan.

So girls, bukan tak boleh percaya,tapi for a caution check2 la sikit.
Claim pilot,padahal jual aeroplane kat toys r us.
Claim PTD, tapi?hahahaha...

Contoh la yer.

Ok girls,sekarang pegi telefon bakal mak mertua masing2.hehehe...


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Sambal punya cerita

No wonder hari2 bangun pukul 7 sebab ada hikmah kenapa datang office awal.by 8.30 dah reach office.

Sebab macam kejadian pagi ni la.

I took almost 30mins just to clean my bag,sebab sambal tumis sotong yang I bawak bekal pagi ni dah tumpah!!hangin!

I dah balut dalam plastik ikat dengan getah kot apahal dia nak tumpah lagi.

Oh,jangan cakaplah dia tumpah dalam beg ape.leather bag lafayette mama beli masa kat paris dulu.sekarang semua tu bau sambal tumis sotong. Nasib tak tumpah dalam beg guess en bf belikan kalau tak memang sumpah taknak makan sotong lagi..(Personal grudge).

So tadi basuh la dengan sabun aunty cleaner tu.bau tak hilang tapi minyak semua hilang.now beg tu I tengah sangkut kat tingkap ofis mengadap keluar.sian dia.

Anyway,harini 5hb kan?arini juga adalah anniversary saya dan en bf yang ke 7 tahun 3bulan..lamanyer weh..selama 7thn ini tak pernah sedetik pun perasaan cinta tu hilang...en bf saya tu banyak kerenah..maka hidup dengan dia macam roller coaster.risky but fun!boleh imagine?

Beg dah basuh,dah breakfast,milo panas dah buat,it's time to work!oh jap,rindu en bf!die sebok-pg tadi je dia sempat wish..

Daa~


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Non-productive

Susah guna phone sebab tak boleh reply comment.maybe ada la solution nyer but for now we stick with online using laptop,that's the easiest way to reply,kan?

At 10 I have a lab session with the students.all compounds and chemicals involve will be prepared by the lab assistant,so I'm just preparing myself la.

Semalam memang tak produktif langsung.kita tengok la today macam mana.

Gaya2 macam tak produktif jugak.



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Love on Labour Day

Ok.memang cuti sempena labor day ni telah dimanfaatkan sepenuh jiwa dan raga bersama family and encik bf.sangat terbaik. Followed by 4 hari je bekerja minggu ni,heaven!

Sabtu around 7am bangun siap2 nak main paintball.gila terbaikla.exercise selama 5jam.kaki memang kejang sebab bend down ala komando sampai sekarang turun naik tangga terasa.memang puas hati.lepas tu like the whole family pun join,memang best!

Tengahari waktu lunch semua gathered at my house.mama and nenek masak siap ada sambal goreng macam raya.tak makan banyak sebab penat sangat.

Malam siap cantik berbaju kurung purple sebab nak pegi dinner award adik encik bf yang dapat 10A(akak so proud of u!)kat alam shah.hopefully die nak buat dentistry dapat la.mama en bf pun ada maka sangat nervous gila babeng tapi berjaya actin cool.

Malam tu en bf bawak tengok suasana romantis kat putrajaya.sebenarnya dah terharu sangat but me always be me,bole nak had a fight plak.anyway baik sendiri la.en bf bukan pandai pun nak pujuk.

Esok pagi2 bangun nak pergi wedding ja'a,one of our close friend.happening gila jumpa kawan2 en bf yang baik and comel gila.and ja'a,sangatlah hensem that day.cakap kat harris,"orang yang dah kahwin memang nampak muka kesuamian kan".harris leh gelak2 plak.haha..satu hari kat wedding ja'a.memang aman kut wed dia.

Then malam tu en bf blanje ikan 3 rasa our favo.en bf die makan2 memang laju je.hujan2 sanggup diredah nak bg gf die makan.sambil tgk MU.walaupun MU kalah dengan Arsenal,en bf tak tau la sedih ke tak.

Pagi esoknye mama masak nasi lemak ayam sotong,and happy gila en bf bole join makan sekali.then en bf teman amek barang kat ofis before we went to jusco cheras beli kasut orang tu.lepas tu pegi plak carefour and en bf belikan jajan mahal2 untuk kita.orang nak bayar sendiri la b....anyway yogurt drink tu tak sedap.nyesal tak beli air soursop tu..hehe..

Then I sent him home.sedih gila.now barulah faham macam mana kalau kita hilang someone yang kita dah hidup sama berpuluh tahun.tapi seriously I had a lot of fun.and makin bertambah cinta dan sayang kat dia.

Anyway b,malam tu ingat nak ajak adik and mama makan la before we went to movie nak?satay?

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Positive #1:Remarkably Great

I went to a bloom taxanomy program,a program dedicated to lecturers,in order for us to improve our ways of teaching skills,attitude,interpersonal skill,and paling penting,a higher standard of preparing our examination questions.

I don't want to highlight on the specific things yang speaker to cakap, but I really wanted to highlight on the positive thing that I purposely picked up in that 4hour program.

1. Always think positive, and thus don't prejudice other people. Along the way,you rarely have an enemy.
2. Be good in whatever things you want to do.waima you nak jadi artis pun,be a remarkably artist.artis yang orang kenal dan orang sanjung.
3. Burn the midnight oil-since that is the best way to sacrife because nanti it pays you well enough.

Dan banyak lagi,nanti I share.

It it just not that:
1. I want a be a remarkably great child.
2. I want to be a remarkbly great lecturer.
3. I want to be a remarkbly great believer.
4. I want to be a remarkbly great friend.
5. I want to be a remarkbly great girlfriend/wife.

But it is not going to be easy. It is going to be tough,but really tough.but we can do it,we must do it because we can. The sky is the limit baby.

Don't underestimate yourself.you have what it takes to be a great you.

Now I'm at the bottom of my life.I feel useless,insecure,and most important-disspointed. Of course,there's no one to reach out for you.

But wake up,be strong.take one step at a time. We can.yes we can.

I wish you and myself the best of luck. You rules yourself.you can choose what kind of life you want.

Ps: semangat lepas pegi motivational talk,ha macam ni la..;)


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Tuduhan tidak berasas

I've been through a bunch of blogs these spared few minutes.afterall hari ni awal sangat datang office.7.15am dah sampai, gara2 pagi ni ada meeting, tapi minutes meeting tak siap lagi,and baru email kt bos pukul 8am tadi.

Seriously,itu yang susah kalau tunjuk pandai sangat dalam kerja,semua habes kita yang dikerah.no,bukan saya nak cakap saya pandai sangat buat kerja,tapi the fact yang saya boleh buat kerja tu yang susah. Padahal boleh jer cari orang lain untuk buat kerja itu.ramai lagi yang nak bekerja.kan?

Anyway berbalik kepada cerita blog tu,rasa nak tergelak sangat.ingat nak letak links kat sini,tapi since diorang (claim) itu blog2 besar,popular, so tak payah la.

Conclusion:
1. Sebok mengutuk orang lain.
2.Claim yang blog dia terlalu suci dan blog dia tidak layak disamakan dengan blog. (Wth?)
3. Claim (lagi) yang semuanya (idea) lahir dari sifat semulajadinya.

Geez..get a life!

Mengutuk tu biasalah (berdosa),sampai saya pun ha terikut2 nak mengutuk ni. Tapi claim blog die tidak layak disamakan sebab dalam blog berisi idea2 bernas dan emosi lahiriah semulajadi tu dah kenape?asasnya,ia tetap blog,dan juga kita semua guna teknologi yang sama,dan bukan jua orang Islam (sila check google kalau blog ni ada contribution dari muslim,I didn't do my homework) yang invent benda ni. Just sebab you somewhat claimed you are a star or tokoh, you nak cakap you ni lain dari yang lain.

Biar orang lain yang evaluate that. Macam penyanyi tidak akan claim dia penyanyi kalau bukan peminat dia yang cakap. Dah,jangan nak start dengan don't judge a book by it's cover.muak.

Ok,sifat semulajadi tu memang ada atau kita panggil instinct atau kreativiti (natural). Tapi kalau bukan pengaruh (pengaruh), awak pun takkan jadi macam tu.

No,bukan berdosa pun awak buat camtu,no,bukan hilang pun kemelayuan awak tu,tapi the fact yang awak (claim) rasa awak lain dari yang lain tu,hrmm.

Entri ni macam tak berasas plak,sebab tak letak nama orang yang ditujukan,kan? So kita stop sini dululah. Sebab saya (claim) rasa saya macam dia.

Ha ha ha. Crap!

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Just a Friend

You give so much to your friends.
From A to Z.
You are willing to sacrifice for whatever reasons, just for your friends.

But HOW MUCH your friends willing to sacrifice for you?
Is it more than the sacrifices I'm willing to make for you?

Yeah, We'll see about that.


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Ethics or the other way round?

Kalau kat office,kite datang awal like 30mins awal,takde sape pun kisah.tapi even kalau kite punch out tepat 5.30pm,sume dah dok tanye "awal balik hari ni?". Eh,rasa nak bagi selipar jer.I don't know la bout you people, tapi I rarely cakap macam tu kat orang laen since it is quite annoying and offended (at least to me) sebab mungkin orang tu ada hal ke ape.lagipun the bos bayar gaji sampai pukul 5.30 jer.and the fact yang dia datang awal tu tak kau kira?.

Tapi baguslah kalau you kerja over time without getting paid example kerja gov yang OT pun xde.tapi tak payah citer la elaun korang banyak.

Mind your own business, buat kerja sendiri, jangan jaja cerita kat office,jangan take advantage with the office's flexibility, and jangan tunjuk pandai sangat.

Last, attitude tu jaga sikit.
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Be home

Got a bbm from him from a faraway land,

bf: "B, x sabar nak balik..."

gf: "nape?heyyy...awk br sampai sana sehari je..enjoy your day bukan selalu dapat macam ni..."

.............

bf: "miss u sebab tu tak sabar nak balik..."


boleh tak hantar bbm macam tu?? terharu. sangat-sangat. ok bf getting sweeter and sweeter more like a sugar. this is one of the reason why i tak boleh jauh-jauh dari dia.sekarang pun tak la dekat mane, but having the fact that i can call him, bbm, email, fb, him like 24hrs buat i happy.

tapi macam sekarang jauh-jauh and online boleh kalau wifi ada, sangatlah sedih. and he always said that i have to be independent and cannot depend much on him. but i wanted too!i wanted to depend on him like everytime. sebab that's the only time he will get involve in everything i do.

lelaki selalu macam tu. tak suka perempuan yang dia rasa tak independant. lain dari perempuan, or maybe me, but i suka dia depend on me and i pun suka depend on him.

but i know he is depend on me, especially when we out for a date. ask him to recall the parking bay, the route to the place of interest, leaving him to shop by himself is a big no.kesian dia, but he is so cute bila kitorang bet sapa ingat jalan balik parking and guess la siapa selalu menang.

Missing is Natural

I'm having my lunch/brunch own sweet time. And mandi lambat.selalu kalau weekend mesti mandi cepat since ada date or just hang out with friends.the best thing was,I took almost 1hr masa mandi.rasa bersih gila.lupa nak berendam dalam bathub tu je.

But the bad thing was, I missed the bbm session with the bf.stressed tau bile masuk bilik berjela bbm from him.I missed him since like 24hr I'm with him. And now he's gone,literally but the barrier jadi macam ni la.really feels like crying sebab even when I found a new trail of semut pun I akan bagitau dia.and being the sweetest bf ever,die pun layan.tapi lepas tu ada la benda dia nak kutuk.

Being away and didn't have the chance to say hi to him,makes me appreciate more of all the things that I have now.and to appreciate him more.

Kalau sesiapa yakin dengan cinta dia,I tabik spring la since it takes a whole of the courage to even feel that.but I am not one of them.

Until today, bila dia bbm to say hi and send me a picture of him,then I realized kalau jauh macam ni,dia still bole ingat I,and to even send me a pic of him?gosh..he really missed me I guess.even masa I pegi the same country tak rasa pun nak hantar gambar or even to contact him.and guess what?memang I tak hantar pun.

He's sometimes-unpredictable.and to be a non-perfect human, there is a few charac yang I tak suka pasal dia.but when it comes to the best side of him,gila boleh rasa jatuh cinta lagi.

Now till he comes back,I'm gonna miss him as much as I could so that I can be so menggedik to him and ask him to buy me everything that I want since memang itu yang dia selalu buat.

Praying yang dia akan tiba Malaysia sihat2 jer.
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Pilihanraya

Kalau kerajaan menang, pembangkang mesti kata pengundi hantu, bayar orang suh undi, kira salah, rosakkan undi.

Kalau pembangkang menang, tak pulak kerajaan cakap pape.

And pembangkang pun takde nak cakap ada pengundi hantu, atau kira salah.

Kan?

Macam kalau MU kalah,bukan maen mengutuk, kalau MU menang lagi berbakul2 kutuk.

Atau mungkin peminat dari Malaysia jer macam tu.

And kalau buat program kebajikan, belakang letak banner parti,memang tak relevan unless pancing undi. So pembangkang pun jangan cakap bila program lain letak banner, sebok cakap semua nak dipolitikkan.

Melayu bumiputera 3 parti besar, cina 1, dan india 1(walau tiap satu ada campur). Nampak tak melayu bumiputera pergi arah mana?

Cakap la bagi tanah ke, duit elaun ke, even kerajaan bagi kursus dan kerja free pun, masih di sokong lain. Macam contoh la bekerja untuk kerajaan,tapi sokong pembangkang.if I were to hate my boss, I would have gone somewhere else.

sayangkan melayu.banyak sangat perpecahannya.cina dah tentu kaya.itu pun atas usaha/rajin dan bersatunya diorang.melayu ni sensitif.isu penting MALAS nak fikir, isu maen b*nt*t yang sentap.

Tak salah kalau pembangkang cuba untuk memerintah.tapi dengan cara betul.ada ciri2 pemimpin,boleh menjalankan tugas.kate orang kroni,esok dia jadi pemimpin,kroni dia jugak.

And I wish to see three of us bersatu.memang pasti kalau ikut undang-undang Islam,semua akan elok.hukum hudud.

Tapi mesti orang yang menjalankan hukum hudud itu mempunyai sifat-sifat terpuji.kalau belum jalan lagi, kat youtube pun sama duk mengutuk dan mengeji ,macam mana.dalam surau/masjid pulak tu.

Kalau citer pasal politik.semua pandai.yang takde background admin/law/social science/psychology pun boleh cakap pasal politik. Termasuk SAYA.

Tapi berapa orang yang jujur dan amanah dalam menjalankan tugas?

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Baby Ramadhan

I always think that whatever good things that you do, somewhere somehow ada ganjarannya nanti.if not here,it will be in the other life. You know syurga / heaven.

At my office ada kakak yang selalu bersihkan office.and I'm quite close to her since every morning she always greet me at the front desk where dia selalu sapu2. Until one day she shared a story telling that her baby is having difficulty to walk. A healthy baby boy.

So last week,the baby underwent a surgery to straighten back his veins and so on.

You know right the medical expenses?I don't have rm1million but I try to share the burden she carries all this while.but I don't know how.

So tadi during lunch hour,I felt so thirsty so I decided to go to the supermarket.it is quite near to my office,just a few block away.and I was thinking (while walking) how can I help her.

Sampai kat supermarket I saw banyak susu baby. I grabbed 3 packs of dutch lady milk stage 2 (6months onwards), 3 pack nestle rice and vegetables, a tab of glucose, and 2 packs of petpet baby diapers.I went up to buy toys for him, tapi takde sebest toysr'us. So tak jadi la.

Although tak banyak yang I could buy to help her,but when I think about how good does it feel when you are in a trouble,ada someone yang nak share, even for a day?it must feel good.damn good.

I hope the baby grows well and jadi a soleh baby boy.

Sebenarnye kan, I ni lemah sebab 3 benda je:
A)baby
B)baby boy
C)baby boy yang gemuk tangan berlipat2 pipi labuh2..eee..

CiOm sedap kan!


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Dinner@10.00pm

Bf was so lovely last night for taking me out for dinner / supper.eventhough the kedai is just near to my house,but the effort of taking me out would always make me realize how much I love him.and of course how much I need him.ehehe..despite how cruel he is when he's in the angry-mode..hahaha!

We went to mali's but hell it was packed!patutla malaysia is one of the country yang ada ramai obesity *cough* yer I pun same. So for once we thought of pindah to old town ke pak li ke but he said the que dah okay so I waited for a few minutes.

And there you go-the infamous nasi lemak and char kuey teow.the food was not great but it was okay.nasi lemak I tak makan although I'm craving for it.and thanks to dear bf yang tak offer langsung nak makan.ha ha ha.

Then he suggested going to uptown. For those who doesn't know what is uptown, it is a place where you can see people selling imitation/rejected items with cheaper price.shoes,handbags,even gears for hiking.mostly uptown's shop open from monday to friday starting at 10pm onwards.

He bought asam (pickling) for me.sedap sangat and I love it so much!thank you dear..and we went home at 1am.

The best part was, I went out by having only my phone and nothing else.no money and no IC.ha ha ha.kena tangkap baru tau kan..

Ps:I love you.
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Science Lab

Today I teach them on the genetic coding.so far I'm quite proud with myself.since I'm not a graduate with a biology background,but thanks to the over confident and main redah attitude,I managed to finish it.

Hahaha..

The student catching up quite fast.and I promised to take them all out for lunch or have a snack together.

Now I give them a 15mins break, and after that we will have a small quiz for the genetic code.

Tell me I'm obses with my work or what,but I love my job.thinking that I had to leave the job for the sake of further my study,sedih oke.

Tapi akak opis cakap selalu end of the year dapat bonus,malah lebih gigih yer saya rasa lebih bersemangat nak kerja.

Sayang, 1 bulan bonus pon ok dah kan?
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Big P@rty!

I have my own mission since early last month.so far it does look good but still the 'other temptation' ada lagi but I have to control. Trust me, when the time comes, I will let the whole world know. No. Bukan kahwin.

So far kerja semakin bagus.I love my job and I love what I'm doing now. And I love the people around me. When you enter an organization, you can see many colours. Kadang2 cantik, kadang2 tak. Tapi I take it as colour yang tak popular yang trying hard to be popular.

Mulai saat ini,upload entry nak buat dari phone terus. Sebab nampak sangat tak utilize semua faedahnya walaupun bayar senak-senak perut gak la.

Next month salary:
1.Handbag pleasee..(Or Pending birthday present?)
2.Wedges
3.Makeup set..(Or pending birthday present?)
4. Makan sedap

*1,3,4 mcm utk bf je*

Maka dengan ini, I have to wait for encik bf dari oversea la..2minggu lagi..alaa..
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Merong

hari ini, encik bf ke ofis. maka waktu berdating dikurangkan kepada separuh hari. kerja banyak sangat agaknya sampai hari ahad pun pergi ofis. so we decided to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa.

out of 10, i give 9.5. out of 5 stars, i give 4.5, and i think this is the first Malaysian movie yang i can rank together with 300,Gladiator and Apocalypto. oh Apocalypto tak boleh, psycho sangat bunuh-bunuh.

in conclusion, i am so damn proud that we (malay) actually have these talented hot gorgeous men to make this such movie yang memang story line bagus, and the way they executed it, memang thumbs up.good job KRU!!sila buat movie berkualiti macam ni lagi dan lagi.

and i just can't help it that most people suka dengan cerita 'hantu kak limah balik kampung". i mean, com'on men, it is not funny at all. despite they had my favo actor Awie, still memang takde ape yang menarik kat cerita tu. i watched them 3 times bila all the cousins played it over and over again, not only i don't like the movie, it is annoying too. especially yang naik wheelchair tu. really la, tak kelakar langsung, annoying, and cheap.and i dont get it why people are so obsessed with it.sorry but seriously i dont like it.

so that's all.thanks dear love for the tickets , popcorn, and dinner.

Hari ni kadang-kadang nak balik cepat,kadang-kadang malas nak balik opis,rasa nak tidor je kat opis.

Tapi selalu yang terperasan sgt,waktu pagi nak bangun mesti malas gila,rasa nak marah je pagi2. Tapi bila sampai opis,paling bersemangat la katenye.

Perasaan yang sama masa sekolah dulu. Best + gelabah!

Sekarang?

















Siaap nak balik la..hahaha!
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Product Review : Himalaya

okay.

i have tried for this product for two weeks, and it does not suit my skin. Product ni buat kulit i kering sangat (tegang), mengelupas, and dehydrate. of course, i suka perasaan muka tegang sebab i rasa bersih, but the part yang muka i mengelupas sangat tak best. a doctor once told me, if any product you pakai causes your skin to break, it mean no good for you. so i stop using it. i gave this to my sister, and she gave me her Bio Essence Aqua Boost.



before this i memang pakai all sets of Bio Essence product and so far they never fail me, tapi agak mahal sikit untuk beli the whole products.

okay.

untuk A-N-P cream nie, memang bagus. tak sangat bagus (since 'sangat' adalah untuk product yang efektif dan murah), tapi efektif. kalau ada pimples yang baru membengkak, and malam sebelum tidur tu you letak A-N-P ni, memang esok muka you takde pimples tu. so cream ni i simpan sendiri dan bergaduh dengan sister sebab dia nak jugak.

i tak pakai mosturizer cream ni but my sister did. dia kata sangat bagus. bagus macam mana tu tak tau la, tapi dia kata bagus.

so itu jela product review dari i. sekarang i tengah berwangi-wangian dengan body spray Victoria Secret my friend belikan masa dia kat New York hari tu. dah dua kali beli VS kat NY tapi dengan dua orang kawan yang berbeza. the first one dia amek untuk but i dont mind sebab cheaper dari sini. and kawan plak tu belikan, dah tentu-tentu original.yang second one lagi murah. yang ni memang harga cost la.

next time dia melawat new york (which she will!), i nak beli Rush plak.daa~

Belum tiba masanya

I am not sopposed to have my holiday today because i need the annual leave for something more important such as honeymoon this year. but since im applying for the teaching permit and it needs (urgently) my medical check up cert, then i have to go. thanks to the HR for not asking for my medical check up on the day i signed my offer letter hence the doing-medical-check-up today.

X-ray, Urine, BP, weight & height, eye-check,etc etc = RM60.00. cheaper than the one i did for university entre.

i went to the damai service hospital. the nurses were all OK and super NICE. the one you can see when you go for private hospital. i can't review the government nurses since i never went (admitted) to the government hospital, but i think everyone would not face any problem if you don't have any major attitude problem, isn't it? but i heard putrajaya's nurses baik-baik. mungkin sebab ramai pegawai kat situ kot jadi baik-baik. politik sungguh.

than pergi dating dengan ayah. went here and there , and we bought something. it cost him RM3k. thank you ayah (and mama). will work things out.

sayang, if you read this, this weekend please come to my house and see what have we bought. you will laugh your-sexy-ass-out but dont under estimate us okay?hikhik.

rasa best sangat tak kerja hari nie. entah kenape. tapi dapat email dari pegawai, cakap after meeting dia tak dapat any actions/materials from us. memang tak boleh la nak update kalau kerja lainnya pending. tapi i think the list of lecturers semua dah ade la kot. but yeah.

lately encik boyfriend sibuk jer. kesian jugak kat dia, penat kot, kadang2 weekend pun datang kerja (dan korbankan masa dating kitorang, WTF) padahal tak dibayar pun. but you know, as long as you like what you are doing, and kita buat kerja seikhlas hati, insyaAllah ada ganjarannya. kalau bukan di dunia, akhirat ada juga. untuk diri sendiri, sejak sebulan lalu kerja tak berapa nak ikhlas, tapi after 'that' incident, hati mula bersih dan tiada lagi amarah. tapi encik boyfriend selalu je kena marah pun tak berapa nak pasti la kenapa.heh.

bulan ni insyaAllah dapat gaji baru *cough* dan duit claim yang separuh dari gaji. bayar duit kereta, balance masuk ASB, bagi ayah and mama sikit, yang lain, arr..simpan jugak.tapi kan, encik boyfriend kata jam dia masuk air. kesian plak dia. jam waterproof tapi masuk air..macam mane?

yang ni cantik kan?

all black. teringat masa mula-mula jatuh cinta dengan dia dulu pun, because dia pakai jam hitam. he looked hot with the black watch on his wrist.

yang ni macam biasa jer. tapi sebab dia modern-looked with a sleek touch, should be okay.tapi i dont like the white thread. fossil so far tak la mahal sangat2 macam Guess and all that. tapi tu la,

tapi yang ni paling cantik. G-shock dah kuar sangat lama. tapi masih in-trend. range price dalam RM250 to RM1000. nak tak nak tak? tapi you nak ke, pergi ofis pakai jam macam nie? i okay jer, you looked smokin hot kot. tapi tak formal sangat la kan. but i loved it.untuk pompuan pun ade...*wink* klau nak, i buy la for you as birthday present. kalau taknak tunggu hantaran je la nanti. hahaha...

casio still my first choice. sebab casio dah lame in market, and dia memang master in analog and digital instruments. cash register, calculator.semua la.hrmm...

the best thing in life is when you can share your joy and happiness with someone you love. and yes, i enjoyed every minute im with him. tak kira la tengah bergaduh ke, tengah bercinta ke, having the thought of him back in my mind, is the greatest feeling ever. love you,and love you still.

Pending Pressie

hello...wahhh...sangat bersawang katenye. whatever!!hikhik...

phewwww...you never know what i've been through this whole month. from a good thing to a very bad thing. for an example, i had my second biggest fight in my entire life. once i had when i was in sarawak, and now during my career life. can you imagine? a second before a disaster we were good friends, and now we don't even hope to see each other faces.

but really i thanked Allah for giving me strength until i can stand by my own.

but but the best thing is, i have him for every second of my life. really..tak pernah sekali pun dia pergi jauh-jauh.okay fine masa gaduh, but we were hardly had a fight, and selalu tak gaduh lama macam dulu-dulu. yer..maybe kami semakin menua maka lebih matang dan tidak pembawakan budak.

today we went to Plaza Low Yat to find a netbook for him as he need it urgently for his work.still i cannot understand why can't he just buy an iPad, it is easier la sayangg...hadoii!(easier for me lepas kahwin nanti..hahaha!) but anyway he got his netbook.

since my birthday present is still pending, i asked him whether can i have an external hardisk for my pressie. sure i can, he said. but....i still want something that is useful than practical?ngaaa....


cantikkkk kann??tadi nak pergi cari tapi dah lambat since hari ni kerja so malas pun yer. tapi kalau nak, baik 1 Tera terus. baru puas hati kannn???


yang ni benda yang nak sangat dia belikan. entah kenapa. running shoes?aihh...having to know him for the past few years, yes he is a practical person. adelah once i awhile he is not, but usually he is. adela tu udang disebalik batu..anyway, klau nak beli yang ni la cantik. black and fuschia is SEXY!


yang ni lagi satu. kemas je and cantik. anyway, pink or better FUSCHIA mesti ada tau!!



tapi kalau dapat yang ni full set memang heaven. tapi kalau dapat blusher, foundation, and compact powder pun dah cukup. since lipstick is not my cup of tea. tapi sekarang keluar version wonderwoman tapi diorang kata tak best. so beli normal all season product la better kan.

haih tak tau la nak pilih ape. tapi pending dulu lah since i've got no time to think and im not in a major situation to use one of those. and i'm in no rush pun. :)

7years and it's about time!yeay!

Trial Version : HIMALAYA

as suggested by a very good friend of mine who is small and cute, i went out at a perfect 6.30pm and rushed to KLCC, just to buy these few things.

seronok pulak beli belah product satu jenama banyak-banyak. ni tak, kalau pergi watson ke, guardian ke, macam-macam product beli.

ok she-my friend, tolong jangan buat i gila dengan produk-produk Himalaya nie. Selain menelan kos yang tinggi untuk kita bergaji rendah, tapi produk review yang sangat bagus dari kamu, jadi saya telah memperhambakan diri beli mereka nie. T_T
setakat ni belum ade official results from me.

hopefully there wil be a change or maybe perhaps a minor change after using these products. truly said, i have a skin problem since school time. back then i was an athlete, a district archer to be precised, so due to a lot of sweating, exposing to the hot sun and dirt, using a different kind of acne product, so muka banyak scar and jerawat.

but after graduating, the problem becomes less. cuma kadang-kadang tak remove makeup ada la dua tiga tumbuh segar. bak kata she, kalau scar tu dah 5 tahun, buh banyak-banyak cream pun takkan hilang. sedih sebab tak kenal she masa sekolah-sekolah dulu.kan?

habes product or in between times, nanti kita update ada change ke tak!=)

ps: she, thanks sangat2!kalau serius bagus, i OWE you big time!=)

They way i want you is not the same way as You want me.

have you ever feel like, all this while you had been telling the same damn thing over and over again until the day that you finally assumed that the person would had at least understand the whole thing, but in the end the person is (still) doing the same thing, over and over again?

is it what we called miscommunication, or plain stupid?

*****

it's been two weeks straight, i did not get my saturday and sunday off (i work from monday until friday) due to the workload. it is not about someone paksa me to go to work, it came from a thing called, responsibility. and of course OT claiming. what else?so of course im off to work esok.

i just went back from a friend's wedding at negeri sembilan. okay my friend sangat la cantik with the purple dress and the makeup-fulamak i tell you!hikhik...it was fun watching people getting married. you know why?because we know that guy HAVE already decided to take her as a wife and to live forever with her. isn't sweet? agaknya kalau i la kahwin, mau berhari-hari menangis sebab i know (at last) there's somebody actually in love with me. and i just want to thank him like everyday for everything.

haihh...sebak plak. takpela.

*****

pernah tak ada kawan yang janji nak belikan you something tapi sebab you taknak jumpa orang tu atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat nak elakkan, tiba-tiba dia cakap nak bagi kat orang lain benda tu? same macam mula-mula dia nak ajak kau pergi tengok wayang, tiba-tiba kau tak boleh nak pergi, dia ajak orang lain? atau sebenarnya dia memang HARAP kau jangan jumpa dia sebab dia MEMANG nak bagi benda tu kat orang lain dan of course nak tengok wayang dengan orang lain.

sebab kalau i la kena macam tu, memang hancur luluh la hati jantung ni. memangis berhari-hari la kiranya. mood out and feel so damn USELESS. tapi......at least i know, im not that SPECIAL anyway in that person's life. kan?

kadang-kadang hidup berkawan nie, kita boleh tau la samada dia memang nak kawan kita, atau kawan masa memerlukan je. boleh fikir sendiri dah kot.

*senyum sinis*

Lebih Penting dari Yang Sedia Ada

semalam pukul 3.30pagi baru sampai rumah. nasib ayahanda sangat baik hati nak amik kat ofis. masa tu banyak teksi dengan drag queen je kat bawah ofis. seram. nak sangat jumpa gay yang hensem, tapi takde pulak. dah penat-penat jumpa lelaki hensem walapun gay sejuk jugak hati.kedai-kedai kat bawah ofis dah macam kedai-kedai zaman koboi. deserted dengan kertas terbang-terbang. back to the story, ingatkan kerja pensyarah ni senang jer, rupanya lebih teruk. at one point, sebenarnya dah boleh sedar nak kaya takde jalan yang senang, semua susah.

cerita pasal kaya, rupanya susah nak cari duit ni eh?ingatkan senang. sebab dulu masa zaman tak kerja lagi, mintak mama dengan ayah duit macam mintak air masak kat dapur je." yah, takde duit la. bank in kan enam ratus bole?". itupun SMS je. gila kurang ajar. dahla orang tua tu penat-penat cari duit, kita mintak untuk personal use je plak tu. oh, kan duit beli buku, stationary, flight kapal terbang tak masuk dalam pocket money. sekarang, duit sendiri pun by the end of the month tersekat-sekat.

betul orang cakap. lagi tinggi gaji, lagi banyak expenses. tapi kalau gaji rendah, keinginan lagi lebih dari orang yang gaji tinggi. tak boleh jugak.

banyak benda-benda yang dulu pandang sebelah mata jer dah pandang guna dua mata. dan dah stop pun. kalau it keeps on going, alamatnya, duit habis macam tu jer. lepas tu alhamdulilah i dah tukar from Maxis Prepaid to Digi Postpaid. lebih 100% perubahan expenses tu.so far so good. and so far lebih murah. seriously.

next gaji banyak nak settle. and nak ketepikan. walaupun gaji naik, setelah tolak semua agak paras hidung la. dulu masa zaman sekolah selamba badak pergi makan TGIF, apsal sekarang macam tak boleh nie?pelik sangat ni. dulu duit dapat rasanya tak sampai separuh gaji tapi hidup jer, sekarang? hidup jugak tapi macam zombie sikit. sikitlah.

kita manusia ni, kalau nak cakap tu, jagalah hati orang sekeliling sikit. jangan main cakap jer. im not sure tapi kalau kita kecikkan hati orang, berdosa tak?tak tahulah. tapi yang i tau kalau menyakitkan hati manusia lain kira aniaya maka berdosa?takpe, nanti kita rujuk ustaz sikit. so, kalau nak update status ke ape ke, kira dulu perasaan orang yang membaca. somewhere somehow orang tu kecik hati jugak.

hari ni halfday kerja. seronok betul. buat-buat lemah je kat ofis, boss kasi balik. memang la kasi, sebab lepas ni dia hempuk kerja yang sama jugak. esok nak kena mengajar chemistry. esok lagi biology. tiba-tiba sekarang lebih semangat biology dari chemistry. gila murtad. tapi seronok bila ada foreigners student yang mula-mula macam sombong tiba-tiba jadi baik dan semangat. rasa macam nak kasi A je.

anyway, i ingat dah takde lagi cabaran-cabaran dan dugaan yang akan ditempuh setelah berhempas pulas tahun-tahun yang sebelumnya. rupanya ada lagi. maybe or just maybe im not ought to be the one?

*crying*

ps: rasa macam nak pergi UK sekarang jugak. sekarang la.

Apart of me still

*taknak buat initial. mcm ape je*

kerja sangat berlambak katanye. esok lebih kurang macam kena tidur ofis. nasib baik ofis agak selesa untuk ditidur. so sepanjang minggu lepas balik almost dalam 9pm to 10 pm. then sabtu ahad juga kerja. sepanjang minggu depan juga lebih kurang hari-hari balik waktu yang sama. tapi sabtu ahad mungkin tak datang since ada wedding kawan penting untuk attend. lepas tu rehat sebulan. rehat sebulan tu kiranya boleh balik 6.30pm macam biasa. lepas tu sila pecahkan kepala sendiri.

oh, office issue dah raise makin tinggi hingga ke managing director. susah susah susah. and i sakit kepala fikir semua benda. diluah mati mak, ditelan mati bapak. i was hoping to see my psychologist, sapa lagi orang yang cerdik pandai, encik bf. but he was too busy doing nothing and taknak jumpa i. gila sedih. sedih sangat. sedih sampai nangis-nangis. so from now on taknak tegur dia sampai bila-bila and i dont care. dont even think to find me. period.

oh, salah satu dari azam tahun 2011 dah bermula. jeng jeng jeng. tapi macam tipu-tipu je. eee....so still teruskan juga azam itu. insyaAllah!

my abg sula beli itu kereta putih manyak santek. and sangat jeles. i think i want to sell my Tatum and buy that gorgeous car. tapikan, bontot dia panjang so macam tak payah jela. Tatum pun dah cukup besar dan comel untuk i.

so sekarang nak pack baju, nak masuk dalam beg, esok boleh tidur ofis dah.btw, perlu bawak teddy bebear ke??winduuu!

Extreme Experience

eh hello blog, how are you?

Broga,13Feb2011.i thought i can make it to the top, tapi lagi 500m baru nak sampai puncak.bukan taknak naik, tapi encik bf cakap, top bukit broga tu sempit and seriously, gila ramai orang. so i tak nak pegi and kitorang just lepak kat second pit tengok sunrise pagi-pagi yang hening tu.

it was damn sweet and i really had an intimate moment dengan encik bf masa tengok sunrise. we just sat there, dengan angin yang sejuk,and looking for matahari.in our own world, saya cuma ada dia,berdua di situ. bising dengan orang ramai tapi senyap dan damai. we hardly talk, but we both know we don't have to speak to deliver the love messages.

segala persediaan buat malam sebelum panjat broga.i only managed to get the basic things. encik bf malam tu dah msg nak bawak apa. it was so nice of him telling me to bawak raincoat and everything.

sampai kaki bukit broga ,tiba-tiba dia keluarkan headlight yang dia beli a day before for me. seriously it was damn sweet. headlight okay.i tak terfikir dia akan se-concern itu untuk belikan headlight sedangkan malam tu dia dah suruh bawak torchlight. rasa terharu sangat masa amik headlight tu dari tangan dia. mungkin dia tak tau pun kenapa i macam senyap masa start hiking. sebak kot.

all the way up he was with me all the time. tak pernah sekalipun dia tinggalkan i and like every second dia akan tanya wether i was okay and do i need a break.halfway through, second pitstop i muntah.he took off my sweater and put it in my bag. he took out hersheys choc and asked me to eat some sebab perut kosong tak breakfast dah gatal panjat broga.teruskan lagi jalan, then i stop (masa ni memang tak tahan). muntah lagi sekali. masa ni stop agak lama. four of our friends dah gerak dulu after i asked them to do so.tapi diorang supportive enough and tak pernah putus asa bagi semangat suh i panjat. but i was too slow.

i actually expecting yang encik bf akan cakap, "tula gatal sangat nak naik broga kan dah muntah2.." or "sebab tu saya taknak awak ikut saya dulu..". but he is not even near to that.he cheered for me, tak pernah push me to go faster. untuk setiap tanah yang i pijak, dia akan cakap, "b nampak batu besar atas tu?kat situ kita stop..u can do it sayang..". and yes of course i panjat, and stop kat situ.

mungkin mereka yang lalu sebelah kitorang macam "eleh..gedik gila..". up to you, but i really need that. the supports. and getting support from him is like getting a new invented magical pill to boost up me.it was hard for me. years of a bad lifestyle really took a toll on me. but he was there. dia ada kat sebelah i,giving support.tak pernah herdik, sikit pun dia tak buat i rasa i membebankan dia which i yang rasa i membebankan dia. sampai kat second highest top, we stopped. and yes, i muntah lagi, and pening-pening dah masa ni.


kitorang cari spot untuk duduk, and said a few words. we can see clearer the top of the broga. angin yang sejuk buat i rasa lebih tenang. i ingat dari mula sampai la akhir puncak broga, the way he treated me.i felt so protected bila ada dia.

and naik broga bukan hanya untuk suka-suka, it was a learning process. dia, dalam keadaan yang macam nie, i tau somehow he was born to be a leader. his friends said the same thing too.he knows how to give directions and sort out things. dia boleh jaga i dalam pada masa yang sangat genting. seorang yang sabar dan dia bukan seorang yang suka memperlekehkan orang.

bagi dia, i seorang yang tak cepat mengalah. and yes, i bukanlah sekuat mana dan segarang yang dia sangka. perempuan, memang lemah. i admit that.

kekasih, thanks for giving me the chance to proved who i really am, and thanks untuk semua benda yang you buat untuk i sepanjang hari itu dan selama ini. headlight?damn i never see it coming from you. and yes, i really want to spend the rest of my life with you. insyaAllah.


ps:im having like mad fun dengan the other four friends...i love them!!

faulty

Eh holla blog!how are you?

While I'm composing this entry, I'm in the train heading to terminal putra.now the time shows 8.45pm.I decided to balik lambat today. Anyway when I was in the office, I went through the fb just to checkout any updates or any news, you know.just an ordinary checkout.

Sekali I nampak an update from a very good friend.although dia tak cakap pasal I, still I'm feeling a bit uneasy with the situation.I felt so damn guilty.even until now.

You know, when you are too excited about something,the thing can turn upside down in a split of second if Allah wills it.sebab tu orang cakap tiap satu tu jangan suka sangat,nanti menangis.I feel like crying,and my collegues pun realize it. Tapi I tahan je.

Lepas tu ada suara-suara busuk hati cakap,"tu la..kan aku dah cakap..". Really, siapa yang cakap camni pada orang yang ditimpa kesusahan, memang la busuk hati orang tu.sama ada dia dengki dengan u, atau dia tengah suka sebab u ditimpa kesusahan.

Kita tau ke bila kita akan ditimpa kesusahan?kita tau ke bila decision kita tu adalah salah?kenapa nak kena cakap macam tu?I just don't understand kenapa manusia ni suka lihat kejatuhan orang rather than HELPING them?

I feel so sad.I really am.I just want to say I'm sorry.

faulty

Eh holla blog!how are you?

While I'm composing this entry, I'm in the train heading to terminal putra.now the time shows 8.45pm.I decided to balik lambat today. Anyway when I was in the office, I went through the fb just to checkout any updates or any news, you know.just an ordinary checkout.

Sekali I nampak an update from a very good friend.although dia tak cakap pasal I, still I'm feeling a bit uneasy with the situation.I felt so damn guilty.even until now.

You know, when you are too excited about something,the thing can turn upside down in a split of second if Allah wills it.sebab tu orang cakap tiap satu tu jangan suka sangat,nanti menangis.I feel like crying,and my collegues pun realize it. Tapi I tahan je.

Lepas tu ada suara-suara busuk hati cakap,"tu la..kan aku dah cakap..". Really, siapa yang cakap camni pada orang yang ditimpa kesusahan, memang la busuk hati orang tu.sama ada dia dengki dengan u, atau dia tengah suka sebab u ditimpa kesusahan.

Kita tau ke bila kita akan ditimpa kesusahan?kita tau ke bila decision kita tu adalah salah?kenapa nak kena cakap macam tu?I just don't understand kenapa manusia ni suka lihat kejatuhan orang rather than HELPING them?

I feel so sad.I really am.I just want to say I'm sorry.

Cara-cara menulis surat untuk kekasih?

eh, holla blog!how are you?

hrmm..

semua orang mencari cinta sejati. semua orang. tapi cinta sejati hanya daripada Tuhan kepada hambaNya. itu cinta hakiki. ok ingat tu. tapi untuk hidup di dunia yang biasa-biasa, to have that special someone that you loved so much, that you really want to cuddle and be by his/her side like 24/7 would be GREAT. and mengetahui yang orang itu pun cintakan kita se-infiniti kita cintakan dia, adalah DOUBLE GREAT!

entri kali ini hanya entri biasa-biasa. lebih kepada betapa terima kasihnya saya kepada Tuhan yang Pemurah kerana meminjamkan saya seorang daripada hambaNya untuk mencintai saya, dan peluang untuk saya mencintai dia. Tuhan bagi cinta kami itu lama, 7 tahun kalau dikira dari tarikh rasminya. dan cinta itu tetap utuh dan teguh selama mana kami 'mahukannya'. iya, terima kasih Allah di atas segala-galanya.

tiada sekuntum bunga, tiada makan di hotel bertaraf dunia, mahupun belaian manja. hanya seperti hari-hari lain kami keluar bersama. ke Soho untuk urusan, dan berhenti makan di Ikea, kerana hanya itu yang kami boleh fikirkan sebab perut sangat lapar dan tekak haus menggila.tapi despite all that, ape je yang saya buat kalau ada dia, semua rasa seronok. like seronok sangat.

you can say, "ohh..org bercinta memang camtu..". so it was a positive thing kan? kalau bercinta semua seronok. so tak best, kalau bukan bercinta? bad thing?you know better.

siapa kata cinta 7tahun itu tenang selamanya? in between kadang-kadang ada banjir kilat, kadang-kadang tsunami. tapi belum kiamat, kerana bila kiamat, cinta kami pun habis juga.so anyway, ada masa-masa both of us lupa diri, lupa yang di suatu sudut itu, ada cinta yang menunggu. tetap setia menunggu.walau ape pun. it is great untuk ada someone yang betul-betul setia, kan?

so, dear encik kekasih;

1. terima kasih kerana memberi peluang kepada both of us 7 tahun yang lalu untuk kenal each other.
2. terima kasih kerana masih memilih saya walaupun banyak sangat-sangat dugaan yang kita kena tempuh selama nie.
3. saya tau kadang-kadang saya mencabar kesabaran dan juga ego awak just to make you mad even more. tapi trust me, i love you more than these words can say.
4. im not your super great perfect girlfriend, tapi hanya awak je tahu how great i can be. betapa saya suka puji-pujian yang awak bagi whether awak ikhlas ke tak, but still im loving it.
5. 7 tahun belum cukup untuk saya meluahkan rasa cinta saya kat awak.
6. dan 7 tahun belum cukup untuk awak bagi saya cinta awak tu.
7. terima kasih untuk semua food yang sedap-sedap dan mahal itu. saya akan ingat setiap kata-kata awak sebelum kita makan, "syg, beruntungnya kita dapat makan sedap-sedap macam ni..". saya tau awak ni softhearted dan pemurah. saya tau.
8. terima kasih untuk hadiah yang saya sendiri tidak mampu untuk membelinya. saya suka, dan sayang untuk guna, dan saya nak lagi untuk hari-hari yang akan datang..haha..
9. terima kasih kerana bersabar dengan saya bila saya mengamuk dan emo out of nowhere, bila saya tuduh awak macam-macam, bila saya totally ignored you bila marah sangat, dan bila saya jadi your-not-perfect-gf at all.

tapi saya takkan lupa bila;

1. saya had a fight dengan one of my gf masa kat sarawak tu sebab diorang fitnah saya, saya call awak in the middle of your class masa kat terengganu dulu padahal masa tu kita tengah gaduh,you picked up the call and calmed me down. saya menangis bagai nak gila thinking macam mana nak present projek, but you were there sayang, sampai saya stop menangis. give me strength and support when IN NEED.
2. awak sebenarnya masih dengan saya selama satu jam yang awak decide nak balik. masa tu kat KLCC. i argued with you about the time. pukul 6 awak balik. i cried sebab i rasa you are not a good bf for me, without knowing sampai pukul 7.30pm awak masih di situ, kat belakang saya, following me wherever i go.takut kalau jadi apa-apa kat saya sebab awak dah balik (konon). macam mana tau? you hold my hand all of sudden sampai saya naik train without saying anything.
3. awak tiba-tiba datang KLIA pukul 3 pagi untuk hantar saya ke sarawak. padahal sebelum tu kita gaduh pasal benda bodoh yang awak buat. saya rasa nak peluk dan ciom awak je, tapi apakan daya keluarga semua ada kat situ. tapi serius macam cerita ada apa dengan cinta. yer, cinta kita sayang.

banyak lagi yang awak buat kat saya. banyak betul kenangan cinta kita. saya ingat, satu-satu semua yang kita lalui. tapi betul, saya bersyukur sangat sebab kenal dengan awak. kita kenal ikhlas dari dulu lagi. bukan sebab harta maupun darjat. kita bodoh-bodoh jer, baru nak 'up' katenya. kan?

so anyway, banyak lagi yang saya nak belajar pasal awak, sebab kita akan continue untuk Chapter 2 Love Story kita soon. very soon. i can't wait, and kita dah plan macam-macam dan doa semoga semua dipermudahkan Allah Esa.

dear encik kekasih, selamat ulang tahun percintaan kita yang ke 7 tahun. saya tetap dan masih cintakan awak seperti selalunya, makin bertambah. saya doakan kita sentiasa menjadi diri kita, dan love each other until the end of time. terima kasih untuk segalanya. halalkan segala makan minum saya, dan saya harap semuanya akan baik-baik untuk kita dua.

i love you sayang, i truly am..

The One who Loves You,

Your Girlfriend

one gone, who's next?

My friend nak berhenti kerja. Apart of dapat better offer, ada sebab lain die berhenti. Cube fikir klau your boss baik gila, staff takkan pergi macam tu je kan. As for me, I really need to stay strong to keep it together.kate nak cari pengalaman kan?

Tp I'm thinking wether keje berlambak tu sapela yang nak buat? Kalau die campak kat I, memang siapla.memang la I ni rajin, tapi agak-agakla kalau semua I yang kena buat.balik ni nak jumpa encik kekasih nak tanye pendapat dia yang bernas.

Oh, arini anniversary kami yang ke 7tahun. Jadi nak hadiah best-best tau syg!!