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Monday, March 11, 2013

Drama Queen (sangat!)

you know, orang cakap the first trimester is the, what we said, the vulnerable time for both mama and baby. i mean macam untuk baby, kena jaga diri, tak boleh lasak-lasak sebab baby tak kuat lagi etc. and during that time too, mama dia akan jadi a lil bit of drama queen, sikit-sikit emosi, tak dapat makan pun emosi, dah kalau bergaduh dengan encik suami lagi la terlebih emosi.

right?

yeah riteeee.....sebab puan wife ni, dah masuk 3rd trimester baru nak gedik-gedik ada symptom pregnancy ni dah kenapa? err....i guess different people have different  kind of stories about their pregnancy, kan?

bukan apa, mula-mula i terperasan sangat yang hati i lembut bak sutera dan sehalus cotton candy when i asked my big brother untuk belikan limau ais kat kedai mamak. masa tu panas walaupun dah pukul 9pm. he went for his gym session so i watsapp him to buy me limau ais since dia tengah lepak kat situ pun. sekali dia balik tu, bukan takat limau ais takde, 100+ or everything else pun takde (selalu je dia balik tangan berisi). masa tu mata i dah berair-air menahan rasa sedih macam takde orang sayang kita, macam takde orang kisah pun ibu nandong kehausan. memang sedih sangat. terus mood i jatuh menjunam and terus ajak abang i balik rumah, masa tu kat rumah my aunty.

tu one story.

another story, i tengah baring-baring tengok movie kat astro. cerita tu tak sedih pun, in fact, it was a funny movie cuma adalah satu scene tu macam sweet-sweet. sweet tau, bukan sedih. sekali tetiba meleleh-leleh air mata i. luckily mama and ayah were not there. kalau tak malu je. and i let my tears stream down my face while bbm encik husband mintak perhatian. nasib dia ada melayan. if not memang gaduh sebulan la. and luckily he didn't notice any changes kat kita. maybe dia ada rasa pelik kenapa wife dia a bit strange that day (mintak perhatian lebih), but i guess he used to that.

then recently i had a fight dengan encik husband. well, kan i dah cakap kalau seminggu berjauhan, lama tak jumpa, sibuk and all that, memang possibility untuk gaduh tu sangat tinggi. entah kenapa pun i tak tau. but u tell me. kalau dekat (duduk serumah) pun gaduh, apatah lagi jauh pun gaduh, means kitorang ni camne ni nak handle? haa...tak faham kan? encik husband cakap apa entah, hati i sentap sangat. bergetar2 bibir i tahan nangis, tapi nangis la jua. berjurai-jurai.

ni kat opis ni pun tadi dia bbm ape ntah, berjurai-jurai air mata i. sedih gila..padahal kalau ikot logik bukan apa sangat pun. tapi entahlah, sayu sangat rasa kat hati.

encik husband insist nak baik-baik dengan i, but the things he said just hurt me so much. sebenanrnya takde la hurt so much, tapi i rasa hurt sangat (apakah?). tapi dah baik dah, sebab i tengok barang-barang baby online tadi pastu excited nak cantik-cantikan bilik baby dengan beliau, pastu okay la jadiknya. lagipun encik husband dah pujuk dari malam semalam tapi i buat dek je sebab sedih. menyampah gila kat diri sendiri.

Him : "i miss my wife..... =("
Me : " kite tengah tengok barang baby la...*hugs*"

Him : "garang. taknak la gaduh lagi..."
Me : "nanti balik kite gi shopping k??" ( dah tak ingat pasal gaduh sebab shopping mode on)
Him : "*hugs*

hahahaha...how easy it was. kalau lah encik husband tahu i hanya boleh dipujuk dengan makanan sedap dan session membeli belah, mesti dia orang paling bahagia sangat. bahagia tak bahagia la, kopak wallet kalau tiap minggu wife merajuk.

inilah masalah i sekarang. hati rapuh sangat. and i rasa this week dah dua kali i muntah. sedangkan masa first trimester tu boleh kira la berapa kali i muntah. 3 kali kot sepanjang pregnancy ni. alhamdulilah sangat kan? tapi i think i over ate. perot dah besar sebab baby dah occupied the space, perut jadi kecik, tapi makan macam perut lembu, ada 4. memang terbelahak la keluar.

so itulah cerita drama queen kita. entah lepas ni ape lagi la akan terjadi kat i and encik husband?hahaha....*evil laugh*

anyway, weekend ni dah tau nak masak apa since encik husband balik! oh yeah.... maybe sweet sour fish and some mix vege. dapnyerr....teringin sangat!=)


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